"I was annoyed at once, but thank you for telling me that. I'm not the protagonist, and I don't have the treatment of a female number one. Lin Yusheng said to himself: "I've always hated this fate, I've been the kind of person you can't find when you throw it into the crowd since I was a child, sometimes I think when I watch movies and TV series, I'm the kind of character prototype that all writers, screenwriters, and directors don't want to use." ”

"So, why did you start discussing life without saying a word?" Wang Taika asked, "Is it related to the last time you said that you want to return to China?"

Lin Yusheng didn't care, just said to himself: "In my first life, I have always lived a life like boiled water. I was the only child in my family, and after the college entrance examination, my parents wanted me to stay and work in that remote town in my hometown. At that time, I had actually been admitted to a good school in the capital. But it was the submissive character that made me agree without even resisting. ”

What else can Wang Taika say? I had to get up silently and pour a glass of water for Lin Yusheng, then sat on the chair on the side, stretched out my hand and said, "Well, please start your story." ”

Lin Yusheng took a sip of water and said with a smile: "I studied in the county seat, and when I returned to the town, everything seemed to have not changed, even the somewhat stupid old man who sat at the entrance of the village to send me when I went out is still sitting at the entrance of the village to welcome my return." When I was a child, I wanted to go out and see the outside world, so I really liked English and learned it very well. So after coming back. I relied on my strong English skills to work as an English teacher at the only elementary school in town, from third grade to fifth grade. ”

"Of course, there are not many students and teachers in the school, so many classes are mixed in one classroom, and after the class is done here, the homework is assigned, and the class goes to that half. This saves half the time each day. Most of my free time, I actually like to sit in the office and read books, or watch movies on the second-hand mobile phone that I bought with my part-time job. ”

"Teaching day after day, although idle, but also dedicated. It's just that I vaguely always feel that life shouldn't be like this. I can see how old I am. This kind of life, before the age of twenty, can see the whole life at a glance. ”

Wang Taika listened silently, it was the first time he heard Lin Yusheng talk about the past.

Lin Yusheng said: "Later, my parents arranged a blind date for me, and after the other party graduated from high school, he happened to build a factory in his hometown, so he stayed to work. After a few years, I also got mixed with the technical director, and I can get a few thousand salaries a month, which is a good income in such a place. At least in the eyes of my parents, it is better than a teacher who spends so much money on education and ends up with a salary of only 2,000 yuan a month. ”

"I still remember when I was having dinner on a blind date, the man asked me what I like to do, and I said I like to watch movies. He asked what the movie was, and I said a lot of Hollywood blockbusters in one breath. The man asked what he liked best. I said that what I miss the most is walking on the sparsely populated paths in autumn, watching the fallen leaves fall, and stepping on the fallen leaves. So the man said sarcastically, "Why are you staying in such a small place?" ”

"That person thinks I'm pretending, and I'm quite aggrieved. Because when I talked about my favorite writer, the man asked me if I was acting on TV. Even when I asked a friend to send a WeChat message, he asked if he wanted to put stamps. So, I had the idea of getting out of there. ”

Wang Taika smiled bitterly: "Indeed, in some places, it's quite ...... I also came from a small place, and a lot of new things may not be able to spread anywhere when the big city is outdated. Ninety-five percent of my classmates chose to go to other provinces, but I still chose to go to other provinces to see and learn. ”

"Yes, that's what I thought at the time. Lin Yusheng smiled.

"Go out and see, at least get out of the day-to-day life. Wang Taika understood very well, and he was even more surprised in his heart. He saw a Lin Yusheng today that he had never seen before. No longer silent, ordinary, ordinary, but a living girl with a story.

Today, Lin Yusheng said more to Wang Taika than in the past combined.

Lin Yusheng didn't seem to be saying it to Wang Taika, but to himself. Maybe it was because of drunkenness, Lin Yusheng's words were a little incompatible, but Wang Taika still understood.

After that blind date, Lin Yusheng began to desperately want to get rid of there, the place she called home. The day after the blind date, Lin Yusheng handed over a letter of resignation to the school.

After returning home, Lin Yusheng said "no" to his parents for the first time in his life. Faced with the sudden resistance of their daughter, who had always been well-behaved, the parents lost their way. The mother cried bitterly about how she had pulled her daughter to adulthood. But Lin Yusheng was determined not to look back, so he stuffed his salary card into his father's hand, carried a few clothes, and took 2,000 yuan, so he bought a train ticket to the magic capital. There is really a kind of spirit that does not hit the head and breaks the bloodstream, or even if it hits the head and breaks the bloodstream, it will not look back.

Until Lin Yusheng left, her mother didn't talk to her, and her father sent her to the station, saying that she should be considerate of your mother, she just didn't want you to be a girl working so hard outside. Lin Yusheng didn't hurt her mother. Although he had a hard mouth, he secretly put a thousand yuan under his mother's pillow when he left.

In the car to the magic capital, Lin Yusheng cried like a fool alone.

Just arrived in the magic capital, Lin Yusheng stood on the huge south square of the train station, it happened to be raining at this time, a ray of sunshine through the advertising license plate on Lin Yusheng's eyes, she blocked it with her hand, and then looked at the people who were carrying luggage or hurrying, or returning with joy, and suddenly felt a little sad. She felt like a duckweed, with her head crashed into the sea, floating and falling, boundless.

Before coming, Lin Yusheng contacted one of her distant classmates, although the job has not yet been settled, at least there is a place to stay. My friend lives in the outskirts of Pudong, and it's nearly two hours away by subway from the city.

Lin Yusheng went to the subway station to buy a ticket, and when she took the eight-yuan subway ticket, she silently cursed in her heart. That was the first time Lin Yusheng felt the pressure of survival given to her by the magic capital. Later, Lin Yusheng went back and forth for sixteen yuan a day to find a job in the city.

Although he did not have a university diploma, Lin Yusheng got a job with his fluent English, working as a front desk plus proofreading for English magazines. At the beginning, it was a probationary period, what kind of salary was set, Lin Yusheng cheekily continued to live at a friend's house. So squeeze in the subway for two hours every day to go to work, and after work, you have to squeeze the subway back.

Lin Yusheng's state at that time was that it was not yet dawn when he went out, and it was already dark when he returned home. But she didn't care at all, and changed her signature to: "There is a shadow in front of you because there is light behind you!"

Others laughed at her sour, and Lin Yusheng said that you don't understand, this is called feelings.

But the expensive subway fee could not be solved with feelings, so in desperation, Lin Yusheng borrowed money and rented a room near the company. Say it's a room,

In fact, it is a bed, bunk beds, several people in one room, and five hundred yuan a month. It's crowded, but it's a nest of its own, which is not the same as staying at a friend's house. In Lin Yusheng's own words, it was duckweed that was attached to a boat, although she didn't expect to be able to take her ashore, at least she no longer felt empty.

Wang Taika also felt this deeply. It's like living in a restaurant before, and I always feel like I'm in decline. Living here after moving gives you a sense of stability.

Anyway, there's a home.