"Persuade the monarch to bend to the king, and there is no need to resign.

The flowers are windy and rainy, and life is parting. ”

When Li Mu muttered the above lines of poetry in his mouth, the sky was just dawning, and there was a newborn morning sun swaying and shimmering outside the distant mountains. The young man was handsome and pale, but his hair was disheveled and disheveled in the woods on the outskirts of the city, and the corners of his eyes and brows were stained with dew, and he did not know it, but he had a pair of godless eyes, looking at the vast and lofty sky, and was silent.

He reached for the flask beside him, woke up from a hangover, and wanted to continue drinking. I just poured and poured the clay cheap flask, but I couldn't pour a drop of wine. He let out a long sigh and threw the flask away as if disappointed and relieved. Hearing the crisp sound of the flask shattering, there was no joy in his heart. In other words, there is no trace of emotion in his heart.

There is no greater mourning than death.

In two months, it will be Li Mu's twenty-fifth birthday.

This prodigy with superhuman talent and superhuman qualifications since childhood, the champion talent who has been pinned on by countless people, can read and write at the age of three, can chant poetry at the age of seven, show talent at the age of ten, and become the youngest person in the three hundred years of the Great Qi State at the age of thirteen.

But I don't know if it was God's jealousy or someone's curse on him that took effect, after the age of thirteen, his talent and luck seemed to be exhausted, from fifteen to twenty-five years old, a whole ten years, from a high-spirited boy to a dull youth now, three Jinshi exams, from full of confidence to trembling, but no good news came. Every time he failed, he would be hit harder, and he was more and more afraid of seeing the expectations in the eyes of his parents, and the disappointment after the expectations, and even more afraid of the disdain and ridicule of his classmates. It is said that there are only three things, and he has failed in the three imperial examinations, and he has already smoothed out the edges and corners of the young man.

He originally planned to return to his hometown to recuperate for a while, and study hard to meet the next scientific expedition. There was bad news from his hometown: just yesterday, there were "immortals" fighting in the sky above his hometown, and the remaining ** and mortals of the fighting method razed the north of the entire county to the ground, and nearly 100,000 people in the county did not have a single mouth. Daqi's official explanation to the outside world is that "the earth dragon turned over", and other than that, there is no indication. As soon as he received the news, he went to find an official who had admired him in the past, but he was turned away.

At that time, he still had the hope of what would happen, so he was not discouraged when he was rejected. He knelt down in front of the official's mansion. The official thought that he was a scholar, and he couldn't afford to kneel for a long time, and he would leave after kneeling for a while. But I don't know that Li Mu heard this bad news, he was anxious, and he had tasted the warmth and coldness of the world over the years, so he studied even harder, and he didn't know how many times he had done the things of hanging his head and stabbing his hair, not to mention the pain of kneeling on the ground? After kneeling for three hours, the official didn't know whether to pity him or to be afraid of the wind, so he hastily ordered someone to invite him into the mansion to narrate.

Li Mu knelt on the ground for a long time, and suddenly got up, the sharp pain from his knee made him almost dizzy, but he just gritted his teeth and followed the man without saying a word, and entered the mansion. When he came to the middle hall, he saw the old man who had admired him in the past sitting on the main seat with a blank face, and when he entered the house, he dismissed the left and right people, leaving him alone, and told him what happened.

It turned out that yesterday there were "immortals" fighting in his hometown of Gui'an County, but for some reason they ignored the rules of the "Immortal Covenant" and brazenly used forbidden techniques. In the end, I didn't know who won and who lost, and drifted away. The official document reads, "In Gui'an City, there are immortals fighting, and the light is thousands of miles, and within a hundred miles, all of them are dead domains...", this official is one of the few officials who knows the truth of the matter because he is in charge of the post station mailing. For fear of provoking panic, the rest of the people have been given a gag order by the imperial court. Telling Li Mu the truth of the matter today is already extraordinarily gracious and has taken a great risk.

After Li Mu listened to the official's words in a daze, he hastily thanked him and walked out of the official residence in despair. The official knew that he had suddenly changed greatly and his heart was sad, so he didn't think much about it.

Here, Li Mu walked alone on the bustling official road, but he intuitively felt that under the blue sky and white sun, in the vast sea of people, there was no place for him anymore. In this flashy world, there is no reason for his existence.

How to get revenge? The other party is an immortal, an immortal that even the court and the country must fear. He is a scholar, and he even failed the imperial examination one after another, what does he take revenge?

He walked like a lost soul, and his heart was already full of death.

Li Mu went straight to a restaurant, bought a pot of wine, and walked to the outskirts of the city.

......

The sun had already risen to the top of the tree, and soon, the place where Li Mu was lying would be directly exposed to the sun, and he half-squinted his eyes and looked into the distance without focus. He thought to himself, "When the sun rises in the middle of the sky, it will be my time of death."

In the early morning of April in the fifteenth year of Tianyou, outside the capital of the Great Qi Kingdom, when Li Mu decided to die, the green mountains were silent, the white clouds were fluttering, and the sun was still shining on the earth, bringing warmth and favor to the people in the world.

People who practice Confucianism pay the most attention to manners and demeanor. Like Li Mu, his hair is scattered and his clothes are untidy, which really damages the demeanor of a humble gentleman. But at this time, Li Mu didn't have the strength to care about these details in his heart, how could some rules be restrained by a person who was distraught?

The sun was shifting, and noon was approaching. Li Mu sat up, and after thinking about it, he tidied up his clothes and straightened his appearance slightly. Taking a deep breath, he took a serious look at the scenery around him, and took out the poison that had been prepared for a long time. He closed his eyes and waited until noon to commit suicide.

Although Li Mu is young, he has experienced ups and downs, from a genius with infinite scenery to a worthless ordinary man, and suddenly experienced the suffering of family destruction and death. The experience is extremely bleak, and it is rare in the world. He had read the Confucian classics since he was a child, and he knew that a gentleman should protect himself for good. But this time, his parents are gone, his studies are unsuccessful, and he has no power to restrain the chicken, and there is no way to take revenge. When parents are born, they can't glorify the lintel to fulfill their filial piety, and after their parents die, they can't slash the enemy with filial piety. His heart was really infinitely miserable, and he just wanted to die.

There is great terror and great joy between life and death. There are only two times when the human heart is pure, one is when it is born as a baby, and the other is when it is a dying person. Newborn babies have not yet been taught to see the world without prejudice or distractions. At that time, man was closest to the essence of nature. It's just that babies have short memories, and their consciousness can't support remembering the world they saw when they were born. However, those who can retain a trace of the memory of their first life are mostly considered by the cultivators to have great opportunities and great achievements in the future, and those who are in the friendship of life and death, whether they regret or have no regrets, the emotions in their hearts are the most real and strong, whether they die of old age and illness, death by accident, or death at the hands of others, when people are about to die, they must have a strong vision in their hearts, or they have revenge that has not been avenged, or they are reluctant to give up their old relatives, or they are greedy for the world...... Even if there are people who are really pessimistic about life and death, at the moment of death, they may be looking forward to what the world will be like after death, and whether it will be terrifying or not. People are dying, their words are also good, words are the voice of the heart, at this time the human heart is the purest, but also the closest to nature, the easiest to communicate with heaven and earth.

Li Mu was in such a wonderful state at this time. Everyone knows that there are four joys in life: a long drought and a sweet rain, a foreign country to meet an old acquaintance, a candle night in the cave room, and a gold list title. Li Mu has long passed the age of marriage, but he has been looking forward to the time when the title of the gold list is the day of his cave room, and at that time double happiness is coming, wouldn't it be happy? But who would have thought that he would suffer such a catastrophe? Therefore, at this time, many thoughts surged in Li Mu's heart: the most important thing is the grief of losing his parents and the regret of not being able to avenge his parents, and the regret of not being able to fall into the Jinshi and the shame of not being able to get into the Jinshi, as well as the anxiety of not being able to leave behind the descendants who have not fulfilled their filial piety, and the faint regret of not being able to see the prosperity of the world.

The less you love the world, the better you feel about the world. Li Mu is dying today, and his heart is ethereal and clear. Looking up at this great country, it is not like the rough impression of only knowing how to bury your head in reading and hurriedly glance at it in the past. For a moment, he forgot the grief in his heart, and only focused on the things in his eyes: the clouds on the distant mountains, the grass nearby, and the sound of the wind coming and going in his ears...... He only felt that these ordinary things suddenly became vivid at this moment, and because of their distinctness, he felt extraordinarily amiable and cute.

Li Mu looked up at the sky, and the sun had reached the middle of the sky. He swallowed the jet-black pill he had prepared. Sit still, stop looking at your surroundings, close your eyes and wait for death.

The name of this medicine is "Anle Pill", which is made by the famous pharmacy "Danding Pavilion" in Yedu, because it can "make the person who takes it die quickly and not suffer from pain", so it is named. There are often poor people in Yedu, after they are seriously ill, they are unable to heal, and they can't bear the pain and suffering, so they take more of this medicine, and they are all gone.

Among Li Mu's classmates in his early years, there were also people with weak hearts who took this medicine to kill themselves after failing the exam. At that time, Li Mu was disdainful of this, but he never thought that he would fall into such a field today.

However, as soon as the "Anle Pill" entered his abdomen, Li Mu felt a hot current rising from his abdomen, all the way up, to the atrium. Then Li Mu felt his heart twitch heavily, and then his eyes went dark, and he didn't know what to do.