Is it retreat or war?

Recently, Xiao Yuer has been thinking about this problem, retreating is giving up, fighting is fighting, two extremes, two choices, there will be two different endings.

Xiao Yu'er has been writing books for a few years, but she can't make it, because Xiao Yu'er knows that she can't blame the readers, she can't blame herself, because she didn't reach the G point of others, so there are not many customers.

Xiao Yuer is always working hard and changing, but because of habits and personality reasons, as well as so many years of growth experience, it is very serious, frolicking and grandstanding, and the aspect of catering is always avoiding, always like logical symmetry, so that between the lines also reveal the atmosphere of block letters and the pursuit of perfection, which is a little out of place.

Xiao Yuer thinks that there is nothing wrong with this, but she is a little unwilling, because no one approves of it, and there is no achievement, which is the biggest blow to a person who writes.

It is also because of this that I was once full of ambition and confidence, but now I am melancholy, and my heart is full of confusion and entanglement.

In addition to the interest of writing books, there is one thing I don't want to mention, but it is like a shadow, that is the most primitive substance, I remember that after resigning in July, I originally planned to go home to code words, while starting a business, while living the life I like.

Hey, I still have to sigh and say a common saying: "Zhumen's wine and meat stink, and there are frozen bones on the road!"

Xiao Yuer's family background is not very good, his parents are sick and old, illiterate, with the old ideas of old China, working at sunrise and sunset, facing the loess with his back to the sky, tired for most of his life, but his family is surrounded by four walls, heh, nothing.

In the past, Xiaoyuer didn't understand why this happened, hard work and diligence should be rewarded, but now I have long understood that the world is so hot and cold, it is not just hard work.

It's been almost five months, like five years, the family often quarrels, Xiao Yu'er doesn't want to go out all the time, really wants to beg for a good meal, no matter what, it's also a college student, not lazy, not stupid, go to the hall, enter the kitchen, a mouthful of food, is it so difficult?

Father and mother also want Xiao Yu'er to go out, they want to have a job, a stable salary, at least to supplement the family!

Hey, the world is so big, the sea of people is vast, but no one understands me? Xiao Yu'er is not unwilling to work, nor is it that he can't find a job, and he gave up his original job with a decent salary, in order to go further?

I know that you can't have both, and there will always be a gap between the ideal and the reality, but I am a person who lives for the ideal, and I don't want to spend my life working for food.

It may be selfish, but it's the meaning of living!

Saying this, it's not for anyone to be pitied, men don't need the pity of others, I will create my own life!

I just want someone to know that I have existed, worked hard, and will continue to do so, I just hope that someone can accompany me, even if it is up the mountain, down to the sea of fire, through time and space, and will not be extinguished!

Well, some heartfelt words, some whining words, I want to tell you that no matter whether you have income or not, no matter how difficult it is, this book Xiaoyuer will definitely finish writing and write it well!

If you still write this book, it must be after filling your stomach!

This sentence is posted in the text and related to each other, don't blame!(To be continued......)