Chapter 87 - Repayment after death
"I'm the person you trust the most? Heh, you're lying! The one you trust the most is that idiot Bai Zijia! A bad seed who doesn't dare to fight for anything! Bai Zijia, who lives a humble and pitiful life! Because I'm stupid, you think I'm kind, and the trust you give comes from your heart's belief that Bai Zijia deserves to be trampled under someone for the rest of his life!" Bai Zijia screamed hoarsely, and roared at Shui Duyan, who was close at hand, as if he wanted to roar out that bloody heart to Shui Duyan.
Shui Duyan didn't want to hear her go through old accounts anymore, so she asked directly: "So what, Bai Zijia, if I lose your life, you will destroy everything I have, and let me live better than die, right?"
"No, you're wrong, life is better than death. For you, I can't love, I hate to part, yin and yang are separated, and Huang is gone! This is the most ruthless! This is what you owe me Bai Zijia, you have never paid me back half a cent in your life, so you will pay it back after death!" Bai Zijia laughed, laughing heartbreakingly, obviously crying in the corners of her eyes.
After experiencing countless sorrows and joys, Shui Duyi Yan thought that she could accept all the changes peacefully, even Gu Moyun was pierced through her heart by the Long Yuan Sword and the soul of the other side in front of her, she was not panicked, but at this moment, she was in a mess and still in pain.
Shui Duyan recalled their jokes in the past, Bai Zijia said that Huangquan would never see each other again. Shui Duyan thought that Bai Zijia couldn't let go of the hatred between the two people, so she refused to forgive Shui Duyan, so she said that angry thing. How do you know......
Shui Duyan laughed sadly, tears flowed rapidly, she pointed at Bai Zijia and asked, "Bai Zijia! I waited in vain for your forgiveness! I thought that your resentment back then was only temporary, and I naively thought that after a long enough time had passed, you would be able to settle your old suspicions with me, but it turned out to be ...... It's my own passion, wishful thinking!"
"Hahaha...... Hahaha......"
Shui Duyan smiled madly, she knew Bai Zijia's viciousness at this moment, and she was resolute.
What is it if a good horse doesn't eat back grass, she Bai Zijia directly made Shui Duyan delusional for a lifetime!
"Look at it, Shui Duyan, it's not just them who can play tricks and tricks, I, Bai Zijia, will not lose to them! I'm just a latecomer, just borrowing a knife to kill people, but winning in the most despicable way. You once said that the strong are respected, so I who defeated them today will be looked down upon by you in your eyes?" Bai Zijia didn't forget to ask Shui Duyan at this moment if her status in Shui Duyan's heart could be a little higher?
Shui Duyan looked at her resentfully, and said sadly: "A truly strong man will never be as evil and humble as you in his heart! What if you kill all the people in the world! It is just as pitiful, ridiculous and pathetic! You Bai Zijia is difficult to become a big weapon! You are a king of luck who picks up leaks!"
"Shui Duyan-" Bai Zijia was angry, and slapped over, and Shui Duyan fell down immediately.
The white hair scattered to cover her hasty face, she cried hoarsely, her fingertips embedded in her palms, and the blood flowed like a pour, and she did not get up, but fell to the ground, whimpering like a mourning dog.
Bai Zijia was so angry that she panicked, but she had to admit that what Shui Duyan said was true.
"Hahaha...... You're right, I'm a villain, I'm the king of leaks...... I am useless, but I delusionally want to be worthy of you, the dragon of dragons. Can...... But why do I want to meet you? I'm unwilling! I'm so unwilling! God is unfair! When I'm kind in this life, I can't protect you; I finally have the ability to protect you, but you're already a treasure in the hands of others...... What about me, what am I, clown...... Obviously, we all love you and miss you, so why don't we get half of your generous gifts! I am covered with scars and bruises, and I live like no one or a ghost, but I can't get the results I want! What justice do I want! What tenderness do I want! What more do I want to wait! No one will come! No one will come! You are all big liars, big liars!"
Bai Zijia was powerless to kneel in front of Shui Duyan, laughed hastily, blushed and roared, he was a madman.
Shui Duyan lay on the ground and listened to her words and smiled weakly, Bai Zijia was right, those grievances and forbearance could not be exchanged for the results they wanted, so waiting will never have results, what is not fought for by themselves. It turned out that Bai Zijia had already understood, but Shui Duyan thought that she didn't understand this reason, and she didn't know how to fight.
Shui Duyan lay quietly on the ground and recalled the past, Bai Zijia's jokes with her have now come true, she thought that Bai Zijia had a pair of eyes that could see the future. But it turned out that everything was just Bai Zijia's painstaking loneliness, and she pretended to have no intention.
"I deserve it...... I missed everything, betrayed everything, no one owes me, I owe myself, I owe you, I owe those loves. Shui Duyan finally realized all her sins, she no longer felt that Bai Zijia was unreasonable, no longer felt that Bai Zijia was strange, take a closer look, isn't this the blackened self at the beginning?
Shui Duyan stopped crying, she touched her heart and said to Bai Zijia: "Husband, don't cry, I have a place in my heart for you, as you said back then, even if it's just a corner, it's okay to be with you." I didn't forget you in the corner, you've been on the tip of your heart. ”
Shui Duyan didn't lie, she has always refused to marry Emperor Luoshen, she has always been close to the two of them, and she has never known why she just can't love Emperor Luoshen wholeheartedly. It turned out that it was because she had Bai Zijia in her heart, but they were not in love on friendship back then, and the two of them quarreled like enemies and fought each other. I didn't know that I loved each other deeply, but after many years, I was blocked by some people, some things, and some words that should have continued.
Bai Zijia burst into tears when she heard her confession, she rushed towards Shui Duyan, and the moment the two of them embraced, they had a heart-to-heart connection, which was only available to Shui Duyan and her.
"Are you still lying to me, are you, why are you committed to Emperor Luoshen! Do you know that my heart has been torn apart, I haven't touched you, why did she take the lead!" Bai Zijia was very concerned, how could her wife go to someone else's bed first.
Shui Duyan also burst into tears, the first time it was because she wanted the power of the Western Regions to rebel against Bai Lan and cause killing. How much of this selfish distraction is really tempted by Emperor Luoshen? That transaction, how much affection and how much benefit?
"If you don't marry Bai Zijia, in fact, it's the same for anyone you marry. Shui Duyan finally said what was in her heart, even if she threw her heart on Qianfei back then, in fact, it was difficult to get up. The person in Shui Duyan's heart is still Bai Zijia, Shui Duyan compared the revenge of Emperor Luoshen, Bai Zijia's coldness, Si Jiya's gods and demons, Bai Lan's use, and Gu Moyun's selfishness, before choosing to turn Qianfei, who is also a killer, into a person of Chang'an.
"The biggest mistake in my life is not learning to forbear at the age of falling in love with you, and the biggest sin is trying to raise the third person into a person of Chang'an after being injured. The person who has been obsessed with Chang'an in my life is really only you Bai Zijia. It's ridiculous, I didn't know until I was at the moment of life and death......"
Shui Duyan was powerless to cry, so she had to sigh weakly, her heavy breath escaped from the tip of her nose, and her heavy body leaned on Bai Zijia's shoulder, smiling bitterly with peace of mind, her heart aching, and recalling.
Bai Zijia murmured: "I am finally as sinful and obsessed as you in this life. I have walked the road you walked alone, eaten the things you always said were delicious, planted your favorite flowers, and experienced the betrayal and separation of relatives that you remember in your heart. Am I the closest person to you? Xiaohua'er, can you forgive my sins, I can't control myself, I can't see them hurting you and harming you, but I still want you to bear all the sins for them. ”
"Buddha, you let me understand the love of this world, and say that the day I understand is the time when I succeed in the tribulation. Oh, Buddha, now I don't want to jump out of this red dust, after all, I am just a layman, reluctant to live in this worldly dispute. Shui Duyan thought silently in her heart, she owes countless lives to the people of the Demon Realm, and the people she loves owe so many debts to all beings, how can she go?
"Bai Zijia, I will atone for all your sins. Shui Duyan thought so, and then hugged Bai Zijia tightly.
Bai Zijia looked at Shui Duyan's desperate face, and asked with a little pleading in his eyes: "They are all dying people, can you stop worrying so much? Talk to me more? I have saved up all my life, and if I don't say it, you won't be able to hear it." Little flower, don't you want to know the things that have made you haunt you? Don't you always want to know why I rejected you like that? Shall I tell you now?"
"Okay, you say, I'll listen. Shui Duyan was lying in Bai Zijia's arms, Bai Zijia greedily held those cold hands, smiling like a flower, and memories were surging. She wants to tell all the tenderness to Shui Duyan, and finish the words that she has hidden in her heart for the rest of her life.
"Where to start? Let's talk about the first encounter, in fact, I didn't see you for the first time in the Shallow Smile Pavilion, I saw you a few years ago, when you jumped off the path of reincarnation. It's just that I was still a kid at that time. After many years, I will see you again, your breath is gone, you are ruthless and vicious when you were a demon, you have been worn away a lot of things, and you have carried a lot of things, but I still recognize you at a glance. I asked you what your last name was, and you said that you like the other side of the flower, just call you the other side of the flower. You know, at that moment, my heart was about to jump out, I knew that your spirit was the flower of the other side, and only the demon in this world had this spirit body. I'm sure that you are the young lady I saw back then, the demon who was willing to seal the gods of the Eight Desolations with his own strength for the sake of the common people of the demon world, and defeated and was captured. ”
Bai Zijia raised her eyes to look at the scorching sun, and she also felt a little dizzy, and there were many pictures in her mind about Shui Duiyan's upside down to her.
Bai Zijia lowered her head and smiled, and put Shui Duyan down, she leaned down and leaned on Shui Duyan's shoulder, lingering like a newlywed.
Bai Zijia said with a smile: "Little Hua'er, if it weren't for the fact that you and I had waited for someone for seven thousand years in the chat that day, wouldn't you have looked at me more?" Heh, I waited for Taozhiyu for seven thousand years, but she cut off contact with me because I was the master of the Little Light Smile Palace. She has a backstage and is the younger sister of the Shuoming God Emperor, so she can enter the Ink Sacrifice Hall to serve Gu Moyun. A Gu Moyun actually fascinated both of you. Tao Zhiyu poisoned you in every way for Gu Moyun, and was finally killed by Gu Moyun with a sword. Honestly, I thought I was just dead, but the moment I saw her body outside the Ink Temple, I burst into tears, knowing that I had never truly forgotten her. For the sake of men, for the sake of fame, she betrayed my true heart for her and trampled on everything I had. She knew that I was very good with you, but she still came to the demon world to find me, begging me to help her plot against you, hehe......"
Bai Zijia's tone changed suddenly, cold and resentful: "A woman like her is not too much to die." ”
Shui Duyan slowly raised her hand and hugged Bai Zijia, she didn't want to care about everything right or wrong. She was still hating a moment ago, and when Bai Zijia said all this, she hated to kill Bai Zijia. But she also loves Bai Zijia deeply, loves this kind person, even though Bai Zijia has done so much, she ...... still can't change the fact that Shui Duyan loves her deeply.