Wu Peng's house was definitely deliberate, he deliberately sued before the New Year, and then mailed the court notice to his home, and the trial was definitely a matter of the year later, his purpose was to let Meng Chuan'er and Yu Xiaoshan live this year.

The notice was obtained by Xiaocheng first, and Xiaocheng glanced at Meng Chuan'er wildly, and took the opportunity to go out to walk the dog before the two of them had the opportunity to talk about it.

"What should I do? I have to hide this from Xiaoshan, right?"

"Well, in fact, we can ask a lawyer to consume it slowly with Wu Peng, but now the disease of the big cat cannot be stimulated by the outside world at all, so it is impossible to consume it slowly. The remaining more than 6 million must be returned. ”

"I don't have any money on hand...... "Xiaocheng was very annoyed.

"Cheng'er, although you and the big cat have more than 20 years of brotherhood, but you have done enough for him, all the way to the present, I am very sorry not to go, so this is something that I and the big cat must face, but it is not something you have to face, you don't feel guilty and blame yourself. ”

"Why are you talking like a fart today? Isn't it something I have to deal with, shouldn't we be together?"

Meng Chuan'er patted Xiaocheng's shoulder: "You know me, let's not be hypocritical, let's talk about the New Year first." Let's take a step by step, I can still have more than a hundred year-end bonuses, and find a way to make up the rest. ”

On Chinese New Year's Eve, Meng Shu'er and Xiaocheng wiped every corner of their home clean, and also hung two big red lanterns and put on a small red coat for Caicai, which means that the luck of the three people in the new year is prosperous.

made a table of dishes, and then sat down at the table and urged Yu Xiaoshan to come and eat. The little red jacket Caicai ran to his feet and begged for a hug, Yu Xiaoshan picked up Caicai, walked to the table and sat down silently.

Meng Chuan'er handwrote a card and handed it to him. The card reads as follows:

It's New Year's greetings to the big cat, this is the first New Year we have spent together.

Not counting the gunfire and smoke last year, this year is the point of my rapid growth. In you, I learned patience, restraint, and perseverance.

These growths in my small body broke out of the cocoon into a butterfly, and the flying after the labor pains made me feel the wider world, and I especially believe that the wider world will sit with you after many hardships and dangers, and embrace thousands of mountains and rivers.

I love you, big cat. We're all going to have a good year this year, and you're the home for the rest of my life.

Please eat well, sleep well, adjust your mood and state for me, and it would be better if you could seek medical attention! Happy New Year~

Xiao Cheng leaned over curiously: "What is mysterious?"

Yu Xiaoshan read it carefully word by word. My heart was at a loss, I recognized every word on the card, but my reaction seemed to have slowed down. It takes a long time to figure out what it means.

Recently, he has felt more and more like a clogged sewer pipe full of garbage, and every day he can see the piles of garbage stuffed in by the past years, but he is unable to unblock it.

During the day, sometimes there will be a phase of active thinking, and every time it is active, it is very anxious, anxious debt, anxious state, anxious everything.

He saw that Meng Chuan'er no longer felt excited, he didn't want to kiss her and hug her, let alone touch her. But he knew deep down that he loved her.

This is the only thing that does not change, Yu Xiaoshan loves Meng Chuan'er. In this world or another world, not together, not meeting, not talking, hating or hating, chaotic, regretting or not regretting, resenting or not complaining, all love.

He could now know that he was in a world full of darkness, numb and confused. He didn't believe that doctors could heal his heart, because he felt that only he could heal his heart.

However, Yu Xiaoshan's is indeed supporting it with his own strength. Every second there is a desire to end life, and that desire is like a mountain fire, intensifying.

It's like a person who is tortured all over his body, his collarbones are pierced, his hands and feet are all tied with bamboo sticks, his nose and mouth are pierced with iron nails, and in this case he has to carry a heavy burden.

And death is like a temptation, a relief, as long as death succeeds, the torture of the whole body will be withdrawn, the burden on the body can be lifted, and every wound will be healed. So you say, isn't this temptation great?

However, Yu Xiaoshan is holding on. He couldn't choose to be free, he knew what that meant to Meng Chuan'er.

Sometimes at three o'clock in the morning, when the mood is about to collapse, the most difficult and gloomy moment, Yu Xiaoshan will secretly put on his clothes and walk on the once familiar street, watching the sky light up little by little. The self that used to call for wind and rain and the self who is now down, like an old dog, interact and overlap in each memory.

He had actually forgotten how long he hadn't slept and how long he hadn't had a full stomach, and of course that wasn't in his mind. He could clearly feel that the lamp in his heart was extinguished, and that lamp was the light of life and the world.

Yu Xiaoshan can't face it, and he has to face the complete darkness. But for Meng Chuan'er, and the love between Meng Chuan'er and Meng Chuan'er has always been the only warmth in his heart, and this warmth is still there. So he panicked in the face of the dark world, but he was not cold.

But Meng Chuan'er, who he cares about the most, runs around for him every day, and is extremely cautious. The little leopard-like girl never complained a word, not even a single word. She never even frowned, and was always happy.

But Yu Xiaoshan knew that how much of the extremely bright smile every day was forcibly propped up for his own state.

He wanted to help her shelter from the elements, but now he was in tatters. Yu Xiaoshan didn't want to be a burden to Meng Chuan'er, of course, this was just a hope, because he clearly knew that he was already there.

So if the state allows, Yu Xiaoshan will insist on moving a little bit, but recently he is more and more afraid that he will not be able to move one day, and when he is overwhelmed by all emotions, he will not want to hold on anymore and will no longer hold on. At that time, Meng Chuan'er may not be able to take care of what will happen to her.

He even has an extreme idea that he feels that he is a dragger, that he has no desire and no ability, and that he will only mess up the rhythm of everything.

But Meng Chuan'er is a normal person, she should have the joys and sorrows of normal people, sweet and happy, eating, drinking and going to bed. So he especially wanted to persuade Meng Chuan'er that if there was another man who took care of her and accompanied her, he could enter her world, and hoped that she could actively try.

At least when Meng Chuan'er was lonely, someone could be by her side and give her a hug. This was absolutely impossible to accept in Yu Xiaoshan's previous worldview, but now he wanted to try to accept it, he hoped that Meng Chuan'er would be good, even if it was only good on the surface.

But in the face of the dishes on this table, the card with Meng Chuan'er's deep affection, and the wealth in his arms wearing a little red jacket, Yu Xiaoshan knew that it was not appropriate to say this now.

"Big cat, let's eat, pour you some wine, let's have two glasses?"

"Yes, yes, two whole glasses. "The little town and ran to get the cup.

Yu Xiaoshan took the chopsticks and began to stuff things into his mouth without knowing the taste, he couldn't say a word of what he was thinking in his head, he hated himself like this!

Meng Chuan'er touched the cup with Xiaocheng: "Big cat, happy New Year!"

The town was happy: "Happy New Year!"

Meng Chuan'er glared at him, and Xiaocheng scratched his head: "Why are you glaring at me again, I said something wrong." ”

Meng Chuan'er's mind is thinner than Xiaocheng, she didn't dare to say Happy New Year, she didn't dare to mention the word happiness, she was afraid of saying this word, and Yu Xiaoshan was not happy at all but would blame herself even more.

Where did the little city know about these twists and turns, but he didn't dare to talk nonsense anymore, and began to eat with his head bored.

The opening of the Spring Festival Gala on TV is like the aunts who twist Yangge, red, red and yellow, and it looks like a huge screen of eggs and fried tomatoes from a distance.

Firecrackers were constantly being set off outside, and Cai Cai was so frightened that he jumped down from Yu Xiaoshan's arms and got under the bed.

The bustle is like cooking oil on fire, and there is too much sadness in the small table, like a river flowing backwards. Meng Chuan'er's heart suddenly gave birth to a kind of rebellion, and the worst and worst situation is nothing more than that.

I am like a spring, forcibly pressed to the end by many sufferings, Lao Tzu does not believe in evil, I have to fight to the end, as long as the big cat is still alive, I Meng Chuan'er must rebound back!