The two of them were silent for more than ten minutes in a silent atmosphere, the time was past midnight, the guests in the restaurant had almost gone, there were only a few sparse couples around, the evening breeze was swaying, the shadows of the trees were hazy, and when the whole world was quiet, it was the whole world to draw a circle casually.

On the front lawn, a man and a woman are riding a horse, walking slowly in circles, and the whole atmosphere looks laid-back and harmonious. It took many years for them to realize that if their lives were World War II, that night would be no less meaningful than the Normandy landings.

And those war-torning, confusing, bullets, dead and alive futures, if you can predict in advance, I don't know if these two two goods are still willing to do so, and whether they dare to choose to take the step of acquaintance. An earth-shattering period is about to begin, but it is so ordinary that no one can predict the foreshadowing laid by fate.

At that time, it was indeed an accident in the quiet years, two scarred and incomplete people chatted all night, talking about the past sparse life, talking about drunken gold fans and talking about willows and flowers, talking about the darkness at the bottom, and talking about the light of happiness at the beginning. That night, there was a collision in the heart, a moment of heartbeat, a moment of trance, and hope for tomorrow.

Later, Yu Xiaoshan picked up the bottle of red wine alone, held the glass in his hand, stood up and walked to the steps next to the lawn and sat down. After a while, Meng Chuan'er also came over with a wine glass and sat down beside him. Then he looked up at the starry sky and said, "Are you two still missing?" After speaking, he turned sideways and stretched out his hand: "Hello, Yu Xiaoshan, I'm Meng Chuan'er, it's nice to meet you." ”

The corners of Meng Chuan'er's eyes were crooked, no longer sharp, and even a little flickering under the interplay of starlight and lights. Yu Xiaoshan was stunned for a moment, then smiled and held Meng Chuan'er's hand and said, "Hello, Meng Chuan'er." I'm Yu Xiaoshan. ”

Meng Chuan'er continued: "Do you know? Yu Xiaoshan, before we met, I imagined countless times what you looked like and what kind of person you were, and at this time, I found that all this was exactly what I imagined, you are this virtue. So as soon as I saw you, I said the same as I thought. But it's too scary to imagine that we've just met, and it all feels like a reunion of old friends who have known each other for many years, and even introductions and greetings will seem redundant. ”

"I'm the same, I knew this was you when you came over from the opposite side today, Meng Chuan'er. But I didn't feel terrible, but the carrier of our acquaintance was not the experience of meeting, but our books for each other, my "Faint Sadness" is a part of my past, and the reading you put into seems to have accompanied me through that period of time. It's the same with your "Beloved Smoke", I accompanied you through that messy time, although I didn't participate in it, but a lot of feelings are really empathetic. ”

"Well, I understand this, words see people's hearts, especially the way we write, basically belong to the most sensitive and unknown side of our hearts, maybe those are the most real us. Tell me about you! ”

Yu Xiaoshan said: "My experience over the years is very turbulent, but not complicated, when I was a little bastard, I wrote in a faint sadness, and then I grew up, and I was tired of playing, and I was stuck at home for a period of time to read books, read a lot of books, and saw through a lot of things." Suddenly, I wanted to change my life, and then I went abroad, first went to Russia for two years of study, and then wandered around many European countries, wrote a few books when I was bored abroad, and returned to my country three years later. I got those books out, but what I didn't expect was that there were still many people who liked to read them, and then I fell into the literary and artistic circle for two years, having fun, and having fun, but you know that in the literary and artistic circle, you basically live a very hard life, so I will withdraw when I understand it. Now, I have done a few side businesses, which are not formal, but I rely on the relationships and interests of many buddies, and it is no problem to eat and drink a little. I always want to continue writing, but I can't find the feeling, and I am competing with myself. That's all, that's all, don't ask me about life, no. ”

Meng Chuan'er picked up the wine glass and said, "Well, this is you." ”

"What about you?"

Meng Chuan'er took a sip of wine and said: "Me is the same, we were not good things when we were children, when I was in school, I was not an opponent when I was fighting, and boys were not opponents, don't look at me like this, but fighting does not depend on strength, I have that ruthlessness." Later, I went to college, became a host, acted in a play for a while, and also broke into the flower field in the south for love, which I wrote in my book, which is basically true. After coming back, there was a period of time like you, I didn't want to do anything, just hiding at home and reading, eating and waiting for death, thinking about life, you know that you can't think about it, the more you think about it, the more depressed you become, in short, it's not easy to get out, but it's all over. Now I am an investigative journalist, I like my current job, busy, exciting, with a sense of justice and mission, facing life and death countless times, I am fearless, and in the end it is just a sigh. But except for work, life is like a pool of stagnant water, without any waves. ”

"Respect for the past, memories, years, no matter how profound, just because of who we are. ”

"Yu Xiaoshan, do you still have dreams?"

"Meng Chuan'er, are you interesting? You know that dream, this word, will be an absolute pain point for people like you and me, and it will be chaotic when you touch it. There are some things that others don't understand, but you and I are not hypocritical people, these years can be regarded as passing by the red dust, passing by the smoke and clouds, but the dust continues, the dream is still there, but it is vague, don't reach out, grab it and TM is gone. ”

"Well, it's pretty much the same. But professionally, I have a dream, which can also be said to be an ideal, that is, I have always wanted to be a war correspondent and go to Afghanistan, and the application has been submitted and approved, but this step has not been completed. I don't know why, it's not bad determination, it's not bad courage, it's not any shackles, it's just hesitating all the time. ”

"Why do you want to go there?" I can guess why, but I still want to ask. ”

"I just want to truly feel and record the meaning of the existence of life, 7 years ago, Sun Zhigang died in the aid station with bruises, if it weren't for the predecessors of the Southern Metropolis Daily who came out with that blockbuster investigation, it would not have led to the abolition of the detention and repatriation method, and the unjust case of Hugejiletu is still being called out by the investigative reporters of the year, I believe that there will always be a day when the injustice will be revealed...... There are many, many peers who are struggling on the front line, and they want to ask me why, in order not to overflow with sadness, not to exaggerate sadness, to persevere, for the peace, conscience, and justice that need to be promoted, although there is a long way to go, but also to make my life more valuable. ”

Yu Xiaoshan looked at her for a long time before he continued: "Well, this is like the Meng Chuan'er I know." If you need a support, I can give it to you, and I have a classmate in Afuhan, who is a native of Afuhan, or the kind of buddy who was especially good abroad back then, and he will definitely be able to help if there is anything there. I can think that you don't get any support from your family, friends, colleagues, including the one who is asleep, because they are looking at this problem from their point of view, and my perspective should not be too much wrong with yours, and if one day you lose your life for your ideals, I will be glad for you. You have your greatest glory, and likewise, it is a reflection of my sorrow. ”

Meng Chuan'er also looked at him and said, "Thank you, Yu Xiaoshan, your support is precious to me. But you may not know yourself, how powerful your words are, gave me unprecedented emotion and determination to write on my own, those words can influence many people and save many people, don't give up, I hope this is your firm dream, and I will always be your supporter. ”

"Thank you, Meng Chuan'er, you remind me of my thoughts and motivation once upon a time. At that time, my only motivation to write was to prove that I had been in this world, that I had existed in this space, that I had stopped in those beautiful or dilapidated landscapes. But then I was too lazy to prove it, I wanted to be extremely ordinary, I wanted to come and go for no reason, I wanted to come once, I went once to earn a few tears, three or two days of sadness and regret, that's it. But at this point, I'm convinced, I want people to know that I'm alive. ”

Meng Chuan'er raised her glass and said, "For our mutual support!"

Yu Xiaoshan raised his glass and touched it and said, "For the only support!"

The two of them returned to the table again and asked for a case of beer, these two are really wine fairies, ordinary people have already drunk several times, but these two people are about to sober up. They all felt a little tired, and then they all began to sit cross-legged in their chairs at the dining table, smoking cigarettes, like two landlords dividing the land. Dry a bottle of beer.

Yu Xiaoshan said: "There is a terrible person who once said that wine is like this, under its powerful effect, you will blur all your views on the world, what was originally fearful, now fearless, what you originally loved, temporarily forgotten, what you originally hated, feel alienated, and the original strange, will become hazy under the instigation of the wine molecule, and you have known each other for a long time." ”

Meng Chuan'er smiled with her teeth and claws: "What's awesome, huh? No, it's pretty awesome, isn't it written in my book?" I said why is it so familiar, in fact, we are not strangers to the original, we have known each other for a long time, and we are similar to the original pen pals, and we are the two of us who have written several books to communicate. ”

The sky was dark, bright, deep as water, and the dawn was about to break. They drank, watched, waited, the first rays of the morning sun pierced the world, the two gushing people began to be silent, the air was filled with unknown smells, like soldiers waking up from their beds at home, to pack their bags and go to the battlefield, like chocolate-flavored Baileys mixed with the fragrance of white peony stamens in the depths, like returning to the sunny classroom of the third year of high school secretly sleeping and waking up, the blackboard still has the solution of the equation that you don't understand, and it seems that you can't bear to turn your back but have to face it, farewell.

In fact, there is no parting, because of the two books, the fate of a meal of wine was formed, it happened that this meal was drunk, and it happened that the two people talked deeply, and it happened that the two people could have a high degree of similarity in their views on everything, how could there be so many coincidences?

Whether the two of them admit it at that time or not, but the heartbeat at that time has been buried in their blood, whether it is fate or not, but the direction of everything has begun to appear at this time, no need to navigate, their lives will also follow this.

The world returns to fireworks, you can imagine the streets returning to noisy, the crowds pouring in, the tracks day after day will not stop today's roads because of yesterday's wheels, stealing a gap from time to fulfillment two people unscrupulously, but the unstoppable footsteps make people feel sad and inexplicable.

Meng Chuan'er said: "It's dawn, and I feel very bad at this time, which reminds me of many sleepless, painful, and torturous nights. ”

Yu Xiaoshan said: "I understand that the feeling of staring at the dawn makes people desperate. But this night, we also stared, the light came quietly, but everything was quiet, which is a bit like the title of the book we used with each other, quite pretentious, but extremely appropriate. ”

Meng Chuan'er continued: "Yu Xiaoshan, since you are all hypocritical, there is a more hypocritical sentence that you want to say, can you let me say it?"

Yu Xiaoshan smiled and said: "We have been hypocritical all night, are we still missing?"

"Over the years, we have met like two lost people. I don't know if I will have the opportunity to drink and chat like this night in this life. ”

"Damn, that's exactly what I'm trying to say. That's it, such a river and lake, chivalrous to each other, let's make an agreement stupidly, don't get lost in this life, no matter where you are, what you're doing, who you're by, as long as you're not dead, don't forget to say a word, I'm here!

"Okay! That's it, we won't get lost. After thinking about it, Meng Chuan'er asked again: "At least I will definitely not lose it, what if you lose it?"

Yu Xiaoshan stared at her, then put away his smile and said seriously: "I lost it?" ”

Meng Chuan'er no longer doubted him, didn't know why, and especially believed everything he said, including this ethereal "We don't get lost".

"The last glass of wine, to the past, to meet, to the two books, to the dawn that will eventually come, but also to the ideal that will no longer be shelved. ”

"It doesn't matter where the future comes. This cup respects life, each other, and the future. ”

The two wine bottles collided together, and a crisp sound woke up everyone who was silent in this night, and he couldn't predict what tomorrow would bring, but at this time, a ray of sunshine broke through the dust in the haze in their hearts, it was a kind of longing and longing for the future and beauty, no matter what, they were about to run away.