Chapter 31: Confiding (II)
Wang Yuxin had never heard Liu Le speak so softly, and there was something strange in her heart, and she didn't know if she was pretending, so she continued to stand up and not speak.
Liu Le didn't react when he saw Wang Yuxin glancing at him, he felt bitter in his heart, but he continued: "I know that you don't like me, because I'm too noisy, even a gentle person like Sister Fan will sometimes be annoyed by me, but you don't know that I wasn't born to talk so much."
"When I was a child, I followed my master to learn the piano and martial arts, and there were no playmates around me at all, even if I was a fellow sister, I couldn't say a few words intimately, everyone was a competitor, and if I didn't fight, I would be surpassed by them. If I don't have the ability and status in the division, it's miserable, even if I don't want to bully people, I will be bullied. I have no father or mother, I don't want to lose even the protection of the master, so I can't be surpassed by them, I can only have a way out if I do my best, for a child, living in that kind of environment, naturally there is very little fun, even a little cruel.
"If you don't perish in repression, you explode in repression. I don't want to perish, so I can talk to myself, I imitate different people and different voices. When I practiced the piano, I said that when I practiced martial arts, I actually developed the habit of not being able to speak. Speaking of this, Liu Le smiled bitterly, recalling the days when she was studying art, she only had bitterness in her heart.
Although Wang Yuxin is a little out of the ordinary and unreasonable, he has a good nature, even when he is controlled by Xuan Ming's true qi, he is only provocative and arrogant, and he does not do anything too out of line. He listened to Liu Le's words in his ears, and suddenly found that his understanding of Liu Le all the time was not too one-sided, she had a flamboyant personality and no one to speak, but this was just her character, why she developed such a character, and what kind of past she had experienced, she didn't know at all. My opinion of her is all based on my own likes and dislikes,-for-tat everywhere, I can't bear it, is it too much to treat a flower girl like this.
Wang Yuxin was completely immersed in his own thoughts, and he didn't move and couldn't move. But he still didn't react at all in Liu Le's eyes, as if he didn't listen to her words.
Liu Le didn't care too much, and said to himself: "You may not imagine how introverted I was when I was a child, except for finding fun in talking to myself, I don't have anything to make myself happy." Xu is God's mercy, I imitate all kinds of vocals more and more similar, the understanding of the vocal range is more and more profound, relying on such a small skill, I actually made great progress in the piano skills, and soon got the appreciation of the master, teaching the master of the profound piano skills and martial arts, but also unintentionally inserted willows. Liu Le paused when he said this, perhaps recalling his childhood experience of learning art, and an inexplicable smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.
After a pause, Liu Le continued: "Habits are really scary, I am getting more and more used to talking to myself, and whenever I encounter something unhappy, I will talk to myself to relieve my pressure, so I am becoming more and more autistic." Until one day the master said to me, my situation is very dangerous, if there is no real experience and mental understanding of the piano skills is difficult to progress, the same is true of martial arts, I develop like this is really behind closed doors, if not with a certain talent, it is really difficult to have that kind of progress, and it is impossible to reach the peak.
I felt it deeply, so I tried to contact people, I was so autistic at that time, naturally I didn't know how to talk to people, so I could only keep talking to hide my inner uneasiness. As time went by, I talked more and more, and I spoke faster and faster, and sometimes I didn't even think about what I said, and slowly I even became brainless in doing things. After Liu Le finished speaking, he looked at Wang Yuxin and still didn't react, his expression darkened, and he continued, "I treat you like this out of anger, and secondly, you sometimes do things faster than you use your brain, we are very similar in this regard, so I unconsciously want to bully you." Liu Le's lips pursed lightly at this time, and a happy smile hung up.
After listening to Liu Le say so much, Wang Yuxin's heart moved slightly, Liu Le's childhood was not how hard it was, compared to Wang Shilai, she was still happy, although there was a lot of competition, but after all, there was no worry about not being hungry. But her introverted personality since she was a child determined that she could not grow up happily. Can't communicate effectively with others, only self-extrication, living in the atmosphere created by herself, if she doesn't learn the skills of cultivating temperament like piano, but worships under the door of the Huangquan Ghost Mansion, Wang Yuxin has no doubt that she will grow into a murderous female devil, and contribute her own light and heat to the cause of the scourge of the rivers and lakes.
After thinking a lot in his heart, Wang Yuxin felt that Liu Le didn't seem to be so hateful, aside from her noise, this little girl still had some merit, at least she was beautiful. But when I heard Liu Le say that he unconsciously wanted to bully himself, the little good feeling that Wang Yuxin had built up by himself disappeared in an instant, and the co-authorship was to see that I was a bully. Thinking about the time she was in contact with Liu Le, her excesses and all kinds of abuse of herself in the past few days, Wang Yuxin felt that she had a headache.
Thinking of the headache, Wang Yuxin suddenly realized that he seemed to have a real headache, and he had been guarding Liu Le just now if there was something wrong with him, and thinking about his thoughts, so he didn't notice it. At this time, as soon as I put my attention on this side, I began to feel uncomfortable, not only painful, but also a little dizzy and swollen. Wang Yuxin wanted to cry, this is the sequelae of hitting the wall, I knew that Liu Le was not here to abuse him, why did he have to hit the wall. It's just that he can't move now, and he can't rub his forehead if he wants to, but if he asks for help from Liu Le, Wang Yuxin directly ruled out such an idea. God knows if he loosens his mouth at this time, will Liu Le think that he has nothing to do, and then he will be punched and kicked. Wang Yuxin's heart was slightly cold, and he prayed that Liu Le could finish speaking soon, so that he could unlock the acupoints for himself. But after all, I don't know the bottom of my heart, and it is better to pray that Liu Le can finish speaking, it is better to pray for Song Jinyan to be realistic.
Sure enough, Liu Le didn't stop, although her words were gentle, and she didn't have the usual aggressive momentum at all, but since the chatterbox was opened, it was even more difficult to close it. I listened to Liu Le's whispering: "It's all my fault for making you like this this time, I want to apologize to you, but I don't want them to know." If they know that I am like this, it must be indispensable to fight sarcasm, although they are all partners together, but there are commonalities to be able to get together, mutual damage and irony, you and I are the same. I know that everyone has no bad intentions, so it's just a kind of entertainment. ”
Wang Yuxin's heart moved, these people do often sarcastically mock each other together, and they often participate in it and have fun with it. But before I met them, I had never been like this, and the importance of doing business was to be kind to others, although I don't know what I was like before I lost my memory, I think it shouldn't be too dirty. But with this group of people, they were assimilated unconsciously, this group of people is completely a big dye vat, and their own piece of white cloth was silently dyed into colorful, even if it is a kind person like Fan Lu and Long Jing, it is just relatively kind, and there are too many monsters in this group of people.
What kind of people are these people, their own understanding of them can not be described by a star and a half, at the beginning I admired their martial arts cultivation as strong, but after slowly contacting it, I found that in addition to their martial arts are strong and have their own specialties, they are really no different from themselves, and some people are so bad that they are not even as good as themselves. Thinking of this, Wang Yuxin's eyes appeared in front of the image of Du Zhu, this person still had a little mystery when he first came into contact, but the more he came into contact, the more he could feel the kind of filth on his body, at first I thought it was a quirk only a master, but later I realized that what kind of quirk it was, it was his nature at all, so the image of the master collapsed instantly, and Wang Yuxin's attitude towards everyone became more and more casual.
From one to the others, Wang Yuxin thought of other people, Yan Yang, who never left his hand with wine, Shi Wei, who was addicted to drugs, Bamber, who exported poetry, who was inseparable from black and white, Guo Ling'er, who was sticking to the routine all day long, Li Feng, who was as cold as an iceberg, Wang Huanrong, who didn't know his true appearance, and Liu Le, who was chattering endlessly...... Whether these people are true temperaments or disguises to protect themselves.
The more Wang Yuxin thought about it, the more far-reaching he became, and suddenly felt that the heavens and the earth were spinning, and he couldn't think about it anymore, his mind was dizzy, and he just wanted to sleep. Just when he was about to fall asleep, a warning suddenly rose in his heart, his mind cleared, and he broke out in a cold sweat, his abnormal dizziness really didn't look like the sequelae of hitting the wall. During this time, Wang Yuxin also came out of experience when he hit the wall, what kind of strength can he use to knock himself out, even if he doesn't faint, he will only have a headache for a while, and he won't get dizzy from time to time like today, he realized that something was wrong.
Liu Le failed to understand Wang Yuxin's confusion, and seeing that he still didn't give him any response, he sighed: "It's okay if you hate me, just hate me, just hate me, no matter what, you have to take care of your injuries, even if you want to take revenge on me, you must have a good body." What I said today, don't tell anyone else, I won't admit it. Also, don't hit the wall again in the future, the bandages are wet with blood. A trace of unbearability flashed in Liu Le's eyes.
Wang Yuxin finally understood why he kept getting dizzy, it was because of blood, he was bleeding, he didn't notice what was going on just now, but when he noticed it at the moment, he immediately felt hot on his forehead. Wrapped in bandages, Liu Le couldn't see how much blood he had shed, but after a while, the bandages were soaked, and it was obvious that the bleeding had reached a certain level.
Wang Yuxin couldn't care so much anymore, so he was about to speak, but a burst of dizziness for no reason made him hold the words in his mouth. didn't say anything, coupled with dizziness and discomfort, Wang Yuxin could only exhale loudly.
Liu Le finally saw Wang Yuxin's reaction, but she thought that she had said something wrong, and Wang Yuxin gasped angrily. I wanted to say something, but I opened my mouth, but I didn't say anything after all, I got up and walked to the door, and glanced at Wang Yuxin again before going out, leaving only a sigh.
When Wang Yuxin saw Liu Le leaving, he became more and more anxious, but the more anxious he was, the more his qi and blood went up, filling his mind, bleeding even worse, and his dizziness became stricter. Seeing Liu Le leave, Wang Yuxin felt a burst of despair, and said in his heart: Why don't you help me untie the acupoint.
"Come on, help!" Wang Yuxin gasped for a long time, and finally exhausted his last strength and said a sentence weakly.
It's just like a gnat, and I don't know who will hear it.