In most people's minds, Li Qingzhao is a beautiful and sentimental woman. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

Some scholars (Kang Zhen) once interpreted her as "sentimental, beautiful and graceful, and dignified female lyricist": "Li Qingzhao's words, like her people, are always shrouded in a layer of faint sorrow, and always shrouded in a beautiful and gentle veil." And some scholars (Yang Yu) completely subverted the image of Li Qingzhao who "does not eat fireworks in the world" in people's hearts, claiming that this female lyricist "Although beautiful and talented", she also has many "bad deeds", such as good gambling, good wine, and lust.

Li Qingzhao once wrote a "Preface to the Horse Fight", which introduced more than 20 gambling methods. She said: "The blogger has no other, the first to fight for the ear, so the specialist can", Li Qingzhao is lucky, the casino is a winning general, she herself created a kind of "fate to fight the horse" game mode, quite proud, "so that thousands of generations later, know the fate of the horse, from Yi'an Jushi also." ”

She likes to drink, and likes to drink spirits, often get drunk, "Mo Xu cup is deep and amber, and it melts before it becomes intoxicated" ("Huanxi Sha"), "It's better to get drunk before dividing it, and don't lose the chrysanthemum yellow in the east fence" ("Partridge Day"), "Every year in the snow, often insert plum blossoms to get drunk" ("Qingping Le") to appreciate the snow plum blossoms, can not be without wine. "Last night's rain was sparse and the wind was sudden, and the heavy sleep did not kill the wine" ("Like a Dream Order"), yesterday there was a night of wind, a night of rain, a groggy sleep, and when I woke up, the wine I drank had not woken up.

Li Qingzhao in girlhood is lively and active. When spring came, she and her female companions rowed a boat and went to the lake for an excursion, enjoying the beautiful scenery while drinking and getting drunk. Drunkenly rowing, unable to distinguish the course, accidentally strayed into the lotus flowers, and could not find the way home. The peace was shattered. Pink flowers, green leaves, blushing faces, cheerful laughter, shouting, fluttering and startling flocks of waterfowl, flying up from the endless lotus leaves.

Li Qingzhao's father, Li Gefei, the word Uncle Wen, was born in Jinshi, one of the "Four Bachelors after Sumen", once served as the director of the Education Bureau of Yunzhou County, Shandong, a university professor, and the author of the famous essay "Luoyang Famous Garden". Mother Wang, also knows poetry and books. A good family education, in addition to playing a vital role in the development of culture and personality, has also created a far more relaxed and free growth environment for her than ordinary girls.

However, the pace of youth gradually turned her into a sensitive and amorous woman.

The embroidered curtain Hibiscus smiled, leaned on the duck's cheeks, and the eye waves were guessed.

On the one hand, the style is deep and rhyme, the half-note is coquettish and hateful, and the moon moves and the shadow of the flower comes again.

Because of his outstanding talent and good family background, Li Qingzhao was admired and pursued by the children of an official eunuch. This person is Zhao Mingcheng.

Zhao was studying in Taixue at the time, his father Zhao Tingzhi was a native of Shandong, and Li Qingzhao and her father Li Gefei were fellow villagers. He has a noble personal interest and enjoys collecting gold and stone calligraphy and paintings and cultural relics. Moreover, in Taixue, he did not need to participate in the imperial examination, and after studying and examining, he could directly become an official, and he was a Beijing official, which was more promising politically. Li Qingzhao had no reason to refuse.

So the two got to know each other, knew each other, fell in love with each other, and became good for a hundred years (1101). Zhao Mingcheng is 21 years old, Li Qingzhao is 18 years old, a real pair of golden boys and girls.

After marriage, Li Qingzhao is plump and moving, and his demeanor is all right.

A gust of wind and rain came late to wash away the scorching light. dismissed the sheng spring, but made light makeup on the rhombus.

The thin ice skin is clear, and the snow is greasy and crispy. Laughing Tanlang, the kitchen pillow is cool tonight!

The summer day in Bianjing was cloudy and sunny, and in the evening, a storm suddenly came outside the house, washing away the heat of the day, a rare cool night! Sitting idly, Li Qingzhao played the piano for a while, and then carefully traced his eyebrows in the rhombic mirror, lightly nodded his lips, and put on a little thin evening makeup. Zhao Mingcheng didn't understand the amorous feelings, and he was still working hard there. She took a shower, put on makeup, and changed into a pink transparent pajamas, her snow-white skin loomed, smooth and greasy, and the faint fragrance emanated one after another. With affection and a smile, he said to his husband: Fool, tonight's bamboo mat should be very cool!

The newlywed Yan'er husband and wife are not grinding their ears and temples all day long, because Zhao Mingcheng still has to study, take the postgraduate entrance examination, and there are rules for studying too much, and only the first and fifteenth days of the new year can be taken on vacation every month, and they are allowed to go home. After Li Qingzhao married Zhao Mingcheng, she soon became very interested in her husband's collection of cultural relics, calligraphy and paintings. However, it takes a lot of money to buy, collect, and identify cultural relics, and they have just started a family and have a slight surplus in the economy, so where can they get so much money to buy? The husband and wife went to the pawnshop together, pawned the clothes that they didn't need for the time being, exchanged them for five or six hundred yuan, and then happily took this money and went to the Daxiangguo Temple to search for gold and stone calligraphy and paintings. Daxiangkokuji Temple is the largest temple in Bianliang, Tokyo, and it is also a place where large temple fairs are often held, and there are several important temple fairs every month, selling everything, so it can be said that it is a private cultural relics market. Once, a person brought a famous painting, which was the "Peony Picture" by the Southern Tang Dynasty painter Xu Xi, with a price of 200,000 US dollars, Li Qingzhao later recalled that the husband and wife were trembling in their hearts when they heard it, 200,000 yuan, and they couldn't put it down, so they brought the "Peony Picture" home and looked at it for two nights, and the more they looked at it, the more they liked it, and the more they looked at it, the more unwilling and reluctant they were willing to let go. Because of this, the couple was unhappy for a long time.

Under the instigation of the new party, Song Huizong implemented the reform of the law, and Li Qingzhao's father, Li Gefei, lost power in the political change and returned to his hometown. Zhao Tingzhi served as prime minister. Soon after, he was forced to resign and died angrily. As soon as Zhao Ting died, the powerful minister Cai Jing began to raid his house and arrest his three sons. Although he was released, the road to his career was cut off, and he was not allowed to live in Bianliang, the capital, and the three Zhao Mingcheng brothers, with their mother and family, returned to their hometown in Qingzhou, Shandong.

Qingzhou ten years is Zhao Mingcheng and his wife the most comfortable, the most pleasant ten years, during the seclusion, the husband and wife are committed to the collection of gold and stone calligraphy and painting, write and sort out the academic work "Jin Shi Lu" book, harmonious and happy, live a life like a fairy couple. In the past ten years, Li Qingzhao has lived the happiest ten years in his life, and many of her lingering and melancholy, resentful and sad lyrics, such as "A Cut Plum", "Drunken Flower Yin", and "Phoenix Stage", most of them are written in Qingzhou for ten years, and a period of time after the end of the ten years.

In the third year of Emperor Xuanhe of the Song Dynasty (1121), Zhao Mingcheng left home again and served as the county guard of Laizhou in Shandong. This year, Zhao Mingcheng was 41 years old and Li Qingzhao was 38 years old.

Zhao Mingcheng took his wife out of Qingzhou and reunited with him. Li Qingzhao rushed all the way from her hometown to Laizhou to visit her husband, but everything in Laizhou seemed to be far from being as beautiful as she imagined:

There is almost no history of the cold window, and the highway is pitiful.

Qingzhou is engaged in Brother Kong Fang, and he has happy things all day long.

Write poems and refuse to talk about closed doors, and Yan Yu Ning Xiang has good thoughts.

In the quiet, I have to make friends, and there is no gentleman and son.

The windows are broken, the tables and chairs are old, the house is in disrepair, there are no books, no calligraphy and paintings, everything that is familiar and loved in Qingzhou is not here! The sensitive and sentimental Li Yi'an felt that she had become as miserable as Yuan Shu (the highway) was defeated during the Three Kingdoms, and even worse. Glory and wealth, wine and food, everyone in the world wants. I was lonely and bored, and I had no choice but to close the door by myself, clear my head, and write two poems to entertain my feelings of loneliness. But I'm not lonely, I'm not lonely, I have good friends, one is called Zixu, the other is called Wuyou, Mr. Wuyou, Zixuzi, they are all my best friends!

There is no joy of reunion, no joy of reunion, but full of complaints and sadness, which makes people perceive a trace of indescribable bitterness.

The relationship between Li Qingzhao and Zhao Mingcheng seems to have undergone some subtle changes.

What the hell is going on?

Could it be the moon?

After more than ten years of sun and moon in Qingzhou, the white clouds and dogs, and the years are urging people, Li Qingzhao is nearly 40 years old, and Zhao Mingcheng's officials are getting bigger and bigger, and his status is getting higher and higher. is rich and powerful, and there are naturally more young and beautiful lesbians around. At this time, looking back at her own yellow-faced woman, she is no longer young, she is not necessarily disgusted, and her attractiveness is definitely not as good as it was at the beginning? And it is impossible for a woman as smart and sensitive as Li Qingzhao not to experience the subtle changes that her husband has given her from her daily life; this deep feeling of loneliness and loneliness is extremely strong for a 38-year-old middle-aged woman!

In addition to Zhao Mingcheng's subjective "aesthetic fatigue", there is another problem, and this problem and the anxiety caused by it are particularly fatal to Li Qingzhao, who is emotionally rich, delicate and passionate in his creation.

Li Qingzhao is infertile. After 20 years of marriage, she and Zhao Mingcheng have never had children and no offspring. In the Southern Song Dynasty, there was a Zhai Qi year, who wrote a monograph on gold and stone inscriptions, called "History". In this book, he said that Zhao Mingcheng's collection of cultural relics is very rich, but "no child can protect his legacy, and every sigh for it." Although the collection is rich, he has no children to inherit his inheritance, and he sighs every time he thinks about it. A little later, Hong Shi wrote a book "Lishi" to discuss subordination, and when talking about Zhao Mingcheng's posthumous affairs, he also said "Zhao Jun has no heirs". It's not that there are no sons, it's that there are no children, there are no offspring.

If a woman or a wife cannot give birth to a son to her husband, then her status in the whole family in the husband's mind will be greatly reduced, and her value will be discounted. Because the heirs will be directly involved in the inheritance of the clan and the inheritance of the family inheritance. Zhao Mingcheng has many young, beautiful concubines, but still has no children, it seems that the problem may not be on Li Qingzhao's body, but most of the time, as long as there are no children, people generally put the blame on the head of the woman.

In the first year of Song Qinzong's Jingkang reign (1126), the northern Jin governor drove straight in, captured Bianjing, the capital of the Northern Song Dynasty, captured Song Huizong, Song Qinzong's father and son, and sent them to Jin as slaves. The guerrillas continued to invade Shandong and Zizhou, and the smell of war became stronger and stronger.

In March of the third year of Gaozong Jianyan (1129), Zhao Mingcheng's mother Guo died in Jiangning. In view of the critical situation at that time, Li Qingzhao discussed with Zhao Mingcheng and decided to take advantage of the funeral to transfer a large number of cultural relics, gold and stones, calligraphy and paintings accumulated over the years to Jiangning. But it is also impossible to transport them all, because there are too many, and there must be a trade-off. "Those who cannot carry all the long things, but go to the major prints of the book first, and then to the many paintings, and then to the ancient artifacts who have no money. Later, he went to the prison of the book, the ordinary painting, and the important instrument. "Bulky, huge, inconvenient to ship, many calligraphy and paintings, ancient utensils without signatures, markings, non-rare books, are all excluded, so painful to cut love after screening," Shang Zaishu fifteen cars. ”

The group rushed to Jiangning, also known as Jiankang, and confronted the Jin army across the river at that time, and the strategic location was very important. The Southern Song Dynasty appointed Zhao Mingcheng as the prefect of Jiangning. Li Qingzhao was in a rather unhappy mood when he was in Jiangning. The country is ruined, the family is ruined, the displaced people are displaced, the stable and prosperous life is broken, and she thinks that another country is her hometown, and her heart is always full of contradictions and pain. "Mingcheng is on Jiankang Day, Yi'an is on every day of heavy snow, that is, the top hat is draped, and the city is seen from afar to find poetry. If you get a sentence, you will invite her husband to be harmonious, and you will be honest and honest. Every time it snowed heavily, she would put on a hat and a cloak, brave the wind and snow, and climb the mud to the castle tower in search of verses. After writing a poem, I occasionally read good words and witty words, and I had to read them to my husband and invite him to sing them together.

Born as a hero,

Death is also a ghost.

So far, I think of Xiang Yu,

Refused to cross the river.

When Li Qingzhao was writing a book and writing heroic verses, she didn't expect that there would be a typical person who was greedy for life and afraid of death, ugly, and even a little disgusting by her side. In the third year of Jianyan, Wang Yi, the commander of the Jiangning Imperial Battalion, rebelled, and Li Mo, the deputy envoy of Jiangdong Transport, got the news, and he quickly reported it to the prefect Zhao Mingcheng. I didn't want Zhao Mingcheng to be the governor of a state, but he didn't care about the life and death of his family and the safety of the people, not only did he not suppress him, but he and two other high-ranking officials of Jiangning Mansion secretly hung ropes from the city wall and escaped when the night was dark and no one noticed.

After the dismissal, the couple decided to stay away from the world, find a remote place to live, and continue to study gold and stone. When they passed through Wuhu by boat and came to Chiyang, Anhui, Zhao Mingcheng received an edict from the imperial court and was appointed as the governor of Huzhou.

According to the official system of the Song Dynasty, before a new official took office, he had to go to the emperor to meet him, and Zhao Mingcheng rushed to Jiankang (Jiangning) to meet Zhao Gou, Gaozong of the Song Dynasty. Li Qingzhao temporarily stayed in Chiyang. At the end of July, she suddenly received a letter from her husband, saying that she had suffered from malaria due to heat stroke due to the galloping of horses all the way and the hot weather in the Jiangnan area, and fell ill in Jiankang City. Li Qingzhao hurriedly set off by boat, took the boat by water, and walked 300 miles from Chizhou to Jiangning in one night, and arrived at Jiankang City. Because Zhao Mingcheng was anxious, he mistakenly took Bupleurum chinensis, skullcap and other cold medicines to cool and dissipate heat, not only did his condition not relieve, but turned into dysentery, diarrhea did not stop, and on the day of August 18, Zhao Mingcheng was ill and did not explain anything about the trivial matters at home, so he left.

This year, the two have been married for the twenty-eighth year, Zhao Mingcheng is 49 years old, and Li Qingzhao is 46 years old.

Although Zhao Mingcheng passed away, he left behind a large number of cultural relics, more than 20,000 ancient books, and more than 2,000 volumes of rubbings of inscriptions and stones. How to protect it from falling into the hands of the people of Jinguo, let alone being destroyed in the war, is a headache. Li Qingzhao entrusted the cultural relics to Hongzhou and handed them over to a relative who was vice minister of national defense for protection. Soon the Jin soldiers pressed the border, captured Huangzhou and Daye in Hubei, and then marched to Hongzhou, in December, Hongzhou fell, the Song soldiers fled, and more than 20,000 precious books were wiped out in an instant in the catastrophe.

After the catastrophe, there were not many cultural relics left in Li Qingzhao's hands.

At this time, a terrible rumor suddenly appeared, boiling, and went away, almost scared her half to death, and she did not dare to confess: "I am so frightened that I dare not speak, and I dare not do it." "Rumor has it that Zhao Mingcheng once offered a precious jade pot to the people of Jin Guo before his death! The rumor is very vicious. The stakes are huge. Zhao Mingcheng may have made such and such mistakes during his lifetime, abandoning the city and fleeing, dereliction of duty, corruption and bribery, and harassment of young women, which are not fatal problems. Who doesn't make some mistakes in his life? If he makes a mistake, he will change it, and he will make it again after he has made it. If you hand over the jade pot to the Jin State and present the Jin people, the nature will change, what is this, this is the crime of treason with the enemy. Especially at that time, the Jin and Song countries were in a harsh state of war. The two of them collected cultural relics for more than 20 years, and when they splashed a basin of dirty water on their heads, they became traitors and traitors. Who can stand it?

What should we do? Li Qingzhao pondered for a while, and with the kindness and honesty of the literati, he came up with a stupid solution: Didn't you say that I offered a jade pot to the people of the Jin Kingdom, saying that we were treason and traitor? Okay, if you don't do anything, I will follow the emperor, present all our belongings, hand them over to the imperial court, and see what else you have to say? She hired a boat, begged people, and sought refuge with relatives and friends, and took a heavy amount of household belongings, books, and cultural relics, and began a difficult and dangerous trek with her eyes on the route of the king's escape. Starting from Jiankang, through Zhenjiang, Yuezhou (Shaoxing), Mingzhou (Ningbo), from Mingzhou to Zhoushan Island, take a boat to Taizhou, drift into the sea, and escape to Wenzhou by sea. One moment by sea, another by land, wandering in a hurry, exhausted.

"This year's cape of the world, Xiao Xiao's temples are blooming", more than a year of fugitive life, so that Li Qingzhao suffered from the war and displacement, and the famous manuscripts and ancient calligraphy and paintings presented to the imperial court were unknown in the Yanzhou mutiny, Wenzhou Inn, and her five boxes of cultural relics were stolen by thieves. Li Qingzhao was alone with a heavy burden on his shoulders, and he was in a foreign land, lonely. She picked a plum blossom, but she didn't have the courage to insert it into the temples, only unconsciously rubbed the petals with her hands, watching it slowly fall in the wind and fall to the placket, just like the tears of a lonely man. Heartbreaking plum blossoms!

In the loneliness, a man named Zhang Ruzhou stepped into Li Qingzhao's life.

Zhang Ruzhou served as the right Fenglang supervisor of the Zhujun Audit Department, the official quality is not big, seven or eight grades, responsible for some financial audits and audits in the army, he wears a pair of glasses, Sven is white, and his eyes behind the lenses flicker. This person is very good at speaking, very talented in acting, he took the initiative to approach Li Qingzhao, recited poems, secretly sent Qiubo, talked about literature, writing, cultural relics examination with her, sent a matchmaker to propose to her with documents, and asked for warmth and care for her, all of which deeply touched Li Qingzhao, who was physically and mentally exhausted, emotionally wounded, and especially in need of comfort.

Happiness hangs in front of you like a flower, trembling, as if you can pick it as long as you stretch out your hand......

After getting married, Li Qingzhao found that Zhang Ruzhou was not only incomparable with Zhao Mingcheng in terms of knowledge and cultivation, but also had bad morals, or was an outright hooligan. The two soon had a disagreement and quarreled, and Zhang Ruzhou couldn't help but be annoyed because he couldn't control her behavior and couldn't take possession of the custody and ownership of Li Qingzhao's only remaining cultural relics: Hmph, I'm still fooled. Don't you deal with antiques and cultural relics, what about your more than 20,000 volumes? What about the precious gold and stone calligraphy and paintings? I'll get a old lady and write poems! In the end, I completely tore my face, punched and kicked each other, and fought a lot.

After only three months of marriage, Li Qingzhao filed a request for divorce with the court.

"Endure the evening festival of mulberry elm, and match it with the next talent."

"Donkey" is a customer and broker who sells livestock, and "Yu" is a philistine.

Li Qingzhao said, I really regret that in my old age, I married such a dirty and inferior philistine. "The body is suspicious of the smell, but he wants to take it off, and he is going to hold the wall and want to kill it. "I don't want to be with this stinky guy anymore, I want to leave him quickly, I don't leave, he keeps staring at my precious relics all day long, maybe one day he will punch me to death. No matter how bad Zhao Mingcheng is, at least he doesn't engage in domestic violence?

However, the law at that time did not support individual divorce, and besides, if the divorce was carried out through the normal procedures, the family property, including some cultural relics left by Zhao Mingcheng, would be at the disposal of the husband and wife as joint property. This is obviously not what Li Qingzhao wants. So she thought about it and thought of another way: to complain to the government and sue Zhang Ruzhou. The crime is: "arbitrarily increasing the number of officials". It was he who deliberately concealed and lied about his political resume in order to be promoted. For example, a person who has worked at the grassroots level for several years, has been a section member for three years, has been a regular department member for seven years, and has been a party member for 20 years, and is now promoted to the deputy bureau level. And in Zhang Ruzhou, he said that it was 3 years, and he said that it was 8 years, and it was obviously 6, and when he filled in the form, he waved his pen and brushed a 9?

The lawsuit alarmed Emperor Gaozong. Zhao Gou specially sent an investigation team to the south and north, investigated internally and externally, looked through a large number of files, interviewed the parties, and finally ruled that all the evidence complained by the plaintiff was conclusive, the reasons were sufficient, and the crime was convicted. Zhang Ruzhou was removed from all positions, expelled from the party, and sent to Liuzhou, Guangxi. Although Li Qingzhao fulfilled his wish, divorced and kept the cultural relics, according to the laws of the Song Dynasty, the wife sued her husband, and even if the husband could be proved guilty in the end, the wife would still be imprisoned for two years! Due to the dredging and attention of relatives and friends, she was only imprisoned for nine days before she was released. But when and when will the scars left by this bad marriage be healed?

The wind dwells in the dust and the fragrant flowers are gone,

Tired of combing your hair day and night.

Things are people, not everything,

Tears flowed first.

I heard that Sungai spring is still good,

It is also intended to be a light boat.

I'm only afraid of the Sungai boat,

I can't carry it, and I am worried!

There has always been a saying that the more twists and turns in life, the more hardships experienced, the experience is profound, the understanding is deep, and the poet can sing a passionate and majestic masterpiece that has been famous through the ages. "The country is unfortunate and the poet is fortunate, and he is endowed with vicissitudes of life. (Zhao Yi) However, to say that all the setbacks and tribulations and a series of blows that Li Qingzhao, who has entered her twilight years, have experienced are a fortune and a gain, and not only should we not be sad, but we should be happy and rejoice that "we have been blessed by misfortune"! Only in this way will it be beneficial to her creation and make her a heavyweight world literary hero, which is indeed not very satisfying. Writing is not about finding an object, if there is a difficulty, if there is no difficulty, if there is no difficulty, you must also go to the difficulty, I wish a good person a safe life, how can there be a willing person in this world to find sin?

In September of the fourth year of Gaozong Shaoxing (1134), at the instigation of Liu Yu, the leader of the shameless puppet army, the Jin soldiers marched south in two ways. Looking north, wolf smoke is everywhere. The people were in a state of great panic. Li Qingzhao recovered from a serious illness, and in a hurry he had to abandon his home and flee, go upstream, cross Ziling Beach in Fuyang (Zhejiang), come to Jinhua, and live in a home surnamed Chen. About a year later, the war subsided, and she was able to return to Lin'an.

In the twentieth year of Shaoxing (1150), Li Qingzhao was 67 years old.

People like to reminisce in their old age, Li Qingzhao is no exception, in the stumbling and complicated world, she is alone, guarding the small courtyard of Guqing, looking at the "Golden Stone Record" left by Zhao Mingcheng, looking back on the past with her husband. What keeps flashing in the memories is the good times she and Zhao Mingcheng spent together when they were young. But now everything is no more, the beloved is no longer there, no one, there will never be anyone, who cares about Li Qingzhao's lonely lament and rekindling the candle of love?

Li Qingzhao carried the calligraphy and painting of Mi Fu's true handiwork to visit "millet" - Mi Fu's son Mi Youren. Mi Youren is also known as Yin Ren, good deeds, in the early years of calligraphy and painting is well-known, after the southern crossing, as a soldier of the Ministry of Soldiers, Fu Wenge straight bachelor, at this time is already a 75-year-old old man. "Millet" stroked the handwriting of his father Mi Fu, mixed feelings, and the title of the pen play: this is indeed my father's old rice's handwriting, a word is worth a thousand gold!

The sunset melts gold, the twilight clouds merge, where are the people?

Dyeing willow smoke, blowing plum flutes, how much do you know about spring?

Lantern Festival, harmonious weather, is there no wind and rain?

Come to summon each other, Xiangche BMW, thank him for his wine friends and poets.

On the prosperous day of Zhongzhou, the boudoir has a lot of time, remember to focus on three or five.

Spread the green crown, twist the gold and snow willows, and the clusters compete for the help of Chu.

Now he is haggard, windy and foggy, and afraid to go out at night.

Why don't you listen to people's laughter under the curtain?

Life is the most sad and old. In his later years, Li Qingzhao was lonely, miserable, alone, without relatives or children, and had to pass every day in his memories. On the one hand, she is a fragile and enthusiastic person, she hopes that she can break out of this circle, to contact more things, to feel life, this contradictory state of mind, emotional embarrassment, all the time intertwined in her heart, intertwined in the creation, "now haggard, windy and foggy, afraid to see the night out." "I'm already an old woman, my face is full of wrinkles, my hair is gray and unkempt, can I still go out to meet people like this?" The Lantern Festival, the wine is hot, and it is inevitable that it will return to desolation after the excitement, so the more enthusiastic the friends, the more cheerful and lively the party, and the more sad and sad it will be in the heart! ”

As a woman, Li Qingzhao can't gallop across the field like Yue Fei, nor can she go to the court to discuss matters like Xin Qiji, and she can't even scold the wine and slap the railing. State affairs are difficult to ask, family affairs are afraid to be mentioned again, and only the autumn wind in front of the door rolls the fallen leaves on the moss-stained stepping stones. What can she say? Li Qingzhao has a neighbor surnamed Sun, and his daughter is only 10 years old. One day, when the child came to play, Li Qingzhao said to her, you should learn something, I am old, and I am willing to teach what I have learned in my life? She couldn't help but gasp, a wave of dizziness, and put her hand on the door frame to keep herself from falling. It turns out that in this society, it is superfluous for women to be talented and affectionate! What preaching and teaching, writing books and sayings, collecting cultural relics, sweating cattle and making a name for themselves, but in the end they end up in vain, with no love to entrust, and no use in learning? Li Qingzhao felt as if she had fallen into an endless abyss, she walked dazedly, walking among the yellow flowers and fallen leaves in the late autumn of Lin'an, looking for it, and chanting "Shengsheng Slow", which condensed the pain of her whole body and established her position in the history of Chinese literature. (To be continued.) )