124 times There is a famous mother of all things, holding a mysterious knot birth
Ziying watched me stand up and reach out and hold my head to her chest. Then she said faintly: "Ono, I want to tell you something." When a practitioner cleanses the marrow, the skin will be renewed, and the general birthmark and scars will disappear. When I first met you, you had already gone through the process of easy tendon purification. ...... So there's no doubt about the birthmark. Later, there was another scar on your chest, I'm afraid it was providence!"
Ziying's words completely shattered the remaining trace of luck in my heart that could have been a coincidence. It was Grandpa Jin who carried me back to the village, and he was the one who washed my muscles and marrow for me when I was a child. I put my face against Ziying's soft ** and sighed, "In this case, there is no doubt that I am the baby." Ziying tells you a secret, in fact, Grandpa Jin is a true person. He was the one who washed my muscles and marrow when I was very young. ”
Ziying was also taken aback, but not as shocked as I imagined: "When I see Huang Yadan, I know how to make wine at will." This can't be the kind of temperament that ordinary Chinese medicine practitioners or even ordinary practitioners can have. I was suspicious for a long time, but I didn't expect him to be an upright person! No wonder he would admit that he had a master-apprentice relationship with you, and he rescued you several times. ...... Ono is really providential to let me come to you. You saved my life shortly after you were born. ”
"I can't say that, you both saved me at the same time. Goofy doesn't hurt you, and you can't lead him to the place I am without escaping. You don't lead him away. He will not be able to pick me. If she doesn't show me, I, a newborn baby, abandoned in the mountains, how can I live? Speaking of which, you are also my life-saving benefactor!"
Ziying: "This period of cause and effect is really complicated, and even I can't explain it clearly. ...... Even if you ask Grandpa Jin and Gao Feidu, I'm afraid it's hard to know who your biological parents are? One of them is the one who picked up the child, and the other is the one who took the child. Not the one who discarded the child. ”
"I forgot to ask, I don't know if there was anything left with me that left a clue. ”
Ziying: "This is indeed a clue. But you forget about another outsider. This person may seem to have nothing to do with your background on the surface, but he has become a clever matchmaker. Tell me who this person is?"
"Feng Junzi! it's him! Old Man Gao and you were all brought to me by him. He made a point for me to approach you, and to be born on the same day. And the birthmark on my chest is gone, and he has inexplicably patched it up again!"
Ziying: "But he wasn't born when you were born! I think he must know something, but he didn't say anything." This person for you. It's amazing! I have to thank him for sending me he. ...... Every afternoon before class, he would go to the green snow tea room to have a cup of tea. I want to find him now, and it's just the right time. ”
Ziying and I discussed and decided to go out of Jingwu Cave Heaven together and come to the green snow tea. Feng Junzi was sitting there drinking tea while listening to what Liu Yiyi said. I guess I'm talking about me. As soon as he saw me enter the door, before I could speak, he spoke first: "Ishino, you honestly explained what happened, why didn't you go to class this morning." And ran to Jingwu Cave to scare Liu Yiyi?"
Yiyi said on the side: "My brother didn't scare me, he was just confused." ”
Wind Gentleman: "That's really something." You come back with me. ”
The Wind Gentleman had something to ask me, and I had something to ask, and he followed him into the back room of the Green Snow Tea. Liu Yiyi also wanted to follow up to let Ziying stop. When I entered the house, I closed the door, and the gentleman had already sat down, looked at me, and asked, "Liu Yiyi said that you are in a trance, and your heart is like numbness, and you are still asking in your heart, 'Who am I'...... I haven't taught you the mental method and mantra of fetal movement, and you haven't changed your bones yet, why are you confused now?"
I didn't understand what the Wind Gentleman said. He sat down and replied, "I'm afraid this is really a human catastrophe that can't be avoided." I found out this morning that I wasn't born to my parents now. ”
Feng Junzi jumped up: "You don't have a high fever, do you? Why did you suddenly think of saying such things!"
"Don't you know?"
Feng Junzi: "What can I know? I didn't know where your parents were when they gave birth to you?"
"But Ziying guesses what you should know. ”
Feng Junzi: "What does this have to do with Han Ziying? ”
Looking at the expression of the gentleman, he was really surprised, and he didn't seem to know about it. Maybe Han Ziying guessed wrong? No matter what the facts are, since I asked, I should make things clear. So, I saw Old Man Gao in Zhiwei Building last night, and Han Ziying's reaction was wrong, and I began to talk about my doubts about my life experience from beginning to end. Finally, I asked, "Feng Junzi thinks that before you preached my Dan Dao, you instructed me in the market to meet the three strangers. On that day, you pointed out to me, the first person was Gao Feidi, and the third person was Han Ziying. Is it an accident? Do you know something?"
The Wind Gentleman looked at me with a rare look of confusion on his face, as if he was thinking hard. After a long time, he asked me: "Mr. Zhang mentioned to you the golden words of the fortune calculation, and I also told you about the casual Zen in Buddhism. The two seem to be the same, so where do you say they are the same, and what are the differences?"
"What does this have to do with my background?"
Wind Gentleman: "The cause and effect are complicated, you just have to answer." ”
"Whether it is Chrysostom or casual Zen, the magic lies in four words - words are the law. In my opinion, it is no different, if I must say different. That's the difference between people and the difference between illegality. Chrysostom and casual talk are the difference between wanting and not wanting to do so. ”
Wind Gentleman: "It's wonderful, you can say the words 'words are the law'." You must know that I have been studying these four words for a long time, and I have not fully understood them until today. Thank you very much! You are the same person I was today. If you have this awareness, you can practice the third gate of the four gates and the twelve-story building. ”
"I want to learn the next Didan Dao, but what I'm asking about now is my life experience. ”
Wind Gentleman: "I'm talking about your background. Today I will tell you why you will find the source yourself. ...... I think when I gave you an ancient painting, you casually said that it was picked up from the waste paper pile in the paper mill. When you gave the snuffbox to Yang Xiaokang, you casually said that you took it from Grandpa Jin's house. I knew you had this blessing. ”
"It's not a miracle or a blessing?"
Wind Gentleman: "Chrysostom is the emperor." It is a great blessing for mortals to be in the world. Casual Zen is a great blessing for practitioners. It's not something that everyone can have, and it's not something that can be attained by practicing in one lifetime. Don't destroy what you cherish...... In fact, I also have this blessed fate, and saying the Dharma is not only what I say and do, but also implicitly in line with the Tao and can solve cause and effect. So you asked me why I brought you to Gao Feidu and Han Ziying, but I don't know. I just figured it out. ”
"You didn't say anything for a long time!"
Feng Junzi smiled: "Shi Ye, do you think what I just said was the truth or a lie?"
His smile and question were a little strange, and I could only answer honestly: "I don't know, I can't really see it, I can't hear it!"
Wind Gentleman: "Actually, I can't tell if I look at myself in the mirror...... I won't be hard for you. To give you a hint, Han Ziying thought of me, a key person in the bureau, but when I heard you, I thought of the key person in the bureau. This person is the upright real person Jin Sanshan. In this matter, if Grandpa Jin is an ordinary village Chinese medicine doctor, there is nothing suspicious. But don't forget that he's a true man. If you are a person of unknown origin, how can he wash your muscles and marrow for you since childhood, so as to hide the birthmark that identifies you?"
"You're saying that the true people know my background. I should have asked him. ”
Wind Gentleman shook his head: "Even if he knew, he wouldn't tell you." If he wants to tell you, then he should tell you when you go to Zhengyi Sanshan and see him. I ask you, can I say that there is nothing to talk about in the relationship between you and me? But if I don't want to tell you, is it useful for you to ask me?"
"In my experience, it's really useless. ”
Feng Junzi: "Being upright in such a matter can be said to be the same kind of person as me. So it's useless for you to ask him. It's useless to not ask. ”
"So what should I do?"
Wind Gentleman: "Your luck has come." I'm waiting for this day! I want to know your life history, there is a way to see it with discerning eyes. Cultivators have great supernatural powers to know the past and the future, and if you take a look at what happened twenty years ago, won't everything be clear?"
"But I don't have this supernatural power, do you want to teach me?"
Feng Junzi nodded: "Cultivation is not good just by relying on the master to teach the Fa, and the disciple's own chance is more important." I can tell you that there is a 'bone change catastrophe' between the four gates and the twelve-story building, the seventh floor 'fetal movement' and the eighth floor 'baby', which you already know. After breaking through the 'baby' realm, before the 'Yang God' realm, there is another heavenly tribulation, called the 'Bitter Sea Heavenly Tribulation'. When a practitioner goes through this calamity, it is like standing on the shore of the bitter sea, and looking back, he can trace the causes of the past. The reason why it is called the coming of the catastrophe is because if you can't let go, you can't cross the sea of suffering, and you're about to go to the other side. ...... Regardless of whether you let go of it or not, you will have the ability to chase your eyes so far. ”
"So far, I'm at least two realms away. Hey, gentleman, you're past this realm, then you should have the ability to chase eyes, can't you take a look at it for me?"
The wind gentleman smiled: "Magical people know if there is a fate. This is what I said when I explained to you that there is always a limit to people's divine powers, and supernatural powers are not omnipotent, and they must also pay attention to the fate. If you have the ability to chase eyes, you can't necessarily see everything, and you have to meet certain conditions when casting spells. It's not that I don't want to help, it's that I can't help, even if I'm standing on the shore of the bitter shore and looking back, it's not necessarily you. I'm just going to talk about the reasons today and let you go to the source for yourself. When I said just now that your luck is coming, I can finally pass on the third Dan Dao to you, and when you reach your own realm, you will know the things yourself. ”
"You can finally pass on my third Dan Dao, what does this mean, can't you pass it on before?"
Wind Gentleman: "That's true, even if I want to teach you, I'm afraid I won't be able to learn it." What I'm waiting for is today's opportunity to spread the Fa! Do you know? Why are there so many sects of cultivation that have taught the Dan Dao only until the Jindan Dacheng, but they have no secret and cannot be comprehended by their disciples? For example, the Zhongnan School. ...... Because at this point in cultivation, if the disciple does not have good fortune and good fortune, the master will not be able to teach it. According to the realm, Jindan Dacheng is not low, but at this point, he is only a ghoul. If you continue to do the bitter sea and the catastrophe in the future, you will just be a loser in the end. ”
Jindan Dacheng guards the ghouls and the sea of bitterness has not left the empty man. This is the first time that the Wind Gentleman has used a mocking tone to describe the realm in his cultivation. And my realm at this time is nothing more than a ghoul in his mouth. I asked him with a bitter face, "Why did my luck come? Is it because of my background?"
Wind Gentleman: "Well, that's complicated to say! Are you asking yourself where you came from? Who was you before you were called Shi Ye? Who would you be if you removed the name Shi Ye? Have you always had this question today when you were in a trance?"
"Yes. ”
Feng Junzi: "This is the state of mind of 'fetal movement' in Dan Dao. It is not enough for others to have this state of mind, because it has to be after the vacuum. And today you can...... If I don't pass on your mental formula, let you understand and self-cultivate, if you have a coincidence, maybe you can also break through the realm. But it's better for me to teach you. ...... Ishino: I've already given you a copy of "Lao Tzu", so you can read it. Now recite the first chapter. ”
The Wind Gentleman actually asked me to endorse it. "Lao Tzu" 5,000 texts, I have already memorized the rolling melons, and I came as soon as I opened my mouth: "The Tao is very Tao." The name can be called very famous. The beginning of the nameless world. The mother of all things. Therefore, there is often no desire to observe its wonder, and there is often a desire to observe it. These two are the same and have different names, and they are the same mysteries. The door of mystery and mystery. ”
This passage of Lao Tzu is subtle and abnormal, it is quite abstract spiritual speculation, and its realm is like a floating cloud floating in the sky, which is unpredictable. Since ancient times, I don't know how many people have had different understandings of this passage. Every time I read this paragraph, what I feel is mysterious.
The Wind Gentleman said across from me, "Very good, word for word." I'm telling you that this passage is the mantra of 'fetal movement' in my four doors and twelve-story Lou Dan Dao. It is also the 'entrance' pursued by the people of Dan Dao since ancient times. ...... You go back and think about it, and I'll pass on your mind in the old place tonight. ”
The "fetal movement" mantra that I have been asking for a long time is a text that I memorized precociously. It's not surprising that the mantras taught by the gentleman in the past were all borrowed from the classics? The classics are memorized by everyone, but no one clicks them, and they are just words on paper. I asked him, "What do you mean – Lao Tzu is talking about the Dan Tao mantra in this passage?"
Feng Junzi: "Lao Tzu may not be preaching the Dan Dao formula, but the Dan Tao can be used as a formula." The four doors and twelve floors were created by me, and they were not created by Lao Tzu! In addition to the Yang God realm, most of the Taoist methods in the world use the 'longevity formula', and the previous realms are similar to each other, and the formulas are different, so I just borrowed them. ...... Let me ask you, the book I gave you clearly says 'Yuan Zhi and Yuan', how did you read it yourself as Xuan?"
"The one you gave me is a printed copy of Ji Xiaolan's compilation of the Siku Quanshu. In the Qing Dynasty, in order to avoid the Kangxi Emperor Xuanye's obscurity, Xuan changed Xuan to Yuan. I've read so many books, and I don't know that?"
Feng Junzi nodded: "I can't look at you with old eyes, you are no longer the Shi Ye when I first met, and my knowledge is growing! Let me ask you another question, I obviously taught you Dan Dao, but you are very close to Buddhism and practice." Even if a real monk learns Buddhism and cultivates, he may not be as diligent as you, and this is not what I, a master, are capable of. Do you know what's going on?"
"I don't know what you're talking about?"
Wind Gentleman: "Newton once said something in our textbooks. What did he say he was standing on?"
"Standing on the shoulders of giants. What does this have to do with Newton?"
Wind Gentleman: "It has nothing to do with Newton. It has something to do with what he said. You have been sitting on the shoulders of a Buddha and practicing. Do you still remember the futon I put under the Zhuangyuan Bridge? There are so many futons in Jiulin Zen Temple, I didn't borrow it, but I borrowed that one. For no other reason, because there is something very special hidden inside. This thing is famous all over the world. A few years ago, I was afraid that everyone in the Buddhist community knew about it, but in recent years. Almost everyone in the world knows it. ”
"What is it? Is it a treasure of Buddhism? How can it be known to the whole world?"
Feng Junzi: "I don't say that you will test your casual Zen, what do you say it will be?"
What is it? Wouldn't it be a relic? The Bayeux Sutra is also unlikely? Sitting on the shoulder of a Buddha? Everyone in the world has known it for the past few years? What could it be? Then I suddenly thought of a movie from a few years ago and blurted out, "Could it be -- a kapok robe?"
I only heard a grunt, and the gentleman didn't sit down firmly and fell under the chair. He then got up and lowered his voice and exclaimed, "God actually let you tell you right! It is indeed the Kapok robe, a token of Zen Buddhism." Forget it, don't ask, I won't say it, I'm afraid it's another storm if I say it. ...... I'm telling you. In the future, you don't want to practice again, and you will not go under the Zhuangyuan Bridge, or Jingwu Cave Heaven is the most suitable. You can take that futon to Jingwu Cave Heaven as well. ...... Now when you go out, the Yin God will meet you at the Zhuangyuan Bridge. ”
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Some time ago, the great monks of Shaolin Temple had a discussion about whether to erect a monument to someone? This person's name is Jet Li, and I don't need to introduce such a famous person. Originally, the monk passed away. What is left is just a relic, Shaolin Temple, there is a monument in the Tallinn Temple, only the Bodhidharma Patriarch is commemorate. Although actor Jet Li also believes in Zen Buddhism, at least for now, it is far from being comparable to Bodhidharma. But Jet Li brought two things to the Shaolin Temple back then - fame and fortune!
Starting from "Shaolin Temple", Jet Li starred in a series of movies set in Shaolin Temple and Shaolin Kung Fu. Now he has become a generation of international kung fu superstars. With Jet Li's superstar road, the Shaolin Temple has now become the most famous Buddhist temple in the world. Therefore, there will be a discussion of erecting a monument. Except, of course, Jet Li. There is another important figure who has reinvigorated the prestige of contemporary Shaolin, Master Hai Deng, but the influence of Hai Lantern is far less international than Jet Li. If Zen Buddhism erects a monument for the propagation of the Dharma, it is not reproachful, but it is somewhat indecent to erect a monument for fame and fortune. So the matter was not settled later.
"Shaolin Temple" is a 1982 film that brought together the elite of the Chinese martial arts world at that time. As soon as this film came out, it set off a wave of kung fu across China**. At that time, most people in the mainland didn't know Bruce Lee, but everyone knew about Shaolin Temple and Jet Li. Subsequently, kung fu and martial arts movies were released one after another, among which there were also works like "Wudang" that set off another small **. But the real classic is "Kapok Robe", co-produced with the mainland by Hong Kong director Xu Xiaoming. The film won the Special Award for Outstanding Film from the Ministry of Culture of China in 1984. This award was no less important and authoritative at that time than the various competitions that are popular today.
The historical background of the movie "Kapok Robe" is the Ming Dynasty, but it is told in a legendary story born in the Tang Dynasty. The story revolves around the Kapok robe, a Buddhist legend
It is said that after smiling at the Lingshan Festival. Shakyamuni passed on the Dharma Eye to the Kasya, and at the same time passed on the kapok robe, which is the origin of Zen Buddhism. Zen Buddhism was passed down in India for twenty-eight generations to the Bodhidharma Patriarch. When Emperor Wu of Liang came to cross the river, he went north to Songshan Shaolin Temple and created a line of Zen Buddhism in China. When the kapok robe and the mantle of Zen Buddhism were passed on to the five ancestors Hongnin, Hongnin did not pass it on to the most famous Shenxiu among his disciples, but to Huineng, who said that "there was nothing in the first place, where to stir up dust".
When Hongren passed on the robe, he instructed Hui Neng: "Only pass on the body, pay the heart, dress for disputes, stop you from passing on the Dharma, and in the future, the Dharma will be carried out by you." Flee across the river to avoid being victimized by the same family. As Hongren expected, Hui Neng was chased and killed all the way with his robe, and he also ignited many people along the way. Many years later, Huineng opened an altar in the south, creating a way of Zen "epiphany", which the world calls the six ancestors. Chinese Zen is from the end of the six ancestors.
Wu Zetian, another disciple of Hongren, Shenxiu, entered the palace to be enshrined. Shenxiu recommended Huineng to Wu Zetian, and his intention was to borrow the hand of the emperor's family to retrieve the kapok robe. Huineng did not enter the palace. But he simply handed over the kapok robe to Wu Zetian for support. Since then, the kapok robe has fallen into the hands of Wu Zetian, and his whereabouts are unknown. Although there are many speculations in the classics of later generations, no one is sure where the kapok robe really went.
There is also a magical legend about the kapok robe. It is said that Shenxiu sent his fellow Hui Ming to hunt down Hui Neng to retrieve the robe. Hui Ming caught up with Hui Neng and put the robe in the grass and asked him to fetch it, but Hui Ming couldn't pick it up. It is said that the Zen belief in the kapok robe has the support of the eight parts of the heavenly dragon, which is not something that mortals can take. Later, Huiming asked the law without taking his clothes. Hui Neng taught him the Zen mind, and he also realized it three years later. Unexpectedly, this magical Buddhist treasure was actually hidden in a futon in Jiulin Zen Temple, and this futon was stolen by the Wind Gentleman, and I have been allowed to sit on it and practice. Incredible, incredible!
If someone else hears about it, they can't help but tear the futon apart to see if there is a kapok robe inside, and if so, what does it look like? But I don't make a futon, it's not my thing, and I can't damage it at will. I just took the futon from under the Zhuangyuan Bridge to the Jingwu Cave Heaven. I thought to myself: In the future, this thing will still be returned to the Jiulin Zen Academy, and I just use it. Zen mantle I'm not interested. But this thing is beneficial to my cultivation, so I will borrow it for the time being.
Since I had to travel in the middle of the night, I couldn't stay in Jingwu Cave and still go to the backroom of the green snow tea room for the night. Sitting on the Yin God outing, I came to the Zhuangyuan Bridge early. Waited for a long time. I saw the wind gentleman flying over slowly. It's not that he's late, it's that I've arrived half an hour early.
"Ishino, you're early. I'm in a hurry, isn't it? I am lazy in teaching the Fa and can't practice the Fa. Impatience is not allowed. ...... Did you bring your ears today?" asked me unhurriedly.
"ears with me!"
Wind Gentleman: "It's not listening. It's a shravaka achievement. The extraordinary profundity of this mental method is not something that can be conveyed simply by words. The ancient Danshu is so incomprehensible to outsiders. Today, you and I still ask and answer questions and answers, and then pass on the Dharma after we understand it. ”
"Got it, you ask. ”
The Wind Gentleman motioned for me to sit down at the bridgehead, but he floated cross-legged in the air on the other side of the bridge. He looked at me in the air and asked, "An old question: Why are there four doors and twelve floors at the beginning?"
"I know that. This Dao Dan realm is like spiraling upwards. Every time you pass the triple building, you return to a higher starting point. The mantra and mind method look similar, but the realm is different. ”
Wind Gentleman: "How is the first door similar to the second door?"
"The first door starts with 'Inner Light'. Previously, the mortal eye could only see everything outside of the body, but could not see the flow of life in itself. Entering the first gate, you can look inward at me, which is a new vision. The second door starts from the 'elixir', and after the Dan is completed, everything is different, and a body and mind are opened in the chaos of the body. ”
Feng Junzi nodded and asked, "Then why did you have to go through the Vacuum Tribulation when you entered the third gate?"
I thought for a moment and replied, "The vacuum realm is after the Jindan Dacheng. When Jindan is completed, the internal and external body and mind are combined, and it is really as usual, and Jindan has become my body and mind. If you stop here, you will not be able to continue your practice, and what disappears in the vacuum is the 'me', and after the 'I don't', the golden pill is gone! I think the third gate is probably the golden pill reappearing, right? I remember when I first started the second course, my perception was that everything in heaven and earth came into existence out of nothing, and you also said that God should have light and other mantras. ”
Feng Junzi blinked his eyes and asked an inexplicable word: "Shi Ye, I said that I am a Buddha, do you believe it?"
"I don't believe it!"
Wind Gentleman: "Why?"
"The Buddha said – you can't see it. ”
The Wind Gentleman blinked and asked, "Ishino, I said that you are God, do you believe it?"
"I believe it!"
Wind Gentleman: "Do you believe this kind of nonsense?"
"God has said – let there be light. All things in heaven and earth came into being out of nothing, and God was nothing before the first birth of all things. I think the third gate of the Middle Earth Dan Dao is to create a new 'me' out of nothing out of the realm of 'self-nothing' in the vacuum. ”
Hearing this, the Wind Gentleman laughed and turned his head in the air a few times, then stabilized his body and said: "Congratulations, you have answered correctly! There is God first, and then there is light? Is that so? I don't know! When I see the light, I turn back to God and look for God, this is the way of Dan against the sky." Why should the fetal geocentric method be after the vacuum, because the word fetal movement is the beginning of human beings. If there is no me in the vacuum, then where do I come from? Of course, from the movement of the fetus, what I am going to teach you today is the mental method of forming a holy fetus in a vacuum. ...... What do you mean by 'nameless' and 'famous' in Ishino's mantra?"
"The beginning of the nameless heaven and earth, the mother of all things. Lao Tzu's realm is beyond my understanding, and I dare not argue. What I'm thinking about today is myself, Ishino. I want to know who I was before I was Ishino?"
Wind Gentleman: "Hehe, that's still you." It's just another you. Don't dwell on it, just have this state of mind. Let's go to the bottom of the bridge and cave together, and I'm going to talk about the mind. Actually, I've just finished talking about the mental method, and I'm just going to make some more annotations for you, it's not easy to understand, so you have to listen carefully. ”
The wind gentleman explained to me the fetal heart movement method under the bridge and hole, and it took three hours to talk about it. For six hours, the river did not stop. It's not that he's wordy, he doesn't repeat a single sentence from beginning to end, and each sentence has a key point. If you don't have the ability to learn this kind of mind, let alone learn it, you don't even know what he said after listening to it! I really admire him for being able to explain these words clearly, although I understand them, I can't relay them to others as clearly as he did. (Xu Gongzi's note: I'm afraid it will not be possible to paraphrase the original text here, and then introduce it little by little when Ishino cultivated it.) )
The Wind Gentleman finally finished speaking, and the sky was almost dawn. He stretched out his arms and flew staggering into the air, leaving me in deep thought. In contemplation, I heard the voice of the wind gentleman coming from afar: "The Taoist formula of 'fetal movement' can actually be corroborated with the practice of Buddhist Zen. You have studied the Diamond Sutra, so you can learn from 'no place to live' to 'good protection'. That's why I want you to meditate on that futon. ...... Practice the fetal heart movement method - be careful not to miscarry!"
The first few sentences are really profound, and they are very good. But the last sentence is vulgar and ugly!