60. The heart is like a rock
For so many years, she has always kept in mind her father's words: people are empty because they are fallen, and people are unhappy because they are not satisfied.
It has been almost six years since she stepped into the Changliu Immortal Mountain, and from the moment she stepped into the Changliu Immortal Mountain, she was like stepping into the most beautiful crystal palace in the world, and the black dreams, ghosts, ghosts, and demons that had been haunting her for so many years were all turned away. Since then, she has never had any troubles or sorrows in her life.
Friends are her rain and dew, and master is her sun.
She struggles because he expects her to smile because he watches.
The master is the center of gravity and direction of her life.
Such days are too simple and beautiful, and when you wake up at night, you often think you are in a dream.
When one's happiness reaches its peak, it comes the fear of loss.
And her fear was nothing more than when she realized her inexplicable feelings for her master.
Everything was just ignorance, understanding her sensitivity and intelligence, which made her immediately realize the terrible consequences of this incident, and before the young and immature feeling could take shape, she was immediately killed in swaddling clothes. And subconsciously stopped her own growth, she just wanted to be an obedient child who didn't know anything under the master's knees forever.
But I still didn't expect to get along day and night, and secretly I had a deep love for a long time.
But she still didn't want to think about anything, tried to maintain the status quo, and buried that admiration deeply. Maybe I don't want to leave it unasked, it's a lifetime. She will never know what love is, and she will never allow herself to know who the person she loves in her heart is!
But all this, the most private corner of her heart, was ruthlessly exposed by Zixun Asa Xia on Taibai Mountain, and the world she worked hard to forge and maintain began to collapse and sink little by little.
In the next nearly a year, she traveled everywhere with her master Haibei and Tiannan, which can be said to be the happiest time of her life. But the huge worry in her heart has always filled her with fear.
In the meantime, in order to protect her, the master was heavily poisoned, and could only rely on sucking her blood to continue her life, and even more aroused her emotions accumulated over the years, making her want not to admit it, and it was becoming more and more difficult not to face it.
After so many years of being with her, how could she not know about Bai Zihua? If she really let him know her filthy thoughts, the consequences would be unimaginable.
But Ni Mantian held the evidence in his hand and accused her of the most unbearable thing in broad daylight.
Hua Qiangu seemed to hear the collapse of the crystal palace where she had lived happily for so many years, turning into glass bubbles, and the smiling faces of the master's caring friends disappeared one by one. What kind of storm will her life face from now on.
Hua Qiangu smiled bitterly, and suddenly remembered a sentence that she said when she was with Dongfang Yuqing, seeing that she refused to grow up again, as if she could break everything-
No one can be a child for the rest of their lives.
Hua Qiangu sighed softly and closed her eyes in despair.
She knew that she was wrong and shouldn't love, but how could she control the heartbeat of this moment?
She's just desperately trying to hide and get back. It would be great if you could really be a child who didn't grow up forever.
She doesn't want anything, she just wants nothing to change.
Hua Qiangu looked at Ni Mantian, and his emotions gradually calmed down, and he was no longer flustered.
In addition to the shock and fear in her heart, there is a faint sense of relief, after all, the feeling is getting heavier and heavier, she is buried in the bottom of her heart, she is really tired to carry it alone, and one day she will not be able to hold on......
"What do you want?" said Hua Qiangu's face was pale, and her body was as thin as a leaf fluttering in the wind.
Ni Mantian raised his head and laughed, but he didn't expect Hua Qiangu to give in so easily. But as soon as I saw her handle in her hands, she was still calm, and she was angry.
"Yo, I said, junior uncle, you are very insincere, am I the kind of person who extorts money? It's just that I can't get used to seeing you so arrogant and showy in front of me! Speaking of which, if Moyan Shizun knew about this, he would definitely be furious and expelled you from the school, right? But if the Venerable Master knew that the disciple he loved had this kind of mind for him, what kind of expression should he have?"
Hua Qiangu's heart ached, and he was so suffocated that he couldn't speak, and the sweat on his forehead began to slide down.
"What exactly do you want?"
Ni Mantian looked at her beautiful face with hatred: "This is the flower Qiangu you owe me! I want you to kneel on the ground and beg me!"
Hua Qiangu clenched his fists and knelt straight down facing the neon sky.
"I beg you. ”
Ni Mantian was stunned, frowning and looking down at her. Then there burst into a crisp burst of laughter, shrill and terrifying.
"What do you ask me for?"
Hua Qiangu's lips trembled slightly: "Please don't tell my master......"
Ni Mantian walked around behind her and kicked her straight back: "Don't you have a special backbone?
Hua Qiangu's eyes were fixed and motionless.
Ni Mantian hated her to death, and her expression was obviously kneeling in front of her, and she was so tenacious and proud.
"Hua Qiangu!" took two steps forward and grabbed her head vigorously, "You fought so desperately with me to be the apprentice of the Venerable One because you liked him, right?!"
If it weren't for her! If it weren't for her fighting with herself, the head disciple of today's family would be herself! Then she and Luo Shiyi are senior brothers and sisters, and it is natural that they are together and blessed by everyone. But it was because of her sideways intervention that she became a master and apprentice with Luo Shiyi.
At the beginning, she was young and didn't understand anything, she just thought that she liked him, and it would be nice if she could be with him at Twilight, but she never thought that this master-apprentice relationship would become her biggest obstacle now. Only then did I know that I had made a big mistake at the beginning, but it was irreversible. Every time she watched her and Luo Eleven, Rotten Wood, Qingliushuo, and a few of them drink and talk happily, she was so jealous that she was about to go crazy. Especially why is that broken bug so good to it!
"If you and that broken worm never appeared......" Ni Mantian grabbed Hua Qiangu's neck with one hand.
Hua Qiangu looked at her with a sympathetic face, let go of his hand, took two steps back, looked up to the sky and laughed.
Who is more pitiful than whom? She once thought she was pitiful, but she didn't expect Hua Qiangu to be more pitiful than her. Although they are both masters and apprentices, they are completely different, and she is definitely millions of times more desperate than herself.
"If you want me to give you back this silk cloth, it's okay, it's going to be the Fairy Sword Conference soon, I want you to lose to me obediently this time." ”
"I promise you. Hua Qiangu's voice was cold, still kneeling motionless.
Ni Mantian nodded with satisfaction, approached her and smiled charmingly: "Remember, from now on, you will no longer be a little uncle, but a dog of mine!"
Hua Qiangu was furious, and slashed it with a palm, smiling like a flower, and she didn't hide. At the last moment, the palm wind still stopped in mid-air.
Ni Mantian waved the silk cloth in his hand, looked up to the sky, laughed, and turned to leave.
Hua Qiangu trembled with anger, flapped his palm on the grass, and the whole ground shook
Maybe it's all providence......
Hua Qiangu buried her face in despair and sat down in a ball in the corner. The room was pitch black and there was no lamp. At this time, she wanted to have Sugar Treasure by her side.
patted his face and tried to tell himself that he had to be strong, and the master was highly poisoned and needed to take care of himself.
Get up from the ground and run to the master's room.
"Master. She called softly, and before she could reply, she pushed the door open. Bai Zihua's poison and injuries are getting worse and worse, and his self-control is getting worse and worse, and he gradually does not refuse his own blood.
Seeing Bai Zihua sitting quietly on the couch, there was no blood on his face, like a perfect ice sculpture.
Hua Qiangu leaned over and skillfully stretched out her arm. Bai Zihua didn't open her eyes, the tip of her nose wiped her teeth from her wrist, and gently bit down on her white and transparent, paper-thin skin, and the blood was like a blooming rose, slowly flowing out of the fragrance. Although Hua Qiangu can't smell it, he only smells blood, but Bai Zihua's heart is like a beast locked in a cage, greedy and only wants more.
still only took a few puffs and immediately pushed her away, afraid that she would lose too much blood because of herself.
"Master, are you better?" Hua Qiangu wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth with his sleeve, feeling uncomfortable, no, the master who has always been out of the dust has become like this for himself.
"Much better......" Bai Zihua patted her on the head, and now she is much paler and haggard these days.
"How's the preparation for the Fairy Sword Conference? Don't be lazy when the master is not around. ”
Hua Qiangu's heart tightened violently, and he lowered his head unnaturally.
"The disciple has always obediently listened to the master's words and practiced the sword hard. Master, are you still going to attend the conference if you are so badly poisoned? You will definitely be noticed by your uncle and uncle. Otherwise, don't hide it from them, let's figure it out together!"
Bai Zihua shook his head: "The head of the sect will definitely have to attend, if the news of my poisoning spreads, the fairy world will definitely be in chaos." There is no cure for this poison, and it is useless for you to know about it. ”
"But Lan Yulan Feng will also tell them about it. ”
"No, the people of the Immortal Pavilion have done tricks, she can't get out, otherwise it would be so easy to let her go. ”
Hua Qiangu nodded as if he didn't understand: "Master, I'll heal your wounds." As he spoke, he wanted to inject his true qi again.
Bai Zihua stopped her: "Keep more internal strength and go to the fairy sword conference, so late, you go back to the room and have a good rest." ”
Hua Qiangu retreated.
The day of the Fairy Sword Conference soon arrived, and Hua Qiangu waited at the door of Bai Zihua early in the morning.
"Come in. ”
"It's the master. "Hua Qiangu went in with two dark circles under his eyes and didn't sleep well all night.
Seeing that Bai Zihua was still scattered, he walked behind him and picked up a comb.
"Master, I'll come!"
Bai Zihua nodded.
Hua Qiangu's small hand held his long and supple as before, and he didn't need to comb it at all, but in a moment, he rolled into a simple and beautiful bun.
Bai Zihua looked in the mirror and suddenly remembered the first time she was clumsy for herself, and couldn't help but feel warm.
"Let's go!"
"Master!" Hua Qiangu walked up to him and raised his arm.
"No, it's too early for the little bones to be poisoned. ”
"I'm afraid that the master won't be able to hold on, and the master and uncle will see it. ”
Bai Zihua looked down and saw her own tooth marks all over her wrists, faintly distressed.
Hua Qiangu hurriedly withdrew his hand and raised the other one: "Otherwise, will it be replaced by another one?"
Bai Zihua gently took her left hand to her lips: "You want your right hand to be the sword for a while." ”
The cold lips like a butterfly's kiss were gently touched. Hua Qiangu's heart was confused, and he didn't dare to look at him. This is always her hardest moment. The mere fact of feeling the blood in her body running into his body made her heart beat at a loss.
After a moment, Bai Zihua let go of her hand and gently stroked her wrist, erasing the scars left on it one by one.
Hua Qiangu felt sad in his heart, if he knew his thoughts, I am afraid that he would no longer be able to care and love as defenselessly as a child.
She doesn't want to be hated by her master, so even if she dies, she can't let him know!
Everything went smoothly at the Sword and Fairy Conference. On the high stage, Hua Qiangu stood beside Bai Zihua, and saw Ni Mantian proudly tilting his head and smiling at himself, as if millions of ants were biting.
This year, the number of participants from all walks of life was more than in previous years, and the fight was very exciting, and Hua Qiangu had no intention of watching the battle at all.
Because people who have become masters such as Luo Eleven do not need to participate in the competition anymore. There is no suspense at all, and the apprenticeship group that finally entered the top four is Hua Qiangu, Ni, the sky is full of wind, and the clouds.
Hua Qiangu thought that if he could fight Shuofeng first, then it would be better to lose in his hands, no matter what.
It's a pity that the sky is not fulfilled, and the wind is fighting against the clouds, and she is fighting against the neon sky.
If she wants to lose and lose without showing a trace, this is a big problem for her, who is already much stronger than Ni Mantian.
The range of venues for the last few matches has been greatly expanded. You can go up the mountain and down to the sea, and you can fly to the sky.
Ni Mantian stopped in mid-air, holding dual swords, and the two of them had their own thoughts. Hua Qiangu's broken thoughts have never been unsheathed, but she doesn't want such a competition to insult the sword given to her by her master.
You come and go, I fist and kick each other, although she is no longer the flower thousand bones at the beginning, but she still can't escape the fate of failure.
Shuo Feng Luo Eleven and the others quickly saw through her, and she seemed to be worried about something, with her current mana, how could she still stalemate with Ni Mantian for so long.
Hua Qiangu was aggrieved, and he glanced at Bai Zihua unwillingly, knowing that he wanted to see the results of his cultivation for so long, but he had to let him down.
The more fierce the fight between the two became, the higher the people flew higher. Huge vines stretched out from the Neon Sky Sword, firmly binding Hua Qiangu inside, and then enveloping the two of them layer by layer, forming a huge green ball to cover everyone's sight.
"It's time to admit defeat, right?" The neon demon smiled with the experience of the last time she had destroyed the Biluo Sword by her blood, and a sharp ice cube stabbed out from the middle finger of her right hand. Hua Qiangu was stunned, no longer dodging, and let the ice ice penetrate his abdomen. The sadness in my heart is still the same as the last time after all!
Ni Mantian laughed happily, how could she miss this opportunity, stretched out her hand and slapped her a few palms on her, and instantly broke several of her tendons.
Looking at the flowers, Qiangu didn't hum, gritted his teeth, and couldn't help but be angry.
"I really didn't expect you to be so affectionate to your honorable master, I was going to be moved to death......" Ni Mantian spoke in secret language, and said another ice cube.
"What an obedient dog, it's been a long time since anyone has made me so happy. What do you think I should tell you to do next? What should I do with that bug that haunts my master all day long?"
Hua Qiangu's body shook when she heard this, and she raised her head and glared at her.
Under her majestic eyes, Ni Mantian couldn't help but feel a third ice cube in her heart, which was ruined, and stabbed her abdomen. was instantly shattered by Hua Qiangu.
Ni Mantian faintly felt a trace of fear in his heart: "Don't forget that your handle is still in my hand!"
Hua Qiangu just looked at her with such bottomless eyes and didn't speak.
She's never killed anyone.
It's so high here, there's a screen outside, and the people below can't see it, even if Ni Mantian dies, she can disguise her as her mistake in the fight. Even if she wants to punish her, she admits it, as long as she can get rid of this person. Otherwise, in the future, she will only be endlessly coerced and persecuted, and there will never be an end. She knew Ni Mantian too well......
Hua Qiangu's eyes suddenly appeared with a rolling killing intent, and with one hand, he pulled out the heart and lungs in Ni Mantian's chest, and by the way, he wanted to destroy her ruins.
- Her most important secret is something that no one can know.
But at the moment when her hand was about to penetrate, a huge wave of light broke through in the distance, hitting her chest hard. Hua Qiangu's mouth of blood suddenly spurted out, and he fell heavily from the sky to the ground, unable to get up for half a day.
Before she and the others could react, a white figure had already floated in front of her.
Hua Qiangu hurriedly raised his head: "...... division"
slapped heavily on the face, and Hua Qiangu flew out a few feet away, and spit out a mouthful of blood.
"Master......" She struggled to get up, knelt on the ground in fear, her body trembled, and she didn't dare to lift her head.
The thousands of people in the audience were all dumbfounded, they didn't know what had just happened, and what was even more bizarre was that they had never seen Bai Zihua have such a big temper and beat his apprentice on the spot.
Ni Mantian's back was covered with cold sweat, and his legs trembled slightly. She didn't know very well what she had born, she only knew that if it hadn't been for Zunshang's timely move, she would have almost died at the hands of Hua Qiangu.
Bai Zihua looked at the disciple who was kneeling on the ground and trembling desperately with fright, his lips were bloodless, his face was like iron blue, and his eyes were uncontrollable anger.
Flicked his sleeves, turned around and went away against the wind, and returned directly to the Palace of Despair.
Hua Qiangu's entire face quickly became red and swollen, and the corners of her mouth were bloodshot. His eyes were blank and he was completely devoid. Qingshui hurriedly ran over and hugged her and shook her vigorously, but she was stupid and stupid, and she didn't react at all.
"Master......" seemed to wake up suddenly, ignoring everyone's obstruction, and flew quickly towards the Palace of Despair.
Ni Mantian couldn't hide his joy and looked at her departing figure, so that Kui must be his own, and he could make his dignity like this, and some of them suffered like this, and the ending was not bad.
It's just that...... She wiped the cold sweat from her forehead, and there was still a chill in her heart. The look in his eyes just now was really terrifying.
"Master, I'm wrong, master, I'm wrong, master, I'm wrong......"
Hua Qiangu knelt at the door of Bai Zi's painting, and kowtowed vigorously in a stupid and frenzied manner, admitting a mistake, and kowtowing the cold ground, and soon his forehead was bloody and blurred, plus the ice cubes that penetrated his abdomen were all over the ground, and she was bleeding.
Bai Zihua was surging uncontrollably in the room, and he picked up the teacup and tried his best to suppress his trembling. Before the tea reached his mouth, the cup was crushed by his palm.
He is a good apprentice of Bai Zihua's teaching! A little fairy sword conference can even kill his fellow disciples by unscrupulous means in order to win, and he is fierce and vicious.
I have cultivated and taught for many years, and what I have taught is such a wicked thing!
He hasn't been so angry for hundreds of years, and he can't tell if it's disappointment or what, if he really can't change her character and fate, it would be better to kill her now if she is a disaster for the common people.
She has done her best to pass on her true and false, and if she dies in time, who will stop her?
Thinking of this, his hands began to shake slightly, and his palms were hot and hot. How could he feel about being slapped in her face so hard just now?
He hadn't had such a time out of control in a hundred years, it seemed that the poison was eroding more and more, and he was almost losing his immortal body.
Hua Qiangu was still crying like crazy outside, begging him to sit motionless on the couch with his face like frost.
Outside, the wind was fierce, the clouds were thick, and after a while, the raindrops the size of beans poured down. Hua Qiangu's voice was hoarse, and her thin body seemed to be about to fall down at any time in the rainstorm. But they are still knocking one by one, but the degree is getting slower and slower.
It rained for a day and a night, and she knocked in front of the door for a day and a night. Several times I passed out and woke up in the rain, got up and continued to knock. I just ask the master to forgive her.
Blood flowed down the rain, and the entire courtyard was undefeated for thousands of years, and the peach blossom trees all died overnight.
Until Sheng Xiaomo went to the Palace of Despair to find Bai Zihua, and saw Hua Qiangu who was unconscious in the rain, he hurriedly rescued her into the house, and the door was not opened again.