Xiao Zuo looked at Mu Chu blankly, waiting for her to turn around, waiting for her to speak.

Mu Chu gently wiped away the tears on her face, in the past five years, no matter how she said in the letter that she wanted to go to Tiantai Mountain to see him, she was prevaricated by Xiao Zuo for various reasons.

Sometimes, she felt really tired, thinking about someone so heartlessly, never asking herself if it was worth it.

Maybe love is like this, the more I miss it, the more I care, the more fascinating it is, the kind of far-fetched, the kind of anticipation, always tear-jerking, speechless.

In life, I don't know how many shapes and shapes of people I have to meet, and how many ups and downs I have experienced, but there is always such a person who is hidden in the bottom of my heart and lingers, and there will always be a memory that I will never forget.

Recalling the bits and pieces with Xiao Zuo, Mu Chu was always unconsciously infected by the young man who laughed badly, but was positive and optimistic no matter what difficulties he faced.

This is the fourth man she really cares about in her nineteen years, except for her grandfather, big brother, and brother, and this care is more than the sum of the first three, and it seems that for him, she can be nothing.

Five years of longing and concern made her fantasize countless times about the moment when she met Xiao Zuo again. What does he look like? Or is that abominable little bald head? Will it still treat me like it used to?

All these fantasies and expectations were finally shattered by the news I heard from my brother. It turned out that he was not a monk anymore, he was vulgar for the woman in the south, and he became an official of their court, it turned out that the woman he had in his heart was not himself.

Yesterday's various things are intertwined with today's everything, which makes Mu Chu's heart ache unprecedentedly. The kind of tearing colic made her feel as if she couldn't feel her existence, and she wanted to find a shoulder to lean on the pain, but she realized that she was only by her side.

She shouldn't have come, she shouldn't have listened to her brother's coming to look for him, but she had already come, and she was unwilling to ask clearly.

How to ask. How did she speak? But it made her feel numb. The next decision was easy, but when it came time to put it into practice, it turned out that everything was so pale.

"Ahem, what, it's too stuffy in this room, I'll go out for a walk. ”

The atmosphere in the whole room was extremely oppressive at the moment. Qin Luoli felt that he was about to lose his breath. He knew his sister's thoughts, and he would only stay here like this, so he casually made an excuse and slipped out.

As soon as Qin Luoli left, Mu Chu wiped away his tears, carefully checked his makeup, and then gave himself a smile and turned around to face Xiao Zuo.

Mu Chu, you can!

"Xiao Zuo, long time no see. ”

Mu Chu used all his strength to say this, and when he said it, he was relieved.

"yes, long time no see. ”

Xiao Zuo didn't dare to look at Mu Chu directly, he heard the bitterness in her words,

"Xiao Zuo, I want to ask you a question. Mu Chu bit his lip and said with difficulty.

"Just ask."

What should come will always come. Xiao Zuo knew that he had been waiting for this day for a long, long time.

Since the day he saw Mu Chu leave, he knew that sooner or later Mu Chu would say what he wanted.

Xiao Zuo didn't have that kind of liking for Mu Chu in his heart, which he only determined three months after Mu Chu left.

At that time, Mu Chu sent a letter to Tiantai Mountain almost every day, the content of which was like writing a diary. At first, Xiao Zuo patiently sealed it back, but if he always did this, the Buddha would have a day when he couldn't stand it.

This is not the love in Xiao Zuo's mind, not the partner he wants. He likes to think independently, rather than listening to a little girl's nagging every day. After a long time, Xiao Zuo's attitude towards Mu Chu was not so enthusiastic, and gradually she wrote ten letters, and she only replied to such one.

It wasn't until the master passed away that he was ordered by the master to go to Jinling, and when he met the oracle Li again, he saw the cold iceberg of Oracle's feelings for him, and Xiao Zuo found that he had unconsciously walked into a person in his heart.

Li Oracle didn't say anything though. But Xiao Zuo had already understood her affection for herself from her expression and words, but Xiao Zuo did not break it, the two of them had each other in their hearts, this feeling made Xiao Zuo very strange, so he agreed to be Lin Renzhao's bodyguard, and offered to take the initiative to go to Bianliang in the portrait incident.

Now that he has determined his mind and faced Mu Chu again, Xiao Zuo is unwilling to hurt her again. Wait for her to ask herself, and then give her the answers she can give.

"Xiao Zuo, have you ever had me in your heart?" didn't ask you if you liked me, didn't ask if you cared about me, but just said so simply, "Have you ever had me in your heart?"

This is the retreat that Mu Chu left for herself, she doesn't want to be cruelly rejected, she doesn't want to be ruthlessly let down. She asked, just to comfort herself. Because there is only one answer to this question, and that is "there is".

"Yes. is the only answer Xiao Zuo can give, because the kind-hearted Mu Chu is unwilling to embarrass Xiao Zuo, "Yes", but it has passed, and it doesn't matter what it is now.

Mu Chuqiang held back his tears, and told himself a thousand times in his heart not to cry. Although this was the result she expected, she still hoped that what Xiao Zuo told her was not this word, but "it has always been".

It's a pity that the love between men and women in this world is not something that can be fulfilled by unilaterally giving sincerely without asking for anything in return. Willingness to give does not mean that the other party is willing to accept. The most unbearable thing is not the memories of the past, because one day it will be diluted by time, nor is it the obsessive love in the heart, because there will always be a day when it will be replaced by others.

What I really can't let go of is just unwillingness, but why I treat you like this, but you don't care about it at all. Even a little bit of affirmation is not willing to give.

"So, what about Oracle Li?" Mu Chu still wanted Xiao Zuo to confirm the guess in his heart.

"All the time. ”

Xiao Zuo smiled bitterly. Countless bloody romance dramas told Xiao Zuo that when encountering this situation, long pain is better than short pain, and he is unwilling to hurt anyone. But feelings are such a thing, there will always be people who get hurt, and it's not something you can do if you don't want to.

This Mu Chu smiled miserably, everything was as she expected. This answer, which was originally what she was looking forward to in her heart, finally belonged to Divine Oracle Lee.

Five years of longing and worry, five years of waiting and expectation, in the end, it was in exchange for disappointment and sadness. At this time, Mu Chu's heart was not painful, it was fake, but it was so painful that he couldn't breathe and couldn't think about it anymore.

She's not the kind of woman who stalks her, and she won't be stupid to find any reason. The children of the rivers and lakes dare to love and hate, since the other party does not have themselves in their hearts, no matter how much they ask why, they are just adding blockages to themselves.

She didn't cry in the end, and the tears in her eyes were finally held back by her. Why cry, I have never gained anything, which means that I have not lost anything, and there is no reason to be sad and sad.

"Mu Chu, you are still the kind girl you used to be in my heart, and you are still a friend worthy of my lifelong respect. ”

Xiao Zuo's heart was also very painful, looking at Mu Chu with an expressionless face, he suddenly felt as if after today, he and her were the most ordinary friends, and they couldn't do more. He didn't want to hurt Mu Chu, but he was even more reluctant to lose such a friend.

"Okay, I'm actually here to ask you to help find the big brother. ”

Mu Chu said with a sweet smile. She didn't cry, and she was strong enough to squeeze out a smile. She didn't want to see Xiao Zuo feel sorry for herself, so she wanted to show her best side in front of the man she loved.

Xiao Zuo couldn't help but shed tears. Mu Chu, a silly girl, is always so kind that it makes people feel distressed. I'd rather be wronged than hurt others.

I'm sorry, Mu Chu, in this life, I will definitely let you not be hurt at all!" Xiao Zuo thought secretly in his heart.

"Okay, it should be me who should be crying, why are you a man crying?" Mu Chu walked up to Xiao Zuo very generously and patted him on the shoulder. "If you cry again, I'll ignore you again. ”

Xiao Zuo burst into tears and laughed, and he didn't expect to let Mu Chu comfort himself in the end, "Who said I cried, it's just that the wind and sand are too big, and the sand blows into my eyes." ”

Mu Chu didn't debunk Xiao Zuo's lies, and looked out of the door with a big grin, "Qin Luoli has you heard enough, and when you have heard enough, you will come in and talk." ”

Qin Luo, who had been standing at the door and was uneasy, heard the little sister calling him, and ran in hurriedly.

He knew that the little sister who looked strong was just doing everything she showed to Xiao Zuo, and at this time, what the little sister needed was to be quiet for a while, so she needed to come out and end up by herself.

"Mu Chu, don't you have something in the inn, why don't you hurry back and find it. ”

Such a lame reason came out of Qin Luoli's mouth, and Mu Chu glanced at him gratefully, "Brother, you quickly tell Xiao Zuo about the eldest brother, I'll go and get something and come back." ”

After saying that, Mu Chu ran out quickly. Looking at the figure of Mu Chu leaving, Xiao Zuo was actually very distressed, but at this time, he couldn't do anything, as long as he showed a little bit of care about Mu Chu, it would bring her more harm.

Feelings can't be erased by just a sentence or a dispensable answer, and sometimes they don't care, just to care more about the other party.

"Xiao Zuo, you hurt my little sister, how should this account be calculated?"

As soon as Mu Chu left, Qin Luoli's face changed, and he asked in an unkind tone.

"This ........."

Xiao Zuo didn't know why, he didn't do anything to hurt Mu Chu, you and I want to be emotional, you can't be unreasonable.

"If you can't find my senior brother within three days, I'll settle this account with you!"