"Modu, at the beginning, after I paid my monthly rent, utilities and bought some new daily necessities, it was almost difficult to maintain my life. In order to save money, I walk two stops to work every day, and I don't go out shopping at home on weekends. Occasionally, when someone else treats me, I always have to pack and take away the uneaten meal, and then bring it to the company for lunch the next day. Lin Yusheng laughed as he spoke, all of them smiling bitterly.

"Except for this time, everyone can hardly see me eating at the company. Colleagues sometimes have to go out to eat together, everyone AA, and I've never been to it. ”

"Once, during lunchtime, a colleague went out and found that he didn't have his mobile phone with him, so he came back to get it, and happened to see me having lunch in a small conference room. My colleague rushed in and said, 'Oh, I finally saw you eating, I thought you didn't eat the fireworks in the world!' ”

Lin Yusheng lowered his head and said: "I just looked at that colleague so embarrassed, the hand holding the chopsticks suddenly didn't know where to put it, clenched his fist, and clenched the chopsticks. Because my lunch is, the noodles cooked in the morning, no tomatoes, no eggs, no greens, just noodles, put in a plastic lunch box, after a morning of expansion, have become a bowl of 'dough'. Heat it up in the microwave and it's called lunch. I still remember a puppy with a sticking out tongue printed on my lunch box, and that sly look seemed to see through the embarrassment and smiled at me sarcastically. ”

Wang Taika couldn't stand it anymore, he was the most resistant to these stories, because he knew that they were all true, so it was difficult for him to calm down. Even he would rather go to a horror movie.

"Another time, at a company party, during a raffle, I won a handbag of a brand, and it was probably the most expensive thing I owned, even more expensive than my house. But, after all, it's just a thing. Even, something that doesn't require any effort to be sought after. ”

"The evil ...... capitalism" Wang Taika wanted to say something to lighten up the atmosphere, but found that the current atmosphere was solemn, as if it was difficult to breathe, and he couldn't be active at all.

Lin Yusheng was a little sad: "That day, the high-end red wine that should have been tasted carefully was poured by me as mineral water. They all say that you can't drink when you're in a bad mood, really. I drank less than three glasses before I fainted. When I woke up and came home at night, I looked at the so-called 'home'. Less than 10 square meters, three bunk beds, six people. I wanted to go to the bathroom, and I found that there was a man inside. The sink is full of cups with colorful toothbrushes and toothpaste. The shower gel is probably also shared, because it is impossible to tell which one is your own. There was a guy cooking in the kitchen and there was no hood, so the room smelled of oily hat. After taking two steps, I felt something under my feet, and when I looked down, I didn't know whose slippers it was, and it was placed in the narrow aisle between the two tables. ”

"Are you hungry? Why don't I make you something to eat?" Wang Taika wanted to change the subject.

Lin Yusheng looked at Wang Taika and didn't say anything. Wang Taika really couldn't stand that look, so he had to signal: "You continue!"

"I cried that day!" Lin Yusheng said: "I live in the upper bunk, the bed is clean and tidy, and I also carefully hang a mosquito net." Everything is so out of place. Late that night, I suddenly couldn't take it anymore and ran out and started crying, crying hysterically, crying and shouting as I cried. ”

"Am I stupid? I don't do such idle work at home, I don't enjoy so much love from my parents, why do I come to this hellish place to do it? Because I like things that I don't have at home!"

"I! I like those empty things, I like the life of the big city, drunk and dreamy, the lights are bright, I am especially vain!"

If it weren't for the alcohol, how much pain would have to be swallowed secretly. Who really understands? However, even in such a difficult day, Lin Yusheng never thought of giving up.

Speaking of this, Lin Yusheng suddenly stopped, looked at Wang Taika with a complicated face, and asked, "Do you know why the magic capital is called the magic capital?"

Wang Tai Kamuran said: "Why?"

Lin Yusheng smiled: "Because it is a devil disguised as an angel, it always makes people want to get its favor, but you know, no one has ever been pampered by it, or, it is pampering everyone in its arms." Many people come here every day, hoping to fulfill their dreams through its inclusiveness. However, many people are forced to leave here every day. They spent a while, even a lifetime, here, and finally found that they were still ordinary people. ”

Lin Yusheng's tone suddenly changed, and he said: "But I, Lin Yusheng, am not afraid! Then consume it, it's a big deal to drain your youth, and in the end, it's just one word, two horizontal and one vertical, dry." ”

The sky was dark, and in the dark night, Wang Taika couldn't see Lin Yusheng's expression clearly.

"Later, life changed for the better. I worked hard, my performance was very good, and the company slowly valued me. That time, the company's administrative commissioner resigned while pregnant, and the company saw that I was working so hard, so it wanted to promote me to replace me. Because my education was too low, I was asked to study in Korea. ”

"I came to Korea to continue my work-study program. But I never wanted to be an ordinary person, I wanted to be a person who was looked up to and admired by everyone. I don't want to be an irrelevant supporting role anymore, I want to be a protagonist! I have the heroine who has the treatment of the female number one! So after I came to South Korea, an idea came to me, I want to be an idol!" Lin Yusheng's face showed a trace of yearning: "In fact, I have failed many times, and every interview has been eliminated because of my poor foundation, bad looks, bad singing, and bad dancing." I don't go to big companies, I go to small companies that don't have a name, because it's easier to get through. Not long ago, I received a notice that I was interviewed by a very small brokerage company that had just established a brokerage company and could be a trainee. ”

"Good! really good!" Wang Taika exhaled, feeling that the depression in his heart was much better: "As long as the result is good, you can cry no matter how you want in the process! Don't say anything else, if you really make your debut! I must be your crazy meal! I will definitely buy your album, and I will force Han Pyi to buy it too! I will still ...... Yes, I'm still the king of black fans, whoever dares to treat you badly, I'll hack whom! I'm still a paparazzi, whoever can't get along with you, I'll shoot his scandal!"

"Haha. Lin Yusheng smiled, but the smile slowly became bitter: "It seems that everything is really going to get better." It's a pity! If fate is so easy to grasp, then it is not called fate. When I thought that I came from a poor family and was going to fight back through my own efforts, fate played a joke on me. ”

Wang Taika's heart tightened and asked, "What's wrong?"

"No matter how persistent some people are, she only deserves to be an ordinary person. It can never be the protagonist, and it is impossible to have the treatment of the female number one. Lin Yusheng said: "My mother was in a car accident. ”

Wang Taika's head "buzzed", and he didn't react for a long time.

"I had a falling out with my mother at the beginning, and I haven't called her this year, but I heard my father say that she has always been in good health. You say, how can people who are in such good health and never get sick ......" I could hear that Lin Yusheng was suppressing his hoarse crying.

Wang Taika's lips moved, but she didn't know what to comfort. Speaking of which, he is not the protagonist himself, and he is not treated as a male number one.

Two supporting characters comfort each other, maybe this is the most tragic thing!

Born ordinary, I'm sorry......