"Brother, is it really so hard after getting married?" Chu Zhixi took Wu Mian's hand and asked with some concern.

"It wasn't easy for that man just now. Wu Mian said, "In the current situation, many parents help get the down payment, and the husband and wife work hard to make monthly payments." If your parents can't help, and you have a sick illness and need to be hospitalized frequently, life will definitely be hard. ”

"I usually visit the doctor when I am in the hospital, but I don't notice this. ”

"Do you still watch a play if you don't see a doctor?" Wu Mian smiled, "It's okay, get drunk, relax well, and the matter will pass." As for the days to come, whether it is good or bad is not something to endure. ”

"But......" Chu Zhixi didn't know how to describe it.

"You mean there's no hope, do you? Wu Mian understood Chu Zhixi, and said it for her, "I don't think about the alarm clock ringing in the morning, but I still have to get up and work; the fatigue of working overtime yesterday has not left, so I take them to squeeze the bus and the subway; I am doing regular work, day after day, year after year, without growth, and I can see the head at a glance in the days to come, and I don't even know where this road will be directly broken, and what awaits me is unemployment." ”

Chu Zhixi's parents are also employees of public institutions, and they earn a lot, and they are not very busy. She had never been in contact with this kind of life, and when she heard Wu Mian say this, she put herself into it, and immediately felt that the whole person began to feel bad.

"After the salary was paid, the money and mortgage for the old man were removed, and there was not much left, and the couple wanted to go out to eat something delicious to celebrate their wedding anniversary, but no one was willing to do so. ”

"Brother......

"That's how most people live. Wu Mian said, "Everyone hopes that life can be easier, and they all feel that they have worked hard, but life is always so hard." ”

"You don't want to read all kinds of chicken soup texts, but chicken soup texts are everyone's favorite, why? Doesn't it give people a vague hope even if it is false? ”

"Brother, what if you are in his position?" Chu Zhixi asked.

"Huh. Wu Mian smiled, "Do you remember when you were in Xiehe?"

"What's the matter?"

"I had a headache, you were still in surgery, I ran to the overpass opposite the hospital, and you looked for me for a long time. ”

"Remember, that scared the hell out of me, thinking you were going to jump off the flyover. Find a big truck with a ...... head"

"Don't go into such detail, I'm starting to have a sense of the picture. Wu Mian messed Chu Zhixi's hair with force, and said with a smile, "I was really uncomfortable that time, my brain hurt like someone was pricking my head with an awl, and I was so hard that I was trembling when I walked." ”

Wu Mian felt the girl grasp her hand tightly.

He replied gently, "At that time, I was on the overpass watching the cars coming and going, and the crowds were surging.

Pedestrians off work were tired or expressionless, children were seen doing their homework at small tables next to the public toilets, asking their parents questions as they were cleaning, and a thin woman pulled a pile of bottles and cans that were much higher than her own, and her eyes were still fixed on the passers-by around her to see if any of them had empty bottles of pure water. ”

"I thought I was the worst person in the world before that. ”

Wu Mian recalled how he felt at that time, and wanted to smile to make Chu Zhixi feel easier, but the smile condensed on his face, which was a little wooden and stiff.

"It was the 15th day after the teacher said that I was a future young marshal in the surgical field. Everyone thought I was beautiful, only you and I knew, and I couldn't hold on anymore at that time. Every day I go crazy and I sometimes wonder if I should go to the house. Maybe under the Green Lantern Ancient Buddha, I recited the same scriptures every day, gruel and stomach, maybe I can be better in that case. ”

"And then?"

"I can't bear you. Wu Mian said very seriously, "I don't know how to talk about love, but I just can't bear you." ”

"Almost all people are very hard, and the word "alive" says everything in the world. Day after day, year after year, it's so hard to get a little bit of a gain. The joy of each harvest is quickly crushed and smoothed out by life, and there is nothing left. ”

"That day, I sat on the overpass, looking at the crowd below, and Mr. Yu Hua's "Alive" appeared in my mind. I have always thought that "Alive" and "Farewell My Concubine" are the two best movies in our country, with a bad fate and a hard life. ”

Then I unconsciously began to recite Mr. Yu Hua's "Alive".

Teacher Yu Hua said that the word "alive" is full of power in our Chinese language, and it is a kind of vocabulary that only we understand.

Its strength does not come from shouting, nor from not attacking itself, but from enduring, to endure the responsibilities that life gives us, to endure the happiness and suffering, boredom and mediocrity that reality gives us.

Our people are kind, as long as they can let themselves live, they can endure anything, the meaning of this kindness is too heavy, and the price is too great.

What's even more poignant is that this group of kind-hearted people, like Fugui, still stand upright and experience the meaning of life with a smile. ”

Chu Zhixi couldn't understand the thorough meaning of every word in Wu Mian's words, but she held Wu Mian's hand, but she could know what her brother was expressing.

"For a moment, I felt like I had been struck by lightning, and I felt like I had come to my senses. Wu Mian had a serious expression, looked at the bustling crowd in the distance, and said softly, "So I decided to contact the matter of going abroad at that time and take you all over the world." ”

"Oh, I see, why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't know how to say it so that it doesn't matter to be negative, it's better not to instill these negative energies into you. Although the conclusions I have drawn from this are relatively sunny and positive...... Hahaha, I can't say either. Remember what I said about the US imperialists?"

"I can't survive you!" Chu Zhixi said with a smile as he learned Wu Mian's words.

"Yes, live, live strongly, do not pretend to understand the true meaning of life, is to live tenaciously. I'm miserable, and no one else is much better than me. I don't have to stare at my bad places, but look at the good places. For example, if I do a good job in surgery, I have unparalleled diagnostics!"

"Hahaha, my brother is right. ”

"I endured it no matter how hard it was, but I thought about dying many times before that. If it weren't for you, I guess the grass on my grave would have been a man's height right now. ”

Listening to Wu Mian's description, Chu Zhixi was a little scared, although she also knew that it was all in the past.

"Don't worry, I can't survive him!" Wu Mian grabbed Chu Zhixi's hand, with a look of contempt and stubbornness in his eyes, looking at the sky and clouds in the distance.