I bought a bouquet of flowers next to it, and I came to the cemetery, and I stood in front of my parents, and I realized at this time that there were really a lot of things that were really coaxing.

Five years ago, when I came here as a student who hadn't graduated yet, I put a box here, and my uncle came over to help me with the rest of the things, and I couldn't handle these things at all, I felt sad, I felt sad, I wanted to leave with my parents.

I don't even have the courage to live at all, I just know that all my current situation is completely dependent on hanging in one breath, and I feel that I will definitely follow my parents to leave in the next second, because I have finally become an orphan in this world, and I am the kind of sadness and sadness that I have been lonely.

My mother's picture is pasted on this tombstone, and my mother looks at me gently, in fact, I have the impression that my mother is a very traditional, very kind and very beautiful woman.

Since I was in elementary school, I have been told that as a girl, you must know how to respect and love yourself, you must know how to be humble, you must know etiquette, and you must know how to be moral.

My mother also told me not to talk to my male classmates casually when I was studying, and not to promise them to receive small gifts, let alone to be alone at school.

When I was in junior high school, of course, I understood what my mother meant, because I finally understood that if my mother knew about my experience, I don't know if my mother would be sad in the grave, and her soul in heaven might not be at ease.

The mother may never have imagined that a daughter who she has been seriously repentant in her heart will be such an experience, such a life.

My mother, she is a scholarly daughter, and later followed her father, and accompanied my father for many years in the process of their business, suffering a lot and suffering a lot of sins, but my mother still has no regrets.

I know that my father also belongs to the kind of man who is very ambitious, and he is particularly unruly, sometimes I am like a dream in such a man, and I feel very close to Ye Jingbei's feelings, so sometimes I don't refuse adults, and sometimes I see a little bit of my father's youthful appearance from him.

I even remember when I was very young, my father sometimes encountered a reform of the school unit, and according to our conditions, we could get a relatively large house, and my father was very unruly because of such a character, and he was especially obliged to socialize those relationships.

The opportunity to give us a big house at that time passed by, so it's not that my father is not good enough, and it's not that I'm not qualified.

This is what we are not good at quoting such relationships to express and turnover.

Later, after the news had settled, I still remember that my father had been wandering downstairs that night, and I was standing on the balcony and looking at it, and I saw my father smoking silently under the plane tree.

Later, I observed my mother walking directly to my father with a kettle, and my mother could only watch silently from the side, carefully wiping her tears.

This is the father and mother in my memory, they will always stick to each other in the poor life, and understand each other, support each other, and use up all the love of each other in the poor life.

At that time, I felt that although our family was very small, but the love of my parents was enough to make me look forward to the future, and I even felt that this life was a little poor, it didn't matter, but it didn't affect the love of our family.

I even remember when I decided that I swore that I would study hard, I would get into the best prestigious university, I would have the greatest resources, I would get a good social status, I would make my father and mother proud, I would let them change to a big house, I would let them wear gold and silver.

It was really my dream at that time, and one of the important reasons why I worked hard for it was because it gave me great motivation.

My father stroked my head and smiled faintly.

He told me that he would go to find a more suitable position for himself after resigning and going to the sea, would give our mother and daughter a place to live, would give us a better future, and would find a satisfactory place for me to go out.

Later, my father really resigned, and he really went to work in a very famous company, because my father was originally from a technical background and knew those things very well, so my father's development in the company was like a fish in water, and he fully played his greatest advantage.

Later, with the efforts of my father, our family really lived better day by day, and even when I was in junior high school, our family already had a small bungalow, and in the envious eyes of my classmates, I became a proud little princess.

Really, my classmates thought that our family was very rich, and our family also bought a luxury car, and my mother often drove me to and from school, so I was really proud at that time.

In addition, my study is so good, I have become the top water painting teacher in the school and especially pampered me, I am a good child among the legendary teachers, a good friend of other people's families.

My grades have always been outstanding, and these things make me feel very happy, plus I inherited my mother's beauty, and I have already begun to be generous and slim in junior high school, and I know that I am already beautiful at that time.

If I think that if our family has been living and developing like this, then it should be a very happy and happy family, I seem to have all the best things in the world, and I have even thought that when I graduate from college, my father has helped me plan to arrange for me to study abroad, and will give me the best educational qualifications, so that I can have the best development.

Later, our family really got richer and richer, I don't know where my father's money came from, in fact, I always thought that my father has always been a very good one, and men should have their own ability to earn this money.

My father told me that the boss in this company rewarded him very much, and gave him a lot of very important work to do, especially in the aspect of engineering, my father can be a representative of the whole process, and directly make the final decision and signature on the plan and materials.

At that time, the whole real estate began to rise vigorously, but anyone who can enter such an industry, people feel very envious, I believe that my father should rely on his own ingenuity, here with the spring breeze of reform can get the best development.

Everything really was like a beautiful balloon, everything was really so beautiful.

I never thought that the world of adults was completely different from what we children imagined, I felt that the adult world had their eyes, and we had the eyes of children, but they were all sincere, and they would never be hypocritical.

I just never imagined that my dearest father would deceive me in this way, and inadvertently let me discover such a secret.

After so many years, I found out that my dearest father, for the sake of our family, may be willing to try some very high-risk actions, I think this is a father's wish, it violates his professional ethics, violates his principles and original intentions, and does something illegal.

Deep down in my heart, I think that all these things that my father did were for the sake of our family, and there would definitely not be too many selfish interests, absolutely.

I even wondered that maybe my mother didn't know the ins and outs of this matter at all, or maybe my mother was also appreciating her husband's rapid development with a kind of love.

Well, that's the only way, this explanation may work, our family we love each other forever together, we persist so hard, we grit our teeth and want to prove that we are stubborn in this world.

Finally, it has worked hard to this day, and there is no need to be stubborn anymore, no more gritting your teeth, and no longer having to deceive yourself that liberation is the only best way.

I don't want to owe anything to anyone, I don't want to do that, my mother has taught me, you have to be honest, you have to be independent, you have to have human dignity, you have to have a backbone, your backbone is straight, you must not let someone else break your backbone because of some dirty things.

So I swear, I don't owe anyone anything more.

I tried to murmur to my mother, I tried to smile, I wanted to tell my mother that I was fine, that I was really happy during this time, that I had no problems at all, that this was just a small episode in my life. It's just an experience, I have a way I'm going to start over, I'm going to live a truly happy life, I'm going to live like my mother said a lady's request.

Yes, I swear to my mother from today that I must live as I ought to be, I don't want to be humble, I don't want to deceive myself anymore, I don't want to be in the shadows, I need to be happy, just as my mother asks.

A week later.

It was time for an operation, and it was the time we had agreed to make, and Lisa accompanied me to the hospital.

This morning's surgery is fully anesthetized and has no particular pain, which means that it can be done in one fell swoop during the procedure, and you will not feel any discomfort or anything on the other, and you will be able to complete these things to the fullest.

Goodbye, my children, maybe we don't have this fate in our lives, maybe it's my selfishness.

I slept for a while because of the drug, and when I woke up, I didn't realize that I had really become calm, I had completely undergone surgery, and I had become a lonely self again.

I didn't even have sadness, I didn't even have joy, my spirit was numb, I just lay there like a zombie with no one left Lisa wiping my tears.

I let the nurse give me water, I didn't have any pain, and it felt like my head was blank now.

I didn't even have the strength to laugh as hard as Lisa, but thankfully I really didn't have anything.

Thankfully, Lisa is still with me, and I'm not alone.

She took out a jade string and put it in my hand, smiled happily, and chatted with me.

"I'll tell you, this is my father, who got this string when he went to burn incense and worship the Buddha in India, and said that this time I worked very hard to protect those people, and I have now given you the most worthy official gift, I hope that from today onwards, you will have minor illnesses and small disasters, and there will be no more such major illnesses and disasters, happy, peaceful, good for a lifetime, just like this life, we will always work together for a long time, okay?"

I looked at him and I was emotional, because I don't know why, I am the only one left in this world, and this is my best friend.

"Lisa, why are you so verbose? I feel like you're really buzzing like a Tang monk chanting. ”

Hahaha laughed.

My body slowly needed to recover, and Lisa found me a bachelor apartment next to it, we went straight out of the hotel, and went to live in the apartment, and then this public rental house was not heated because of the reason, we moved to the next hotel.

Because on the second day, Lisa had to go back to school to go to class, how long did Suihua go, and I immediately fell asleep in a daze, of course, I suddenly heard some noises at the door, I felt that Lisa was coming back, I quickly wanted to get up, but I couldn't get up at all, because the anesthesia after this operation had been completely passed, I felt a lot of pain in my stomach, which made me feel very uncomfortable, and I bared my teeth.

I will never forget this kind of pain for the rest of my life, because it is extremely cruel to me, although I don't want to, I really can't face it.

When I opened the door, someone from a little store immediately crashed in, and I never expected that it was Ye Jingbei.

How did he know my address, how did he know that it was such a coincidence, did he feel that there was a very big tacit understanding between my child and him, so did he think he would come over to give the child a ride at this time?

I had even forgotten what I was afraid of, I didn't know what to do at this time, I stood there dumbfounded, I looked at him in a daze, I didn't know what to say, because there were so many thousand words, and at this time any sentence seemed so redundant, because I had passed with him the love of our life.

I only saw Ye Jingbei's appearance very terrifying, his face was pale and his eyes were very heavy, his face was full of blood, I had never seen him look so red-headed, which made me feel a little scared.

I even looked at him, I thought he was a monster, I didn't know how to greet him, he said that the two of us would never see each other again, why did he come to me at this time? Is it because of a telepathy or that he is here to punish me, to repensure me? Or is he confirming something?

I involuntarily took a step back, and I was immediately grabbed by his hand at this action, I felt that I was in pain, my whole body was in pain, his strength was too great, I almost hurt and I couldn't help but want to shed tears, I just had surgery, I was under such a pull, my wound was pulled again, I bowed and squatted on the ground.

But he didn't care about my movements at all, his jaw was tight, and the whole curve looked very terrible, and his whole body exuded the kind of sadness that he couldn't calm down the year before he looked at me word by word, and his eyes were full of a kind of implicated sadness.

"Leng Shuiyue told me why I did this, why didn't you tell me, tell me a reason, that's my child, that's my child!"

Really, I've never seen him before, like this, in the past three years, he has always been in control of his own strategy, and he will always be the kind of role that turns things around, and he will never let himself get out of control.

But since I broke up with him this time, his reaction after we separated was really like that day, I know what he is talking about, of course I feel his pain, maybe he really cares about this little kid.

I just felt that my heart was full of sorrow, I was full of hurt, why I didn't know why he knew this answer so quickly, why, I never expected him to react so violently, I even thought that he might be worried about the existence of a child, he might refuse, but I didn't expect him to be so sad and so sad.

I even felt as if he had lost something for a thousand years, the most precious thing in his life, or a delusion that I had created, but I didn't know, I just felt his sadness, and even spread my sadness.

I was a little bit out of words, I wanted to lie, I really didn't know what to do, I just said a sentence in a panic.

"No, it's not like this, you have to believe that this child of mine is not yours, I will do this if it is not yours, let go of me, you don't!"

But I never expected that such a sentence would add to the fire, and I felt a very violent wave in his eyes, and he suddenly grabbed my neck with a hand, and it was so fast and violent that I could not reach it.

I knocked my hands, I felt that I could barely breathe again, as if he wanted to strangle me that night, I felt a kind of sadness in him, but I couldn't breathe, I felt like I was going to die.

"Leng Shuiyue, why are you so cruel? Why do you have to do these things? Tell me if your heart is black after all, tell me why your heart can never be warmed!"

I don't know why, and I don't know if this relationship between us is a grievance between the previous generations, a bad relationship left behind?