hit the monthly ticket list for the third time, and ended in another failure.

I want to force a smile, but I really don't have any mood, it's a mess.

I want to talk to someone, but I found that all I talk about is bitterness and irritability, and on this new day of the new year, there is really no need to use my troubles to ruin everyone's mood.

I want to try to keep myself calm, try to stay calm, and try to code words, but I can't lift any strength, and my thoughts are chaotic and I can't code words at all.

Then, I stared at the screen in a silent daze.

I was angry at my naivety, thinking that I could achieve what I wanted by writing a book with peace of mind and rushing to the list with everyone, but I never thought that there was still a kind of person in this world who deliberately broke the rules and trampled on the rules, so that an originally fair and fair list would no longer be so sacred.

I felt unfair about my efforts and the efforts of others, but I was powerless to change anything, which made me feel guilty and uneasy, and I felt that I couldn't support everyone.

Anger, unwillingness, guilt, powerlessness...... That's how I feel right now, stuffed in my heart and nowhere to vent.

I know it's a bad state, but it's going to take time to adjust for the time being.

......

Actually, when you think about it, this time in the battle of monthly passes, we have a clear conscience!

If we compete fairly, with our strength, we can be among the top 20!

I am proud and touched by the support of my brothers.

Really, since I wrote the book, I have never experienced the feeling of being silently supported by so many brothers like now, and I have never dared to expect extravagance.

Now, I see it!

I'm not afraid of the jokes of my brothers, in the past two days, in addition to the code word, I have been refreshing the web page, and every time I see an extra monthly pass, I am very happy, because I know that behind the monthly pass, there is a brother, or sister who is supporting me!

It can be said that in the past two days, I have seen many familiar figures and many new figures, but I know that you have always been there!

It's just that it's a quiet reading and voting in an unobtrusive and unrevealing way, which is a good feeling!

Here, I would like to thank the four brothers of the alliance leader, his dedication, everyone can see, this time the impact of the list failed, and the one who feels the most indebted is the four brothers.

It's my powerlessness, and I can't resist his support!

There are also old brothers who are drunk in the sky, Sword Tribulation Storm, Jing Si Mei Paper, Xuantian and others, they have cheered for me in the group, and they have supported me, which has moved me for a long time.

Here I'm going to xiexie them.

There are also Qingdong in the book review area, watchywq, I am Xiaocheng, jiangguogu, look back and see her again, zhenjun7256...... and so on for the support of brothers, there are too many names, if they are listed here, they can be written on a full page!

It is your presence that proves the significance of this book, and I have the goal and motivation to fight for it.

Thank you very much.

And only thank you can express my feelings.

In 2014, a new beginning, I will adjust my emotions as soon as possible, I will become harder than before, and I will pay more, so as to be worthy of everyone's support and waiting!

A momentary failure is nothing!

As the saying goes, only by persevering and working hard can we see hope, and if we don't persevere, we are doomed to have no chance with hope.

And I firmly believe that with you, anything is possible!

zuihou。

Happy New Year to all. Xiao Jinyu on Jan 1, 2014 0:59:04.