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"Wake up, wake up ......"

It seemed that someone was pushing Xie Jun's shoulder hard, Xie Jun thought in confusion, why did someone come to his side but didn't feel it? Who is it? Listening to the voice is very unfamiliar, it shouldn't be Ke Yan. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

Xie Jun struggled to open his heavy eyes, his head was a little dizzy, his vision was blurry, many points of light and halos were swaying in front of him, and he couldn't see anything clearly.

"You're finally awake, we're closing, you can go, by the way, pay the treatment fee quickly. The voice urged, with deep impatience and disdain.

There seemed to be a white thing dangling in front of him, Xie Jun raised the back of his hand and rubbed his eyes vigorously a few times, the picture that kept shaking gradually stabilized, and the abstract ghost-like ghost turned into a white fat girl, wearing a pink nurse's uniform, this person is ...... By the way, yes, it's the fat nurse in the small clinic, it was more than a year ago, why did you come to this place again? How did you come here? Aren't you practicing at home?......

Thoughts and memories seemed to begin to resurge in an instant, and the surging information drowned Xie Jun, and after a while, the fat nurse had turned from waiting to disdain, and then to anger, and finally froze in fear, she was afraid that Xie Jun would go crazy, maybe at this moment she had regretted the hand she stretched out for the fifty yuan.

Xie Jun suppressed the panic that kept popping up in his heart, and looked around, under the miserable white light, the empty house, the snow-white walls, a circle of chairs against the wall, the metal hanger hanging from the roof, a 21-inch old TV on the wall, but it had been turned off, through the open door, you could see the dark night outside, and the yellow street lamp light, the side was the treatment room, the shelves inside were full of saline bags for hanging bottles, the door to the doctor's room was tightly closed, and the door was pasted with the two big words 'consultation room'.

Xie Jun raised his head and glanced at the fat nurse with confused eyes, so frightened that she took a step back, but the outstretched hand did not retract.

"How much?" Xie Jun's throat was a little itchy, dry, but unfortunately there was no water to drink.

"You, you give fifty. The fat nurse's voice trembled a little, and her eyes didn't dare to make eye contact with Xie Jun.

Xie Jun stretched out his hand and touched his pocket, and suddenly remembered that at that time, he liked to put his wallet in the pocket behind his buttocks, so he leaned sideways and reached out to touch it, and sure enough, here, the two security guards fortunately did not transform into robbers.

opened the wallet, took out the largest denomination bill from it, put it in the fat nurse's hand, and stood up with a chair, Xie Jun seemed to remember something, and suddenly looked up at the little nurse, and then was stunned, as if he had seen something very terrifying, his eyes widened, and his face was full of horror and disbelief.

The little nurse was so frightened that she stepped back again and again, was mixed by the stool behind her, and sat down on the chair used to play hanging bottles, the whole person shrank into a ball, and looked at Xie Jun in horror and screamed: "You...... What are you going to do, I'm going to call someone!"

Xie Jun was awakened by the fat nurse's voice, stretched out his hand and rubbed his face vigorously, looked at the fat nurse carefully for a long time, and finally turned around and walked out, and then suddenly stopped, reached out and touched the back of his head, as if touching the wound, 'hiss' fingers quickly flicked away, shook his head, Xie Jun's back went out of the door, blending into the night of Xia Yue.

A wave of heat mixed with various sounds rushed to the face, the rumbling traffic on the road rushed, and the bright and dazzling two headlights, like the eyes of monsters, glared angrily at the people in the darkness, roaring away. Under the bright street lamp, silent people hurried by, and the vendor selling yellow discs blinked his bright eyes, searching for prey. In the small shop on the side, there were a few students in school uniforms who were buying cigarettes, and from time to time they burst out a few foul words, and found that Xie Jun was observing them, and raised his middle finger at Xie Jun defiantly, laughing wildly and leaving.

"Is it a dream? Are those all dreams? Bioradar, Qimen Shushu, Fu Qi, Master, Ke Yan, Xiao Yan, Xue Meng, Zhuang Shen, Qin Wen, Yan Fengyu, ......" The noisy voice seemed to be far away, Xie Jun stood stunned, completely unable to see the strange eyes of the passers-by around him, slowly recalling the names that he had never forgotten in his heart, recalling the vivid smiles, are they all illusory? Are all things just a dream? Are all those happiness illusory?

Xie Jun felt a lot of pain in his heart, how many years? He seemed to have forgotten this feeling of heartache, like a drop of sulfuric acid, dripping on his heart, corroding, tearing, and painful, making Xie Jun's eyes hazy with tears, and the bright street lamps were like shrunken suns, filling the world, and Xie Jun couldn't see anything else, he raised his drowsy head and looked up at the gloomy sky, the misty dust covered the stars." No, those stars have always been beyond the red dust, what I have seen, what I have really seen, give me back my starry sky......"

Xie Jun stood alone under the starless night sky, looking up helplessly at the red dust, like a lost child.

What is the greatest fear of man? not poverty, not disease, not death, but, loss!!

Xie Jun stood silently on the sidewalk, the passers-by around him became blurred, like silent ghosts, wandering around, Xie Jun lowered his head, closed his eyes, and recalled little by little what he had experienced, or everything he was looking for in his dreams, everything, everyone, torn apart, a little bit, savoring his inner feelings, was moved, was happy, was satisfied, was happy?......

A wise master as kind as a prophet, Ke Yan, who is kind and pure and loyal to herself, Xiao Yan, who is smart and almost stubborn, Xue Meng, who is greedy for money and righteousness, Zhuang Shen, who is filial and a little impulsive, An Jingwen, who is quiet and well-behaved, Yan Fengyu, who has fists bigger than her head, and Qianjin who always eats and can't walk......

How could they have been illusory, they are all so real, so vivid in his memory, bringing him the experience of family and friendship, filling his once lonely and lonely heart, making his soul gradually complete, making him a complete person, no matter real or illusory, they are all real in Xie Jun's heart, and at the same time witness Xie Jun's existence, accompanying him through those days of seeking the 'Tao', Xie Jun knows that they will continue to accompany him until the moment when his life ends.

The corners of Xie Jun's mouth gradually hooked, a smile spread on his tear-stained face, the light and peaceful smile returned to his face, Huo Di opened his eyes, the surrounding scenery slowly faded and disappeared in his sight, all kinds of strange sounds gradually disappeared, raised his head, looked up at the red dust, tumbling and surging, Retreating, as if driven away by a pair of invisible giant hands, the brilliant and vast sea of stars reappeared in Xie Jun's sight, the stars in the sky began to move from slow to fast, and the scenery around him changed like a sea of vicissitudes, Xie Jun seemed to have entered a faster and faster time tunnel, the strange and mysterious rapid evolution, hurriedly telling Xie Jun something.

Xie Jun stands alone in the stars, up and down and left and right are boundless stars and seas, watching the heaven and earth run, the stars and Han circulars, there are boundless stars, even through the ages, people stand in it, such as the dust of the sea of stars, but they can search the eternal, vertical and horizontal eight wilderness, only one heart, this is called the heart of the Tao.

"There is a mixture of things, born congenitally, lonely, reading without changing, traveling around without dying, can be the mother of the world. I don't know its name, the word is the way, and the name of the strong is big. The great is said to be gone, the death is said to be far away, the far is said to be the opposite, so the road is big, the sky is big, the earth is big, and the king is also big. There are four major domains, and the king is in one place, the law of man and the earth, the law of the earth, the law of the heaven, and the law of nature. ”

The sound of the heavens and the earth, such as in the depths of the soul, Xie Jun is very familiar, it is his own voice, as the sound sounds, the surrounding scenery began to change again, those fast-moving stars have become the information flow in the sea of consciousness that he is very familiar with, and the scenery around him slowly transforms, turning into the almost transparent barrier of self-consciousness, and the golden shining runes are impressively on it, slowly running, and from time to time emitting dazzling light.

Xie Jun knows that he is back, the so-called heart demon, is just a spiritual journey, as long as you have no regrets, it is not a demon, but an assistant to help you complete your soul, it allows the hurried time to return, let you re-appreciate every step of growth, summarize your own gains and losses, correct your deviations, make up for the loopholes in your soul, and prepare for you to accelerate forward.

Xie Jun seemed to hear a loud bang, as if something was being swept away by a torrent, and a feeling of joy and relief came from the depths of his own self-consciousness, and it seemed that a hot current wrapped Xie Jun, comfortable and relaxed.

It seemed like it was just a moment, and it seemed like a long time had passed, Xie Jun's consciousness slowly condensed, retreated from the kind of comfort that made people obsessed, and withdrew from the state of concentration, Xie Jun slowly felt that in the path of the Zushao Yang gallbladder meridian meridian group, a small but powerful torrent was surging slowly and firmly, when Xie Jun wanted to carefully feel what these torrent-like qi were, it was like mist, dissipating without a trace, and when Xie Jun withdrew his attention, it was still stubbornly flowing there.

Xie Jun was not disappointed, at least now he could clearly feel the qi, although he couldn't go deep into the inside of the qi and figure out what the qi was, but being able to feel and control his qi was already a huge improvement.

Using his consciousness to push the qi in the meridians to swim fast or slowly, Xie Jun was inexplicably happy.

(To be continued)