Chapter 34: Lost Forever
Xie Cunguan, who came back from Shanghai, didn't know everything that happened, because Hui Guoguo was told by Zhang Miaoer that he must not tell Xie Cunguan about it.
Eating the wontons cooked by Xie Cunguan, Zhang Miaoer burst into tears.
Xie's mother asked Xie Cunguan to bring a sweater that she knitted for Zhang Miaoer, Zhang Miaoer's love for it attracted Xie Cunguan's eyes for a while, but made Miao'er's own mother hide outside the ward and cry. If there is regret medicine in the world, she will definitely not leave her daughter and leave.
However, there is no regret medicine in the world!
Zhang Miao'er's life finally came to an end, and the illness made her begin to lose weight violently. In the last few days, she began to refuse Xie Cunguan to look at her, she didn't want to show her ugly side in front of her lover. Xie Cunguan could only endure his grief and stay outside the ward, accompanying her through the door all day and night.
Xie Cunguan's face was already bearded, he hadn't taken a bath for more than ten days, and his body already smelled. However, no one could persuade him to leave, so he stayed outside the house, did not enter the house, but did not leave for a moment.
He believed that Zhang Miaoer could feel herself.
Finally on that day, Dr. Hu came out and beckoned him in, and Zhang Miaoer had something to say to him.
When Xie Cunguan entered, a screen was blocked between him and the hospital bed, and from behind the screen, a thin skeleton hand stretched out.
Tears flowed uncontrollably, dripping on that hand.
"Don't cry!" Zhang Miao'er's voice was weak, but it was unusually clear.
Xie Cunguan choked and nodded, although Zhang Miao'er couldn't see it, he believed that she could feel it.
"The luckiest thing in my life is to meet you!" Zhang Miao'er said, she asked Xie Cunguan not to cry, but there was obvious crying in her voice: "I am very happy! Really, I feel that I am happier than most girls! Because I have love, and I have the fools I love and love me by my side, and I will never leave you! I have to leave you now, and I have to go to another place! However, you have to promise me to live well and live a wonderful life, so that I can leave with peace of mind!" Promise me, you must promise me, there is a suitable girl, willing to marry a fool like you, you will marry her, show me!"
At this point, she seemed to be overwhelmed, paused, and then there was a sound of soot.
A small box was handed out from inside: "This is a necklace I made for you, if one day, you meet a person wearing the same necklace, you must boldly chase her, she must carry my blessing to you! She will love you well for me, she will definitely love you for me, fool! Definitely! Definitely! Definitely! Defin......itely!
"Miao'er?" Xie Cunguan screamed softly, but there was no sound behind the screen.
"Miao'er!" Xie Cunguan shouted loudly, but there was still no sound.
"Doctor Hu!" Doctor Hu—" Xie Cunguan shouted.
Doctor Hu immediately rushed outside the door, she took a look behind the screen, and tears welled up in her eyes: "She's gone! She just asked me to give her a shot of heart booster, just to talk to you!"
Xie Cunguan pushed the screen away desperately, and behind the screen, a face that was already so thin that it was humanoid was so shriveled...... The disease finally ruthlessly robbed her of her beauty!
Xie Cunguan stepped forward and gently stroked the bony face with his hand, as if it was still a beautiful angel. The temperature on his face had not completely faded, his lips were still soft, but his nose had lost his breath.
Xie Cunguan gently bent down, and for the first and last time, he really kissed that lip. Without the barrier of plastic wrap, without the timid voice that was always worried about infecting him! Zhang Miao'er, it was the first time she was so obedient, so docile and let him kiss her on the lips.
"Silly girl, don't you know that in my heart, you will always be the most beautiful angel riding the wind on the small pier in Houhai!" he said softly, closing his eyes for her.
Dr. Hu, who was accustomed to seeing life and death on the side, leaned on the edge of the bed and couldn't cry.
Xie Cunguan glanced at her blankly, he didn't understand, Zhang Miao'er went, she didn't cry, what did this woman cry about.
He got up and walked out, but somehow hit the door frame, and an inexplicable fire blocked his heart, and he glanced at the door frame, as if it was someone. Suddenly, with a roar, he threw his hands together and slammed into the door frame, and with a bang, the dust and bricks collapsed, and the wall with the door frame was thrown out of a hole.
Then he giggled and walked out.
"Hey, you're ......," one nurse couldn't help but say.
"Shut up!" A suppressed roar came from the side, and the nurse turned her head and saw Zeng Shixiong's gaze that seemed to be about to bite people: "We are responsible for repairing this door!"
"Cunguan!" Zhang Keqin, who was full of grief on the side, suddenly called out Xie Cunguan's name loudly.
Xie Cunguan turned back blankly.
"Remember, Miao Er is gone, you are still the son-in-law of the Zhang family! If there is anything that needs to be brought forward by the Zhang family, just speak!" Zhang Keqin said with tears streaming down his face.
"Oh!" Xie Cunguan actually laughed, and there was a miserable taste in his smile: "No, I am not the son-in-law of the Zhang family, I am just Miao'er's husband! If there is something in the Zhang family, I am duty-bound! Because I am Miao'er's husband." However, my own business, I won't trouble the Zhang family, the only death is difficult through the ages, if I die, I just go to accompany Miao'er, she is a girl who is afraid of the dark but never tells others......"
Zhang Keqin stood there in a daze, as if he had aged ten years all of a sudden.
Xie Cunguan walked out slowly and walked out of the gate of the hospital.
He didn't go back to school, nor did he go back to Zhang Miaoer's courtyard, and he didn't even help take care of Zhang Miaoer's funeral.
At Zhang Miao'er's funeral, when a relative complained that Xie Cunguan should not be, the old lady who had been keeping his eyes closed suddenly became angry and said: "Shut up! All the people of the Zhang family, in front of Miao'er, there is someone who is worthy of saying that the child's no! Get out of here! Get out, let Miao'er go quietly! Let her go quietly!"
So, when Zhang Miaoer was cremated, no one was in the mourning hall.
When Zhang Miao'er was cremated, the outermost part of her body was wearing the sweater that Xie Mu knitted for her, which looked nondescript, but it was her last wish.
A week later, Xie's mother, who was far away in Shanghai, received a letter and opened the envelope, which contained only one line of words: "Mom, I hope that in the next life, I can still be your daughter-in-law, and I will definitely honor you as much as I do my own mother! Thank you for the sweater you knitted for me, I wore it on the road......
There are only two words in the payment: "Miaoer".
Xie Mu looked at the letter and cried loudly!
Xie Cunguan lost his message all of a sudden, no one knew where Xie Cunguan went, and in Yan Pei's office, the three old men, Qian Yushan, He Shoujie and Chu Yanchi, all sat there without saying a word, listening to reports about Xie Cunguan.
In the end, Chu Yanchi, who had been closing his eyes, suddenly opened his eyes and said to Yan Pei: "The insect figurines are finally about to break out of their cocoons and become butterflies, although the process is a little cruel!"
Yan Pei sat there, thoughtful, but said to the assistant who was stunned there: "Go and help Xie Cunguan take a leave of absence!" Although she knew that this move might not necessarily be meaningful, she still did it.
Xie Cunguan left the city of Beijing and began to walk the rivers and lakes on foot. He left Zhang Miaoer's hospital room without any money or goods, and went on the road alone.
However, he did not go hungry all the way.
Because he is a disciple of Huang Shihong and gets his true inheritance, he will eat Jianghu rice.
Jianghu people eat three bites of rice and fight each other!
To make friends is to make friends, and to have a bit of a self-familiar spirit. When you encounter the kind of soft-faced person who can't erase your face, you must be self-cooked, thick-skinned, and have the spirit of calling your brother when you open your mouth, daring to eat when you pick it up, and you can't take it away.
Acting is to meet a layman who likes martial arts, so he demonstrates his kung fu, so that the other party has something to ask for, teach and deceive, and eat with food.
When you meet someone who loves martial arts and is an expert, you can only use your hands, let the other party know that the horn is a copper pot or iron, and know that you are a man who can really bite people, respect each other, and eat a bite of food.
This is the law of the rivers and lakes taught to him by Huang Shihong.
In the past, Xie Cunguan was a student, and with his student spirit, his anger in the rivers and lakes was a little weaker.
But Zhang Miao'er's death made him look down on the world and human feelings, and even downspise his own life and death!
All the way out of the capital, down to Hebei, through Tianjin, to Shandong, and then to Henan, Sichuan, Shaanxi, Gansu, Shanxi, all the way to walk, but also all the way to visit the martial arts. If you meet someone who has practiced well, you can also watch it, and if you have practiced badly, you can also watch it. At this moment, he is completely like a sharp brother on the Internet, dressed in rags, but he is full of energy.
Everywhere I went, I inquired about those who could fight, first of all, I had nothing to do to see people's red skills, and if I felt that there was something, I tried my best to fight it.
I have been stained with light, I have suffered losses, I have gained the upper hand, and I have also fought the autumn wind!
He changed punches everywhere, exchanging mantis with intention, exchanging praying mantis for back, back for poke feet, and poke feet for eight poles. He doesn't mind others knowing what he knows, and just wants to do everything he can to know what he doesn't know.
Not only boxing, but also desperately absorbing all kinds of equipment knowledge, long sticks and short sticks, flower guns and big guns, long knives and short knives, Pu Dao Chunqiu, hard whips and soft whips, axes and hooks and forks, what he sees and learns. In an era when martial arts have been in extreme decline, he can only absorb everything regardless of whether it is good or bad, hoping to reluctantly restore the killing method that comes from the era of cold weapons, in the killing of blood and fire.
He believed in Master Huang Shihong's words, that a person is a system! The so-called removal of the essence means to leave what suits him and discard what is not suitable for him. If you go through each house and don't specialize, you will be proficient in all the doors, and the doors will be sparse.
In short, it is a family of exercises, and the law knows all the doors.