Verse 446: Mother!

The word mother has always been hovering in Shi Yan's mind, but this is the first time I have seen it with my own eyes, or in my memory.

Although she didn't turn around, the two of them were connected by flesh and blood, and their blood was thicker than water, so how could they not know who she was?

Twenty years later, when he saw his mother for the first time, there was no image of his mother in the house, no portrait of her, and no one would talk to him, so his mother was always blank in his memory. Shi Yan is not allowed to mention his father and mother in the family, so only in the bed in the middle of the night, Shi Yan will miss his parents and secretly wipe his tears. Since he was a child, he has wanted to see his parents, even if it is just one side, even if it is just the back.

It wasn't until he 'died' and threw himself into the ancestral grave that he wandered abroad in order to survive that this kind of childhood longing for his parents gradually hidden.

At the same time, he was also ready not to see his parents for the rest of his life, but who knew that he would see him today.

He didn't have the slightest mental preparation, and he didn't even know what expression Lu Dao would use when the two of them faced each other, was it joy? Or okay, it seemed that other expressions other than joy were not suitable for now.

The woman turned around slowly, her eyes were gentle like water, and she looked at Shi Yan.

Shi Yan looked at him stunned, he was struggling with what expression to use, but at this moment, his head was completely blank, and he didn't know where he had flown to for a long time.

looked at that unfamiliar, but somewhat familiar face, and shed two lines of tears from time to time.

Is this my mother? I was born so beautiful, no wonder I was so handsome.

To be honest, even Shi Yan himself is very strange, obviously he doesn't feel like crying, but why can't these tears flow down uncontrollably?

The woman's eyes were also moist, looking at Shi Yan greedily, wanting to make up for the gap of twenty years at once, for fear that he would disappear in the blink of an eye.

"You're here. Ji Ling'er opened her mouth and had a lot of things to say, but it was blocked in her throat, and only three words came out.

Shi Yan took a deep breath and said with a smile, "Well, I'm here." ”

The two still stood there and looked at each other, but they didn't say a word, how could the so-called thousand words express their feelings at this time?

"Ma'am, this is not the place to talk. Jiang Bo reminded in a low voice: "Anyway, the little young master has already returned, and it won't be too late." ”

"Oh, yes, look at me. Only then did Ji Ling'er come back to her senses, and stepped forward to take Shi Yan's hand, "Come, I'll take you to your room." ”

"My room?" Shi Yan is a little strange, I am here for the first time, how can there be my room?

Hua Ruo smiled: "Madam, as early as when you left, you decorated a room exclusive to you, just for this moment." ”

Shi Yan sighed slightly, it seems that in the past 20 years, not only has he missed his parents, but his parents have also missed him.

This is not just a room, but it represents how much my mother misses her. The trace of hatred and resentment in Shi Yan's heart suddenly disappeared without a trace.

Originally, for them, Shi Yan had some small hatred and complaints. But when I saw people today, I realized that maybe they were not willing to separate, or they had hidden feelings.

Along the way, Ji Linger took Shi Yan's hand and asked for warmth. Shi Yan did not speak. Just listen quietly.

Finally came to Shi Yan's room, Shi Yan looked at his room with some disbelief.

The house is big and has a lot of stuff in it, there are cribs, there are toys, clothes, these things almost cover everything a person needs from childhood to adulthood. Let's talk about clothes, in the huge wardrobe on one side, there are nearly a thousand pieces of clothes placed side by side from small to large, from small to large, covering all ages.

"These clothes are all made by Madame herself. Hua Ruo said.

Shi Yan was moved, for 20 years, she could only look at the house and miss her son, and she could only make clothes and guess how her son looked. Clothes are not clothes, but mother's thoughts about herself every day and every night. Compared with the time I miss it, compared to the pain when I miss it, it's not a grade compared to my mother.

"Shi Yan, are you hungry? I'm going to make you something to eat? What do you like to eat? Tell your mother. Ji Ling'er's thoughts at the moment were all on her son, who had been lost for many years, and her face was full of joy.

Shi Yan looked at the woman in front of him who was so strange to his flesh and blood, shook his head slightly, and said, "I'm not hungry." ”

"Okay" Ji Ling'er looked at the tepid Shi Yan, and there were some bumps in her heart, "It's okay, anyway, my mother is slow, and if you are ready, you may be hungry." As she spoke, Ji Ling'er walked out with red eyes. Speaking of which, Ji Linger is very much looking forward to today's arrival, but she is also very afraid, after all, she has not fulfilled her responsibilities as a mother, she is afraid that her son will hate her and blame her. And now he doesn't talk much, and there is some indifference. This made Ji Ling'er's heart suddenly, and she had a bad premonition, and she had a premonition that her son hated herself in his heart.

"He must be blaming me now, I'm sorry for him, he must be blaming me. For so many years, I haven't done the responsibility of being a mother, and he blames me as well," Ji Linger cried and cried as she walked.

"I don't blame you. Suddenly, Shi Yandao's voice came from behind him, and he saw her red-eyed and followed.

"Yan'er you blame your mother as it should be, it should be"

"Not really, maybe there were, but now, really not at all. Shi Yan said: "It's just that everything that happened today shocked me too much, and it came too suddenly to make people uncomfortable." ”

Hearing her son say it in person, Ji Linger let go of her heart and laughed. She also understands that today is the first time to meet in the real sense, and there may be many things that are not yet adaptable, which is also normal. Normally, she would have thought of it, but now that it is related to her son, she cares about it and is in chaos, so she is worried.

Shi Yan took out a silk scarf and carefully wiped away the tears on her mother's face.

"You are my mother, and when I lose you, don't you also lose me?

Ji Ling'er was crying with joy at this time, crying, and looking at Shi Yan lovingly.

She wiped away her tears and smiled happily, "Go back to your room, I'll make you something delicious." ”

Looking at the back of his mother's departure, Shi Yan's thoughts were complicated.

"It's the first time I've seen my wife cook in so many years. Jiang Bo sighed.

"Thanks to you, I can finally taste Madame's handiwork. Hua Ruo smiled.

The dishes are very rich, and a large table is set up, made with all kinds of precious ingredients, and there are even many precious spirit animals in it. If the ingredients of such a table of dishes were revealed, I am afraid that the world would go crazy.

Mothers are like this, they want to give their sons the best in the world.

There were only mother and son and Hua Ruo on the table, and Jiang Bo claimed that he was a subordinate and was not allowed to sit at the table, waiting on the side.

During a meal, Ji Ling'er almost didn't eat much, more often than not, she served him vegetables, or looked at him with a gentle and loving face, staring at him in a daze.

After dinner, Ji Linger kept holding Shi Yan's hand and talking together in the back garden.

In fact, when he spoke, that is, Ji Ling'er said, Shi Yan listened.

"Yan'er, do you know how long I've been looking forward to this day?" Ji Ling'er's eyes were a little red, and when she remembered what happened at the beginning, she regretted and blamed herself, "When I sent you away with my own hands, my heart seemed to be broken." For so many years, I have been missing you, looking forward to the day when this day came, and finally, this day has finally come. ”

Shi Yan smiled bitterly, "Why did you want to send me away in the first place? In the Shi family, you and your father are not allowed to be mentioned, whenever I see others playing with their parents and growing up in the company of their parents, I am very envious." ”

Ji Ling'er's voice choked, "Yan'er, you have suffered." ”

"Is it bitter?" Shi Yan said with a smile: "Speaking of which, bitterness is also bitter, and if it is not bitter, it is actually not bitter." For so many years, I have been running for survival, and I have no time to stop and miss, and almost all my thoughts about you have been closed, so the pain of missing is also very little. ”

"How are you doing at Shi's house?" asked Ji Ling'er.

"Hehe, I haven't been back for 12 years. Shi Yan's expression darkened, and he said: "At the beginning, the extremely cold qi in the body, my grandfather searched all the famous doctors and immortals and couldn't cure it, and I was left to fend for myself in the ancestral grave. Fortunately, I survived and survived. Subsequently, he told all the things of these years, and in the past, only he knew the suffering, and now, he is like a wronged child, 'complaining' in front of his mother. In fact, this is also a kind of coquettishness, and unconsciously, he has integrated into the role of his son.

Ji Ling'er listened to Shi Yan's experience in the past twelve years, and her tears did not stop, "I have suffered you." I only know that you will come back here at the age of twenty, but I don't know that you will go through so much suffering, and if you know it, I will not let you leave no matter what. Said a hug and said: "Yan'er, I've really suffered you all these years"

Hugged by his mother, his head resting on his mother's chest, listening to the familiar heartbeat, Shi Yan suddenly felt that time had stopped, everything in the world was quiet, only the heartbeat sounded in his ears.

Bang bang, bang bang

Shi Yan felt warm all over his body, as if he had not yet been born, in his mother's body, listening to his mother's heartbeat, and growing up quietly.

"Your father also had to send you away, and with his ability, he can only calculate a few key points of the road you have taken, and cannot deduce them all, so he doesn't know your experience. Ji Ling'er said softly: "But your unconscionable father won't care even if he knows the truth, he will definitely say, 'The heavens will descend on the people, and they must first suffer their minds, strain their muscles and bones, starve their bodies and skins, empty their bodies, and act chaotically, so they will be tempted to endure and gain what they can't', 'Boys should go through all kinds of difficulties to achieve something in the future' and so on. ”

Shi Yan smiled, and suddenly had some doubts, when he saw his mother, why didn't he see his father?

He asked his mother a question, and Ji Ling'er smiled bitterly: "He deduced your trajectory in the next twenty years, spied on the heavens, and was punished by heaven." ”

"Heavenly punishment!" Shi Yan was shocked, could it be that "Father, he's dead?"

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The latest chapter of the high-speed debut of the Royal Beast Xing, this chapter is the 446th section: Mother!