"The Best Cultivation of True and Evil" is on the shelves, but the subscriptions are very bleak, there are only a few hundreds of subscriptions for a single chapter in 24 hours, and I feel very uncomfortable, and it is very unpleasant.

I remember that when I wrote the book "The Best Immortal Mansion", I was under a lot of pressure, had no job, did not have any economic income, and faced the white eyes and ridicule in all aspects.

I still vividly remember one day, a relative pointed to my nose and said, "Do you have money?" How much money do you have? How much money can you earn?

I had nothing to say but to smash my teeth and swallow it in my stomach.

I still vividly remember that one day, a certain relative showed off in front of me: how good her son is, what is said to be a security guard in Shanghai, 4,000 yuan a month, working one day and resting one day, it is very easy.

She also said that her son likes to be a security guard.

Although she didn't say anything to me directly, I could clearly see the sarcasm and ridicule on her face.

The show-off of the red fruit.

She is one of my elders, an elder with a strong blood relationship.

At the time, my mom was right next to me.

I still remember that at the end of May '12, on the day my grandfather died, an elder with the same surname asked me: What do you have? What can you have?

Disdainful, very disdainful, very despised.

I still don't know how to say anything, why did he suddenly ask such a thing?

Is it to show that he is very good in front of me?

I don't seem to have offended him, I've always kept a low profile. As a silk, even if you want to be high-profile, you can't be high-profile.

For what?

I still don't understand.

Since then, I have also been back to my hometown once during the Chinese New Year and have never returned.

It's not that I don't want to, but I don't dare.

There are many, many things like this, and they are very bitter, all of them are relatives, and they are all my elders.

This is true of relatives and elders, not to mention those who are irrelevant?

Upstairs and downstairs, people in a building all know that I stay at home all day, and I don't go out of the door. What can such a person do?

In their cognition, of course, they are playing games online at home!

Who knows that I stay at home every day, desperately coding words?

Who knows?

Now I don't dare to go out easily, and when I go out, everyone else looks at me with strange eyes when they see me. Even if I don't, because I live in this environment, I think about it that way.

I'm scared.

I'm really scared.

Last year, I didn't go out for ten whole months, and I would only go downstairs once every other month, and the cigarettes were gone, so I bought cigarettes. If it weren't for the lack of smoke, I wouldn't have been willing to go down that time.

I haven't gone out for ten months, in addition to desperately coding words, I am afraid of seeing other people's strange eyes.

A person in his twenties who stays at home every day and does nothing, what will others think? What the hell do you think about writing novels at home?

When someone who knows the Tao sees me, he will ask in a weird tone: "Great writer, how is your writing?" How much money can you earn by writing books?

Every time I hear such words, my heart is like being pricked by a needle, it hurts, I feel aggrieved, and I am also very cold.

Except for my relatives, who would know that I write novels? As a relative, can I not be chilled to say such things?

I'm just a writer, a street writer with only a few hundred subscriptions for a single chapter in 24 hours.

Great writers?

This is simply a naked mockery.

For more than a year, I have been aggrieved, I am uncomfortable, and I am cold.

By chance, I thought that the micro-movie made by Zhuo Jun, "Dream on the Ridge", after watching it, I cried. And it's to watch it once, and to cry once.

Because, I found too much resonance in that micro-film.

Zhuo Jun plays a dancing monkey in it, and I am in reality, in the eyes of others, I am a waste who stays at home every day in his twenties and does nothing at the computer, only knows how to play.

I have been preparing for the book "The Best Cultivation of True and Evil Youth" for more than four months, but the subscription is a mess. finally rushed to the monthly ticket list, but it could be exploded at any time.

I was really aggrieved and chilled.

However, I will never give up, and I must persist in completing the path I choose, even if it is kneeling or crawling.

Tomorrow continues, three more than 10,000 words a day, until the end of the book.

Now it is 43 monthly passes, and for every five additional monthly passes, a new chapter will be added, and there is no upper limit.

I spelled!!(To be continued...... ，

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