I'm uncomfortable, I'm helpless, I'm longing

The list of new books fell from seventh to eighth and then to ninth, and it was just a day's work. I could only watch, but there was nothing I could do but feel uncomfortable and sad.

I lay in bed for more than two hours, tossing and turning, and couldn't sleep. I couldn't stand it anymore, so I couldn't help it, so I got up and wrote this single chapter to ask for a monthly pass.

I'm just a street writer, desperately coding words, desperately updating.

I'm very slow to code, and the first thing I get up at 8 a.m. is turn on my computer. Then take advantage of the time to turn on the machine, brush your teeth, wash your face, and pour a glass of water.

The age of the computer is not young, five years old, so it turns on very slowly.

Fortunately, the boot is very slow, otherwise, I would be reluctant to waste this little time brushing my teeth, washing my face, and pouring water.

Drink saliva, start coding, morning, lunch, it is no exaggeration to say that I haven't eaten for twenty-eight days, and I just eat one meal in the evening every day.

My wife, a kindergarten teacher, went to work in the morning before I got up, got off work at 4 p.m., and got home at 4:30 p.m. For a period of time in between, I was at home.

The wife came back and started cooking and had a meal to eat.

I don't have much money, but I'm not so poor that I only eat one meal a day, and I really don't want to waste my time cooking.

One meal a day, gritting your teeth and persevering, you will get used to it.

Except for dinner, I spent all the rest of my time on codewords, and I had to write until twelve o'clock in the morning every day.

I haven't gone out for another month, I haven't taken a shower for half a month, and I haven't washed my hair for four days.

I went to take a shower half a month ago, and only three chapters were written that day.

I don't dare to take a bath.

Grit your teeth and hold back.

I've been married for more than a year, and my family has been urging me to have children, but I don't dare.

Now I can only barely support myself, how to support myself with children.

Besides, I stay up late every day and smoke so many cigarettes, can I pass the test with that kind of sub-quality?

I fight the monthly ticket list just to show those who look down on me, those who sneer at me;

Show them those who point to my nose and say, 'How much money do you have, how much money you can make?), Show them those who ask me what I have, and look at her son, who makes four thousand dollars a month, and mock me;

The top 10 new book monthly tickets will have a bonus of 1,000 yuan, plus a full attendance award of 1,000 yuan a month for updating at least 10,000 words every day. That's two thousand yuan, plus the money for the subscription, I don't believe it's worse than others.

Without the bonus of 1,000 monthly passes, it's really not as good as people.

It's the truth.

People are proud because they are better than me, better than me.

So I'm fighting, I've been fighting.

I've been fighting.

However, the monthly ticket list keeps falling, and the back ones keep exploding, I tremble, I am afraid, I am afraid that I will be overtaken and squeezed down in the last two days.

I've always been worried about what kind of eyes people will look at me when I am squeezed down, and what kind of language will they use to mock me?

In short, there are absolutely no nice words, all of them are extremely mean.

It's been so long to be despised, scorned, and looked down upon, and I'm so eager to prove myself.

I remember taking 2,000 yuan in the first month, and I wanted everyone to know that I had made money writing books. If you really see anything, you can come to one word: buy.

Two thousand dollars to make myself like an explosive household, this is me.

It's been suppressed for too long, too long.

Eager to prove yourself.

I chose this path, and I had to continue to fight, grit my teeth, kneel, and fight on my stomach.

Let's fight, let's keep fighting.

... Up,Go to sleep,I hope to sleep,Eight o'clock and get up the code word,Continue to spell.

(To be continued.)

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