Wang Zhao didn't squeak.

"I can't fault it, I can't find fault with it, it seems to be a reasonable request. After the child was born, Lu Shanhai often said that he would work overtime, and his in-laws either went out for a walk or closed the bedroom door to watch TV, so I basically took the child alone at night. It's very simple to say, it's just to play with the child, bathe her, and coax her to sleep, but at that time, somehow, it may be that I can't sleep well at night, and I feel that the whole person is very tired, and sometimes I can't even walk steadily. I want to go to the bathroom, I have to coax the yearning to the bathroom to watch, wash until the yearning falls asleep, sometimes the yearning refuses to sleep, until the middle of the night to sleep, I am so tired that I can't do it, I fell asleep directly in clothes, I slept too hard and forgot to cover her with a quilt, and the next day I found that the child was cold and cold, and I hugged her guiltily and cried. ”

Wang Zhao was still silent.

"Do you think that I, the former daughter-in-law, are very picky, and saying these words seems to be complaining that Lu Shanhai's parents are not good, they work hard to help us take care of our children during the day, I should be grateful to them, right? I also thought so at that time, others said that the reason why a mother is great is because she can endure all the hardships in the world for her children, so I don't complain, I can endure hardships. ”

Wang Zhao fiddled with the pen in his hand: "Say a few things that impress you, can you still remember?"

"If you don't tell others, it doesn't mean that you can forget it, am I too small-minded. ”

"Don't care about other people's eyes, you can say whatever you want, now we are in the process of getting to know each other, you stay relaxed, I understand you, I can help you." ”

Yi Chengfang nodded, biting his lip tightly: "Later, I started to eat with adults, I hurriedly changed my clothes and washed my hands when I got home every day, and I was about to start feeding her dinner, she was picky and refused to eat well, and when she was fed, her in-laws had already eaten, usually they went to do their own business, I put the rest of the dishes on the plate in the microwave to heat up, and ate while watching Longing." Sometimes the child is naughty and asks me to hug me and let me play with her, and before I can take care of eating, my in-laws think that I have already eaten, throw out the leftovers, and start washing the dishes. ”

"They don't care about you?"

"Oh, how can you expect them to care, my father-in-law often says that the child is ours, and I, as a daughter-in-law, should not only care about the young, but also care about the old. ”

"What was Lu Shanhai's attitude towards you at that time?"

"When a child is born, a woman can understand what it means to be a man's verbal love. As long as Lu Shanhai is at home, he cares about me very, very much on the surface, and he can't stop talking sweetly, saying that he loves me, loves and yearns, and follows me and asks if he wants to help me make milk powder? Do you want to help me change diapers? Do you need him to help you do anything? He just asked, but never did anything, opened his mouth and closed his mouth to help, they were all helping me, as if I could give birth to the yearning by myself. ”

"All kinds of small things lead to a lot of contradictions. ”

Yi Chengfang shook his head: "I don't have the energy to quarrel with Lu Shanhai, I haven't said a bad word about him, for the sake of the child, I don't want to create contradictions." Although it was a particularly high-pressure and difficult time, the children needed to be taken care of, the relationship between husband and wife, mother-in-law and daughter-in-law had to be balanced, you were not a newcomer at work, and the requirements of the leadership were getting higher and higher, like a balance, not only to be a weighing rod, but also to be a weighing stone, not only to be a good employee, mother, wife and daughter-in-law, but also to take care of the mood of the people around you. ”

"Everybody is watching you, but if you don't do anything right, you're going to be blamed. But I've been self-regulated, and I often use a sentence I read in books to comfort myself: people are good to people, like a piece of sugar, if you eat it, it will be gone, and people are bad to people, it is a scar, forever branded there, you can't eat the sugar, only remember the scar.

"Self-regulation, does it work?"

"No, on the way off work, looking at the sky and suddenly crying. ”

Wang Zhao wrote on a piece of paper: Depression.

"I didn't look for ways to relieve stress, socialize, fitness, shopping, etc. ”

"For several years after giving birth, I didn't leave my children and went out to eat alone, without any entertainment, except for work and children. ”

"What is the root cause of your marriage?"

"Third party. ”

Wang Zhao's expression was not surprised: "Tell me in detail." ”

"The in-laws are patriarchal, and they don't show it in front of them on weekdays, but they can always hear it in and out of the words. Once my mother-in-law wanted to wear clothes made of chemical fiber for the child, I said that I was still young, the skin was delicate, and the clothes were best to wear cotton. She and her father-in-law also asked me if I wanted to have a second child, and I admitted that taking care of a child had exhausted my energy and had no plans to have a second child. Maybe when I promised to have a second child and give birth to a son, my marriage would not come to an end, but how can there be assumptions in life, and I am not the kind of person who relies on promises to exchange for tomorrow. ”

"Lu Shanhai was just working overtime, and he would come back late at night, and the business trip was also a short difference of three or five days. But one day, Lu Shanhai told me that he was sent by the unit to work in the branch for a year, the branch is in the northwest, thousands of miles away from home, and he can see him several times a year. ”

"I asked him if he couldn't go, and he said that the company's regional manager was about to retire, and he had coveted this position for a long time, and he would often be promoted when he returned from expatriation. But he also said that as long as I asked for it, he would immediately go to the leader and ask the leader if he wanted to go. When it comes to this, can I stop him, it doesn't mean ruining his future. ”

"Just when I didn't know what to do, I accidentally learned from You Lan that Lu Shanhai's assignment was won by him through his connections, and the assignment did not help his career, and it may make him miss the election for the position of regional manager. Since it's not for the sake of the career, what is it for? I thought about it calmly, thinking about the changes in the road after I was born, I don't want to stay at home, I don't want to stay at home, I hate the noisy children, the overtime hours are getting longer and longer, and the number of business trips is much more than before, is it to escape from this home? I was desperate and went directly to ask him, but he didn't admit it, saying that You Lan was taken out of context, and she was not an employee of their company, so she didn't understand at all. ”

"Later I found out that the truth was ......"

Wang Zhao saw that she became emotional: "Are you okay? ”

"I'm fine, where did I go, it was the day before Lu Shanhai was leaving, maybe it was the arrangement of fate, I actually forgot to bring the lesson plan, and I rarely went home during work hours, but I saw a young pregnant woman at home. She was arguing with her in-laws, and when she saw me, she pointed at me and asked me if she knew who she was. I said I don't know, she said then I'll tell you, she is high-flying, rightly arrogant, I only then knew that this woman was met by Lu Shanhai in a bar, the two have been together for a while, and the woman is pregnant. ”