Since I left Ye Jingbei, I was very angry and gave me all the bank cards, and I sent them all by courier, and now I have a cash on hand, which is really not even 1,000 yuan.

I had no choice but to borrow some money from Lisa, and he happened to be going home for the New Year, so I had no choice but to accuse at this time, and sent her a micro-message.

She called me directly and asked, "Don't be polite to me, how many red envelopes will you send?"

To be honest, I don't know anything about this kind of thing, and I don't know how the money is supposed to come out, it's just the kind of price I see through those elevator ads.

So I said, "You can transfer 4,000 red envelopes to me." ”

Lisa asked me very strangely: "Why do you need so much money, and you have already applied for a scholarship at school, the subsidy is still full, as for the start of school should be less than 10 days, you shouldn't need so much money, you don't lie to me about what you use to do something." ”

Of course I knew she cared about me, she wasn't short of money, she wanted to know what I was doing.

I had to make an excuse.

"Well, I just happened to take advantage of the beginning of the school year, you need to have a small operation, and the doctor told me that the conservative cost is estimated to be about 4,000 yuan, so I can only borrow it from you. ”

"What kind of surgery? I've never heard of you, what's going on in your body?"

"It's nothing, it's just that some changes in my eyes are a little painful, and some endometritis may be that I usually wear this glasses a lot, and some speech, so I try to move as soon as possible, and it will get better after surgery." ”

"Oh, then you shouldn't be in a special hurry about this matter, you just need to drop eye drops, and I think you should wait until I come back to do it, I just have one more hand next to you to take care of you, you are alone in the hospital, I am not at ease, besides, do you still have this reimbursement? The school doesn't give us a medical expense reimbursement card that can be reported at public expense, and only 20% of the cost can be used!"

Lisa is one of those heartless girls, and as she spoke, I felt that she suddenly seemed to be alert to something, with a very nervous language, and even the rhythm changed.

"No, Leng Shuiyue, don't lie to me, what kind of surgery are you going to do, you have to tell me a real situation, otherwise I will fly right now, go to you immediately, I will take you to the hospital, I will see what kind of surgery you have!"

I really didn't expect Lisa to be so upright with me, and so sensitive to my mind, and it touched me, but I still couldn't let her know about it, because I was a little fragmented in my speech.

The sensitive Lisa seemed to have guessed an answer quickly, and she immediately asked silently.

"I know, Leng Shuiyue, you tell me if you are pregnant, and you are going to have surgery, right? This money and this time are just right, is it so that your eyes don't need to recover at all, 4,000 yuan can't be done at all, at least tens of thousands of yuan, or just a few yuan of eye drops will be solved!"

I don't know how to explain this to Lisa, I'm really sad because I'm walking in front of my best friend, I'm so indulging myself, I'm so embarrassed that I can't even shy away from these things.

At this time, Lisa had completely disregarded the image of the shrew scolding the street, and scolded like that.

"I know, it's definitely this Ye Jingbei, this bad guy is really a beast, how can I treat you like this, you are already like this, you are still studying, you are still a student, it is really too much, to bully you like this, is there still a conscience here, I really almost want to call the police!"

I think if this matter is said openly and fairly, it should have little relationship with Ye Jingbei, because Ye Jingbei has been very silent and acquiescing to my contraceptive measures in this regard, but I don't know why my contraceptive effect failed, and I should be blamed for not doing these strict prevention measures.

My luck is so bad, just as there is no good luck in my life in general, and I seem to have gotten used to it, blow after blow.

Lisa is really an angel in my life, he caught the plane at 5:00 on the same day and flew straight back.

When I got to the dormitory, she immediately took me out, because she insisted on persuading me, and definitely demanded that I never go to those small clinics that were not licensed in black shops.

She had already asked his relatives and friends about a private hospital, and she also had a very important relationship in this regard, and would not divulge a single one of my privacy.

Leng Shuiyue explained very carefully and said to me: "You don't have to worry too much about these private hospitals now, although they are not as well-equipped as public hospitals, but these fees are very high, only for those who need services, and the results are very good, a few of them are postdoctoral fellows, you are doing surgery here, I think it is very safe, there is no problem." ”

To be honest, I'm really scared of this kind of encounter, I don't know how to deal with it, I'm just trembling, I feel that I should be like those heroines on TV, I should probably suffer a heart-rending pain.

Yes, the kind of camera on TV that is very painful when it describes this aspect, gritting teeth and grinning teeth even sweating profusely, and glaring angrily in the future, all in all, the final effect is like this anyway.

Later, I searched for a harm in this regard.,Anyway, all in all, it's a woman's sin.,This one is like walking around in the palace of Hades.,It is said that the pain of giving birth to a child in life has also reached a very high level.。

I didn't know what to do, but fortunately Lisa was next to me, she had already made an appointment for me to have an operation, and she was very accompanied, and I walked a few laps around the garden below the hospital to comfort me very gently.

"Lengshuiyue, you don't have to worry, I have already communicated with the doctor, and said that this is general anesthesia, there will be no pain, there is no feeling at all, it will be fine after you wake up from sleep, I have asked the nanny to stew the duck chicken soup for you, and in the future in the 10 days of school, you will be hungry every day, rest on the sofa, drink the duck soup every day, and recover your body as soon as possible, nothing has happened." ”

I don't know about it, I feel like these things are unknown to me, I'm not afraid of pain, but I'm afraid that some accidents will happen along the way, and I'm really sorry for the newborn child, I'm full of guilt in my heart.

I never expected that when I went to the hospital, my whole body kept shaking, my face was pale and good-hearted, and Lisa accompanied me, but the two of us never expected that we would meet Ouyang Bingbing and Han Liu again in the hospital.

When I saw Han Liu from afar, I felt that his face was not very ruddy, but also very pale, a little haggard, a little confused I don't know, but I felt that he was seriously ill.

Later, I learned that he came here to accompany Ouyang Bingbing, maybe he might make a scene for the child in his belly, yes, I know that Ouyang Bingbing is pregnant, and soon Han Liu will be a father.

Then our world will drift further apart, and there will be no way to merge again.

All in all, I was stupid, I couldn't say a word to him, I couldn't face him anymore, in fact, whether it was my idea of an ostrich, or my original afforestation.

Anyway, I really don't want to see Han Liu again in this life and this life, because I feel that I am not worthy, and I have polluted him.

The kind of love of youth, in fact, is really like an ancient poem has become a thing of the past, and now we are an adult, we are facing a kind of reality that is more unbearable than romance, you must work hard for it, fight for it, and persist for this.

Well, especially today, I didn't expect to meet him again on such an occasion in the hospital, and I seem to have felt it, in this special occasion, or God has been secretly reminding me.

The lovelorn love between me and him, although it once belonged to each other, although it was once vigorous, but it has long passed away, except that Wushan is not a cloud?

That's it, just pass by.

When I was about to leave from another corridor, I was about to miss it, but I didn't expect Ouyang Bingbing to stop me.

Speaking from the heart, I don't want to have any conversation with Ouyang Bingbing, there is no communication at all, which makes me feel very tired and needed, Lisa is very smart, she directly held my hand, across the middle of the two of us.

I smiled politely at Ouyang Bingbing: "Lisa and I came here to see eye diseases." ”

But how sensitive and sensitive women are, I feel Ouyang Bingbing staring at my belly, looking at me with a thoughtful look, sometimes I have to admire a woman's strength and an intuition and a boundless imagination.

If I'm not mistaken, she has actually guessed that I might be pregnant, but she may not have guessed whether the child in this belly will belong to Han Liu?

I don't care about that anymore, I just think that we will never have anything to do with each other in this life.

After I said goodbye to the two of them, I went straight to the second floor, and when I finished a B-ultrasound examination, the doctor had already told me that my baby had settled in my belly, and it was very healthy and small, like a small tadpole.

And I was told that I could have surgery if necessary, but it was best to make an appointment within a week, so it would be better for my body to recover.

But Lisa said to the doctor worriedly: "Baidu, can you advance it, because we will go to school in 10 days, and we will have surgery after a week, so the recovery time of the body is less than three days, and it will be very troublesome at that time." ”

But the female doctor still insisted on looking at me and said slowly: "Whether you want it or not, I must be responsible for a safe duty for each of my doctors and patients, then a week is the best time, because the embryo is still very small in the stomach, if you rush to operate now, it may not be very clean, and there may be sequelae at that time, so I gave advice through a professional medicine." ”

So what can we say, we can't go against the laws of nature, right?

I really regret it, so I feel in a hurry, and if I do it after a week, it may be too late, because even though I will start staying in 10 days, I will have to go back to school to do some pre-class preparations, and I will also have to participate in some pre-class dances, which is quite a conflict.

And I will have to take leave because of physical reasons, so in a place like the school, a lot of gossip news will soon come and go, and I am quite worried that my situation will have an impact on the school, so that the students can perceive it.

I have to guard against this kind of thing, I have to be very cautious, very cautious.

Lisa patted me on the shoulder comfortingly.

"You don't have to worry too much about Lengshuiyue, when the school first starts, you should not be particularly busy in all aspects of school, and when the time comes, we will rent a short-term house next to the school, a month's rent, and then we will move to the dormitory to live, so we will return to school after a month, in fact, there is no big problem, and many girls in our school are like this. ”

I know she's doing it for my good, and in many cases, Lisa is really a great person to help me out, and I'm grateful.

After we got the ultrasound diagnosis sheet, we walked out of the hospital.

But it scared me silly, because I was under the plane tree across the street, and I saw Han Liu, and he was standing there alone, looking at me from afar, and I felt that I was getting farther and farther away from him, and I couldn't stand his gaze, and I felt that I would be vulnerable, and I would crouch down and cry.

There is a road between me and him, and the endless flow of traffic brushes through us, and I always feel that there is a male and female crossing between me and him, so red that we really have no fate together, why do we still look at each other in pairs?

I remember that Na Ying had a song that used to be very popular, called forgetting each other in the rivers and lakes, and it is better to miss each other than to see each other.

My Han Liu, why do you still appear in my heart? I am your poison, you can leave me.

Lisa also saw it, and Han Liu's existence said to me: "Leng Shuiyue, you should have a good chat with Han Liu, there is no matter where you have an understanding, just do what you want, I'll go back to the dormitory first, I'll wait for you in the dormitory." ”

In fact, Lisa didn't know what kind of relationship I had with Han Liu, maybe she thought we were just a simple first love, or maybe she thought that Han Liu rescued me in those days.

It means that Lisa is very enthusiastic looking forward to me and Han Liu reuniting after a long absence, and starting another romantic wedding in the future.

She had even figured out how to sow discord between him and Ouyang Bingbing, and in the end, it was all to satisfy my relationship with Han Liu.

But I'm sorry, I really can't.

Lisa actually didn't know that there was never a possibility between me and Han Liu, there was an unbridgeable gap between us, and we would never have a future.

If it's not a pity to even have a future, why do we have to meet again, why do we want to add a kind of hurt and torture to each other?

I really don't want to meet Han Liu again, I don't want to let myself fall into the kind of Kunlun with no end in sight, but Han Liu is standing at the end of the street, and it is like standing at the end of my world, I have to use up my life before I can walk into him.

Maybe I don't have the courage on this road, maybe I want to go to the end of the world, and I have to use my three lives and three lives.

My heart is like a dagger, sharp to my heart with a pain, even a feeling of suffocation, I am always facing him, I am constantly colliding and wandering between emotion and reason.

In the end, emotions got the better of me.

My Han Liu, you are the tumor in my heart, I can't pull it out, the spring breeze blows and grows.

Really, I don't know what else to say between the two of us, I walked to his side, I only followed him, he walked in front, I walked behind like the tacit understanding we had when we were out of school many years ago, wearing a certain distance, and maintaining a certain rhythm.

yes, that's what we are.

Walking to a quieter part of the crowd, which happened to be in a park tree, also under a large plane tree, finally he turned to look at me, and it turned out that we had walked in front of a restaurant.

"If you are thirsty or not, do you want to drink some ice powder, it is said that this taste is very good, it is an old shop, it has been made for decades, and it has always adhered to the old formula. ”

I don't have an appetite for a lot of things anymore, because I just want to find a place to have a good talk with him and say a final goodbye.

He still ordered me a set meal, we sat on the grass and ate careless east, west and west, rambling and chatting, I remember many years ago that Chinese New Year's Eve was also a teenager invited me to lunch, that time was so beautiful, who would have thought that years later, in such a way?

I had just become an orphan at that time, and how sensitive I was then, with a kind of temptation, with a kind of speculation about many things.

Therefore, the twists and turns of fate have already been paved and set for me in the future.

"Sometimes I always want to talk to you, but I don't know why there is so little time for us, I have a lot of things to say to you. ”

Han Liu's voice was much calmer than I expected, much more mature, and much more stable, and I looked at him with some curiosity.