After I got out of the car, I told myself an address, this place I had been to before, and it was the most important one that I was ultimately impressed with.

The streets in the early morning were completely clear, and I thought of the time I came to this city, and this city was the first time he brought me, and it was when I was in the summer vacation of my junior year of high school, and I remembered that Han Liu's grandmother used to have a set of hometowns here.

Han Liu once told me that this was the place where he used to live in his childhood, and then his grandmother moved to the city because of some illness, so she wanted to get a better medical system, and the house here has been vacant.

Han Liu once took me to this town, walking and playing, and we spent three wonderful days holding hands.

During those three days, Han Liu told me that every happy thing that happened in his childhood would be something meaningful for me to remember, and such things would make him feel very happy.

When I got to this place, I took a hasty look at this place, and I knew that this noodle restaurant was still there, and it should have been gone for a long time.

Actually, after I got out of the car, I was still quite scary, because there were some things that happened here, and they may change a lot over the years.

Because there are really many things in this world that are really vicissitudes, and when you say change, you change, but here I was surprised to find that the pace of life here is very slow and the things that happen are basically not very different, the noodle shop is still there, and the proprietress is still there.

But this kind of story has experienced more earth-shaking changes, and Han Liu and I have also experienced it, from the field to after the breakup to this embarrassing situation, every rhythm, every thing that happens to think of a change in the past.

The wind was still very cold this morning, and I walked directly along the road I was familiar with, this place is actually an old town, this is an old house in the 80s, it is planned not to be demolished, and it still retains the style of architecture from that time.

I turned left and right to find the place of this small courtyard, and the doorman's light was still on, but I saw that there was no one inside, the big iron gate was closed with a big hand, and there was a big wolf dog next to it.

The big wolfdog looked at me and barked like a stranger was about to come here to attack.

But fortunately, this big wolf dog was tethered to my body and didn't pose a lot of threat to me.

What makes me even more thankful is that there is a small iron gate next to it, and those people are coming in and out here, shopping for groceries or exercising, and I sleep for a while, and I follow those people through this small iron gate.

Thankfully, the doorman was doing tai chi next to him, and he didn't care if a stranger entered the neighborhood.

Actually, I should feel very lucky, my whole body was shaking, and I was really worried, what I could find here might be empty, I can't even seem to take this step, I don't know if it's because of the freezing clouds or because I'm afraid of who I'm facing.

This old house is really composed of many floors, many people have moved in these places, and the distance left to live is really not much, many of them are really old people, with the changes of the years, many people have left too many traces of leaving here.

One of the characteristics of the old houses in the 80s is that their style is basically the same, and another feature is that they are very old, and a lot of miscellaneous items have been on these intersections, and it is really difficult for me to judge when I see this exactly the same.

I could only look up for a moment, but I looked at the sky black, and my legs were a little weak, and I finally sat down on the stone bench next to me, which was still a kind of blue and white ceramic, and some wild flowers were blooming.

I want to let myself breathe a sigh of relief, I want to calm my mind, because I see that this house is a house that I have been to three years ago, and there are several rooms, and the lights are still on, so these people who have come down from the rooms are basically elderly.

I finally felt exhausted, because I felt that I must not be able to find this place, I can only rely on this memory, I can only rely on my luck, I hope they can be here, otherwise I really can't find where he goes, this is the only place I can find.

I was very cold all over, after one night I didn't even eat any breakfast, I tried texting, I was helping with both feet, my feet started to cramp, I couldn't move, I just remembered a fairy tale, was there once a very poor little girl who sold matches, it turned out that before she froze to death, she really wanted to draw a match, let herself get it, and felt a kind of warmth in the world and a last regret between people.

And after all these years, in fact, the best of my entire youth has been buried, in fact, it can be used as self-exile, I can come here like a crazy indifferent madman to spread wild.

I finally looked at the wall, which had long since turned grayish-white, and had a rough white cement smoothed out, and there was some advertising paper from that era.

I suddenly saw an old reply next to me saying yes, the old reply said that you are my sincere memory, I remember that Han Liu used a knife to write a few words on this sunflower tree.

Han Yoo-ai's cold water moon.

Although when these fonts are depicted with a knife, they are not the kind of italic small diamonds that are crooked, or that they are just very well written, but it can be seen that Han Liu gave me a promise back then, at that time, we really had to do such boring things like playing with children, I even felt that we were so boring, I felt a little unbelievable, and it would make people feel that all this was so beautiful and so happy, of course, this happiness really has to pay a price.

I don't know how long I've been thinking about it, I don't know how long I've been doing it, I feel very cold, I can't help but hold myself tightly with both hands, it's too cold, I don't even have room for my head to think, I only found out at this time that my finger is shooting Baotou, I turned on my phone, I felt that the arthritis was a little rattling, I couldn't press the phone button smoothly at all.

At this time, I can only call Ouyang Lili, her voice looks at the mobile phone battery with a very hazy look, it is now 7:30 in the morning.

My heart was stiff, I was even a little slurred, I didn't even know what to do, I just vaguely told her the truth.

"It's me, I probably might guess where Han Liu is now, and I'm just a guess, I'll tell you the address, okay?"

She seemed to wake up at once, with great eagerness, with a distinct anxiety.

"Okay, you hurry up and say where it is, I'll write it down with a pen right away, thank you, are you okay now?"

"There is a house in this district and county, this is the address of the house he once sold, please remember, this is No. 37 Shengli East Road after the cadres walked around from here, there is a sunflower tree, go in from here, there is an old yard that can be reached, you ask this doorman, you can find it quickly." ”

I told her all these things in detail, and she thanked me again, maybe only when you really love someone with a desperate heart, you will care so much about the comfort of the other person, this is true, these things can not be hidden.

She cared so much about his pleasure, and used all her strength to hang up on his phone, I just put this hand in my knee at this time, I wanted to get a little warmth, I was so cold, I couldn't even control my teeth.

I'm sorry, I'm really cowardly, I'm so cowardly, I really don't even have the courage to face Han Liu, I can't go upstairs to find him now, I'm afraid that when I face him, I'll lose control of my emotions, I'm afraid that I'll destroy a woman who really loves him.

Besides, what qualifications do I have? What qualifications do I have to love him in my current situation? I am so miserable now, and I am glad that they have been unbearable to me for a while.

Later, I gritted my teeth, I called the train, I immediately did not hesitate to take the city directly on the train with heating, I sat for a long time and then ordered a cup of coffee, and then ate a loaf of bread, only to gradually recover, I only ate so much at this moment in the evening, so that I felt back in the world.

The car was very fast, I don't know what it was, but I remembered the scene when we were on the train, when the two of us were on the train, he also bought me a chocolate cake, because it also took me to many places, and I still remember that these chocolate cakes were made locally, and they were very delicious.

I remember him whispering to me a lot of secrets, except for how I fought and played pranks when I was a kid.

"Leng Shuiyue, do you know? I used to have a fight with the children next door, I had a fight with us, and we had an appointment to go to this playground, and it was likely that there was a fight, but then on the second night, I ran over and there was no one there, because everyone had a final exam tomorrow, so the fight was completely canceled!"

I couldn't help but laugh at this sentence, I think hehehe, because after all, this situation is really the same as a child.

"Then you go to that playground and wait for them to fight, and they don't come, then don't you rarely let you know that you are by them!"

"How is that possible, then since they don't dare to go, I will directly find their parents and ask them to sign this word, saying that they will always be my subordinates, please, or I will be judged as a hero by this math test score, and the result will definitely be that I will be the boss." ”

I still remember his big smile.