The voice said, "It's better to die if you're living so hard anyway." It's already a waste, don't live. You can jump off a building, you can take sleeping pills. So sometimes I wonder how I'm going to end myself. Or maybe you should think seriously about which method is more appropriate. ”

Su Maruzi looked at Wang Taika: "But I know, I can't die, I don't want to die." I really don't want to. Every day is struggling between life and death, and this feeling is something that ordinary people can't empathize with. ”

Wang Taika was speechless.

It's not that there is nothing to say, but there is no need to say it. Because those self-righteous enlightenments are not useful for depression, but only make people more frustrated. People with depression need attention and companionship. Go for a walk, go on a trip and relax. What is needed most is a sense of security.

Wang Taika's bipolar disorder is worse than depression when it is committed.

If you want to describe that feeling, it is in the dark, without direction, oppressive and lonely. In a dark room. A person is inside and can't find an exit. I've thought of all kinds of ways, but I can only be trapped inside, stroking those cold and hard walls.

In this small space, stumbling. Everything is confused, everything is pitch black. Feel the darkness surrounding you, and never find the light. I can't find the way forward, and I can't find my own value.

Trapped in suffocating darkness, no one can help you, not even yourself. I can only get used to powerlessness and sadness, without any motivation and fighting spirit. And the ego has become a piece of crumbs, and it is impossible to grasp its own power at all. All that remains is a heavy burden, embarrassment and helplessness, and deep sadness.

By the way, even the memory became very pale. It is easy to fall into abstract redundancy, and let yourself fall more and more into exhaustion and ambiguity. The specific memory slowly became impoverished, and only the gray tones could be remembered. This makes life colorless and colorless.

It's like walking through the ruins and there's nothing alive around you. He could only curl up deeply, letting the desolation surround him.

Depression may be a form of self-preservation, an evolution that produces an instinct for life. When vulnerable, sad and helpless, people try to hide themselves, conserve energy, energy and emotions so that they can recover slowly and naturally in an undisturbed environment.

However, if it becomes a disease, it is a loss of control, permanently in this deep buried state, permanently feeling vulnerable, sad and helpless.

After Su Maruko finished saying all this, he looked at Wang Taika again, and saw that Wang Taika did not have the slightest evasion and impatience, which made him feel a little relieved.

"Oba ...... Keep it a secret for me!"

"Well, not only will I keep it a secret for you, but I'll also cure you. Wang Taika smiled and said, "You just have depression, it's not that you really can't do it." Actually, you're excellent, really. ”

Sumaruko didn't believe it: "No, I feel terrible. ”

Wang Taika didn't answer Su Wanzi's question, but said with a smile: "Listen to me, I will arrange a professional psychologist for you, accept the introduction, receive treatment, and you will get better." ”

Su Maruko looked at Wang Taika: "Oba, are you so good?"

Wang Taika shook his head: "I'm not good yet." ”

Sumaruko continued to ask, "What about Oba...... Ever thought about the end?"

Wang Taika shook his head: "It hurts too much, I can't bear it." ”

"I feel like Oba is lying to me. Su Maruko didn't look very convinced, but she immediately changed the question: "Oba, why do you have bipolar disorder?"

Wang Taika plucked his ears and said, "Because of Song coriander, um." ”

Su Maruzi shook his head: "I don't believe it, the hurt of a relationship, no matter how affectionate Oba is, will not reach this level." ”

Wang Taika smiled: "That's a story far away, and this story is dangerous, so you can't know." ”

Su Maruko looked at Wang Taika: "I want to know." ”

"It's not good for you. Wang Taika smiled and said, "What I have endured is something you can't imagine." ”

Su Maruko pouted: "Are you pretending to be cool again?"

"Don't say much, follow me to see a psychiatrist, this is my core purpose, otherwise you think I'm idle, find you out to relax!" Wang Taika touched Su Wanzi's head with a smile and said, "I will definitely not let you die, definitely!"

After settling the account with Abin, Wang Taika took Su Wanzi and directly found a professional psychiatrist.

Since Dr. Bai's accident, Dr. Zhou Zijun has been there. As soon as Wang Taika talked about the relevant things, Dr. Zhou asked Su Wanzi some questions.

The preliminary inference is that it is indeed depression, and it is not early, it is a bit of a medium-term. Although it is serious, it is not completely irreparable.

To be precise, bipolar disorder really depends on personal creation, and if it is well controlled, even if it cannot be eradicated, it will not have an impact on life. But if it is not well controlled, it will be like a speeding train, just waiting for the end of destruction.

Although Wang Taika had a general impression of Dr. Zhou, he didn't expect that he really had two brushes. And prescribed some related drugs to Su Wanzi.

Wang Taika asked, "I take that medicine, I think it works." Can't she use it?"

Dr. Zhou was speechless: "Mr. Wang, I have seen your case. The kind of medicine you take, to be honest, most people can't bear it, and only you have severe bipolar disorder, which you play with like jelly beans every day. But you can't eat too much. In short, you are a special case and do not belong among them. ”

When Wang Taika heard this, he was speechless, this is discrimination!

However, what Dr. Zhou said next was finally reliable, and he said to Su Wanzi: "You don't often carry it alone in the room now, what you need more is flow, not stagnation." What is needed is hope, not hopelessness. The medication I give you can get rid of the distractions of depression, but the real recovery from depression also requires you to develop a rich and resilient life. Life is alive, not dead, dexterous, not stiff. ”

Su Maruko was a little puzzled and shook her head.

Dr. Zhou said: "I won't say much about the specifics, I just want you to know that you need to learn to express your emotions and better regulate and deal with them. Emotions are a signal of life, and only by understanding and experiencing it can we grasp the true meaning of life. This meaning may include the realization of relational patterns, the understanding of self-concept. A little bit of self-control, let yourself from stiff to soft, from broken to continuous. Only in the flow of emotions can we find our own existence and truly correct and restore ourselves. Depression will be cured by this!"

Su Wanzi heard some understanding, but Wang Taika pouted: "It's still a psychiatrist who can fool!"