In the most difficult days, Meng Chuan'er had thought countless times: if she had followed her mother's arrangement to marry and have children with someone like Xiong Xiang'er, or marry Guan Peng earlier,

Maybe there will be quarrels, there will be regrets that have never explored ideals and love, and even divorce if you can't bear it in the end...... But it will never be as sad and uncomfortable as it is now.

When I was young, I was ashamed to say that in this life, I am not God, I am not God, I don't let people say what is wrong or right, and I have no regrets.

If time comes over again, if it is destined to be the same ending, it is difficult to say that I will not regret it, maybe after reading the book "A Touch of Sadness" at that time, I should not continue all the past behind, why do I have to read this book with a hypocritical name earlier, and why is it so heartbreaking today, and there will be no return.

She really wanted to travel back to the library of that year, stop the investigative reporter Meng Kuan'er who had a pair of claws, and tell her that there was a muscular man holding a book for a while, no matter how curious you are, don't turn to that order.

Walking through the streets of these hometowns that day, she was still with that person, on the side of the endless street, she stood on tiptoe and kissed him, beat the bear together, and walked through the road to and from elementary school, junior high school, and high school......

The loneliness of things and people sprinkled handfuls of salt in the depths of the blurred thoughts of flesh and blood, making the living but wounded heart struggle to contract and expand, and when she was about to reach the door, she felt that the strength of her whole body was finally exhausted......

It seems that she has walked a long way, asked too many people, entangled countless memories, endured for a long time and finally couldn't hold back the tears crackling, and went home, leaving a trace of her wandering spirit.

The old lady went out to buy vegetables, and when the old man opened the door, she was startled, and Meng Chuan'er cried in her father's arms, as if she wanted to cry out all the grievances in this life: "Dad...... I don't want to be with anyone else anymore...... I don't want to touch love again......"

"Is that Yu Xiaoshan bullying my daughter? I'm going to beat him!"

"You probably won't be able to beat him......"

"Why?"

"Dad...... I'm so sleepy, I want to sleep. "Meng Chuan'er was exhausted and wanted to escape everything in the world.

"Okay, okay, your eyes are blue, go to sleep. ”

Parents are really the two people who tolerate you the most and want you to be healthy and happy.

I slept intermittently for three days, and in the middle of the way, Meng Chuan'er's mother came in lightly with three meals a day, and when she woke up, she was very disappointed, disappointed and hungry when she saw the world.

So she ate it, and when she had eaten, she went back to sleep. This is a repetitive action like an assembly line, Meng Chuan'er is unconscious when eating, and she doesn't know what she has stuffed into her mouth at all.

I only vaguely heard my mother sighing softly when she closed the house, the dreams of the past three days were repeated, dreaming of running on a boundless wilderness, no matter how you run, you can't run to the end, there is no one, time and space are all empty in the dream.

After waking up, my mind was blank for three minutes, and I couldn't tell what month and year it was. The brain melon seeds were buzzing, as if they were about to burst, and Meng Chuan'er rubbed her hair-like hair and shuttled to the living room.

"Mom. ”

The old lady was chopping vegetables, and when she heard this greeting, she almost cut her hand: "You slept this night, and if you don't wake up, your father and I will take you to the hospital." ”

"How many days have I been sleeping?"

"It's been three days, like a mouse, and when I went in, I saw that you were still sleeping, but I finished eating. ”

"Where's my phone?"

"It's been ringing so many times, I'm afraid I'll disturb your sleep, so I'll turn it off. ”

How many times has it sounded? Could it be...... Meng Chuan'er hurriedly turned on the phone, and saw that there were 79 missed calls, 10 of which were from Xiaocheng, and the rest except for Yu Chang was Zeng Tingting.

The day Yu Xiaoshan left was the day when Meng Chuan'er stipulated that a department-wide meeting would be held. For the first time in my life, I didn't remember what work was.

She actually forgot everything about it, and it was cleaner than the basin where wealth ate bones and licked the leftovers.

The people of the whole department must have arrived at the large conference room on time that afternoon, and she didn't have to guess how proud Tingting and Yu Chang should be.

Then she, the newly appointed head of the department, disappeared out of thin air. Is there anything more unreliable in this world than this? The two children must have gone crazy, and Meng Chuan'er hurriedly called back.

"Sister, sister??Where have you been!!You can't be contacted today, Yu Chang and I are going to call the police...... Woowoowoo...... We're in a hurry......"

On the other side of the phone, I heard Yu Chang's anxious voice: "Is it sister? Tingbao, don't cry first, call me." ”

"Sister, did you have an accident? At the meeting, Tingting and I temporarily arranged work, mainly to cancel the small partner system and move towards the big investment bank system, I lied that you were unwell and went to the doctor.

Fortunately, we have a meeting once a week in Diyu, and everyone is not in the office on weekdays, but sister, Tingting and I are very worried about you, what's wrong with you?"

Yu Chang was also extremely worried, and the words just now were said together, Meng Chuan'er's voice was hoarse, like a human voice and non-human voice coming from hell: "I'm fine, I'll be safe with you, thank you, let me slow down again." ”

After speaking, I didn't listen to what the two children said, so I hung up directly. Immediately afterwards, he replied to Xiaocheng.

"Hello?"

"Damn, you're scaring me to death. "Xiaocheng has been with that person for too many years, and even the tone of his speech is the same, which sounds painful in his heart.

"What are you looking for me in a hurry?

"There's a fart, I'm thinking that you're going home, why don't you tell me that you're safe, I'm still worried about it. "Xiaocheng has been a brother by Yu Xiaoshan's side for 20 years, and there has never been more than 3 days when he has not been in touch.

In the middle, Yu Xiaoshan went to Russia and didn't see each other for more than two years, and he would talk nonsense on the phone every day. This person is gone, and it seems that he can talk to Meng Chuan'er, and it seems to be closer to him.

"I'm fine, I've been asleep, okay, I'll hang up first, don't keep worrying. ”

After hanging up the phone, she sat on the sofa, dazed. The old lady glanced at her, shook her head and sighed.

Since work, this should be the longest time Meng Chuan'er has spent at home, counting ten days. In addition to eating and sleeping every day, she just sat there in a daze, or she pestered her mother to tell her about the scene when that person first came to the house.

"You kid, have you become a broken-mouthed woman, I have told you 800 times in the past few days, if you continue to be depressed like this, no one will be able to save you. ”

"Mom, I beg you, you tell me again, as soon as he walked in the door that day, he said that aunt is good, uncle is good, and then what?"

The old man who read the newspaper couldn't stand it anymore, so she stood up and beckoned: "Come to the study, Dad will talk to you." ”

Meng Chuan'er drooped her head and followed her father to the study. The old man handed her a cigarette, lit it for her, and lit one himself, and the two of them spit out a smoke ring together as if they were taking drugs.

It's been more than 30 years, knowing the daughter Mo Ruo's father, it's useless to talk about the truth at this time, he is not a woman who believes in the ordinary sense of the three from the four virtues and the husband sings with the woman, when the love is gone, hate is the support.

"How long are you going to be in decline?"

“......”

"You can't die, I can see it, you keep a breath for me and your mother, and then what?

Meng Chuan'er's eyes were red.

"You have to grind your mother's kung fu about Yu Xiaoshan all day long, so you might as well do something more worthwhile to kill time. ”

"For example?"

"For example, Guan Peng, you said that you want to kill someone's family, this is not right, we all looked down on that child at the beginning, and now you are responsible for becoming like this, but you missed the culprit of this matter?"

Meng Chuan'er held back her tears and didn't let her tears fall: "Dad, I can't tell who the culprit is now......"

According to the perspective of criminal psychology, who benefits and who commits crimes, Guan Peng was beaten and aroused your hatred, and if he dies, he will be used as a gun.

Now you say you can't break it, it's because you've been confused, girl!"