I don't know what's wrong, I've been scared of getting dark every day since I was a child, it really shouldn't be like this, why is it so scared?

Or is innate, this is the characteristics of people, in many cases, people have some of their own characteristics, different, in such shortcomings or advantages, we can successfully find their own and others are different, maybe at a certain moment, in a certain characteristic you are very similar to others, but in other characteristics, maybe you are not similar, this is the difference between people and people, even if it is twins, there are also different places, although it is very similar, but there are still people who can distinguish it, people outside do not know who is who, but their relatives, relatives who often live together are okayI think it's the same way, there are many mothers who can know their children very well, at such a moment, I also know, in many cases, they can clearly distinguish each other, and we outside people can't distinguish it, because they are really too similar, so that we don't know what is true and what is false.

When I was young, I was afraid of getting dark every day, but I was also very lucky, when I was young, I always fell asleep before my parents were busy with everything, so that when the house was very bright, I had already fallen asleep, and I didn't know when my family fell asleep, so I slept like this, and slept until dawn, but after a long time, I knew that I was still so habitual, it should not be said that it was a habit, it should be said that it was a problem, in such a characteristic, I also found that I was alone at home later, I didn't dare to fall asleep, it really didn't look like me。

But it's not like it, it's really me, I don't dare to sleep at night, I'm already a college student at that time, my God?

There should be people over the age of eighteen, but what about after that? I still don't know, this is why, my father was no longer there at that time, and I was at home with my younger brothers and sisters, and my mother sometimes went to my uncle's house to help others do farm work, but I was not at ease, sometimes I still tried every possible way not to let my mother go, but there was still no such block, my mother would still go like this, because family affection is really more important than anything else, my mother is distressed about my uncle every time, and I don't want my uncle to be so tired, so my mother should think that I am so old, just take care of my younger brothers and sisters at night, and during the day, our sisters and brothers will cook some food in their own homes and eat it themselvesBut what about after that?

I still feel that I can't sleep at night, I really don't know why, maybe I was so afraid of getting dark every day, but later, one night, I didn't sleep, I couldn't sleep, and this day was also abnormally strange, at night, how did I vaguely hear someone call my father's name, I just asked who it was?

I don't know who it is, the next day, my father really left, we can't accept such a reality, in fact, my father just left the days, I don't know how I survived, just after the incident began to go to school, but I still dream every night that my father is still alive, not dead, I also mustered up the courage to tell my classmates, I suspect that my father is not dead, I want to go back to dig the grave, but my classmates said, it's just your illusion, I was at that time, the teacher also disagreed, what is this, people are no longer in the groundBut why do I have to go to the grave, I always feel that if my father can still live, I can still save something if I pick it out like this, but then I know that I still can't do this, or can't be so rebellious and unfilial, so I have to be like this, and so on in the days after me, I also feel that the pain in my heart can not be resolved, every time, our yard is without a courtyard wall, just a thatched hut is there, and we just rest in it, at night, when we sleep in the room, we are really afraid that someone will come in, and the lock is not goodJust put a wooden stick behind the door, or think of some other way, but in this case, it is easy to be kicked open, but it is also because the family is poor, so my mother always tells me that the family is so poor, who will come?

So when my mother is at home, I still have some sense of security, but when my mother is not there, I am watching the house, because I am the biggest, so I have to be like this, every time my mother goes to my uncle's house, I am worried about this night, such a worry about not being able to sleep, I don't know what I'm worried about, I always feel that the outside is not safe at all, looking at other people's yards, looking at such a gate, so firm, and my house, there is no courtyard wall, no gate, so at that time, our home is like a public location, people walk to our house to visit the door,So there are a lot of good friends who play with their mothers.,But they're just some women in the neighborhood.,They are all people who have a good relationship with their mother.,So it's been like this.,I'm also sleepless.,Only in the early hours of the morning.,It's already dawn to fall asleep.,What kind of habit is this.,So timid.,But if you look outside.,How don't I look like a timid person.,So when I grow up.,This habit has been going on like this.,But fortunately, when your room is at night.,There will always be sporadic lights.,In fact, it's not a night light that I deliberately bought or something.,If it's too dark. , I will prepare some night lights for myself, so that the night lights are always on, but in this case, it will waste some electricity, but there is very little electricity, and I can't take care of it so much, it's better than not being able to sleep.

Now the room, although there is no such night light, but my room also has some light, just when the light is turned off, there is a little dark, now it is also in my own room, in addition to the yard or there is a gate, my room is also an anti-theft door, so under such an anti-theft door, I also know, I will still check every night whether the door is locked to rest assured to go to the bed, but also after such a moment, I will still see the light in my own room is enough to see every corner of the room, in fact, it is not anything else, when I go to see, I know, it turned out to be the light on the computer stereo, Although it is very small, although every time the computer turns off the light, it is still here all the time on, and it is also such support that I have not been afraid at night, and I have not fallen asleep alone, which is really good.

The night lights I bought before are actually there, but now, the room is not very dark, and I can see such a light, and it is also a kind of light for myself, and the house I was afraid of before has also become a memory!