Chapter Ninety-Six: My Heart Is Still Alive
Ling Shuiyun didn't speak, and Xiao Nan was silent, he was waiting, waiting for Ling Shuiyun to make a decision that at least he thought was right.
As he said before, he didn't want to lose. This relationship should be beautiful, so why bother to let it go bankrupt? Even if it is difficult, he has to work hard and maintain it carefully, just because he doesn't want to lose it, it's just that simple.
As if feeling Xiao Nanxi's gaze, Ling Shuiyun didn't dare to look back, but just held back her tears and didn't let the crystal tears slip from her eyes.
Her body trembled slightly, as if she was out of control, even though she was trying her best to control it, shaking her head gently, but she couldn't say a word, and the whole person seemed very contradictory.
Xiao Nan still didn't speak, he just chose to believe, believe in Ling Shuiyun, and believe in himself, he didn't think about everything in the future, and he didn't think about the past anymore, he only knew that he couldn't miss Ling Shuiyun today no matter what, otherwise it would be a lifetime of regret for him and Ling Shuiyun.
A crystal full teardrop slipped down quietly, hitting the deck heavily, and instantly bloomed a brilliant splash, although the voice was soft, but it clearly reached Xiao Nan's ears.
Looking down, there seemed to be infinite light in the splashes, and Xiao Nan also seemed to see a bitter face, that face was so beautiful and beautiful, but why did it hold on to that trace of bitterness?
She was originally a young woman, she should have been carefree, what made her so bitter? Xiao Nan's heart trembled, but in the end she found that it was herself, it was him!
He didn't want to embarrass Ling Shuiyun, but he believed in his choice more, and he believed that the relationship between the two could be continued, and he couldn't bear it, but he didn't want to regret it even more.
Another teardrop slipped down, as if hitting Ling Shuiyun's heart hard, and her body trembled even more. She is also trying her best to suppress it, she doesn't want her thoughts to be detected by Xiao Nan, but she can't do it, no matter how hard she tries to hide it, her body is going to betray her, and tears are her great enemy, no matter what, she won't let her get what she wants.
"Shui Yun, why are you crying?" Xiao Nan whispered softly, trying to come to Ling Shuiyun, wanting to grab Ling Shuiyun's other hand, wanting to give her warmth, wanting to make her not cry, but in the end she failed, Ling Shuiyun didn't seem to want him to see the pear blossom with the rain face.
Ling Shuiyun's hand held by Xiao Nan shook slightly, as if she wanted to break free from Xiao Nan's hands, wanted to escape from the deck, and avoided Xiao Nan from a distance, but Xiao Nan's hands seemed to be pincers all the time, and she couldn't break free no matter what.
Her tears were still falling, even more and more, gradually like a flood that burst the embankment, wetting a large area of her clothes. She was sobbing quietly, but she couldn't say a word.
"Shui Yun, look at me! What are you afraid of? My heart is still the same, we can still go back, as long as you nod, how simple is this, why do you cry?" Xiao Nan reached out and stroked Ling Shuiyun's face and the corners of his eyes, as if he wanted to wipe away Ling Shuiyun's tears.
He kept Ling Shuiyun from crying, but somehow, it seemed that he wanted to cry too, because his heart was twitching vigorously and hurting, so much so that the hand he was stroking Ling Shuiyun's face was trembling slightly.
Ling Shuiyun seemed to have let go, no longer looking at the scenery in the void, but turned around, raised her head, and looked at Xiao Nan boldly, tears had already blurred her vision, but through that water lotus, she saw those sincere eyes.
There seemed to be no other emotion in those eyes, so that there was a buzz in her head, and scenes from the past appeared one by one, and she remembered what Xiao Nan said just now: "My heart is still the same." ”
For a moment, her heart became more complicated, but the sky in her heart seemed to usher in a glimmer of light under the gaze of those eyes, gradually driving away all the dark clouds, so that her whole world became brighter.
The cry of "woo woo woo" gradually became a little uncontrollable, and she didn't want to suppress it anymore, but buried her head in Xiao Nan's arms, just wanting to cry to her heart's content and vent her long-standing grievances.
She always thought that she could be very strong, she could bear the boundless pain silently, and only let Xiao Nan and Xi Qianyue live happily together, and she didn't care about many others, but in the end she realized how wrong her thoughts were.
In front of her beloved, the emotions that have been suppressed for a long time are easier to burst, maybe she has also learned to be selfish, is it really worth it to bear the pain that she should not bear?
She couldn't bear it, or she didn't want to take it anymore. If you like it, you can be together boldly, anyway, she has never minded the matter of Xiao Nan and Xi Qianyue, and the world has never objected to the emotional entanglement of the three of them, as for what Xi Qianyue thinks, she can't care so much anymore, what can she do if she is selfish? Anyway, at this moment she feels that selfishness is worth it.
Xiao Nan hugged Ling Shuiyun tightly with one hand, and gently stroked Ling Shuiyun's back with the other hand, his eyes were full of love and pity, he knew that he had succeeded, Ling Shuiyun would return to his side, and the regret in his heart would eventually be redeemed.
I don't know how long it took, the crying gradually stopped, but Ling Shuiyun was still lying in Xiao Nan's arms, feeling Xiao Nan's heartbeat and Xiao Nan's warmth.
After a long time, she glanced at Xiao Nan affectionately, stretched out her hand and kept drawing circles on Xiao Nan's chest, and at the same time did not forget to say: "You have changed, but your heart is still the same, I can feel it." ”
Xiao Nan hugged Ling Shuiyun tighter, as if he was afraid of losing Ling Shuiyun again, and after a while, he sighed and said slowly: "I have indeed changed, but I still love you like that, even more." Heaven is vast, we are just ups and downs in it, we are all chasing, we are all tracing back, but I hope we have always been together. ”
I still remember that when he really established a relationship with Ling Shuiyun, Xiao Nan was still a little monk who had not yet gotten rid of his ruffianism, and in a blink of an eye he has now become mature, which is of course a change, but one thing remains the same, as he said, he loved before, he loves now, and he will love in the future.
Although there were some twists and turns in the middle, his love for Ling Shuiyun would not change, and the misunderstanding was just a stepping stone to make the love deeper.