“...... I asked her, and she smiled and told me that it was hot and it was troublesome to clean up, so she cut it...... She's been growing that hair for more than ten years......"

As he spoke, the man gradually fell silent again, looking at the shade of the river,

"Amitabha Buddha ......"

With his hands folded, the old monk leaned over and chanted,

On the side, Lian Ge turned his gaze and looked at the man in a trance, and didn't say anything.

Fourth, it became quieter and quieter.

From time to time, a fresh breeze blows on the river, sweeping down a few fallen leaves in the shade of the trees, swaying the shadows of the branches and leaves under the street lamps.

......

“...... When I was older, I went to study clinical medicine in other places. Every year, only during the winter and summer vacations, they will come back from other places. When I got home, my mother still cooked for me as she used to and bought me some of the vegetables I liked...... That time, when I got home, it was in the afternoon, and my mother worked from the afternoon until the evening, and she set a table full of dishes on the dinner table, buying cold pork head meat and roasting chicken...... When I went to the kitchen to look for a spoon, I saw that under the counter, my mother had placed it in the corner, leftovers from the previous day...... It was a small bowl of vegetarian sautéed celery......

...... A few days before I came home from out of town, my mother was always a little ...... Prim. I asked her, and she smiled and told me that I had seen the world outside, and that my house was messy and broken...... She's afraid I'll dislike ......"

The man spoke, and was silent again,

“...... When I was out of town, I called home. She always told me that I didn't have to worry about the house outside, she was very good at home and let me study hard. ”

Looking into the distance, the man's eyes were in a trance, and he said,

“...... Later, I went to graduate school and got some income every month, although it was not much, but it was enough for me to live by saving a little. I told her that she didn't have to pay me every month.

But she, still every month, when that time comes, will send some money to my card...... She always told me that she was at home, and she didn't go anywhere, and that there was rice and vegetables at home, and there was no place to spend money. I have a lot of places to spend money outside, and it's not good to have some money on me, so let me usually buy something I want to eat, don't save too much......"

As the man spoke, his voice gradually subsided, and he fell silent again, but his eyes were in a trance, looking into the distance,

On the side, Lian Ge turned his gaze, looked at the man again, retracted his gaze, and looked at the lights of the city in the distance.

......

“...... Let's go, let's go, go home......"

"Run slower, don't fall. ”

On the side of the river, another shop turned off the lights, and the shopkeeper pulled the door down, turned around, and shouted at the children who were running along the empty street.

"Got it...... Dad, let's go for supper. ”

The child answered the road crisply, running back and forth on the street,

"Okay, what do you want to eat? Dad will take you to eat,"

"Barbecue, I want to eat barbecue ......"

The voice followed the figure of the shopkeeper and the child, and walked away on the somewhat empty street,

Four, quiet again.

......

The man turned his head and looked at the shopkeeper and the child with some distraction.

After the two men were gone, the man was silent again, and turned his gaze back,

“...... After a few years of working in a foreign hospital, I went back to the city next to my home, where I became a famous doctor, a cardiac surgeon......

Slowly, after saving up for a few more years, a few years ago, I bought a house in the city and brought my mother to the city.

Coming to live in the city was very inconvenient for her, there was nothing she was familiar with here, except for me...... But she agreed, and moved with me to the city......

As before, every time I came back from the hospital, my mother was always waiting for me to get back...... I told her that she didn't have to be so tired, that we could go out to eat, and that when we were usually fine, we could walk around and go around, and she always told me that she didn't have anything to do at home all day, so she cleaned up the house and cooked......

Sometimes, I have surgery and go back late, my mother didn't sleep, just in the living room, waiting on the TV, I always asked her to rest early next time, she always told me, I didn't see me come back, this heart is not relieved, not steady......"

As the man spoke, his gaze moved up slightly, his gaze was a little dazed, and he fell silent.

“...... Later, this year, she fell ill and had a heart attack. ”

“...... It's not an acquired heart disease, or rather, it's not just an acquired heart disease......"

The man said, pausing again,

“...... She may have had a ventricular septal defect at birth, but the defect should have been small, but it did not close spontaneously...... If she had had surgery at a young age, it wouldn't have made a difference.

But until she fell ill...... In her life, she has never done any relevant examinations...... After so many years, her condition has been deteriorating under the condition that she has been so tired, and she must have had times when her heart was uncomfortable, but I have never heard her mention it, and she has never shown it...... And I, a doctor, a doctor of heart surgery, didn't notice it for so long until she became ill......"

“...... On the day she fell ill, it was evening, and I was at home, and my mother was in the kitchen, talking to me and busy cooking...... I heard the spoon fall on the floor, and when I turned my head, I saw my mother, curled up and pressed against her chest, and fell to the ground......

I've seen a lot of patients clutch their chests like that, but I've never panicked like that...... When I stand up, I can't even step on the ground......"

The man's eyes were distracted, and he said,

“...... After I took my mother to the hospital and stabilized her, I examined my mother...... The results of the examination showed that my mother had severe heart failure and had reached the end stage of her heart disease. ”

As the man spoke, he was silent again, with a look of pain on his face,

“...... The other doctors in the department always complimented me on my surgical ability and felt that I was very capable in the field of cardiac surgery...... But what's the use, no matter how good I am at surgery, I can't save my mother.

Her left and right ventricles were close to paralysis after the onset of the disease, and there were only two things she could do, one was to wait for death, and the other was to have a heart transplant......

I couldn't watch my mother just lie in the hospital bed, a little bit emaciated, a little bit weaker...... I want to save her, I want her to be able to get out of bed again, I want to take another bite of what she cooked......"

The man was in pain, and said,

“...... However, there are few donors who can provide a heart source, and even fewer can meet the requirements, so I tried my best and tried my best...... I couldn't find the right heart. I just watched and watched my mother's condition deteriorate little by little.

My mother comforted me that it was enough for her to see me grow up safely, find a stable job, and live a good life, and now I don't need her care, and she can relax and go to see my father. ”

“...... But I don't want to, I don't want my mother to be like this, like that...... I also want her to see me get married and let her hold my granddaughter...... I want her to live. ”

"But I can't help it, there's no way at all......"

The man's face became more and more painful, his body trembled slightly, and as he spoke, he gradually fell silent,

......

"That's when someone approached me and told me that he could help me find the right heart source......

After a long time, the man continued.