The rain is not hurried or slow, and the boundless rain is like a woven, falling slowly. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 infoThe water on the eaves seems to have been raised, and the water on the ground has already exceeded six or seven inches.

It's been raining for too long.

However, until this time, the rain has continued unabated, and it seems that it is far from enough.

This makes people have to ask, when will this rain stop?

Even in Jinling, the winter is extremely cold, not to mention that it has been raining recently.

The rain on a winter night always seems to have a bit of a sense of desolation, so people are always inexplicably sad on rainy nights.

The cold wind mixed with the rain slapped heavily on the window, and people's hearts gradually set off waves, and for a while, it was difficult to calm down.

Before the rain had stopped, a strong wind suddenly blew again. The whimpering wind wept mournfully, as if it were a resentful woman, telling her bleak story alone in a cold night when no one was around.

After a long night, listening to the cold wind blowing outside the house, the lonely man could no longer sleep. Thousands of thoughts seemed to come to my heart at this moment.

It's supposed to be snowing at this time.

Snow is the main theme of winter, but it is raining at this time.

It's just that although it's raining outside, even this rain seems to be a little colder than the snow.

Recently, Yang Xiaofeng's mood is simply terrible. I don't know if it's because of the rain, he feels like his heart is about to be cold.

It's as if it should be snowing at this moment, and at this moment, the person who is with him should also be Luo Qingxue, but ......

Thinking of this, he could only smile bitterly.

Fortunately, the rain, which had been raining for several days, finally seemed to be going to stop today.

This rain has been raining for so long that it has given people the illusion that the sky will never clear again.

However, just when people thought that the rain would continue, the rain quietly decreased a lot, and after a while, the heavy rain gradually stopped.

At this time, it was already dusk outside.

Jinling City.

The deepest part of the building is in the courtyard.

Yang Xiaofeng was looking up at the gray-white clouds in the sky, and he felt inexplicable in his heart for a while.

At this moment, he was the only one in this huge courtyard.

Luo Tuo's figure has a little bit of loneliness and melancholy. He just stood there like that, standing there quietly, for a long time, without moving, as if he had settled down.

The rain is sad, and the lonely person after the rain is even more sad.

Yang Xiaofeng had been standing for too long today, and when the rain did not stop, he was already standing under the porch, and then he walked into the courtyard again.

In fact, not only today, but in the last few days, the only thing he has done is to stand quietly in a daze.

Occasionally, Lin Yuhan would come to talk to him for a while, but she was also interesting, and considering his recent mood, she naturally didn't talk much.

Maybe it's because Yang Xiaofeng has something on her mind, Lin Yuhan doesn't talk too much, basically every time she chats casually, she walks away.

So, since Yang Xiaofeng lived in Xiangwang Building, he rarely spoke to Lin Yuhan.

I don't know how many times he has stood here like this, but I remember that in recent days, his most common state is like this, standing here quietly looking at the sky in a daze.

There was silence in the courtyard, as if he was the only one, but in fact, he was the only one here.

Although this courtyard is in the most lively and prosperous Xiangwang building in Jinling City, because it is a single house, it seems that no one else has come here except for Lin Yuhan himself and some handymen who come to clean up the environment from time to time.

In fact, Yang Xiaofeng didn't know that this courtyard was originally Lin Yuhan's boudoir, and without permission, outsiders naturally did not dare to enter it easily.

That's why no one noticed him the last time he left here. Of course, the most important thing is because he doesn't want others to find out and then alarm Lin Yuhan. That time he left quietly, so to speak.

However, what somewhat surprised him and was not at all surprised was that Lin Yuhan found him back again.

Therefore, this time he did not leave again. Or rather, he didn't know where he could go except to stay here. So, it's not so much that he hasn't left yet, it's that he hasn't found where he's going.

Once upon a time, Luo Qingxue was his direction, but what about ...... now?

Now, she is no longer his direction.

Now he has completely lost his way.

I don't know where he will go in the future?

Once, he lived to protect Ah Xue and Xiaoxi. He wants to try to protect the two most important women in his life, not to hurt them in the slightest, not to let them live too hard.

Protecting them is the meaning of his life in this life.

But now?

Now, he doesn't know what he lives for. He never thought of chasing fame and fortune, he just wanted to quietly guard his relatives and live an ordinary life with them.

But now?

Now, what qualifications does he have to say guardianship again?

Without this qualification, what should he live for?

What else can he live for?

Now, what's the point of his life?

Now, he can no longer find the value of his life.

Now, all the people he was going to protect are gone, and now his people are in the Forgotten Building.

However, when you think about it, it's actually good here, at least there is a woman by his side, and a woman who loves him deeply and treats him sincerely. The most important thing is that there are no outsiders to disturb this place.

There were no outsiders to disturb him, and he was at ease. Perhaps, for Yang Xiaofeng at this time, the most important and indispensable thing is purity.

Because he needs to slowly calm his heart that has long been broken into countless pieces in this absolutely pure environment. It must also be in this absolutely pure environment that the wounds in his heart can be healed.

And here, that's the place to be.

But is that really what he wants?

But one thing is undeniable, it is precisely because of the pure and comfortable external environment he is in at the moment, slowly, he feels that his heart seems to have gradually calmed down.

Although the tearing pain in his heart was still so clear, it gradually became numb with time. At least, he was already able to control his emotions.

Perhaps, even Yang Xiaofeng himself didn't find that some feelings were really not as strong as they were at the beginning.

No, he hid his pain again.

If a person's heart could be taken out and looked at, his heart must have been full of holes.

Sometimes, even Yang Xiaofeng himself can't figure out why he can hold so many things in his heart.

He really didn't know how to define Luo Qingxue now in his heart.

Is it the beloved wife, or the daughter of the enemy?

Should he love or hate her?

Needless to say, he loved her.

She is all he has, she is the last warmth of his life. So, he loves her completely beyond loving himself.

But at the same time, he hated her even more.

His hatred for her was no less than his love for her.

Every time he thought of the scene when she stood in front of his sword and prevented him from avenging his sister, his heart began to bleed.

She and herself have officially visited the church and become married, she is already his rightful wife, but she prevents herself from letting him avenge his sister.

As long as he thought of the situation when she stopped him, he immediately felt a strong anger and hatred in his heart, a hatred that went deep into the bone marrow.

He hated her.

How much I loved her once and hate her now.

Now, the love for her has completely turned into hatred for her.

At the same time, he hated himself even more, he hated his weakness.

Why, his sword couldn't be pierced, why didn't he have the courage to avenge his sister.

Now, his love for his sister has completely turned into his hatred for himself.

Before, there was only love in his heart, but now, there is only hate in his heart.

I once loved as much as I hated now.

The deepest love and the deepest hatred, the two strongest emotions in the world have achieved a perfect blend in his heart.

Of course, the result of this situation is that he is completely complete all the time, and at the same time directly in a state that is close to madness.

Although life is hard, people should still be happier in this world. Happiness is not the driving force of a person's life.

But there is no doubt that for Yang Xiaofeng at this moment, being alive has become a kind of torment. He no longer seems to see any hope in his life.

Even if...... Even a little bit of joy seemed to have nothing to do with him at all.

In this life, he is destined to be nothing but pain and suffering.

But he was still alive, in despair. At this moment, despair has become the whole of his life.

However, he didn't seem to notice that as time went on, the wound in his heart seemed to stop bleeding and even ...... It's even slowly scabbing over.

Could it be that one day in the future, the wounds in his heart will begin to heal slowly, and finally be gradually healed by time?

However, will all the injuries be diluted by time and then healed?

He didn't know the answer to that question, and no one in this world would know.

Or is there an answer to this question?