Jien-chan has insomnia.

There is a saying that thinking with heart leads to a life with heart, and thinking negatively leads to a negative life. But now Zhi'en-chan wants to be positive, but he can't be active.

Originally, there were thousands of words, but after being a simple terrorist, I obviously wanted to say a lot of things, but I didn't know where to start when I opened my mouth.

Alas, Zhien-chan really wants to say handsomely: If you don't want me, please leave me, stay, just continue to make me sad.

But the one who didn't want to leave was himself. It's like the deep darkness and coldness that just happened in the hallway. But no matter how cold and painful it is, you can hold it and grit your teeth to prevent yourself from crying, in fact, this is nothing, Zhien-chan is not so fragile.

But...... The terrorists opened the door and spoke, as if in a sudden surprise.

Yes, the cold that could have been tolerated, but the sudden warmth could force people to tears at once.

Feelings are inherently a sinking thing, and the so-called reason and determination are actually ridiculous words of self-comfort. It is more like a mass of desires, where desires are not satisfied and painful, desires that are satisfied are boring, and life and feelings are like pendulums oscillating between pain and boredom.

It's so hypocritical......

Jieun-chan lies in bed tossing and turning, thinking about these messy things.

Yes, it's pretentious. It's like seeing the terrorists and Victoria separate.

It's not right, Zhien-chan feels that no matter how hypocritical she is, it can't surpass those things about terrorists and Victoria, that's hypocrisy to the extreme.

However, Zhien-chan was very confused, because she found that she was also hypocritical. It's really hypocritical. It's not like she used to be.

The original Zhi'en sauce was disgusted with hypocrisy to an extreme attitude. But when I also fell into this kind of hypocrisy, I found that ...... It will really be justified, and even really sink into it.

So, when you are so hypocritical with the terrorists, does that mean that you also have a bond with the terrorists?

Some people say that parting and reunion are the constant dramas of life, and when you get used to it, you will no longer be sad.

Originally, Zhien-chan was 10,000 recognitions, but now it feels like. I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it at all, no matter how many times I come again, I'm still not used to it. Of course, people who don't care can get used to it, but people who care can't get used to it.

In other words, life is really heartbreaking is not separation, nor how much pain the body endures, but the silent crying in the heart, the kind of unwillingness and remorse, regret for their indecision at the beginning, regret their powerlessness, and regret that they don't ask for anything in return......

Pay, of course, ask for something in return. If you don't love me, then I really want to just ruin you!

When this thought appeared in Zhien-chan's mind, even Zhien-chan himself was shocked!

But when you think about it, it seems reasonable. The deepest loneliness of a person is not a person for a long time, but the absence of any expectations in his heart.

Since there is no expectation, then there is no need to work hard to bloom, and it is not bad to be a weed. Thorns don't exist so that weeds don't easily trample on them.

Finally, Chien-chan gathered courage little by little.

Of course. Courage does not mean that the things you are afraid of do not exist, but that you have the courage to deal with and overcome the things you are afraid of.

After thinking for a while, Zhien-chan lay on the bed and made a phone call to Wang Taika, who was sleeping in the living room across the wall.

Ji-eun-chan didn't even wait for a second before the phone was connected.

"What's wrong?" said Wangtaika's voice in a deep voice.

Zhien-chan didn't know what to say, so he asked, "Uh...... How did you get through so quickly?"

"I'm playing with my phone. What's wrong?"

Zhi'en-chan's original courage was deflated again, and he could only ask vaguely: "Terrorist, what do you think...... Am I being hypocritical?"

"It's fine. Wang Taika is still very face-saving: "Probably infected by me, but it's not a big problem, you can quit." In fact, many things can be quit, but some ways and means are needed. ”

Jien-chan turned over and asked, "Quit it, will it be fine?"

"I would probably think about it, but I wouldn't touch it. Wang Taika said: "I'm good at hypocrisy, but I'm really still working hard to quit hypocrisy, and I don't have any experience to teach." It's probably similar to taking drugs, you can quit, but if you can't forget it, it will become an inevitability in your thoughts. So we should put an end to drugs and resolutely crack down on drug dealers......"

Zhieun-chan gritted his teeth: "Terrorist, am I telling you this kind of thing?"

"Sorry, off topic. Wang Taika said: "It's okay to be hypocritical, it's okay not to be hypocritical, just be happy." Convincing yourself is a triumph of sanity. Being touched by oneself is a kind of spiritual sublimation. Conquering oneself is a kind of success in life. So I was just touched by myself, and it was a kind of biochemistry of the mind. Isn't that the truth?"

Zhien-chan suddenly felt a little sad: "For the first time, I felt that there was no topic between us. It's embarrassing. ”

"Oh, let's sleep. Wang Taika said.

"That's it?" Ji-eun-chan asked, "Didn't you want to ask, why didn't you ask again?"

Wang Taika said: "We are all independent individuals, you are you, I am me. Even if I think I'm your Oba, but you haven't called me before? So what does it matter to me? It doesn't make sense, right? It's embarrassing that I only now figured it out. ”

"Enough. Zhien-chan couldn't stand it: "Terrorist, you're not talking to me, you're just sneering, right?"

"Thinking too much, really thinking too much. Wang Taika suddenly sighed and said, "I remember a long time ago you asked me what I would do if one day you lied to me. I don't remember exactly. ”

Zhien-chan said, "Yes, there is such a thing. I asked, how I asked, I also forgot. How you answered, I also forgot. Do you remember?"

"I'm sorry, I just remember one thing, but I did forget about it. It's too far away. Wang Taika said: "I seem to have answered well!"

When Zhien-chan heard this, he only felt how ridiculous his self-inflicted sentimentality was, and persuaded him so much, but he was defeated by such a sentence, and suddenly tears remained.

"I'm sorry, I'm going to wake up early tomorrow and hang up. Good night, terrorists. ”

"Doodoo ......"

Listening to the empty voice on the phone, Wang Taika was just gloomy.

How can you forget? It's just that I didn't do it, I feel guilty, and I don't dare to admit it.

I'm so sorry, Zhien-chan, I promised not to give up on you, but I didn't do it.

Self-blame is only one step later than anger.