Hanging up the phone, Yun'er was slightly stunned.

Taking the initiative to ask out a person of the opposite sex alone, Yun'er really hasn't done this kind of thing for many years. In fact, Yun'er is also very complicated and entangled in her heart, and these things that make Yun'er hesitate are divided into two parts, one part comes from her own things, and the other part comes from Wang Taika. In short, it's complicated.

But Yun'er's habits in this regard are the same as Wang Taika's, those who can solve it by themselves will never trouble others, and those who can't solve it by themselves will not be able to solve it by themselves...... That has to be done on your own!

However, these are not the real reasons why Yuna wants to go for a walk with Wang Taika. In fact, the real reason is simpler than these, and even so simple that it doesn't seem to be one reason: by Wang Taika's side, I feel very safe, that's all.

But this sense of security doesn't seem to be so safe.

Staring blankly at her phone, Yoona was in a daze in the dressing room. Thinking back to the conversation just now, I suddenly felt a little overwhelmed. Today's self is a bit less like me.

Thinking of Wang Taika's words just now, Yun'er still couldn't help but curl the corners of her mouth, and couldn't help but scold a "double standard"! But as soon as she thought of the word "double standard", Victoria's figure appeared in front of her again.

A panic poured out directly from the bottom of his heart, and his heart instantly seemed to be pressed against a stone, his neck seemed to be strangled by someone, and even breathing seemed to be a little more difficult. At that moment, like magic, all Yuna's original good mood was gone!

Then, it dawned on me!

Some things are actually foreshadowed in the heart, but they always instinctively deceive themselves. It wasn't until now that Yuna realized that she couldn't deceive herself.

In a trance, Yun'er remembered what Wang Taika said to herself not long ago, and even Yun'er remembered how frank and happy Wang Taika's expression was when she said this.

"Yes, I love Victoria, I love it, I love it, I love it. You may not know the name Song Coriander, but it is Song Coriander, whose full name is Song Qian! Yes, just like you just saw, I like her. No, it's not the right word. I should say I love her. Very, very love. So I came to Korea, the company, so I desperately climbed up. Of course, the final result is one's own, and one cannot live for others. But one thing is certain, everything I did was to tell her in person, as I had just done, that I loved, and I loved very much. ”

The light smile on Yuna's face gradually faded, and finally only bitterness remained. But when you open your mouth to say something, or stand up and want to do something, you find that you can't do anything.

Obviously it's such a nasty person, wouldn't it be nice to insist on making people hate? Wouldn't it be nice to continue to be an annoying black fan? Wouldn't it be nice to make your broken documentary? But why did it become the way it is?

Idol, what is it? At best, it's just an ordinary person who can't help himself.

"Hey, what am I thinking!" Yun'a suddenly felt funny, when did she start to become so sentimental? This is not her personality at all!

Oh my God, I didn't run away, I must have infected myself with Wang Taika. I didn't expect that now Wang Taika is not hypocritical, but has become so hypocritical, it's just ......

Yuna couldn't help but laugh, but she couldn't stop laughing when she smiled.

To be more precise, it can't fit anymore. Trying to be a façade when she was young has already made Yun'er work hard. In addition, how can you pretend to be indifferent? Pretend to be a good family that is full of shortcomings, a little bad, likes to hurt each other, makes people uncomfortable at all and even a little burdensome, and looks completely incompatible?

Well!

I'm sorry! Some things seem to be impossible to hide anymore, or to lie to yourself anymore.

Rotten questions like when and why did it start, there is no need to answer them. Yuna only knows that she ...... Fell into the pit.

Well, it's just falling into the pit, and there is no other adjective that can perfectly describe this feeling. It's just falling into the pit.

Queen's Cathal ......

But...... What else can Yuna do? What can she do? Some things are already like this, no matter what that person can say or promise in front of her, it is meaningless.

If Wang Taika didn't have that goal, maybe Yuna could really muster up the courage to face herself. But what can I compare myself to Victoria now? No one understands the meaning of Victoria better than Yun'a, because Yun'er has seen with her own eyes how miserable Wang Taika used to be, and how she is standing up little by little now. And his goal is Victoria.

Don't say it's Victoria, even if you change to someone else, change to someone who is inferior to Yun'er in every other aspect, so what? Even if you are better than that person in a thousand ways, but the person you like has her in the eyes of you without you, just losing this point, it is a total loss.

So Yuna didn't plan to compete from the beginning, and she didn't plan to have other ideas. Even those careful thoughts that occasionally pop up are vividly suppressed.

Only once, Yuna lost control. That was the cold war caused by a misunderstanding not long ago, and Yun'er faced Wang Taika coldly. As Yuna with such a good temper, how could she be angry or even cold war because of such a trivial matter?

From that time, Yuna found that she couldn't control her temper when facing Wang Taika. So was it really angry that time? Or was it because of ......? What about jealousy?

There is no answer to this question, not now, not in the future, and never will. Yun'er only knew that when she deliberately treated Wang Taika indifferently, her heart had already turned upside down.

On the one hand, Yun'er really wants to find a reason, even if it is a misunderstanding or something, anyway, she only needs one reason to draw a line between the two of them and make herself feel at ease early.

On the other hand, Yun'er couldn't help but look forward to it, will Wang Taika come to coax herself? Can she coax herself?

The opposition between these two questions is even more acute than survival or destruction. Even for a long time, Yuna was always unable to help herself between the two extreme options.

In fact, Yun'er can continue to be like this, maintaining a state of neither good nor bad, saying lukewarm words, and enduring the relationship between high and low. But......

"But I can't play anymore, and I can't fool my own heart. Thinking back, Yun'er muttered to herself silently, and the expression on her face slowly changed from hesitation and reluctance to determination. Let your heart be swallowed up by despair, and you will be indifferent.

There are some things, since there is no result, then don't think about it at all! Don't give yourself the slightest hope, this time no matter what, Yun'er's mind has been decided.

It's like...... Why did Yuna choose to meet at Deoksugung Palace just now?

Located about 800 meters long outside Deoksugung Palace in Seoul, Jeongdong Road is often referred to as Stonewall Road, and it is rumored that there is a curse that "lovers will break up if they walk together". Yuna doesn't know how to say goodbye to the people she can't lose in her life, so she just doesn't say goodbye and leaves!

"Today, I pretend to be stupid for the last time, and for the first and last time, let's meet him as a lover I like silently! After walking through the stonewall road of Deoksugung Palace, it was all over. A beautiful ending to a fruitless relationship, such a sense of ritual is also what you taught me!"

"Then from tomorrow onwards, I will really only do my own death! Throw away everything else! Although I am a little unwilling, I can only do this. ”

"Wang Taika, it's not that I don't like you enough, but I know too well how much you love her!"

"It's really unfair! It's like a double standard or something, and it's the most annoying thing when I think about it. ”

"Seventeen! I was the first to meet you, but I didn't expect it to be too late. ”

"But I have to move on, I'm sorry......"

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[PS:The same micro-movie "The Stone Wall Road of Deoksugung Palace" adapted from the plot of this chapter has been uploaded to the group file of the book friend group, 5 minutes and 46 seconds, the sadomasochistic story of Wang Taika and Chong'er!