"I just wanted to talk to you about what happened at the banquet......"

He wanted to say that the person behind that incident was very hidden, and it was definitely planned and premeditated, and he wanted to remind her to pay more attention to the suspicious people around her and be more vigilant.

Sheng Yixing also wanted to tell Lin Qingshuang and apologize to her seriously.

Regarding those things before, about Gu Sinan, Sheng Yixing has never given Lin Qingshuang a positive response.

The ones that were misunderstood before, the ones that were ignored again and again, Sheng Yixing's heart always felt that he owed a debt to women.

This time, he wanted to tell Lin Qingshuang what he thought in his heart, but he just wanted to apologize to her very seriously and say sorry.

Sheng Yixing didn't dare to hope and force her to return her heart to him, and when she returned to him, Sheng Yixing actually began to be afraid, since the little guy fell into the sea, he was afraid that he would provoke the little guy's disgust and Lin Qingshuang's hatred and rejection because of what he did.

But looking at the woman in front of him who was like a frightened bird, Sheng Yixing's words choked in his throat, he didn't know how to say it, and he didn't know what way to describe his feelings.

He just felt that he was willing to listen to Lin Qingshuang's grievances over the years, and to listen to her accusations against him.

Lin Qingshuang obviously didn't have the heart to talk to him about this at the moment, the woman's eyes were red, her teeth were clenched, and she looked at him with a shrunken eyebrow.

Her body was uncomfortably tensed, facing Sheng Yixing with an uneasy attitude, she almost pleaded, "Let's stop torturing each other, okay? I don't want to say anything to you anymore, not to mention that there is no need for us to be entangled like this anymore, how ugly!"

Lin Qingshuang sighed, and after a while, she spoke helplessly, "Don't you care? The heart is still watching us, are you willing to leave such a deep shadow in her heart?

She was reminding him, reminding him of the embarrassment of the moment. Remind him that no matter what he says, it won't help.

Remind him that as a father, he has failed enough.

Sheng Yixing knew in his heart that Lin Qingshuang still hated him very much, so he didn't even want to listen to the slightest explanation.

Sheng Yixing hesitated for a long time before speaking. The expression on the man's face was something that Lin Qingshuang had never seen in Sheng Yixing, who had always been conceited and rebellious, but at this moment, his face showed a little panic.

"Clear Frost...... I...... ...... about the last kidnapping"

As soon as the man spoke, he was directly interrupted by Lin Qingshuang before he could continue.

"I don't want to hear you stop talking, please leave my life! Sheng Yixing, I beg you!"

This short sentence was easy enough to crush Sheng Yixing's whole person, and Sheng Yixing suddenly felt that his breathing began to be a little difficult, "Lin Qingshuang, can you listen to my explanation?"

The man's voice trembled slightly, eager to say something.

"Listen to your explanation?" Lin Qingjie stared at him as if he had heard something ridiculous, his face full of mockery and ridicule.

"How is this so familiar? I remember saying it to you many times, over and over and over again! But what about you? Have you ever heard my explanation?"

Lin Qingshuang leaned on the car door weakly with her back, her whole body looked thin and helpless, "Anyone can say this to me, but you don't deserve it!"

Lin Qingshuang's voice was very soft, and this sentence was almost extremely light, but Sheng Yixing felt that these words were pressed on his heart like lead.

These words almost beat the man to the deepest part of hell, Sheng Yixing took a few steps back, his voice trembled, and the whole person looked at Lin Qingshuang in disbelief, "Lin Qingshuang, is it necessary for you to look like this?"

Don't even give him a chance to speak, don't even give him a chance to apologize!

Lin Qingshuang smiled, and with a gentle rhetorical question, Sheng Yixing's heart was bleeding.

"Is it necessary to look like this? Sheng Yixing, do you think I still don't know your explanation?"

Sheng Yixing's whole person froze there, his heart seemed to be hollowed out, blood was flowing wildly, and he was in pain.

It turns out that she knows, she knows!

She knew what he wanted to say, what he wanted to explain, what to confess!

But she didn't want to give him a chance!

"Don't think about apologizing, you can't empathize with the past, and it's not something that you can wash away with a light word of sorry. Lin Qingshuang looked at him coldly, his words were extremely cold, but his simple words revealed the indelible facts.

"Sheng Yixing, what you have done to me has long gone beyond the scope of just apologizing to forgive, so ...... I won't forgive you, never!"

In the last sentence, Lin Qingshuang almost roared. Her eyes were red, her voice was hysterical, her whole person trembled violently, and when big tears couldn't stop flowing out of her eyes, Lin Qingshuang realized that her heart had already been completely dead.

So when this man really stood in front of her, she was sad and not moved.

Lin Qingshuang couldn't help but feel that the scene at this moment was very ironic.

The one who loved Sheng Yixing so much at the beginning has already died! The one who was full of men has been killed by him himself!

Lin Qingshuang felt that she was too cowardly when she shed tears at this time, she reached out to wipe her tears and wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, "I'm tired, I don't want to say anything more?" ”

Sheng Yixing was completely panicked when he heard this, he had really never seen Lin Qingshuang like this, her eyes were red, her body was full of indifference, and she was also full of hatred for herself.

Sheng Yixing felt that Lin Qingshuang might not want to forgive him again in his life.

He finally understood why Li Tezhu hesitated and didn't tell himself directly when he found out that Sheng Xinxin was at Lin Qingshuang's house, but tried it first.

It turns out that outsiders can see it more clearly than him, and it turns out that he hates it to the extreme, and the three words sorry will even matter.

I'm sorry and I love you are the same three words, but the meaning is really far from the same.

Lin Qingshuang was tired, she turned around and wanted to open the car door to leave, and dropped a faint sentence towards the man, "Sheng Yi walk, let you go and let me go, from now on, I have nothing to do with you." ”

Sheng Yixing looked at the woman in front of him, the indifference and resistance in her bones stabbed him, the woman was obviously so weak, but she was straight in her bones, with a hysterical resistance.

She told him to get out of here more than once, telling him not to appear in front of her, but how could Sheng Yixing do what she wanted?

The woman who said five years ago that she loved herself deeply, and the woman who loved herself with all her might, now she said that she had not asked him for his opinion at all, and she had not asked him about this relationship.

Just resolutely said that he wanted to break off, how can people bear it?

Lin Qingshuang is not qualified to say it at all!

The relationship is two people, and she is not the only one who can decide.

Thinking like this, the man seemed to have another reason to support him, he stepped forward and grabbed her hand tightly, his eyes stared at her for a moment, so hot, so reckless and persistent, as if Fang Cai's helplessness was just a moment, and the unruly man returned.

Lin Qingshuang saw clearly the persistence and domineering in the man's eyes, she looked at her tightly clenched hands, and the green tendons on the man's arms burst out.

Lin Qingshuang's body trembled violently, took a deep breath and shook off his arm with all his strength, staring at his eyes and asking, "Sheng Yixing, are you trying to force me again?"

Sheng Yixing looked at the woman in front of her with scarlet eyes and sneered, apologized that she didn't need it, she didn't listen to what she said, didn't she just want this way?

If in this way she was able to listen carefully to herself, then he wouldn't mind.

The man sneered and whispered, "I don't bother to persecute you yet." ”

Lin Qingshuang was really driven crazy by Sheng Yixing's attitude, she clearly heard her calm and sarcastic voice ringing in her ears, using the most ugly words, saying the most hurtful words, "The dignified Mr. Sheng is so stubborn, it's really embarrassing!"

Sheng Yixing seemed to be angered by Lin Qingshuang's words, and immediately pressed her against the car with his arm, and said viciously, "Lin Qingshuang, my patience is limited, don't play tricks with me here!"

Want to get away with it?

Sure enough, in terms of hurting people and distorting facts, Sheng Yixing is the originator, who can say anything about him?

Lin Qingshuang didn't even want to speak anymore, he had always used such words to humiliate her, and it was such hateful words that came out of his mouth.

"Mr. Sheng, you really make me feel sick!"

The woman's low words easily ignited Sheng Yixing, and the emotions accumulated in his whole body swelled to the extreme at this moment, and then completely exploded uncontrollably.

The man's big palm struck quickly, pinching Lin Qingshuang's neck fiercely, and a voice as low as Yama sounded in her ears, "Lin Qingshuang, you don't know what to do!"

I don't know what to do?

Lin Qingshuang's tears slipped from the corners of her eyes, what else could she do that she didn't know what to do?

Even if she can do anything, it is only herself who will be hurt in the end.

Lin Qingshuang has recognized this fact!

She immediately didn't hesitate any longer, broke the jar and broke it, and roared at Sheng Yixing, as if the trapped beast was about to break free from the cage, using the last bit of strength in her body to speak for herself and fight him to the death.

"Come on, what else can't you do?" Lin Qingshuang was no longer afraid, "Sheng Yixing, I also want to see how hard your heart is, and I also want to know what kind of means you have and what kind of situation you can force me to!"

In Lin Qingshuang's eyes, he was like a cold-blooded person, like a demon without flesh and blood, cold and cruel.

I didn't even want to say more, and my eyes were stingy to give another one.

She thought he wouldn't be heartbroken, that he didn't want to make it up to her.

But what about her attitude? Lin Qingshuang looked at herself with such indifferent eyes, did she think he wouldn't be in pain?

He wanted to compensate her well, and wanted to make up for the wrong things he had done over the years, but the woman was so ruthless that she directly sentenced him to death, without giving him the slightest chance and possibility of repentance.

Sheng Yixing clearly knew that he was wrong!

As Lin Qingshuang said, the past has passed, and the desperate darkness she has experienced, Sheng Yixing can't empathize with it, and can't make up for it through any behavior.

But he also wanted to try, try to atone for his sins, try to pay for his stupidity, even if it cost a huge amount, he didn't care, he could accept it gladly.

Sheng Yixing has never begged for forgiveness in such a lowly manner, he was born to grow up in an environment where the stars hold the moon, and a man's rebelliousness and self-confidence are innate, just like the scales on his body, which is his incomparably hard armor.

And what Lin Qingshuang is doing now is when he put away his armor without reservation, and when he tried to wrap her wounded heart with his own softness, he took out an extremely sharp sword and pierced deeply into his soft flesh.

Why did she treat him with such an attitude? Why did she treat him like this, and why did she torture herself and torture him madly with the past?

Sheng Yixing was so angry that he raised his arm and wanted to slap Lin Qingshuang, trying to wake up the woman by slapping her in such a way.

And just as the big hand was about to land on Lin Qingshuang's link, a burst of hysterical and painful crying could stop the man's falling hand.

"Don't fight anymore! Daddy, don't you think Mommy is hurt deep enough? Do you have to force us to die before we give up?"

Sheng Xinxin in the car couldn't stand Sheng Yixing's movements anymore, pushed the car door hard, and yelled at Sheng Yixing.

Lin Qingshuang's eyes fell on the man's raised hand, and the corners of her lips slightly curled, she was smiling, but that smile was even more ugly than crying.

Lin Qingshuang couldn't describe her emotions at this moment, she only felt that her heart was about to tear apart.

The woman clutched her chest unbearably, panting became a luxury for her at this time, and her heart was like a large boulder pressed down, one by one, on top of it, leaving no gap or leaving her the slightest way to live.

Lin Qingshuang cried blood, staring at Sheng Yixing with her eyes, every word neatly, "Sheng Yixing, I want to see what you want our mother and daughter to look like before you give up." I really want to peel back your heart and see how hard your heart is!"

Sheng Yixing didn't know how he left that day.

The little guy's rhetorical question to Lin Qingshuang almost made him lose his armor, and he almost fled with the fastest and most embarrassing speed.

He drove his car and galloped down the road as fast as he could, the biting cold wind hitting his cheeks and disappearing in the night with tears that he had never had before.

He was so embarrassed that his mind was full of only one thought, and that was to escape, to escape from this place, from the gazes and words that he found unbearable.

Escaping from the cold and cruel self he once had, his karma finally returned to himself at this moment.

Sheng Yixing drove the car, speeding all the way, the car was like a swimming dragon, shuttling in the sea of highways, he avoided everything, but finally crashed into a large and a small accusation.

When Sheng Yixing drove home, a man stumbled as if he was seriously injured, his legs were all weak and embarrassed, and his hair was blown extremely messy.

Wearing only an undershirt, the collar had been unbuttoned, and the jacket had no idea where it had been thrown, Sheng Yixing pushed open the door and staggered in.

"Mind...... Daughter"

"I'm sorry!"

The man seemed to have a magic barrier, and muttered to himself in all corners of the room, crying, laughing, sad and doting.

The pictures of one big and one small once living at home, scene by scene, are like slides in front of Sheng Yixing's eyes.

The man looked at the scene in front of him with tenderness and warmth, looked at Lin Qingshuang's tranquility and ease when facing Sheng Xinxin, and the coquettishness when Sheng Xinxin faced his mother.

Such a picture is very precious to Sheng Yixing, he stretched out his hand tremblingly, wanting to touch it, but after all, he pounced empty.

The man couldn't support it anymore, his feet were weak, and the whole person fell into the sofa.

It was empty, and everything was like a dream, a dream that he could never recover.

This dream, he is a sleeping person, he can't wake up, he can perceive all the emotions of the outside world, all events, but he can't reach out and touch it, and he can't recover it.

But he was not reconciled, he was not willing to give up, he believed that he could succeed.

So he reached out and touched it over and over again, touching the perfect illusion that didn't exist at all.

Finally, after his countless attempts, Sheng Yixing felt that he could, he touched it, touched Lin Qingshuang's smile, she smiled softly at herself, it was so sweet and gentle, full of affection and heartwarming.

He also touched the little guy, felt the little guy's soft and glutinous body nested in his arms, and shouted to his father, to hug.

Sheng Yixing squinted, slowly hooked his lips, and spoke softly with a doting face, his voice was hoarse and old like a drooping old man.

"Good ......" only made one sound, only one word, but in an instant, the happiness that the man had just touched exploded and shattered in front of his eyes one by one.

Sheng Yixing watched the scenes shatter in front of his eyes, and he stretched out his hand to try to grab some warm fragments, but in vain.

Fantasy is fantasy after all, but warmth no longer exists, Sheng Yixing's outstretched hand fell in place, and it was just an empty living room in front of him.

The light was bright, but there was nothing, and the whole room was eerily quiet, except for the sound of the ticking clock.

Sheng Yixing understands that the past is the past after all, just like time passes little by little, no matter how much you twist the hour hand, you can't return to the original point.

Sheng Yixing felt a desolation from the bottom of his heart from the inside out, and this desolation gradually froze his body.

The man slowly curled up from the sofa, like a helpless child, curled up in the same posture as when he was still in his mother's body, as if this was the only way to bring himself some security for a short time.

Sheng Yixing was like a person who had lost a battle, his consciousness collapsed, and he breathed more, but found that it was extremely painful, and even his breathing was painful.

For the first time, the man let out a desolate and sad whimper like a beast, he thought he didn't care, he thought he could face it so easily, he thought that this matter would be easy to solve.

But Lin Qingshuang's eyes were so painful and hateful, every word the woman said was like Ling Chi's sharp blade, and his whole body was in severe pain.

It was like a constant process, the pain over and over again, the salt was sprinkled again and again, this feeling was indescribable, and the pain was unbearable.

Sheng Yixing couldn't figure it out, obviously he never cared about this woman, and he had abandoned her before.

There are so many Mingming, but why was he so sad when he found out that Lin Qingshuang didn't care about him?

Sheng Yixing held his head and used his strength to the fullest, he felt that his whole body couldn't stop trembling, he felt as if he had been retributed, and all the vicious sarcastic words he had said to Lin Qingshuang were reflected on him.

How could he say that he regretted it? He didn't love her, he didn't pay attention to him, but why was he so sad, so sad that he was dying.

The night seemed too long, and every minute and every second was tormenting Sheng Yixing's heart, as if the wound had just healed and reopened, and so on.

He felt that the pain of losing Lin Qingshuang was even worse than when he lost Gu Sinan back then.

Sheng Yixing couldn't figure out what kind of emotion this was, and he couldn't figure out where such emotions came from and how long!

Lin Qingshuang has been completely sick since she returned to Nancheng, and her illness this time was very serious, and it took almost half a month for a cold to slowly get better.

Other complications followed, probably the worst she had been in years.

Her words and eyes deeply hurt Sheng Yixing, but they also stabbed herself deeply.

Lin Qingshuang knew in her heart that these words were like a double-edged sword, and if she wanted to sting Sheng Yixing deeply, she needed to carry the blood that stabbed her first.

Lin Qingshuang did it, and the man's hasty escape that day let her know that she had done it, and she successfully made a proud man so panicked that he threw away his armor.

The man is so embarrassed and in such pain, which is what Lin Qingshuang is happy to see, and even once wanted to achieve it.

But why didn't she have the slightest pleasure?

Why is it that when she sees the uncontrollable pain in the man's eyes, her heart is also painful and she can't breathe?