Chapter 18 Drifting Away Like Ice

Li Yunxuan looked at Ouyang Bei quietly, as if looking at a stranger he had never seen before, and an unbelievable look on his handsome face made him frown slightly. After a long time, Li Yunxuan gradually came back to his senses from his shock, and asked Ouyang Bei uncertainly: "You say, it may be Qingyan?" Ouyang Bei nodded, Li Yunxuan said with a solemn expression: "According to my understanding of Qingyan, she is simple and kind, and she will not do this kind of thing to do things in the meal." "Hmph!" Ouyang Bei sneered: "Simple and kind, you have only known her for a few days? Do you believe in her so deeply? If you can be unwary of a woman like Qingyan who doesn't know the roots, why can't you trust Xiaoyue's heart for you?" Ouyang Bei's words hit Li Yunxuan's weakest place in his heart, where his love for Leng Yue had been sealed deep into the bone marrow, at this time, Ouyang Bei's slam hit made Li Yunxuan's heart throb again, he raised his head in pain and looked at Ouyang Bei's eyes in pain, and said: " In this life, Xiaoyue is my only beloved woman, and my only dearest relative in this world, I have never doubted her, I only hate myself for not being able to protect her, I have ...... in the past six months" Li Yunxuan was stunned for a while, he didn't know what to say next, Ouyang Bei looked at Li Yunxuan's overwhelmed expression, and said, "Can't you go on?" Because in the past six months, you have gradually forgotten Xiaoyue, your heart is no longer concerned about her all the time, and you will not be miserable because you miss her, as long as you don't see Xiaoyue again, your feelings will no longer have the slightest wave, your heart is getting colder and colder day by day, until you forget the woman in this world who has a deep love for you and is infatuated. Li Yunxuan endured the grief in his heart, and listened carefully to Ouyang Bei's cold words, like steel needles piercing his gradually recovering heart, and like a hammer, hammering his already lost soul.

Ouyang Bei sighed helplessly, and a trace of pain appeared on his heroic face: "Yun Xuan, in the past six months, I have been accompanying Xiaoyue every day, all her pain, I see it clearly in my eyes, every day she endures great pain and comes to this small courtyard to see you, but I only see your closed door, and the chatter and laughter of you and Qingyan from time to time." Li Yunxuan looked at Ouyang Bei suspiciously, and finally couldn't help asking: "You say, what does it mean that Xiao Yue endured a huge pain?" Then he seemed to think of something, and instantly became excited: "Xiao Yue, what's wrong with ......her? Leng Yue's cold and ruthless eyes, a trace of murderous intent flashed in his eyes, and the eyes that cut off all love were like a sword deeply inserted into Li Yunxuan's heart, making him feel pain every time he thought about it.

Ouyang Bei looked at Li Yunxuan, he saw a trace of despair in Li Yunxuan's eyes, shook his head and sighed lightly: "Yunxuan, in fact, Xiaoyue is more painful than you, that night's qiē is not under her control, when you hold her hand and want her to get rid of the discomfort caused by 'Feihong', her heart will be in severe pain, and the palm that slaps you is not something that her mind can control." Li Yunxuan looked at Ouyang Bei in surprise: "You ...... Do you mean, someone accused Xiaoyue?" Ouyang Bei was noncommittal, Li Yunxuan's expression froze, and he suddenly remembered something, but he suddenly said uncertainly: "I remembered, is it?" Ouyang Bei hurriedly said: "What is it?"

Li Yunxuan shook his head, he remembered the night when Lengyue was treated alone, when the helper Xiang Wentian walked out of the Jade Dragon Hall alone, he said to him with a solemn expression that made him confused at the time: "Yunxuan, uncle has done his best, if Leng Yue has any accidents in the future, you can come to me directly, as a helper, I will give you justice." Li Yunxuan raised his head to meet Ouyang Bei's clear eyes: "This matter, maybe the helper can explain something for us." ”

Since returning from Nanshan at the end of that day, Leng Yue locked herself in the room and never went out, and Qingyan still lived in the Eternal Altar of Friendship. After Li Yunxuan and Ouyang Bei met Xiang Wentian together, the two stayed in Li Yunxuan's room for a day and night, until the next day, Ouyang Beifang walked out of Li Yunxuan's room and went straight back to the main altar.

At dusk, Leng Yue was still hiding in the room and didn't want to go out, Xu is the appointment of Zhongnan Mountain made Leng Yue completely cold, she felt that the battle between the two teenagers was all for her own sake, but Leng Yue didn't understand why when she returned from Zhongnan Mountain, Li Yunxuan and Ouyang Bei were silent, that day she only lingered in the beautiful scenery of the Taiyi Holy Realm of Zhongnan Mountain and the tranquility of the isolated corner, and she didn't know what Ouyang Bei and Li Yunxuan were talking about, but Li Yunxuan's expression no longer had a cold look towards himself and a hostile gaze towards Ouyang Bei, except for deep exhaustion and fleeting pain in his eyes, Leng Yue didn't see too many expressions on Li Yunxuan's face, and Ouyang Bei is still elegant, free and easy like the breeze and the moon. Except for the wound on his left shoulder, he faintly saw oozing red blood, which was the same as usual.

"Knock, knock" A knock on the door woke up Leng Yue, who was deep in thought, and slowly walked to the door, Leng Yue gently pushed the door open, Ouyang Bei stood outside the door with a sunny face, such a smile without impurities, for a moment Leng Yue's mind was in a trance, and quietly looked at the young man in front of him, in the company of Chao Twilight for half a year, no matter what she did, this young man was like an inseparable relative who was always by her side, sharing all her sorrows and anguish, trying to make her happy, although he knew that he couldn't take back a little bit of love from Li Yunxuan, he still waited for her silently without regrets。 Leng Yue's heart was never moved, looking at the young man in front of him with clear eyebrows and beautiful eyes, this stupid child who was like a jade in order to resolve the misunderstanding between her and Li Yunxuan, in order to find out why Li Yunxuan became cold and unfeeling, did not hesitate to go to Zhongnanshan, and used his own blood to unravel Li Yunxuan's confused mind. Li Yunxuan's shot, with Ouyang Bei Dengfeng's martial arts, why couldn't he dodge? He just didn't dodge. At this time, a thousand words turned silent, and only one said: "Xiaobei." Leng Yue hugged Ouyang Bei tightly, for fear that he would lose him as soon as he let go, hot tears soaked Ouyang Bei's clothes, Ouyang Bei gently wrapped his hands around Leng Yue's obviously thin and slightly trembling body, and patted Leng Yue's shoulder with his right hand: "Xiao Yue is good, don't cry." Only this sentence made Leng Yue's tears rain down. Ouyang Bei chuckled and said, "Come, let's go into the house and say." Immediately felt Leng Yue's body shake, Ouyang Bei's heart ached slightly, she knew that Leng Yue had sensed that she had something to say, how much more did this smart woman, a weak and slender heart, have to endure?

Back in the room, without waiting for Ouyang Bei to speak, Leng Yue said almost pleadingly: "Don't go, okay Xiaobei?" Ouyang Bei's eyes lit up: "Xiaoyue?" Leng Yue suddenly burst into tears: "I know that you left to find the reason for the pain in my heart, there are many things that make us helpless, but Xiaobei, you know that I will be lonely when you leave, I would rather stay together like this, even if I endure the pain, there is no fear in the days with you, I don't want to go to see Brother Yunxuan every day in the future, don't you go, okay?" A trace of pain flashed on Ouyang Bei's face, for the past six months, she had accompanied Leng Yue to the Xuanwu Altar every day, and every time this poor girl looked at Li Yunxuan's closed door and the tears that fell silently were like hot molten iron dripping in Ouyang Bei's heart. He swore that he must make Xiao Yue happy, watching her laugh hand in hand with her beloved, he would be happy ---- himself, right? Reaching out to stroke Leng Yue's long hair like a waterfall without modification, Ouyang Bei said softly: "Xiao Yue, give me three months, and after three months, no matter where I am, I will return to you." Leng Yue helplessly hugged Ouyang Bei again, her cheeks were buried deep in Ouyang Bei's chest, tears burned Ouyang Bei's chest through her clothes, Ouyang Bei gently stroked Leng Yue's long hair: "Remember to be happy, don't cry all the time, I will be distressed." Leng Yue hugged Ouyang Bei's arms tightly, without any words, only burying her face deeper.

Li Yunxuan's handsome face turned red, jumped off the chair and walked back and forth in the room twice, and finally stopped in front of Ouyang Bei: "You can't go, Xiaobei, you know that Xiaoyue can't do without you." Ouyang Bei obviously didn't expect such a sentence to pop out of Li Yunxuan's mouth, he said in surprise: "Yunxuan, don't you want me to leave Xiaoyue? Why are you talking like this at this time?" Li Yunxuan said loudly: "It's just not good." In an instant, he seemed to feel that he was speechless, so he said in a depressed voice: "Xiaobei, you know that I was distracted during that time, and it was not my true temperament, why do you still use it to make fun of Yun Xuan? Not to mention that you are leaving, who will take care of Xiao Yue?" Li Yunxuan laughed self-deprecatingly, turned his face and stopped looking at Ouyang Bei, and said a little sadly: "I really want to take care of Xiao Yue, but I am afraid that I will bring her more harm." Ouyang Bei got up from his chair: "Yun Xuan, I will leave only after I have already made arrangements, otherwise do you think I will be willing to leave Xiao Yue here alone? Besides, I really don't worry about you." "You ......" Li Yunxuan was suddenly speechless, although Ouyang Bei's words made him angry, but they also made him ashamed, in the past half a year, Leng Yue had been hurt all because of him, shaking his head, Li Yunxuan sighed and sat down on the chair decadently.

Ouyang Bei still had a sunny smile: "I'm joking, Yun Xuan, in fact, your heart for Xiaoyue is probably unmatched in this world, but since you love each other, don't torture each other and let the bad guys take advantage of the loopholes." Li Yunxuan understood that what Ouyang Bei was referring to was Qingyan, and Nanshan didn't ask in detail at the end of that day, at this time, since Ouyang Bei was ready to leave for a while, he would definitely explain the details clearly as a precaution, Li Yunxuan raised his head and looked at Ouyang Bei with an inquiring gaze.

Ouyang Bei said slowly: "On the outskirts of Chengdu that day, presumably Yun Xuan already had a hatred for Xiao Bei, right?" Li Yunxuan was stunned when he heard this, maybe he didn't expect that he was hiding in the suburbs of Chengdu that day, and he had already been discovered by Ouyang Bei. Ignoring Li Yunxuan's surprise, Ouyang Bei continued: "That day, Xiaoyue deeply blamed herself for the palm that slapped you the night before, she couldn't forgive herself no matter what, I took her to Chengdu, but also thought of a place with extremely beautiful scenery so that she could feel more comfortable, teach her Shushan swordsmanship, one can help her improve her martial arts, and the other can allow her to temporarily relieve the pain in her heart, but what I didn't expect is that her pain is actually a real pain, and it hurts in my heart." Li Yunxuan looked at Ouyang Bei with a puzzled expression, he asked Ouyang Bei to give him an answer, an answer that he desperately wanted to know. Ouyang Bei sighed: "Yun Xuan, you should clearly remember the night Xiao Yue woke up, you happily hugged her, but she pushed you away inexplicably, right?" Seeing Li Yunxuan's confused nod, Ouyang Bei smiled bitterly: " At that time, Xiao Yue only felt a faint pain in her heart, she always thought it was her hallucination, until one day, you met Xiao Ye at the gate of the Xuanwu Altar, Xiao Yue despised Xiao Ye's person, and did not plan to go to the Xuanwu Altar, you reached out and grabbed her, at that moment, Xiao Yue obviously felt a tingling pain in her heart. "Yes. Li Yunxuan hurriedly said: "Xiao Yue told me at that time, and I also asked her why her heart hurts." She also asked me a lot of inexplicable questions, and then she didn't mention the idea of leaving the Xuanwu Altar and returning to the main altar. Ouyang Bei nodded and said, "She really didn't know why at the time, but she still guessed something, plus Xiao Yue accidentally caught a glimpse of Xiao Ye's inexplicable evil smile, she was sure that someone was harming her." So she planned to stay in the Xuanwu Altar temporarily, originally she thought that as long as you don't have skin-to-skin contact anymore, she won't have any more pain, even if she accidentally touches it, she can still bear the pain for a while, so Xiaoyue didn't tell you about it. Li Yunxuan's eyes were already bursting with fire at this time, he suppressed the anger that might explode at any time, and closed his eyes: "This stupid girl." Opening his eyes, Li Yunxuan's eyes flashed with pain: "How could she bear such an injury alone?"

Ouyang Bei said helplessly: "What Xiaoyue has endured, it's not just these. If the matter had stopped, Satsuki would not have been hurt so much, and what was even more infuriating was that the person who harmed Satsuki actually manipulated her will. That day, the uncle gave the 'Feihong' gift in the uncle's room, and Xiaoyue was overjoyed and unconsciously transported the internal force on the 'Feihong', when you thought that Xiaoyue could not control the 'Feihong' and stepped forward to stop it, Xiaoyue slapped it at you. "Hmm. Li Yunxuan nodded: "I saw the murderous aura in Xiao Yue's eyes. "That's right. Ouyang Bei continued: "Xiao Yue has always been deeply tormented by that thought at that time, no matter how I explain it to her, it is useless, she has never forgiven herself. Until later, she couldn't even think of you, as long as she thought of you, that kind of heart-piercing pain would hit her whole body, Satsuki said, that kind of pain, as if thousands of insects were eating her heart. ”

Every word made Li Yunxuan miserable, what kind of person was so vicious and used such despicable means to harm Xiao Yue? It turned out that his Xiao Yue was suffering such inhuman pain and torture, no wonder Ouyang Bei would say that in the past six months, Xiao Yue had endured great pain to see him. What reason does he have to forgive himself? He is not worthy of forgiveness in death, whether or not someone really manipulates his own diet or not, he should not be so numb. Suddenly, Li Yunxuan trembled: "Then how did you notice that there was something wrong with Qingyan?" Ouyang Bei said: "That Qingyan is as elusive as a ghost, and it is difficult not to make people suspicious." Li Yunxuan remembered that day in the suburbs of Chengdu, Qingyan quietly appeared behind him, and said that inexplicable sentence, and also felt that Ouyang Bei's words were not unreasonable. I only heard Ouyang Bei continue: " That day in Chengdu, I have noticed her, this half a year, enough for me to know her whereabouts well, but unfortunately the woman's whereabouts are strange, I found that she went to the Mausoleum of the First Emperor several times, but unfortunately she avoided me in an unknown way, so I paid more attention to her every move, I found that she would personally cook rice and send it to your room every day, I thought it was just out of concern between friends, but I found that after she cooked every day, she would prick her middle finger with a silver needle, and drop a drop of blood in the bowl, I didn't know what I meant at the time, until I saw you that day, and saw that your face was abnormal, and I thought that it might be that the meal sent by Qingyan was strange。 "So you fulfilled the appointment of Zhongnanshan?" Li Yunxuan asked: "You could have refused, and disdained to compete with me with your martial arts, but you responded with one bite and deliberately retreated, so that I was stabbed by a shot to save my mind?" Li Yunxuan's one-breath questioning only got Ouyang Bei's smile, Li Yunxuan's heart was sour, he faintly felt something, but he refused to admit it, and held back the grief in his heart, Li Yunxuan asked softly: "Why did you do this?" Ouyang Bei smiled: " Because Satsuki, she is my best friend, and everything I do for her is worth it. Li Yunxuan was stunned, was he? Best friend? Looking at Ouyang Bei's innocent and sunny smile, Li Yunxuan felt a tingling in his heart, what have he been doing in the past six months? He kept saying that he was for his relatives and his lover, but he repeatedly did things that hurt his loved ones, and his guilt washed away the ice in Li Yunxuan's heart like a flood that burst the embankment, and Ouyang Bei's words were like warm sunshine, gradually melting away the broken ice slag. Ouyang Bei was moved by Li Yunxuan's deep affection for Leng Yue, and was also involved in Leng Yue's infatuation, but Li Yunxuan blamed himself for Ouyang Bei's narrow-mindedness. It's ice, it's always the warmth of people's hearts, some people are willing to melt the ice with their hearts, why worry about the frost for thousands of years?