Chapter 32: The Barrier
"Wu Fan, we have known each other for ten years, you tell me honestly, you ...... Have you ever liked me?" Wan Li's face turned red when she said this, but her eyes didn't want to leave Wu Fan's face.
"You...... Why do you ask this question? I ......" Wu Fan was also stupid by the question that suddenly popped up, and said in his heart Did he say something wrong, which made Wanli have such an association, if she knew that I had unrequited love for her a long time ago, if I was rejected, then where would I put my face?
"Big man, I officially tell you today, I like you, I want you to be my first love. You are not allowed to like other women in your life, you can only like me. This is my ...... these days. No...... It was the biggest wish and goal in my heart since you were injured to save me on the second day of junior high school. For eight years, I've wanted to wait for you to say this to me, but you piece of wood, I ...... Today, I don't want to regret it, I want to say to you: Wu Fan, please let me walk with you through all tomorrows and the day after tomorrow, and watch every sunrise and sunset in the future. Laugh with you, cry with you. ”
The topic opened, and shyness became a product of transition, and soon it was thrown into the clouds. Wan Li also became more confident and confident the more she spoke. And this sentence has obviously been continuously combined and repeated countless times in Wan Li's mind, but it is still a little bumpy, and when she said half of it, Wan Li's pink fist was pounding Wu Fan's shoulder fiercely.
Bang bang......
Wu Fan didn't dodge, just like before, he didn't expect Wan Li to find himself in such a hurry just to confess his heart to him, and when he heard this, his heart blossomed.
If he had pounced on her in his arms before, he would have jumped up and taken her in his arms and told her that he liked her very, very much. However, when he thinks of his mother's disappearance, he will be assassinated by a killer at any time, and it is very likely that he will be terrified and unable to live all his life, how can he bring bad luck to his most beloved person?
"It's so sudden, I thought you wouldn't like me, and you thought you should have a better future, how could I get the heart of such a beautiful and kind girl as you? No, Wanli, you must be joking with me. Please, beauty, please don't play with me, okay?"
You can't say you like it, you want to love but you don't dare to love. Wu Fan suddenly felt that God was joking with him, if this topic had been said before meeting Shi Guozhi, Wu Fan's mood would not be as contradictory as it is now.
A feeling of suffocation was suppressed in his chest, and he pushed the car door open, stood under the tree on the side of the street, held the thick trunk of the tree, and looked at the crowd of people flowing on the street, his thoughts were turbulent and undulating, but he just couldn't figure out a clue.
Looking at Wu Fan's complicated face, Wan Li got out of the car, walked behind the latter, and hugged her waist from behind Wu Fan, "Wu Fan, I know what you're worried about, from the moment I decided to go back to the mountain city with Uncle Shi to find you, my fate has been completely tied to you, no matter if you die in the world, or die in a foreign land, I am your shadow, one is prosperous, one is dead." Wu Fan, do you dare to take me to the end of the world together?"
Feeling Wan Li's fiery body clinging to his back, Wu Fan's heart was like a deer.
He knew he had to make the fastest decision, but his brain, which usually ran at the speed of light, was unexpectedly jammed, and he couldn't think about anything. It's not that the goddess in his mind hugged him, he was confused, but he seemed to be facing a cutting-edge mathematical problem, in which there were many parameter variables and extremely complex logical relationships, and he had to sort out a clue and give Wanli the most perfect answer.
"Wanli, why are you so stupid? Why do you step in when you know that I am a big quagmire? You do this, it makes me feel ashamed, and my heart feels guilty. ”
"Wu Fan, that time in the face of more than a dozen hooligans, you knew that you would be disabled or even killed, why did you rush up to help me? At that time, you told me, because I helped you, and I was the only one in the class who gave you face. But now I know that it was all empty words, lies. At that time, because you liked me, subconsciously you did not allow anyone to hurt me, and were willing to pay the price of my blood and even your life. ”
I don't know how many times this question has been asked, and a child of that age is ignorant, and it is impossible to know these great truths of moving forward bravely for love, maybe it is just a feeling, and it is impossible to rise to rational understanding. Wu Fan agrees with Wanli's last sentence, he can't admit it, that is a kind of like, a kind of love from the heart. In his heart, Wanli is like a jade lotus that is not stained with earthly dirt, and will never be allowed to be slandered and defiled by anyone.
Wu Fan turned around, put his hands on Wanli's dignified shoulders, looked at the latter's eyes, abandoned the panic in his heart, and said:
"For so many years, your smile, your sorrow, every trembling of your fingertips have been deeply imprinted in the depths of my brain, I know I like you, but I dare not say it, not because I am cowardly, not because my family is poorer than yours, because I feel that I am not worthy. You are a fairy, and I am too vulgar, I am afraid that my vulgarity will be contaminated with you and ruin your image in my heart; I know that I should promise you a lifetime, but I can't say it, you are my eternal dream, I am afraid that a promise will ruin you and become a pain for my life. Wanli, please forgive me for my selfishness, I can't convince myself to dare to love you now. ”
The word love is too heavy, it is not as simple and direct as kissing and XoXo, it is a lifetime of entrustment, that is a lifetime of protection, and a lifetime of responsibility. Although Wu Fan's age didn't understand this level at all, he faintly felt that his bad luck was not over, and if he agreed to Wan Li, it would not be to love her, but to hurt her.
This is the first time that Wu Fan has expressed his innermost thoughts to Wan Li, Wan Li is not excited, and she is not resentful of him.
"Fool, the kind of eternal perfect love you are talking about does not exist in this world, love must have flaws to fluctuate, to make the world obsessed. I don't want to live and live, and I don't want to grow old together, what I ask for is your love for me and my affection. Wu Fan, I know that you are willing to give everything for me, and this is enough. I'm not a fairy, I'm a layman. I don't have a lot of hope, when it's raining, I want someone to hold an umbrella for me, and when it's windy, I want someone to help me out of the wind. When I was a girl, I dreamed of being guarded by a prince charming. He's handsome, cool, and you don't look like it at all. But, when you rushed forward that day, your blood ignited my passion, and at that moment, I felt my blood burning. Many years later, I realized that from that moment on, you had a place in my heart that surpassed the Prince Charming of my dreams. Wu Fan, since we can't be eternal, why bother pursuing that ethereal thing. I'm also selfish, and I want you to give me your happiest years, okay?"