At nine o'clock on the night of Wednesday on the 19th, Yao Luoxuan returned to the apartment where she lives now, which is also her home. When Yao Luoxuan and her husband got married, they spent more than 5 million yuan to buy an apartment in this suburb: 142 square meters, four bedrooms, two living rooms, two bathrooms and one kitchen, which is quite generous, and the interior decoration is also very elegant. Yao Luoxuan and his wife even let the designer and the construction team spend half a year to make a pure European style. The community where this apartment is located has a very good green environment, and the road has no twists and turns, unlike those communities now, where the roads are twists and turns, like a winding green snake, hovering in it. Why do you want to talk about the road in the community, because this is what Yao Luoxuan is most satisfied with, straight to and fro, the signage is very clear, there is no curved corner, so that the vehicles driving the community are always worried about the sudden objects behind the greenery. Maybe it's because Yao Luoxuan is a traffic policeman, and he cares a lot about the design of the road. But Yao Luoxuan's husband doesn't think so, he always jokes that these straight roads, connected to exactly the same tall buildings, live like a tomb. But no matter what, this is the starting point of Yao Luoxuan's happiness. After moving into this house, Yao Luoxuan and her husband held a banquet, which can be regarded as an official marriage. Well, in China, obtaining a marriage certificate is only a legal proof, and the wedding banquet is the recognition of this marriage between the family and the world.

Yao Luoxuan took out the key, opened the door, the corridor light turned on, she stepped into the room, took the shoehorn from the wall, stuffed it into the gap between her heel and the shoe, and gently played with it, the little high-heeled leather shoes retreated, stretched out her foot, took another step forward, and put her whole foot into the cotton slippers in front of her. The same is true for the other foot. He took off his coat and walked into the hall. At this time, Yao Luoxuan's husband was instructing his eldest son to do his homework in the house, while her youngest daughter was scribbling on the paper with crayons on the side. The three of them saw that Yao Luoxuan had gone home, and after saying hello, they continued their work again. Yao Luoxuan didn't say much, took off his coat, hung it on the coat rack in the corner of the living room, and then walked to the refrigerator. There was a large bottle of ice water in the refrigerator, and after Yao Luoxuan took it out, he twisted the cap of the bottle and began to drink it. This is a habit that Yao Luoxuan has not changed, no matter whether the weather outside the house is cold or hot, going home and drinking most of the bottle of ice water is what she always has to accomplish.

If you want to trace this habit, you have to push the time forward to the time when Yao Luoxuan was fifteen or sixteen years old, it started at that time, and it has not changed, even in the army, if you don't drink enough ice water for one day, you will feel uncomfortable the next day. Drinking water is a good habit, but drinking ice cold enough water in the refrigerator for a day is not a good habit. Even, Yao Luoxuan did the same during the confinement after giving birth to her child. It is true that this habitual practice at that time made the husband angry for a while, and there were quarrels, but the starting point was that the husband was thinking about his own body, and he did not pursue it too much after that.

After the cold boiled water entered his stomach, Yao Luoxuan sat on the sofa in the hall, and his whole body sank in. She rubbed her forehead, looked at everything in front of her, and suddenly doubted the truth of the events of the past two days. But facts are facts after all, and even if you doubt it, what has happened cannot be ignored because of its uncertainty.

Han Chen, this is Yao Luoxuan's husband's name. Seeing Yao Luoxuan's sad face, after saying a few words to his eldest son, he moved his body, sat next to Yao Luoxuan, and put one hand in his arms. Yao Luoxuan habitually moved his body forward, letting Han Chen's hand wrap his shoulder, and then Yao Luoxuan leaned his whole body on Han Chen.

"There's a lot going on in the unit. Han Chen said, he stretched out his other hand to lift Yao Luoxuan's folded wrists on his lap, and gently squeezed them.

"Well, that's a lot of things. Yao Luoxuan said.

"I've heard about it, there's a big thing involved. After Han Chen said gently, he instructed his children: "After finishing your homework, you and your sister watch TV in the living room, and I will go back to the house with your mother to say something." ”

After the children agreed, Yao Luoxuan and Han Chen got up, walked through the two bedrooms, and came to their own room. After Han Chen closed the door, Yao Luoxuan immediately hugged him and kissed Han Chen. Han Chen didn't say much, he hugged Yao Luoxuan, put his hands into Yao Luoxuan's clothes, slowly started stroking from behind, and moved forward. One hand moved to Yao Luoxuan's chest, and the other hand went down to his waist to unbutton Yao Luoxuan's jeans. The underwear on Yao Luoxuan's chest was unbuttoned, and the buttons of her jeans were also unbuttoned, but she left Han Chen's lips and pressed her forehead against Han Chen's shoulders. Han Chen continued to test with both hands, but Yao Luoxuan didn't follow his means.

"Tired?" asked Han Chen.

"Hmm. Yao Luoxuan responded, left Han Chen's embrace, and sat on the edge of the bed, she threw aside the underwear that had been withdrawn, and twisted the buttons of her jeans.

Han Chen sighed and sat next to her.

"Can you tell me what's going on?"

"What do you know?" Yao Luoxuan asked rhetorically. As soon as these words came out, Yao Luoxuan suddenly found that she was afraid that everything would be known by her husband. I couldn't help but nervously clench the sheets that were spread on the edge of the bed.

Han Chen's gaze didn't fall on Yao Luoxuan's action, he said, "I heard that a little kid killed someone, and you happened to be over there and witnessed the whole process. After saying this, Han Chen suddenly felt that something was wrong, and immediately added: "That kid fought back in self-defense, and I heard that he was released." ”

"Well, that's pretty much it. Yao Luoxuan responded vaguely.

"That child is an orphan, very pitiful, if you can help. Han Chen said, "My parents are divorced, and I can probably understand his feelings, but you should also tell me about helping this kind of child." ”

How did Han Chen say these words, it seemed that what he knew was not explained by himself, Yao Luoxuan thought of Zhao Cui, and it must have been Zhao Cui's help to explain. But this lame explanation for why the husband would believe. Yao Luoxuan looked at Han Chen's eyes and didn't notice anything unusual. Yao Luoxuan thought, since this is the case, then let's follow Han Chen's words.

Without waiting for Yao Luoxuan to continue, Han Chen added: "Anyway, my company has recently been reorganized, and I will get more dividends at the end of the year than before, and it doesn't matter if the monthly payment of the loan for our villa is over, you can take out part of your salary and provide for that child to go to college." ”

Yao Luoxuan shook his head: "My salary is not much, and now there are a lot of expenses for college students, I'm afraid I can't afford it." ”

"Of course, the superficial salary can't afford it, you can take out all your bonuses. Han Chen said like this.

"That's not a small amount of money!"

"It's not all taken out, at least supply that child, I heard, that child is good, before the exam every year, it is not a problem to get into a good school, according to the score line, it is not a problem for him to be admitted to Fudan University here in Shanghai." ”

"Why did you suddenly remember to help people. ”

"Who told me that you are your husband?" Han Chen's tone aggravated: "You have such a big incident, I must be concerned, I found out what that kid did at school, I think I can invest in this." That kid's name is Nian Hao, his specialty in school is a foreign language, not only is he good at English, but I also know that he is good at German. If this continues, and he learns German thoroughly at university, then we can take up a position in our company's European branch. Doing business with the Germans is very cool, not as cunning as the Japanese and Taiwanese. ”

"How do you compare it to the Americans?"

"The Americans do business with us with anti-Chinese sentiments, and although there is not much conspiracy, it is also uncomfortable. Whether they are overt or dark, they always want to make some extra income in our Chinese company. However, several German companies I have contacted are not bad, although they are also a little anti-Chinese, but they don't have the mood to cooperate with us. ”

"At the end of the day, this kid becomes part of your investment. ”

Han Chen smiled lightly and said, "I have been running a company for the past few years, and I have to measure everything I do. ”

"It's time to measure. Yao Luoxuan responded to his words.

Seeing that Yao Luoxuan was a little lonely, Han Chen changed the topic: "I know that you are tired, so I prepared a small snack for you." With that, Han Chen walked out of the room.

Yao Luoxuan looked at the open door, the worry that had disappeared in her heart rose again, she sat on the edge of the bed, did nothing, just quietly waited for Han Chen to turn back.

Soon, Han Chen returned. He carried a large plate with two Western-style pastries on top of it and a layer of chocolate, which was Yao Luoxuan's favorite thing. Next to the pastry, there is also a large glass of lime mixed with various fruits. Yao Luoxuan smiled slightly and accepted these things.

After eating, Yao Luoxuan took a bath in the built-in bathroom in the house. Han Chen went out of the room and took care of his children. After everything was washed, Yao Luoxuan walked out of the bedroom, talked and frolicked with his children, and watched Han Chen take him back to the bedroom.

All the tricks, Yao Luoxuan and Han Chen lay on the bed. This time, Yao Luoxuan was more active, she sat on Han Chen's body and squirmed quickly, and finally collapsed on Han Chen's body after a few hoarse sounds. Han Chen breathed heavily, enjoying it very much. He stroked Yao Luoxuan's back, and just wanted to kiss Yao Luoxuan again, but Yao Luoxuan turned over and sat up, leaned out his bare upper body, and then took out a cigarette and an ashtray from the bedside table, lit it for himself, and smoked it.

Han Chen is a single-parent family, he has experienced more hardships than others since he was a child, and when he graduated at the age of twenty-three, he began to start a business with his friends. At that time, he was at a loss, and he inadvertently drove past Yao Luoxuan's guard box on duty, and suddenly felt that this female traffic policeman was extremely beautiful. At that time, at the age of thirty, he desperately began to pursue Yao Luoxuan, and in less than a year, Yao Luoxuan was moved by him. It's not so much that he is moved, but that Yao Luoxuan feels that this man is very suitable for him. When the two talked about marriage, Han Chen's career was the loneliest, and he almost broke up several times, and finally Yao Luoxuan helped Han Chen with his connections, so that his company became regular and gradually grew. A year after marriage, the eldest son of the two was born, and the family was extremely happy. Han Chen's company's income became more and more huge, and in the third year after the birth of his eldest son, Yao Luoxuan gave birth to a little daughter for him. The family of the two of them is really enviable. There have been quarrels between the two in the past few years, but they are generally superficial, which just makes the relationship between the two more and more affectionate. Han Chen rarely got involved in Yao Luoxuan's work, and Yao Luoxuan was only slightly correcting her husband's work attitude. The extent to which they are involved in their respective careers is not deep.

After Yao Luoxuan finished smoking a cigarette, he turned his head sideways and found that Han Chen had already fallen asleep. She snuffed out her cigarette butt in the ashtray, put on her pajamas, cautiously walked to the bathroom, closed the door, and rinsed herself again. After doing this, a lot of mucus stuck to her, and she had to clean it up, otherwise there would be a foul smell, and she thought that after she finished washing, she would shake Han Chen awake and let him rinse it too. Just as she was thinking about it, she suddenly remembered her crow's feet.

Yao Luoxuan wiped the moisture off the vanity mirror with a rag and observed it carefully. When she opened her eyes, she found that the crow's feet were on one side, shallow and silent, reminding her of the old age. Women are very concerned about this thing, especially the various traces that come with age. Yao Luoxuan tied up his hair, raised his arm, and began to observe every inch of his skin in the mirror, from top to bottom, he looked carefully, and found nothing else unusual before he comfortably put on his underwear.

After everything was done, just as Yao Luoxuan pulled the doorknob, Nian Hao's face flashed in his mind. She breathed slightly, trying to get rid of it, but she was helpless, the more she wanted to discard this thing, the more it hung in front of her, and she had to accept it. Yao Luoxuan walked out of the bathroom, she didn't go back to the bed to wake up Han Chen, but walked to the living room alone and sat down on the sofa.

"What kind of person are you? Just last night, Yao Luoxuan made an appointment with Nian Hao, and Nian Hao designated a bar, and the two leaned against the bar, and her first sentence was so.

"What kind of person do you want me to be?" Nian Hao asked the bartender to prepare two cocktails, and after hearing this, Yao Luoxuan said that only mineral water was enough. But Nian Hao still asked the bar to prepare, saying that he drank it himself, and also asked for a sufficient amount of whiskey.

"Normal people. Yao Luoxuan replied to Nian Hao's words.

"What is normal?" Nian Hao asked again, he took out his cigarette case and handed it to Yao Luoxuan. Yao Luoxuan groaned slightly, took his hand, and lit it for himself.

After a few smokes, Yao Luoxuan said, "At least like a student, you are like a gangster now." ”

"It's a good choice to be a gangster, but I can't be a gangster right now. ”

"Is it honorable to be a gangster?" Yao Luoxuan asked rhetorically.

Nian Hao shook his head. "I haven't tried it, I don't know, but it's your impression of me. ”

"How?"

"Is my impression of you such a mess?" As he spoke, Nian Hao stretched out his hand and slowly grabbed Yao Luoxuan's hand.

Nian Hao's movements were very slow, so slow that Yao Luoxuan could dodge at any time, and even turned around and walked directly towards the door of the bar. But when Yao Luoxuan saw Nian Hao's hand stretched out, he seemed to be very accustomed to waiting for his hand to hold. The hands of the two came into contact with each other, Nian Hao's palms were extremely cold, while Yao Luoxuan's palms were full of heat. Nian Hao pulled slightly, and put Yao Luoxuan's hand on his knee.

"Look, your impression of me is not a mess. ”

"I'm married. Yao Luoxuan was stunned that she didn't dodge, and the sentence that came out of nowhere came out of her mouth.

"So what. ”

"That's not good!"

"Shhhhh Nian Hao picked up the cocktail handed by the bar with his cigarette hand, raised it to his lips, drank it all in one gulp, swallowed all the ice cubes in the cup in his mouth, and chewed it.

Following Nian Hao's request, Yao Luoxuan looked at Nian Hao, but all thoughts disappeared, and the noisy bar was only silent in her ears, and even the cold in Nian Hao's hands was left in the touch.

"Do I know you?" asked Yao Luoxuan.

Nian Hao did not deny it, he said: "If this question can be answered, then life has come to an end." ”

"It's just a very simple question. ”

"Simple questions need to be supported by a huge amount of life experience. Nian Hao shrugged his shoulders and said, "Obviously, at my current age, I don't have these experiences. ”

"But I don't remember knowing you. Yao Luoxuan said.

Nian Hao smiled slightly, put down the cup, snuffed out the cigarette butt, and the hand that made these movements reached to the side of the bar chair where Yao Luoxuan was sitting, grabbed the corner of the chair, and with a slight force, the chair was pulled, and then Yao Luoxuan was close to Nian Hao. Nian Hao sat opposite the bar, Yao Luoxuan sat down with his back to the bar, and under Nian Hao's involvement, the two leaned sideways and leaned together. Nian Hao let go of the hand that was pinching Yao Luoxuan, walked around, hugged Yao Luoxuan's waist, and then opened his palm and put it on Yao Luoxuan's thigh. The other hand let go of the chair, lifted it, pinched it lightly on Yao Luoxuan's face, and then put it on Yao Luoxuan's lap.

After this series of actions was completed, Yao Luoxuan couldn't find a reason to refuse, she looked at the young man in front of her, knowing that everything was not right, but she rejected herself in her heart, completely catering to the young man Nian Hao.

"You have the experience that has built your life, but I don't have these things yet, but they have been built into your life. It's just that you never remembered, and I still have time to become your memory in the world you experienced. Nian Hao explained, regardless of whether Yao Luoxuan could understand or not, one of his hands slowly moved back and forth on Yao Luoxuan's thigh, and he said: "I have slept peacefully on your thigh, and that time will be my most restful sleep, because you are by my side." ”

"I'm right next to you?"

At this moment, Yao Luoxuan remembered these words last night, and suddenly had an impulse in his heart. She felt so powerless that she tried to shake off the words, but she had forgotten even the lingering feeling she had had felt before. She knew that she was shaking on her husband's body, but only in the recollection of Fang Cai, it seemed as if all the memories were missing, and she felt that she had just ridden on Nian Hao's body.

A cold sweat flowed down, Yao Luoxuan lit himself a cigarette again and continued to smoke.

Indeed, at the time of the bar, Yao Luoxuan did not refuse what Nian Hao did to him, what he thought at that time was impossible to remember, and now he just feels that Nian Hao should do this. What kind of weird idea is this? Yao Luoxuan really can't remember. She thought about Nian Hao's words again.

"I kind of understand what you mean. Yao Luoxuan said: "I have seen you before, but I forgot." But when did you see me?"

"You haven't forgotten me, because that time doesn't exist anymore, and it's completely obliterated. When did I see you? Maybe I'll see you in the years to come, but not in this era. Nian Hao's words were vague. But Nian Hao still mentioned Yao Luoxuan: "When you were in the peacekeeping force, were you really in a coma for three months?"

Hearing this, Yao Luoxuan froze for a moment, her mind seemed to be a little unclear, and the sudden mention of the point instantly brought her memory into a fracture. That time, after being knocked unconscious by a car bomb, nothing remained until the moment she woke up. Could it be that there was an accident in these three months?

"I'll have to verify it. Yao Luoxuan needs to know the answer. As things stand, it seems that she must need answers.

"Maybe you'll never be able to verify it. Nian Hao said. "Like me, I can't verify what the years to come. Even though I am about to reach the years to come, there is no verification of everything I say now, because everything has changed. ”

"All changed?"

"Changed. Nian Hao nodded.

Thinking of this, Yao Luoxuan seemed to feel a sense of discrepancy. Yao Luoxuan looked around, all this, now my home, my family, and all my current life, is so real. It never changes, it doesn't matter if you verify the future or the past, the answer can be left unexplored, because all the life now is your own, and it has nothing to do with anyone. Why do you want to contact these? Yao Luoxuan became distressed and investigated the reason, but the shadow of Nian Hao that popped out of his mind could not be erased no matter what.

A kind of repression swept from the heart. Yao Luoxuan snuffed out the cigarette butt and lit it for herself again, but the power of nicotine was nothing more than that, and it didn't make her any better. If those three months of coma were really a hoax, then what was Nian Hao's status? This is something that Nian Hao did not answer.

Yao Luoxuan took a few puffs of cigarette and snuffed it out again, she turned back to the refrigerator in the house, opened the door cover, took out ice water from it, and drank it again, and the remaining 800 ml of water was poured into it under the force of her swelling and flattening throat. And is this habit something I had when I was young?