Chapter 7 How much did I suffer when I was a child?
"It's so hateful, what if he is allowed to eat a dough cake? He even beat him so hard!" Seeing this scene, Xu Lai's heart suddenly rose with a strong sense of grievance, accompanied by strong dissatisfaction and resentment towards the middle-aged man.
"No, why do I feel wronged?"
"This scene seems quite familiar, the store, the little boy, the middle-aged man ......"
"So that's the case!" Xu Lai suddenly realized, wasn't that store the star store he used to go to when he was a child? and the little boy and middle-aged man, that was his former self and his father.
Xu Lai suddenly laughed dumbly, how tough he was when he was a child, but his father was also very ruthless, he was still so young, and he was willing to do it.
Xu Lai shook his head, how wronged he felt at that time, he couldn't wait to run away from home, and even ignore his father anymore, but now that he thinks about it, he only has the feeling of crying and laughing.
The scene in front of him was in a trance again, and Xu Lai found that his vision had returned to his soul again, but the black spot before had disappeared. A feeling of clarity appeared in my heart, as if it was a matter of a long time ago and finally let go.
"This removes a black spot?" Xu Lai was stunned, thinking that it was quite easy to remove the black spot.
At that moment, Xu Lai chose a black spot again and leaned over.
The eyes were in a trance again......
"Don't, don't, I don't want a brother, I don't want a sister, I don't want to ......give birth to anything," the seven or eight-year-old boy rolled hard on the ground, and next to him, a woman of about thirty was holding up a slightly bulging belly, full of helplessness.
This is Xu Lai's memory of the struggle against his parents having a second child, he cried and made trouble, trying to prevent his parents from having a second child, but unfortunately, in the end, in a fat beating, he chose to accept it with tears in his eyes.
At that time, he was aggrieved, sad, and worried, full of all kinds of negative emotions.
It's just that now it seems that the one who should have been born was born......
"It's a pity, my younger brother didn't live to be ......a year old," Xu Lai sighed lightly, and the scene in front of him gradually blurred, and finally returned to his soul again.
The black dot in front of him disappeared in the same way.
Next, Xu Lai chose a black dot again and leaned over.
I was in a trance again......
"Come on, where's your school bag?" asked the little boy a middle-aged woman in a small living room.
"I don't know where I went. The little boy said in fear.
"You are studying, and you even lost your school bag?" the middle-aged woman seemed incredulous.
The little boy didn't speak, and the middle-aged woman picked up the feather duster next to her and brushed it towards the little boy.
This is Xu Lai's memory, he lost his schoolbag while reading, but when he returned home, he was beaten by his mother, and finally went back to find his schoolbag along the road at night.
When he was beaten, he was very sad and aggrieved, but now that he thinks about it, he has already looked down on it, but his heart is full of warmth.
The scene resumed again, Xu Lai returned to his soul again, silently looking at the number of black spots around him, and he gradually understood the cause of these black spots.
Those are all memories in his life, or grievances, or resentment, or sadness, and at that time, they were all knots in his heart. Although these knots have gradually disappeared with the passage of time, they are still present in his soul.
He didn't know that these heart knots, in the past, had another name, that is, heart demons.
Xu Lai suddenly felt that the Lingtai was clear for a while, he thought of the first realm of the "Invincible Heart Sutra", invincible in his heart, before, he had already understood the meaning of invincible in his heart, and at this time, compared with the situation in his soul, he had a deeper understanding.
Invincible in the heart, that is, there is no resentment, jealousy, resentment, etc. for others in the heart...... And now, it is necessary to add sadness, grievances, and so on.
These feelings are not all "enemies", but they are all negative emotions.
And invincible in the heart, more comprehensively, is that there are no negative emotions in the heart.
Many of these negative emotions have long been forgotten with the passage of time, but this does not mean that they do not exist, in fact, they still exist in the soul and affect the soul all the time.
Only after truly seeing these will these negative emotions condensed in the soul truly dissipate.
After understanding this, Xu Lai exhaled deeply, he finally understood the meaning of the first level of the "Invincible Heart Sutra", it was not a profound cultivation secret method, but it secretly explained the requirements that needed to be met.
It's a pity that there are not many people who can really realize these, just like the Huanglong Sect that has the "Invincible Heart Sutra", over the ages, countless geniuses have participated in the "Invincible Heart Sutra", however, no one has comprehended the essence of the "Invincible Heart Sutra", but because of the misleading of "Invincible Heart", countless disciples in order to get rid of the "enemy in the heart", sneak attack plots, cannibalism, as a result, the first sect of the righteous path, degenerated into a third-rate sect of the Demon Dao.
After thoroughly comprehending the first weight of the "Invincible Heart Sutra", Xu Lai settled down and began to sweep away the black spots in his soul.
Xu Lai is extremely looking forward to the ability of the "Invincible Heart Sutra", looking forward to being able to have a strong force after cultivating the first level.
Therefore, he did not relax for a moment to launch an attack on the black spots in his soul.
As time passed, one black dot after another disappeared into his soul, and he became more and more aware of the causes of these black spots, and the negative emotions contained in them were also strange.
There is jealousy because of other people's good grades, there is jealousy because others are good-looking, and there is also jealousy because others are popular with teachers, and I don't know how much jealousy there is.
And those who have been wronged or something, there are even more grievances, from childhood to adulthood, how many beatings and scoldings there are, almost as many grievances.
Others, such as low self-esteem, sadness, resentment and other emotions, are also not a few.
Fortunately, most of the negative emotions can be seen quickly, after all, they are all trivial things.
There are only a few negative emotions that can't be let go of for a while, such as the sadness caused by the death of my younger brother, the boredom and resentment caused by my parents playing mahjong, and the boredom of school due to poor grades......
When I didn't go to search, I didn't feel that when I really searched for it in my soul, Xu Lai found that there were really not a few responsible emotions hidden in my soul.
And with the clearing of emotions in his soul, Xu Lai gradually discovered his changes, the simplest is that he is becoming smarter and smarter.
It was a feeling of increased wisdom, and he could clearly feel that both his thoughts and thoughts had become clearer, and his head seemed to be equipped with power, and it was spinning rapidly.