The more Xu Lai thought about it, the more unwilling he became, and unconsciously, there was already a change in his soul.

A faint black dot phantom slowly appeared in his soul, and Xu Lai's soul suddenly trembled as if warning.

When Xu Lai felt the tremor of his soul and woke up, he found that unconsciously, negative emotions appeared in his heart again, and even negative emotions were about to form black spots in his soul.

The formation of black spots last time made Xu Lai very disgusted for a while, and even later swore in his heart that he would never let black spots appear again.

But it is clear that the appearance of black spots is sometimes not under his control at all.

Human emotions are ever-changing, and controlling emotions is never easy.

Xu Lai's face was pale, and he kept taking deep breaths.

It wasn't until a long time later that the black dot phantom in the soul slowly dispersed.

Xu Lai let out a long breath, although it was winter, he still broke out in a cold sweat.

Although the black dot did not take shape this time, it could be regarded as a warning to Xu Lai.

Let him understand that he can never relax his mind, and at the same time, it is important to be open-minded.

"Open-minded?" Xu Lai sighed and muttered to himself in his heart.

Many people know that being a man must be open-minded, even narrow-minded people know that they must be open-minded, but whether they can be open-minded or not is not just a matter of talking.

That is a person's own open-minded problem, Xu Lai does not feel that he is an open-minded person, especially in this kind of thing, he is not an open-minded person.

Xu Lai slowly wrote the word "Jing" on the paper, and he didn't know where he saw it, and it was said that writing the word "Jing" could calm his mood.

However, it seems that the effect is not very good now, and he has written a lot of static characters, but his heart is not calm at all.

His eyes looking at Fang Qianluo were still full of fire, and his eyes looking at Zhou Yulong's back were still full of unwillingness.

This also made the black dot phantom in Xu Lai's soul appear and disappear from time to time.

"Am I unwilling to do anything?" Xu Lai asked himself in his heart.

"Is it unwilling that Zhou Yulong can get close to Fang Qianluo, but he can't?"

"Or is it unwilling to cultivate the Invincible Heart Sutra and have a skill, but you can't use it?"

Xu Lai silently closed his eyes, he knew that, just like Han Ying said, Fang Qianluo was a high-ranking person at first glance, and this kind of person was not something that anyone could easily pursue. Even if Zhou Yulong is not pretending to be innocent, but really innocent, there is not much hope.

So because of Zhou Yulong's proximity, he was unwilling, which was not necessary at all.

If there is really such unwillingness, it will definitely be accompanied by jealousy and other emotions.

But now, in his heart, there is only unwillingness, not jealousy.

is not jealous of Zhou Yulong, precisely because he doesn't think that Zhou Yulong can pursue Fang Qianluo.

But what he was unwilling to do was that because of the "Invincible Heart Sutra", he had a skill, but he couldn't show his ability, and he couldn't get close to Fang Qianluo at will.

Therefore, fundamentally speaking, what he is unwilling to do is actually the "Invincible Heart Sutra".

Through the "Invincible Heart Sutra", he has the current ability and current ability, and he is very grateful, but he is unwilling to let everything he do is limited by the "Invincible Heart Sutra".

Why do you want me to listen to you?

Why do you say that you can't have negative emotions in my heart, so I can't have negative emotions in my heart? Why do you say that I can't let others be dissatisfied with me, so I have to make everyone happy with me?

Xu Lai suddenly thought of a sentence: success is also Xiao He, defeat is also Xiao He. And this is also the portrayal of Xu Lai's now.

Xu Lai admitted that all of his current abilities are derived from the "Invincible Heart Sutra", but so what?

He just wants to get rid of the limitations of the Invincible Heart Sutra.

......

"Wait, one day, I'll find a way to get rid of you. A trace of persistence flashed in Xu Lai's eyes.

Although it was only a short day, he had already had enough of the restrictions of the Invincible Heart Sutra.

No one can stand this restriction.

I have the ability, but I can't use it, and I want to get close, but I can't get close.

I can't use all my skills, what's the difference between this and brocade night walking?

Xu Lai knows very well that his strength lies in his mind, and the only manifestation of his mind at this time is learning.

He was sure that his academic performance would crush all the students in his class.

But he actually understands that if he really exerts all his strength, he may still be greeted with doubt, disbelief, curse, and jealousy from everyone.

At that time, there might be more negative emotions than when he was just approaching Fang Qianluo.

Xu Lai also knows that if his grades are crushed a few more times, so that everyone gets used to it, maybe these negative emotions will become less.

But that was still not what he had hoped for.

Academically, he can crush others, but what about other aspects?

Or, now he can crush others in the third year of second and third high school, but what about going to college later?

He can't crush others in all aspects forever.

One day he will live forever in the jealous and hateful eyes of others.

And then he will live forever in a prison.

It wasn't what he wanted.

What he wants is for his soul to completely get rid of the influence of negative emotions, no matter how much negative emotions there are in his heart, there will be no black spots in his soul, and no matter how much others are dissatisfied with him, there will not be a black line that will bind him.

That's what he's after.

To achieve this, he must step out of the limitations of the Invincible Heart Sutra.

Although the success of this step may still be far away, at least, at this time, Xu Lai has already determined the direction of his efforts.

It is only then that he will be truly free.

And now, no matter how smart and powerful he is, he still has to be bound by negative emotions.

Xu Lai spent a whole class thinking about these things, which also made him truly understand his needs, which was freedom.

The bell rang again.

Maybe it was because after a class time that I got acquainted with it, and there were more students who went to chat with Fang Qianluo.

Especially Zhou Yulong, when there is nothing to do, he goes in and out of the back door, and some boys run to ask some childish questions nervously and excitedly.

However, Xu Lai has always just watched from the sidelines.

He could feel the helplessness and impatience in Fang Qianluo's heart, especially her eyes, which were clear and leisurely, cold and free, without a trace of emotion. It seems that all people are not worthy of her little heart, even when she smiles, her eyes are still calm.

(Tomorrow is Monday, ask students to vote for recommendations and rush off the list)