418. Broke up a long time ago
What does it feel like to forcefully forget someone who can't forget?
It's that you like a song very much, but you don't dare to listen to it anymore, it's a dish you like to eat but you don't dare to order it anymore, it's that you like the gift he gives you, but you want to empty it all at once, it's that you are reluctant to give up the other party, but you still ruthlessly delete it from the address book.
When my friend chatted with me today, he said, "I dreamed of him again last night, and when I opened the last chat history, I was surprised to find that it had been two years.
That year, I was with him in the last semester of my graduation, and after graduation I went to work in Guangzhou, and he chose to go home to start a business, and we have been staying in different places.
In every short vacation, we made an appointment to meet during the small long vacation, and this kind of long-distance maintenance lasted for 3 years, and finally in the little things of cold and fever and loneliness, a little bit corroded the warmth between us and the true love I thought.
I know we're all right, we just made different choices about each other in life.
On the last call, I joked, "Let's meet and say goodbye." "
I didn't think he would come, the two cities where he lived at that time were far apart, and his work was getting started, but I didn't expect him to agree.
On the day of the meeting, I went to the agreed subway entrance early, and I still remember vividly that the staff at the subway station looked back and forth many times because it was very cold, and I waited there for a long time.
He didn't know that on the day I went to pick him up, I arrived three hours early, because the high-speed train from Gzhou to Csha took three hours, so I arrived early and waited for him a little longer.
I imagined in my mind an infinite number of times what it would be like him to see me, whether he was like me, with a lot of insincerity and a lot of joy.
I saw him come out of the subway with a bag on his back, and he smiled when he saw me.
That night, I sat quietly with him for 2 hours, and then I always laughed and didn't say anything, and he always had a steady stream of topics, for fear that if I didn't say a word, I wouldn't have a chance again.
I know that when we are separated, it will be difficult to see each other again, not just because we are too far apart, but because once we are separated, it will be difficult for us to find the right reason to meet again.
When I parted, I thought I would shed tears, I thought I would hug him and say goodbye, I thought I would stop him and tell all the grievances in my heart, but in fact I didn't do any of this.
just looked at each other silently, couldn't say a lot of words, and just held back until the end to say goodbye. Separated like this, none of the images I imagined happened.
After that, we didn't even chat on WeChat, and I didn't tell him happy birthday on his birthday, and I didn't know how to start chatting with him about other topics.
In the past two years, I still think of him in some small moments, intentional or unintentional, but I know that this is the only end between me and him. ”
Everyone has a person who can't love and can't forget in their hearts, but people can't always remember the past and always look back, so that they will suffer and miss other good things.
The person in the memory let him stay in the memory, in fact, I broke up with him a long time ago, right~ Say goodbye when you separate, and really goodbye after saying goodbye.
There are regrets in the relationship, there must always be some youth fed to the dog, learn to grow, before forgetting that person, we can be vulnerable, but after that, please give yourself a decent life.
I remembered what my friend said, in fact, you broke up a long time ago.
Breaking up in the real sense is not the day of the breakup, but, one day, you find that he doesn't love you so much, you say boring things, do boring things, there is no response, he no longer takes the initiative to contact you, you can tell whether he is really busy or doesn't want to take care of you, time is diluting your feelings little by little, until one day, you don't hurt so much when you separate, and then, one person said to break up, and the other person nodded.
A friend said: I used to have a dog, very cute, one day, I was going on a business trip, to a city for a long time, had to send the dog back to my hometown, let my mother take care of me.
Later, I didn't bring the dog back, it was always kept by my mother, and it took more than a year to keep it.
One day, my mom called and said the dog was dead. My mom said she had a serious illness and couldn't be saved. On the phone, I argued with my mom and said a lot of complaints and accusations that made her sad. When I hung up the phone, I cried so sadly.
After a long time, one day, I broke up. My boyfriend said a lot of complaining things to me, and I suddenly remembered the dog I had died before, in fact, from the moment I sent it back to my hometown, we were separated, if I loved it deeply, I could take it with me, I could have boarded it in a pet store near my home, but I chose to send it back to my hometown, which is a far, far away place, so far away that I only go back once or twice a year. Why should I blame my mother who is with it, she is the one who takes care of it day and night, and I, occasionally video or phone call to ask about the situation, if this is called love, then this love is too cheap.
Yes, the dog died, you are extremely sad, you have loved it deeply, but have you ever thought about how sad the person who accompanies it every day, not only did you not comfort her, but you also blamed her, why?
I asked my boyfriend, do you still love me?
He didn't dare to take it.
I laughed and said, my dog is dead.
I feel like I'm sorry for my mom.
She has raised me for more than 20 years, and she has quarreled and bowed her head every time. And the person in front of me who said that he would love me for the rest of his life made me feel wronged, and he was still waiting for me to say break up. ”
It's not a big fault if you don't love it, do you know what's the most bastard? Little by little, a person's love grinds and brews, and cheekily asks you, do you want to add sugar?
When I broke up, the person who made the noise may not be the one who loves the most, but just bluffed to prove that I once loved you, so that I don't feel so guilty, I worry a lot, adults understand, all breakups are planned for a long time, and the person who doesn't love is still playing the affectionate love saint before leaving, so funny!
In this world, there must be the next person, and when you meet him, it feels like riding a horse, marrying, marrying, and having a child. It's just that now this, you're going to let him go.
Actually, you've broken up a long time ago.
If we didn't find a way to be together when we loved the most, then later, many times, it just became a buffer period, so that the separation became less sad and less heartbreaking, you and I both knew how much we loved at the beginning, but the world is unpredictable.
So, sometimes, you feel that he doesn't love you that much, in fact, it's a long goodbye. So, you have to believe that he really loved, and he really didn't love anymore, so, forget it, it's quite embarrassing to desperately hold someone's hand and ask him to explain why he doesn't love you. How can a person not love you without warning, you just didn't believe it at the beginning.