"But I'm not going anywhere, I'm not going to the hospital, I'm at home. ”

"Then I'll go to the outpatient clinic right now to buy medicine, okay?!"

"I don't want to go on my own. ”

When I looked at him at this time, I felt very frightened, and I suddenly remembered how desperate he was last night, and I felt that if he really went out, I even thought that he might kill for me.

I think this thing really pushed him into a situation where he could have done it anyway, and I'm even scared of it, and I don't allow myself to hurt this person anymore.

I feel like I'm being too selfish, because when I'm here, if I feel bad in Hanliu any time, I don't think I'm human.

"Han Liu, I'll go with you. ”

He looked very silent, he hadn't said a word since last night, he had been silent, I don't know what he was thinking, but I was scared, I was worried about him, I was watching him all the way, but his silence really made me feel like I couldn't go, there was a kind of peace of mind to talk about like the kind of silence before the volcanic eruption, anytime, anywhere, you can send out a consequence that you can't predict.

Later, we bought some anti-inflammatory potions in the outpatient clinic, and also bought some temperate belts, and by the way, I bought some amoxicillin pills, I carefully used such things, first gently wiped his hands, and also surrounded them with such cloths one by one.

I knew it should be painful, but he didn't make any sound at all, and he didn't frown, as if he had been silent, silence was golden.

I applied the sample to one of his wounds, and I asked him cautiously.

"Is it uncomfortable, is it painful?"

He just shook his head.

Then we stayed in this little house for two more days and two nights, and during these two days and two nights he still didn't speak, I cooked for him, I changed some medicine for him, and I snuggled quietly next to him, we didn't say a word, we could even do a project.

But he still didn't say a word, and was just very silent, cursing me in a very silent language and looking at me, as if it were my hand, as if I were disappearing at any moment.

We feel ugly to get along like this, but we feel like this kind of relationship will slowly stop after a while, and I really feel that we are living in isolation from the world.

I don't even want to think about anything that will happen in the future, I even think that if everything is really like this good everything, everything will be gone for a lifetime, and I and malice will live happily and simply.

Well, I know he never slept during these two nights, he had insomnia, he always put his arms around me in the dark, he kept soothing me, he was even trying to do something else.

But I can't, I can't admire him, and when he makes one more move, I feel shaky, I feel dirty, I don't think I'm worthy of him.

Really, I am not worthy of Han Liu, I seem to have happened to those things, and the past has been imprinted on my body like an iron brand, and I have refused again and again.

But I was always silent, suppressing my resistance with great strength, and once I was almost on the verge of succeeding, but it was at this point that I suddenly burst into tears.

He finally let go of me, and almost with a very desperate look, it seemed that he could let this, I saw a tear in his eyes as well, I threw myself into his arms, I hit him desperately, I knew that none of these things were going to work, it was all because of me, I really wanted to be with him.

He wanted me so much, he wanted to tell me that he didn't dislike it at all, I didn't dislike the past, but I couldn't do it, I really couldn't do it, because I was seeking myself.

I don't even hate myself, how could I possibly give them my shame that he will never let him get.

It turns out that I have really not forgotten the humiliation I have suffered in the past three years.

For a long, long time, Han Liu finally hugged me tightly, touched my head and said boldly.

"Sleep, I'm right next to you. ”

When the third day came, I felt that someone was ringing on this doorbell all of a sudden, and I was scared, I didn't know who would see it at this time.

I ran over quietly, I saw through this window, I saw that it was Ouyang Bingbing who appeared, I knew that she would appear here sooner or later, I would never have a way to deceive myself, I would always know that all this would end after all, and all this would have a perfect ending after all.

I wanted to see you, but I was about to refuse to let me open the door, I pushed him away, but he wouldn't let go, and just opened his arm, determined not to let me open the door.

I was so angry that I fought him directly, and he beat him with me without saying a word, and finally I hit me a little disheartened, and I knew that I didn't know what to do, and I didn't know if I was looking at him or looking at me.

"I'm sorry Han Liu, we will never be able to hide here for the rest of our lives, this place is just a paradise, we will never be able to stay here for the rest of our lives, if you can block this time, you can't stop it for a lifetime, do you know? Bingbing is standing at the door waiting for you. ”

My brother left silently, I finally opened the door, and Bingbing was standing at the door, his face was even paler than mine at this moment, and when she saw me with Han Liu, she turned around and left.

Well, I immediately pushed Han Liu to catch up with her, but this was indifferent at all, I had to chase it out quickly, at this time my brother pulled my clothes tightly and refused to let go, I remember biting him, but he still hugged me tightly, and finally I was really dragged by him It hurts, I want to beat and beat.

He was hurt by me, as soon as he let go, I immediately ran directly to Xiamen without hesitation, just Bingbing walked not very far away, I directly called me her name, turned around and looked at me.

She was standing alone in this place, it really seemed to be lonely, and one of the original tourists was also very sharp, and I looked at him, and I whispered.

"If I'm really sorry, it's really my fault that these things are really my fault, I shouldn't do this, can you let me?"

But Ouyang Bingbing was really like Lisa, she didn't give me any room for explanation at all, she shook my head very loudly at this time, and pushed me loudly to speak.

"Don't tell me these unjustified topics, don't tell me about what happened again at this time, you are really selfish, you are really cruel, why do you do this? You obviously know that Han Liu is my boyfriend, you obviously know that I can't do without a second marriage at all, why did you come to such a situation. ”

I could only continue to say to her.

"I'm sorry, I really didn't mean to, I'm sorry. ”

"Sister, do you know? I really didn't get used to it when I was in high school, you know? No, when you appeared, I was completely a childhood sweetheart with the customer, all of our life values are exactly the same, even if one of our families has the same family background, both of our parents are very good friends, but you just appeared in front of us, why did you transfer to our school, why did you destroy our relationship? Later, I found out that my brother looked at your feelings and looked completely different. ”

"Do you think I don't know? In your sophomore year of high school, you have been secretly talking about love behind the teacher's back, do you think you don't know? I really don't know what's good about you, how are you different from others, what's different about you, you're just someone else pretending to be more sentimental than others!"

"Later, I really hated you for this kind of pitiful feeling, and finally you broke up, I finally waited until you broke up, I felt that I had a chance, I had been waiting and pursuing Han Liu for three whole years, and at that time, no matter how I pursued him, he didn't accept me, and I confessed to him that he didn't accept me, and then I accumulated more than half a year, and I finally found out at this time that I finally had a little bit of return when I was to him. ”

"I didn't expect that in these 3 years, he was not very happy at all in this college student, he always had you in his heart, but it was you who had self-confidence, you followed other men, you abandoned this relationship, Han Liu, who has been with me for the past three years, I let him out of this shadow, I made him happy, why do you want to come back?"

"Eldest sister, sometimes I'm really jealous of you, why do you always have such a way, you can have some unbearable power to return, you can destroy the feelings I have been running for the past three years, there is no chance at all, why are you?"

"Big sister, do you know, even if I don't get it, hehe, I try again and again. ”

"In the spring of this year, when Han Liu's grandmother was diagnosed with this cancer, and I used the best motivation in the family, I wanted my grandmother to be the best VIP ward, and to give the best treatment to foreign countries, and you know what? I made such a suitor, I guess I also said that I was just a good girl, and I just wanted to get a friendship, not to delay this relationship. ”

"I really felt very uncomfortable at the time, I really felt that the things I paid were really not worth it at all, but I don't regret it, I still insist on loving, because I really love, I can't live without her, I can't lose, it's my best time, it's a role I pursue the most!"

I was dumbfounded as he looked at what he was talking about.

I never expected to hear that I have given so much to this feeling, and I have a lot more attachment to this relationship than I do, and I am just a thief here, and I want to steal this feeling.