This is an answer that does not have any doubts. Pen ~ fun ~ Pavilion www.biquge.info There is no pair of parents who love their children deeply and can tolerate their children to seek death, even if they themselves are no longer there. As deep as love is, there is great expectation, and this expectation is not only with them throughout their lives, but also with their children's lives.

Even under the Nine Springs, they will watch the growth of their children with their eyes, be gratified, proud, think about it, and suffer for it.

Therefore, even if he was devastated, even if he really thought about seeking death, and more than once, but after all, Xu Guangling slowly walked out of that thick shadow, but there are some things that cannot be removed in a lifetime.

In the world, there is a lot of news about the accident.

But how many people have wondered what kind of situation the family members of the accident victims, especially their children, will be?

For Xu Guangling, the impact of his parents' wreckage on him is huge, which is not only manifested in the inability to face the departure of his parents, but also in the face of time, from not accepting to having to accept, but at the same time, it also caused him a kind of disillusionment of his outlook on life.

Before his parents' accident, Xu Guangling was sunny, enterprising, and hardworking.

After the accident with his parents, Xu Guangling was gloomy, silent, and had lost the direction and goal of his life, and he didn't know what else he could struggle, and more importantly, what was the point of how he struggled? Maybe everything was fine one moment, too good to be better, but the next moment, there was nothing.

Is this trauma?

Yes and no.

Yes, because it was indeed brought to him by the wreckage of his parents, and because the wound could be healed, but this effect could not be healed, and he did not know when it would be with him.

After that incident, Xu Guangling never submitted a manuscript again, never composed a piece of music again, never touched the piano again, never organized a school activity again, never participated in a study competition again, let alone a competition, and he didn't even have the heart to listen to the basic class.

When his parents were there, his father didn't have too many requirements for Xu Guangling's studies, of course, because he didn't need to make any requirements, Xu Guangling himself had already done very well, and it was far beyond his expectations, but his mother had requirements, and even Xu Guangling's route for the next few years had been arranged.

Study at Tsinghua University, complete your studies in two or three years, then go to Harvard or Cambridge to get a master's degree, and a doctorate, depending on the situation, and then return to China to seek a teaching position at your alma mater, preferably as an associate professor......

Xu's father had no objection to this arrangement, and Xu Guangling had no objection.

However, with the unexpected, everything changes.

In his third year of high school, Xu Guangling refused the school's special recruitment arrangement, took the college entrance examination casually, and then casually enrolled in a university.

Read books, lots of books, all kinds of miscellaneous books.

This is the only way to make him forget about the outside world, about his parents.

And that's how it went. Even if it takes a normal four years to graduate, Xu Guangling was only nineteen years old when he graduated, not yet twenty. He started school at the age of six, then skipped one level in elementary school and another level in junior high school.

After graduation, Xu Guangling did not look for a job, and he did not plan to look for it.

Xu's father, as a writer and an expert in literary and historical research, is famous in the province and well-known in China, and Xu's mother, as a composer, is slightly inferior to Xu's father, unknown outside the circle, and only well-known in the circle, but if you only talk about income, it is more than Xu's father.

After leaving, what they left Xu Guangling was a 280-square-meter house in the city center and a bank deposit of 34 million.

This is actually enough for Xu Guangling to wander all his life.

But since he stepped into college, Xu Guangling has not returned home once, and after graduating from college, he still hasn't returned. He was afraid of touching the scene and hurting his feelings. Xu Guangling just casually found a place, rented a house casually, and then casually indulged in the world of the book.

Until you get tired of a place, choose a new place, and start all over again.

In this way, confused and confused. No direction, no goal, no motivation. No one will take care of him, and no one will take care of him. -- My parents are gone. During college, even though he had been lonely and had no performance, there were still many girls who showed affection, but Xu Guangling refused and ignored them, for him, it seemed to be a matter of another world.

Indifferent, silent, withdrawn, and even weird, this is Xu Guangling after his parents' accident.

However, time is one of the most powerful forces to be reckoned with. Five or six years is enough time to quietly change something, revive the ashes, and revitalize the silence. Or maybe it's because he has changed places, climbed more mountains, and seen more seas, Xu Guangling is slowly and finally no longer so gloomy.

He began to try to write or record some things, about his parents, about himself, about the outside world, or something like that, or a little bit of a word, or a longer article, but he no longer published it.

He also tried to recompose some songs, or songs, or songs, or songs, or just a melody or two and a break in the chapter, again, these are just records, not published. The reason why it will not be published is that these things are a record of his mood, his experience, his memory and nostalgia, which are too personal and too self-contained.

It is something that is not suitable for the public, only suitable for one person, quietly recorded, quietly recalled.

He also made some friends.

It is not the initiative to make friends, but has traveled through many places and experienced many landscapes, and it is inevitable that there will be some people who fall in love with you at first sight, just a look, or a smile, or a simple word, and they will fit.

There are many such people, and some of them, after separation, will be separated from each other. And there are others, who meet again in different places by chance or necessity, or even see each other again and again, so they can't help but become friends, so that they are friends.

At this time, Xu Guangling chatted with two friends on the Internet.

These two friends are both insects.

The so-called insects, Kunming people are also. When traveling to Xiazhou County, many Kunming people leave a bad impression on the locals because they are not very particular about anything, so they get the name "insect", the word itself is derogatory, but since the expansion, there are also many Kunming people who call themselves insects.

For example, the personal profile of one Xu Guangling chatting with at this time is "an insect." It was also from him that Xu Guangling learned about insects.

Dasha: Third child, come and play?

The wine is too thin to drink (Xu Guangling): Where are you guys who haven't played?

Jia Gongzi: I won't talk about Shangri-La in Lijiang, Dali, you have also been to the border village. I thought about it, but there is a recent place where none of the three of us have been there, the third child, have you heard of Fuxian Lake?

Xu Guangling didn't, so he was Baidu.

After browsing a lot of web pages, Xu Guangling even saw such a passage: YN people are generous, they selflessly share the beautiful scenery such as Lijiang Shangri-La with the world, YN people are selfish, they keep the best things for themselves. (This refers to Fuxian Lake)

Xu Guangling copied this passage.

The wine is too thin to drink: is it really that good?

Dasha: I don't know, I guess it's hanging. Because Lao Tzu is a local, he has never heard of it before! But it doesn't matter, go and see it.

The wine is too thin to drink: OK.

Jia Gongzi: Why don't you come by train? The fool and I will pick you up tomorrow.

The wine is too thin to drink: good.