Riverside, in front of the stalls.

The man spoke, his voice subduing and falling silent again.

Lian Ge turned his gaze, glanced at the man, paused, and didn't say anything.

"Donor ......"

The old monk looked at the man, folded his hands, and called, but he didn't continue, paused, and just recited the Buddha's name.

......

“...... He told me that he could help me find the right heart source if I did something for them......"

The breeze carries the water vapor on the river surface, blowing from time to time, swaying behind the stalls, the shadows of the branches and leaves,

As if looking at the faltering shadow, the man spoke up and continued,

“...... At that time, I was already in despair, and his words were like a life-saving straw, no matter where this straw was connected, I was willing to hold on to it......"

The man said, silent again, his gaze moved up slightly,

“...... He told me that every once in a while, there would always be some heart patients who died on the operating table because of failed surgery. And I'm a doctor, a heart surgeon.

As long as I take the organs that are still intact from these heart patients and provide them to them after they die, they will provide me with a heart source that can be used for my mother's heart transplant. ”

As he spoke, the man paused again,

“...... At that time, after listening to it, I didn't refuse, but just told him that I couldn't do this alone. He heard me, smiled, and told me that I am not alone, as long as I agree. ”

"I agreed, and agreed to take the organs of the patients I operated on and provide them with intact organs after they died. And they told me that as long as I provided two liver or kidney donors, they would find a heart source.

At that time, my mother was at the end of her heart failure......"

The man's voice echoed in front of the stall, the breeze blew from time to time, and the street by the river became quieter and quieter.

“...... The first, an old man, was in a coma in shock while in the hospital. After discussing it, his children decided to operate on the old man.

Due to the patient's age, the operation is very difficult. I was the one who did the operation...... I tried my best, but the operation still failed, and the old man died on the operating table. ”

“...... After the old man died, I realized what they meant by saying that I am not a person...... I took the livers of the elderly and gave them them.

After they got the liver, they gave me a sum of cash and told me to take it...... I took it. ”

"Probably out of guilt, I donated that money. ”

As the man spoke, he turned his head and fell silent again,

“...... After that old man, I was not able to provide them with a liver or kidney donor for a long time...... And my mother, it's almost unbearable. ”

“...... The second, a young girl, only twenty years old, suffered from severe congenital heart disease...... She was very weak and could only lie down most of the time, but she loved to laugh. ”

The man said, his eyes a little dazed.

“...... She was brought by her parents and came to me. Her parents said that she had a friend who had the same congenital heart disease as her, who came to me and was cured by my surgery.

So, they brought her to me and wanted me to operate on her.

Before the surgery, I took the consent form and went to talk to her parents about the risks of the surgery, and after listening to me, they signed it. They said to me, believe me, trust me......"

“...... I went back with the signed consent form, went to the ward, and looked at the girl...... She was talking to the nurse about what she was going to do after the successful operation and after she recovered.

She smiled happily and looked forward to it, and she said that when she was ready, she was going to the park, to the amusement park, to the cinema, and to go alone......"

“...... Before anesthesia, she lay on the operating table, still expectant in her eyes, as if thinking about what she was expecting...... She turned her head and asked me if her surgery would be a success.

I looked at her, and she didn't answer, she went on again, and she said, "I can definitely succeed, I will definitely succeed......"

The voice gradually subsided, and the man fell silent again, but his eyes were a little distracted to look at the gently swaying branches and leaves.

......

The breeze blows through the riverside streets, and along the riverside, under the street lamps, it becomes more and more quiet.

On the side, Lian Ge turned his gaze and looked at the man, without saying anything.

The old monk clasped his hands together and was a little silent.

......

“...... Her operation failed and she collapsed on the operating table. ”

Turning his head, the man continued,

"I took the scalpel and stood on the operating table and just looked at her, just looked at her...... I could see her smiling at me, and I heard her say to me that she was going to the park and amusement park by herself......"

The man's eyes were in a trance,

"My colleague comforted me and said that I was not to blame for the failure of this operation, that we had done what we could and that we had done our best...... But I knew for myself that I had made a mistake that I shouldn't have made during the operation. ”

“...... At the most critical moment, I hesitated, and I couldn't help but think of my mother...... By the time I tried to remedy it, it was too late. ”

"I killed her...... I killed her. ”

Distracted, the man said over and over again,

The voice gradually subsided, and the man fell silent again,

......

“...... I took her kidney and gave it to them. They gave me another sum of money and told me that my mother's heart transplant donor was already looking for it, and they would notify me when they found it. ”

The man lost his mind and said,

“...... I pushed open the door of the operating room, and outside the operating room, her parents were waiting outside the door, and when they saw me come out, they came over and asked me, was the operation successful...... The expectation in their eyes was very similar to hers. I looked at them and didn't answer, so they asked again...... My colleague was there and saw that I had not spoken, so he spoke up and told them that the operation had failed and that she had died......

Her parents fell down in the hallway, I didn't dare to look at them, and after saying sorry, I left, only to hear the cry of her parents behind me......"

muttered, said, the man didn't know whether he was talking to Lian Ge or himself,

“...... Her parents came to see me in the office before taking her out of the hospital. Her parents' eyes were still red, and her mother couldn't hold back her tears when she spoke......

Her parents told me that they didn't blame me, that they knew we did our best and did our best to save their daughter...... They said, thank me, thank you for my willingness to operate on their daughter......"

The man said, with some pain on his face,

Gradually, it was calm again, but it was silent,

......

“...... After that, the third day. They informed me and told me that my mother's heart transplant donor had been found. ”

Looking at the shadows swaying in the shade of the trees, the man said.

The old monk looked at the man, folded his hands again, and recited the Buddha's name.

"Amitabha Buddha ......"

Sideways, glancing at the man again, Lian Ge turned his gaze back and looked into the distance.

Along the riverside streets, shops are still shining through their doors and windows, or their doors are closed.

The streets became quieter and quieter, except for the breeze blowing and disturbing from time to time, the trees and foliage by the river, the signs on the doors of the shops, the white cloth in front of the stalls, and the clothes of a few people under the dim street lamps.

Farther away, in the high-rise buildings, every household is still lit up, and the bustling place seems to be still lively.