Chapter 22: A Momentary Heartbeat
When night fell, Mo Wen walked quietly by the river, behind him was Qin Luoluo, who was hiding in a heavy down jacket, in Mo Wen's impression, this was the first time Qin Luoluo returned to the dress of a normal girl.
But Mo Wen made it clear that this was because she had lost too much blood, which caused her body temperature to drop, but Mo Wen did not comfort her, maybe compared to her body, it was her heart that was colder.
Qin Luoluo's mother, Mo Wen saw it, a middle-aged woman with heavy makeup but good feelings about herself, from time to time she threw him that look full of deep meaning, which made Mo Wen shudder, maybe the world they lived in, Mo Wen had no way to understand, maybe they had already lost their shame and lived a primitive and indulgent life, but in the face of this girl who was not numb yet, Mo Wen really couldn't bear to let it go.
Next, Mo asked Qin Luoluo's parents about her problems, fights outside the school, and the problem of failing the course, the two began to pass the buck to each other, and then kept arguing at the end, and it seemed that no one wanted to blame themselves.
Then he kept persuading Qin Luoluo, Mo Wen could see that they were sincere, they were in the dark, and they hoped that the people they loved the most could live in the sun, although they were used to the darkness, it didn't mean that they liked the dark, at this moment, Mo Wen seemed to feel their helplessness.
Qin Luoluo and Mo Wen walked out of the door for a long time, and they could still hear her parents' quarrel, which was hoarse and hysterical, which may be their last trace of true feelings and screams.
"Aren't you scared?" Qin Luoluo smiled, "As you can see, my father is a black society, and he only knows how to kill people and play with women all day long, my mother is a woman who can do her best, as long as she likes you, you can sleep with her, and you can get a large amount of compensation afterwards, which is enough to make a person worry about food and clothing, so they will never be lonely." ”
"Maybe it's because they're afraid of loneliness, they're afraid to face one's self. Mo Wen sighed.
"Hehe, you won't understand, you will only see the light of the clouds, but you will not see the warmth and coldness of the world, just like your cousin, who has lived in a honey pot since childhood, only pickles and fun in his head. Qin Luoluo said with a sneer.
Mo Wen stopped and turned around, quietly looked at Qin Luoluo who was sneering, and then shook his head and said: "Do you know the Tao, at your age, you shouldn't have this kind of smile, your smile should be full of sunshine and kindness, instead of rejecting everything and denying everything." ”
Qin Luoluo twisted his head to the side: "Teacher Mo, don't tell me your big truths, I've long been tired of hearing this." ”
Mo Wen didn't get angry, but looked up at the moon in the sky and said with a smile: "I used to hate everyone. ”
"Hate everyone?" Qin Luoluo looked at Mo with curiosity in his eyes.
Mo Wen didn't look back: "Yes, everyone, hate them for being indifferent, you can ignore my life and death, hate them for being happy, because I don't have them." ”
"How come?" Qin Luoluo asked in surprise.
"I don't know where you determined what kind of playboy I am," Mo Wen smiled back, "Before I was six years old, I had been begging on the streets, and on several occasions I almost starved to death, and then I was adopted by an old pervert who took pleasure in torturing me all day long, and then I spent five years alone in the mountains, and it may only be a year before I really came to this world of flowers." ”
"What, are you kidding me?" Qin Luoluo asked in disbelief.
"It's still the same sentence, believe it or not, it's up to you," Mo Wen didn't explain, and smiled faintly, "Telling you this, I just want you to understand that it doesn't matter what kind of background you have, but what kind of path you choose, what kind of mood you choose, life is nothing more than two paths, one good and one evil, choose evil, even if you hate the common people, what's the use of destroying the common people, can you guarantee that your hatred will also dissipate?"
"Then do you still have hatred now?" Qin Luoluo asked softly.
Mo Wen smiled bitterly and shook his head: "I don't know what to do." ”
Qin Luoluo was surprised by Mo Wen's answer, she thought that Mo Wen would smile generously, and then said that he had put everything down, but he said that he didn't know what to do, his sincerity made Qin Luoluo suddenly feel that she seemed to be attracted by the man in front of her for a moment, and she couldn't extricate herself.
"I thought that my parents abandoned me, but they have already died because of me, the hatred has turned into guilt, I thought that the world is indifferent, but I lived because of the charity of an old woman, I thought that happiness did not belong to me, but now I know that happiness has always been by my side, maybe I don't hate. Mo Wen said with a smile.
Qin Luoluo was stunned on the spot, she didn't know what she had experienced, but it was obvious that her previous guess was completely empty, he was a more pitiful person than herself, but where did his smile come from? Where did that smile like sunshine come from?
"What about me?" Qin Luoluo muttered to himself blankly.
"Maybe you are happier than me, you have parents and parents, although what they do is unacceptable to normal people, but they can deceive all the people in the world, but only for you is the most true, they don't want you to repeat their mistakes, I hope you can live happily in the sun, just for this, the world can turn their backs on them, but you are not qualified. Mo Wen said seriously.
"Maybe one day, when they are old and tired, they can't play anymore, they will leave this world without any nostalgia, because they can't face their lonely self and their true soul, so living is a hundred times more painful than death, so don't treat them with indifference, that will only make them go faster. ”
Qin Luoluo stood there stunned, it was undeniable that Mo Wen's words had completely subverted her worldly realm, as well as her opinion, she could give up on herself in the past, and even had no heart or lungs, but now Mo Wen is like an angel, guiding her a way to heaven, and has opened the door for her.
"Alright, let's send it here. Mo Wen turned around with a smile, "Go back to sleep early, tomorrow will be another day." ”
"Wait. Qin Luoluo stopped Mo blankly and asked.
"What's the matter?"
Cold but gentle fiery lips, this is Mo Wen's feeling, and his head fell into a state of death for a while.
That fiery embrace, with the wildest passion in the world, is like a flood that opens the floodgates.
"Do you want me to be good, please. A hoarse pleading, it seems that the dazed after the new birth, and urgently needs to find solid comfort, otherwise it will all be like a dream, so unreal.
"Qin Luoluo, what's wrong with you?"
Mo Wen reacted and hurriedly pushed Qin Luoluo away, but after the latter was pushed away, he hugged Mo Wen tightly.
"It's the first time, really, even girls haven't seen my body, I only kiss them more, and I've never done anything, do you want me to be okay?" Qin Luoluo said eagerly.
"Qin Luoluo, wake up, what's wrong with you?" Mo Wen asked, holding Qin Luoluo's head.
"I don't know what to do, I feel as if I've become different, but for a moment I'm scared, I'm afraid that everything is just a dream, I'm in love with you, only for a moment, really, I'm not impulsive, if I don't have you, I will definitely change back to my original self. Do you want me to be okay?" Qin Luoluo seemed to be very excited, but her spirit was obviously abnormal, if Mo Wen was an ordinary person, she would definitely think that she was possessed by a ghost.
"Qin Luoluo, calm down, you know, I have a lover, I love her too, you are just impulsive now, you can go back and sleep now, understand?"
"I don't care, just follow you, hug me, I'm afraid you will disappear in the next moment, and then I will wake up and find that it is still the same as before, so cold in the world. "The hug is compact and crazy, as if trying to bring two people together.
Seeing the newborn sun, will it be like grabbing the last straw, and he will not let go until he dies? Mo Wen seemed to understand in an instant, and understood why Qin Luoluo would become so excited in an instant, and he subverted her original world realm, thus becoming her last straw, and years of depression seemed to be released in an instant, Mo Wen dared to say that if he really disappeared now, Qin Luoluo would definitely go crazy.
Don't ask a wry smile, what is yourself for Lu, and he is destined not to give a girl complete love.
"Qin Luoluo, calm down, okay?"
Qin Luoluo's eyes gradually diminished: "You dislike me?"
"No, it's not. Mo Wen hurriedly shook his head.
"What's that?" Qin Luoluo's eyes had returned to their previous clarity, and they seemed to have returned to their previous appearance, "Could it be that what you said is false?"
A kiss may represent too many meanings, some people are kind because of love, some people are willing to go to hell because of love, it is undeniable that love can give people fearless strength, even if the next moment the entire world will be destroyed.
Qin Luoluo's eyes lit up with that trace of fire again, the yearning for a new life, and the persistence of saying goodbye to the past.
Lips parted, Qin Luoluo looked at Mo in confusion.
"If one day, you can really recognize yourself and still hold on to your thoughts tonight, then you will be my woman. ”
"Really?" Qin Luoluo asked in disbelief.
Mo Wen smiled and nodded: "I hope you are not impulsive now, otherwise I will regret letting go of a little beauty for nothing." ”
"Definitely not. Qin Luoluo shook his head firmly.
"Go back, I'll look at you. ”
Qin Luoluo turned back step by step, as if he was constantly confirming that this was not a dream, and Mo Wen was still standing there quietly, the moonlight shining on his gentle smiling face, very beautiful.
Finally, Qin Luoluo's figure disappeared at the end.
Mo Wen jumped three feet high, and he wanted to fall to his death.
"It's over, my heart is moved, my God, how do you explain to your wives, Yue'er will come back tomorrow, if they know the way, will they strangle me?"
"Strangling me to death is all happy, it's over"
Under the moonlight, a man kept holding his head and hitting the telephone pole on the side of the road, and he didn't know who hurt his chrysanthemum