Yesterday's rain was heavy.

Last night, I suddenly received news that my uncle was in the ICU, and for a while, I panicked, really panicked.

Before my grandfather left, I looked at him on the hospital bed dementia, but I felt that this look, really quite guilty, when I left, I went to school in other provinces, I could only silently bow my head and mourn, but in my heart I felt, this is also a relief, even according to our customs, 100 days to go home to participate in the sacrifice, I don't have too much sadness, grandma left early, grandpa is really too guilty, really.

My uncle was much older than my grandfather when he left, and even thought that his body was quite strong, especially when he was retired at home, he still maintained his sports and health, it was really too sudden, and suddenly my mind was blank.

I looked at my dad, pretending to be nothing, lying on the bed alone, playing with my mobile phone aimlessly, I was silent for a while, relatives, blood is really thicker than water, all I can do is pat my dad, I want to find something to distract my thoughts, and I want to transfer this somewhat unacceptable news first.

Really, at this moment, I found that they were really, really old, when they went out to work hard when they were young, plus the three highs in the family bloodline, they were really old, and they couldn't be as confident and heroic as before.

I went to my cousin to ask about the situation, but I was drinking tea with peace of mind, and suddenly I fell unconscious, and even heard that my heart stopped beating when I was sent to the ICU, and then I was rescued, but I had another worry, which was more frightening than death, that is, brain death.

We don't have the slightest way, and we haven't rushed over to add chaos, at this time, the more people, the more chaos will really be, we can only be mentally prepared, and then, waiting for the arrival of tomorrow, no matter what the situation, after all, we need to get the result and then make plans.

All night, looking at the computer, I couldn't type a word, and even deleted the plot that had written most of the tragedy, I was afraid, I was really afraid.

Maybe I'm superstitious, as Cantonese people, as Cantonese people who regard ancestor worship as extremely important every year, we would rather believe in what we have than what we don't.

So I finished deleting it, and then looked at the computer and continued to be in a daze, praying in my heart, don't have the worst outcome, the whole night, really didn't sleep well, depression, anxiety and worry will really squeeze people's emotions, very similar to the way stress appears, really, very tired.

In the morning, I was ready to go out to find something delicious to suppress my mood, the door opened, it rained, the original dazzling sunlight suddenly retracted into the clouds, the rain was heavy, I could only helplessly return home, rummaging through the refrigerator, taking an ice cream and nibbling on it, aimlessly.

The summer rain only fell for a while, the rain stopped, the sun returned, I ran up to the roof of the building, gulping in the wind that blew away the dark clouds.

Then the mobile phone received a message, it was a video taken by the nurse in the ICU, my uncle woke up, and he had basic consciousness, but he still couldn't get out of the ventilator, so there was no way to visit.

I am extremely glad in my heart that I woke up, I was fine, and everything would slowly get better.

Seriously, everyone cherishes the relatives around us, we are growing up, but they are getting old day by day, after all, they will go away one by one, and we will follow their steps.

What is human life for? I'm a rough person, I don't know, I just know to live every day with peace of mind, do what I want to do, fill in my regrets, don't let my loved ones leave, and then look back and find that the lens of life is only a blurry bits and pieces, which is really sad.

Feel at ease, write something and sigh, and everyone will laugh.

I wish you all good health and your family!

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