96. Life is bitter and long, and you simply know it!
The phrase "life is too short" is indeed very ambiguous for those who know a little!
Because if life is hard, I'm afraid no one will feel that it is short.
Of course, there is no need to be pretentious and take it out of context. It's just that life does present a difficult and long road many times!
Life is always colorful, that's right!
It is hardly said that the supremacy of food and clothing for the common people is not boring, but the magnificence is only the passing scenery of a long journey of life! Of course, it is not too much to pursue one result, let alone extravagant hopes, but absolute imposing ropes often put each other in a desperate situation!
Realistically speaking, the vast majority of people living in the world don't have to dream that their dreams can come true, because we don't have the qualifications to improve!
Geniuses, heroes, tearing off the label will not really be ordinary people.
Although fatalism is not worthy of admiration, there is not necessarily only one Zhuge Liang or one Li Bai in this world!
In the vast sea of people, there are countless positions to sit down into, and no one can say which one is more suitable for them, but it is true that not most people can find the most ideal position for themselves!
However, the sea of suffering is boundless, since there is no way to turn back, it is better to live a short life patiently!
Listening to Banqin helplessly tell about his experience, Luo Hao only felt very uncomfortable in his heart, but he couldn't think of anything to comfort him!
"Hey, you're still young, and you don't have to die so early. I've been trying to study Kenshin's blood sample, and I'm sure God will bless the good guys!"
Bitter laughter, Banqin will not feel like this at all!
The door opened, Luo Siru came in with a bowl of hot porridge, and looked at Banqin, both of them subconsciously avoided each other's gaze!
Luo Hao was happy and sad when he saw it, and sighed secretly: "You talk first, and then I'll check the medical books......"
When the old man went out, Luo Siru sat back in the place where his father had sat before: "I just boiled a bowl of porridge for you, your body is too weak, you should eat something light!"
"Thank you!"
Taking the bowl with both hands, Banqin can feel the strong affection in it, but there is only bitterness in his heart!
After drinking it, Banqin's heart was still full of sorrow, but he didn't know what to say!
Luo Siru was very generous, and smiled slightly: "Actually, you don't have to have any pressure at all, since the first day, I have never expected anything." And at that time, it was just a matter of urgency, you can do so much for the people of the world, I ...... , and it's just doing their part!"
"I'm sorry!"
With a wry smile, Luo Siru shook her head helplessly: "Do you know? Although you are extremely smart and have martial arts, you don't know women at all! For a woman who loves you deeply, the most hurtful words for her are not to get out, but to thank you, and to be sorry! But after a while, you told me everything." ”
With a wry smile, Banqin had nothing but sorrow in his heart: "But what can I say? Now, I really don't know anything." Everything is going in the direction I least want it to, and even if I risk this life, I'm afraid I won't be able to save anything!"
"But what do you want to do? Save the world, save the people, uphold justice, are these really the ...... you care about?"
For a long time, Banqin slowly looked up at the person in front of him who made him haunted by his dreams, but he never dared to care!
"There was a time when I was very suspicious of everything I had done! At that time, Master said that my heart had been stolen and asked me to find it myself. Then I thought I had found it, but it was just self-defeating. Because I knew it from the beginning, but I didn't know what I had to do and what I could do. I knew that I was at least not a normal person, and that I would never get the happiness that others could enjoy, so I even longed to die for a while. But then your father saved me, but that made me even more sad, because I had to continue to give everything for a world that would not give me anything! But when I had to face what I had been deliberately avoiding, I didn't have the courage to admit it, but I didn't even have the courage to defy death......"
Gently placing her hand on the back of his hand, Luo Siru asked softly, "What kind of courage do you need?"
"At least, even if it's just a reason!"
"Actually, you never need a reason, because everyone who wants you to do something will definitely give you a high-sounding reason. But that's not what you're willing to accept, so you can only feel pain all the time!"
"But when I faced myself and knew what I wanted....... I felt terrified!"
Smiling slightly, Luo Siru nodded: "I know, because I'm the same as you!" But I can't lie to myself, when I can't see you, I'm so scared! I'm afraid that I'll never see you again, I can't imagine how I can live in that kind of world! Until Yin Yaoji came to me and said that she was going to sacrifice herself for you! At that time, I refused to agree, but in the end she convinced me. At the same time, I finally understood what I had to do. Banqin, I don't want to be a burden to you, so if you drive me away on the mountain that day, I'll leave. But if you really care about me, then our common future is the best reason for you to face everything!"
Gazing deeply at the woman in front of him who he had never thought would be so strong, Banqin's heart turned over like a river and a sea!
"It's ridiculous! I've always been conceited and smart, but now I realize that I've always been so stupid! I thought that as long as you can live well, I can not care about anything! However, I didn't expect that you are far stronger and braver than me!"
"That's because I know very well that I can't live without you......"
Gently holding her in his arms, Banqin's heart felt an unprecedented tranquility and serenity!
"I'm sorry Siru, it's all because I'm too selfish, that's why I've made you sad alone for so long!But now I've figured it out, I want to defeat all enemies, not for the world, not for the common people, not for justice, just for our own future, I will definitely do my best to do everything and try to live!"
Luo Siru felt a kind of joy that her dream had come true, and buried her head deep in the arms of the person who had already decided to live and die together. At this moment, both of them were full of sweetness, and a kind of happiness that they had pursued for a long time and finally got their wish! But compared with the joy of mutual affection, the pain of wishful thinking was naturally unbearable!
The exhausted Kenshin was in a coma for two days before he woke up from the nightmare! Seeing her looking at him with a frightened face, Huaishan frowned slightly! But before he could offer condolences, Kenshin immediately asked, "Why did you kill him?"
Huaishan was stunned when he heard this, frowned and asked, "What did you say?"
Kenshin's eyes were filled with a strong blankness, and it took a long time before he shook his head: "I had a nightmare, I dreamed that you were going to kill Banqin! That dream was so scary, but it was very real, so I was really frightened......"
Huaishan felt bitter in his heart when he heard this, and couldn't help but reflexively ask: "What are you going to do if it's true?"
"What......?"
Facing the sword heart with a face of criticism, Huaishan had an indescribable resentment in his heart!
"Kenshin, why don't you just be sober? Okay, even if Banqin can defeat Yu Fangsheng and destroy the Demon Palace in the end, how long can his blood poison last? Besides him, is there really nothing in this world that you care about?"
Kenshin looked at him in confusion and couldn't speak for a long time!
"Huaishan, what's wrong with you? When we left Baolian Temple, weren't you also bent on eradicating the Demon Palace and avenging our blood and revenge? Have you forgotten that we ......?"
"I haven't forgotten! I remember everything clearly, but I will definitely take revenge, but when I see you suffering so much for him, do you know how much heartache I have?"
"You...... You ......"
Looking at him in surprise, Kenshin had gradually regained his senses at this time, remembering the situation before he fell unconscious!
"Huaishan! I have always felt that I am very good, very good friends with you! Banqin and I are destined by heaven, and no one or anything can separate us. That's right, for the sake of the rivers and lakes, he really didn't have enough time to care about me. But I don't blame him, because everything he did was so that we could live a good life in the future!"
Huaishan listened to her self-deceptive words, and felt funny and pathetic in his heart!
"What you said, can you really deceive yourself? Destiny of God? Why are you and him?"
"By ...... , He and I were both rescued from the Demon Palace by Uncle Xue himself, Qin Xin Sword Spirit, this is the origin of our name, so we must be together forever!"
Sneering again and again, Huaishan nodded with a playful face: "Very good! But Kenshin, don't you think you're just deceiving yourself? Xuexi is not the only one who rescued from the Demon Palace, if you can determine fate based on this name alone, then it won't be a big mess in the world? What's more, if you really believe that he loves you in his heart, why bother with these baseless excuses?"
Kenshin seemed to have done something wrong, avoiding his aggressive gaze. But the melancholy in my heart also hit more violently.
Seeing her distress, Huaishan couldn't help but feel unbearable: "Okay Kenshin! Don't be too sad, now you should pay the most attention to your body! Look at how haggard you have been for him these days!"
"I want to go back to Righteous Heroes!"
"What?"
"I think he may have gone back......"
Indeed, Banqin was also thinking about going back to the Righteous Heroes Villa! Moreover, it was even more coincidental that the two sides happened to meet in front of the villa.
Seeing the two of them with their fingers clasped tightly and their faces full of sweetness, Kenshin felt his heart broken!
Huaishan couldn't help but get angry and grabbed Banqin's collar and shouted angrily: "You bastard, do you know how much Kenshin has suffered and suffered for you......?
Looking at his fist raised in mid-air calmly, Banqin looked at Kenshin behind him: "I'm sorry! I failed Kenshin, but I never gave up from the beginning! Because from the beginning, there was only one Siru in my heart! Kenshin, you should understand that we are not destined to be together, there is no such thing in this world! And you, if you forget this, do you really feel that way about me?" We're not children anymore, and we shouldn't be anyone's tools to achieve our own goals, we should have our own choices, right?"
"Bastard! You can say such a thing, you ......"
Looking at Huaishan, Banqin smiled indifferently: "If it was for Kenshin, even if you killed me, I wouldn't blame you! And the reason why you have kept you to this day, you don't really think I'm afraid of you, right? But because I know that no matter what you do, at least you are really sincere to Kenshin, so I believe that you are not hopeless......"
Huaishan frowned, and Jian Xin walked slowly to gently take his hand away, and nodded calmly: "You're right! You've been accommodating to me, and you don't want me to be sad, but I've dragged you down a lot. Rather than that, it's better to really make things clear. Now that you've found someone who can make you happy, I'll only bless you! But it's not like we're out of touch with each other, at least there's a blood feud with the Demon Palace, and I still have a share!"
Banqin couldn't help but be surprised by her calmness beyond her expectations. And those who hurried to hear the news were also greatly surprised to see such a harmonious situation! Although Huaishan didn't say anything on the surface, the pain in his heart was like a volcanic eruption that could not be restrained! But after all, those who should have come back and those who should not have come back have returned, and the worries in people's hearts have finally been put down.
And Banqin and Luo Siru are lovers and eventually become married, which can be regarded as a group of friends who really care about them. Someone asked about Luo Hao, and Luo Siru told everyone that his father didn't want to move too much in order to concentrate on developing the antidote, so he didn't come back with the two.
And when the master and apprentice saw each other again, although they all felt a thousand words, everything was in the end.
Xianzhen held back too many questions in her heart and didn't vomit unpleasantly, and when she was quiet, she couldn't help but ask: "You said that he has already left but came back, what kind of heart is it?"
Banqin smiled calmly: "No matter what kind of heart he has, we all have our own things to do." In that case, why should you care about him?"
"But ......"
Seeing that the apprentice's expression was quiet and peaceful, and the whole person became refreshed and comfortable, Xue Xi smiled happily: "It seems that you really figured it out this time?"
"Hopefully, it's not too late!"
"It's not too late, of course it's not too late......"
Xianzhen looked at these two masters and apprentices in confusion, and seemed to understand in her heart!
"But what are we going to do next?"
"What happened to what I asked you to do?"
"Well, everything went as you expected, and it went very well!"
"That's good! Everything has priorities, sacrificing Yu Mohan proves that Yu Fangsheng is ready to break the cauldron and sink the boat! And at this time, the other side will not be idle. Even if they don't collude with each other, it must be the praying mantis catching cicadas and yellow finches behind. The question is who is the praying mantis between us and the Demon Palace, and who is the cicada? Anyway, we have to be fully prepared, because success or failure is ...... in one fell swoop."
Desperate is usually chosen in two situations, one is that things are really at the end of the process, and you can really reap all the results. The other situation is forced to make a last ditch effort. And sometimes it's easy to overlook, in either case, are we really ready, and some sudden or already obvious problems, do we really pay the necessary attention?
For example: "Did you really figure it out?"
"What do you think?"
"But you really just gave up?"
"Give up? I've lost everything, what else is there to give up? Now, I just want to get back everything that belongs to me!"