Chapter 54, to die or live shamelessly
"Ernie, if I say...... The two of us are actually not familiar with each other, can you believe it?" Jieun-chan hung up the phone, not daring to look at Renna's eyes, but her face turned red and she was a little overwhelmed.
"Do you think I'll believe it?" Renna asked rhetorically.
"Okay......" Jien-chan was deflated.
"Okay, it's okay. Renna smiled and comforted: "I don't want to stop you, I said, if you like it, you feel right, and you won't regret it in the future." Then I'll support you. In fact, your recent state, I see it in my eyes. If I'm not mistaken, it's because of that person, right?"
Jien-chan thought about it, and finally nodded.
"So, what's so shameful about that?" Ren Na laughed, "If there is someone who can make you feel happy, then maybe there is nothing wrong with trying to catch him." Maybe you're thinking too much about him now? Maybe you really think of him as an Oba, but you just mistake him for that kind of feeling?"
"Is this possible?" Zhien-chan's expression was a little lost, and he asked, "Will there be a time to admit mistakes?"
"Yes!" said Jenna, "When I was in school, I had a little time when I was very fond of a boy, and I was really happy to be with him. So then we became a couple. ”
"Isn't that bad?" asked Jien-chan.
"Well, how do you say that?" Renna explained, "There is a relationship, and being friends is the best distance! If you are too close, you will suffocate each other." There is no 100% determination to spend a lifetime ago, in fact, there is really no difference between loving and not loving. So don't worry about these things, you should try to be happy!"
Jien-chan nodded thoughtfully.
"Just like me, I'm so old that I still don't get married. Maybe it's the personality, a lot of people who think it's good, but in the end they're just friends. Going any further, both of them would find it weird. Renna pulled up Jien-chan: "So now, there is only one question, let's not discuss what will be forever and what will be forever, when you are the happiest, is it with that person?"
Ji-eun-chan lowered her head and thought about it, then nodded.
Maybe you think my thoughts are too negative, but the kind of love that does not abandon and never leaves, and even lives and dies without shame, is too little. At this time, Ren Na also had a hint of loneliness in her smile, as if she remembered something, her voice was a little lower, and she said, "Maybe the times are different!"
"Does this have anything to do with the times?" asked Jien-chan.
"Alright, it's almost time, let's talk as we go. Isn't that person still waiting for us?" Renna picked up her bag, went out with Jien-chan, and got into the car.
Jien-chan felt that Rena Oni was a little strange today, as if she had touched something sad. Why else would you want to change the subject just now?
After getting into the car, Renna drove the car and stopped talking. In the end, Zhi'en-chan couldn't help but ask, "Ernie, what do you mean by what you just said, the times are different?"
"Huh, times are different?" Renna looked at Jien-chan and said, "Nowadays, people have a different concept of love. ”
"What do you mean?Isn't love just love?What other concepts?" Ji-eun-chan has little emotional experience, so she doesn't understand what Renna means at all.
"Well, I'll give you an example. Renna began to express her opinion: "Do you think that kind of love like in film and television dramas, which is very hypocritical, even bloody, and shameless to die or live, exists in reality?"
"Save ...... Somehow, Zhi'en-chan suddenly remembered the actions of Wang Taika to Song Cilantro that night that she witnessed. If you want to die or live shamelessly, maybe that's it!
"Then what do you think of that kind of relationship?" Renna didn't know Jien-chan's association, and just asked to herself.
"It sounds a little offensive. That feeling of dead skin and a bad face, it's really annoying. Zhi'en chan said while thinking about Wang Taika that night, and it was really a dead skin with a dead face! But thinking of this, he changed his words again: "But...... If you really experience that kind of feeling, you will find it extremely moving. Come to think of it, it seems that there is nothing wrong with that person, he just loves him too much, loves so much that he loses himself. ”
"How could you have thought of this?" Renna looked at Jien-chan with some surprise, "I thought you would be disgusted!"
"I was really disgusted before, but later, I felt different. Zhien-chan said seriously, "Ernie, I have a question. Isn't that kind of love for someone and losing oneself like a crazy meal?"
Renna shook her head and explained: "It's different! Fans look up to idols, so that kind of love has nothing to do with love, it's just that idols meet the definition of beauty in fans' hearts." ”
"What about love? Doesn't it mean that this person has no self-esteem because he loves someone?"
After Zhi'en Chan saw the quarrel between Wang Taika and Song Coriander that day, the whole person's three views were going to be abnormal! Because of Wang Taika's performance, she couldn't believe it!
In the past, although Wang Taika was cynical, he didn't care about anything. Even bowing down for work and life, this kind of thing is done. But no matter what, Jien-chan feels that he sticks to a bottom line, which is something similar to reverse scales.
It's like because he works, so he endured the difficulties of Zhien-chan. But he was beaten by Ki Ha for some reason, and he would rather risk being arrested by the police afterwards than go back with crazy revenge!
To put it simply: you can bow your head for life, but you won't kneel for life!
It's like holding on to the only trace of arrogance you have left in this realistic world. Some are sad, but some are respectable.
But the events of that night made Zhien-chan more and more unable to understand this person!
On weekdays, all the bottom lines are put down, and even struggling between leaving and staying, oscillating between hope and despair. It's even like a madman, laughing, making trouble, and crying. It's like trying to prove yourself in various ways.
It's like a person who doesn't even want self-esteem...... No, not alone, he ...... Like a dog!
It's not a scolding, Wang Taika at that time was really like a dog, a dog who tried his best to please his owner!
You can bow your head for life, but you won't kneel for life. But suddenly one day I found that he knelt down, and so thoroughly!
Zhien-chan doesn't know why, and she feels a little sorry for Wang Taika. She felt sorry for Wang Taika, not because she had any feelings for Wang Taika, but because Zhien-chan felt that Wang Taika was really ...... It's so pathetic!
Jieun-chan turned to Inna and asked, "If a person doesn't have self-esteem, is that kind of love still love?"
Renna was driving the car, but when she heard Ji-eun-chan's question, she suddenly laughed and asked, "You are wrong! If you are a person with no self-esteem, how can that person really love someone? Let alone die or live for another person? But if a person can die or live for another person and be shameless, it can only mean that that person has self-esteem, but it is just ......"
"Just what?"