I hurt you, but I don't regret it. (2)
In fact, people are all the same, they all want to work close to their homes, and it doesn't matter how much money you make, where you make more money, you spend more money, and where you make less money, you spend less.
Prices are placed there, so some people will say that they earn money from other places and spend it in other places, such a sentence, we also deeply feel that when making money at home, although the salary is very low, but the cost of all aspects is very small.
When you make money in other places, the salary is high, but when you spend money, you are also very powerful. When I was in the south, I had to spend more than 1,000 yuan a month, I was just a little girl, and eating snacks every day, as well as buying clothes or something became a habit, and the people around me told me that a girl spent so much money every month for something, and I couldn't do it, because I was really like that, and I was carefree about everything.
Snack when it's time to snack, just like everyone else. I never felt that I was a waste, at that time, everyone was eating in the factory, and if I lived in the factory and spent money, it was basically my own living expenses, buying some daily necessities, but I still spent so much money every month.
After spending it, I didn't feel anything, but every time I found out that I got fat, but the environment is like that, everyone buys snacks to eat, and they don't care about their own money, spend more and spend less, in that environment, of course, I am the same, I buy a lot of snacks every time, and watch TV while eating snacks to play there, many of our colleagues are like this, so I don't feel anything.
Once a colleague saw me and said, he said, you are so fat, and you still eat chicken legs, I was really embarrassed to smile, in fact, really, after I ate there for a few years, I found that I really gained a lot of weight.
The impact of the environment on people is very great, and when I return to my hometown, I am also slowly, I feel that the environment is very good on our side, or do I like my hometown although I don't have so much money to buy snacks, although everyone doesn't go to eat snacks?
But I also feel very reassured. Later, when I came back, he went to see me off that day, and he asked me what a strange thing he said, and he said did you have a breast augmentation?
I said no, I'm normal, I'm natural, that's how it is, how can he still say with a little disbelief?
So why are your breasts so big? I said really. However, I don't know if he believes it or not, but after he sent me home this time, it was like a kind of goodbye, I never saw him again, and he never saw me again.
Later, only a few times, he called me a few times, saying that I should live with them, and he supported me, and told me that he was now looking for a good job, and I didn't say yes to him every time.
Actually, I was happy that he had found a good job, but I still couldn't live with them, I didn't want to go to other places, I still wanted to live with our own relatives, maybe that's what my mother meant, so I didn't go there.
Actually, if I was the only one, it would be no problem to go there and live with others, but I still have to take care of my family at home, so I can't do that, so I have to refuse him like this.
After refusing, I found that every time I spoke so badly, it was as if I was intentionally hurting him.
So after many years, I never received a call from him, nor did I receive any messages from him, and the two of us lost contact with each other.
But in this case, I also have a very relieved and reassuring feeling, because in this way, he should have his own life and his own wife.
He didn't contact me again, but I still think he should live a good life, if he contacts me every time, won't it delay his time after a few years?
He told me that he liked me for several years, and that I couldn't give him anything, so I still felt very uncomfortable.
If you don't like him, then don't let him think about me all the time, this is my own idea, I don't like him, I won't let him like me, so that he can be in the mood to like others.
It should be like this, if you can't give anything to others, then give up your position so that he has the opportunity to like others.
This is my own thoughts, so every time I say so many hurtful things to him, sometimes I feel that I am also sad after saying hurtful words, but I don't know that I am wrong, I still want him to give up as soon as possible and have a new life of his own, so that I still hope that he can live happily, this is me.
Although I hurt him many times, I don't regret it at all. Sometimes I think about many people around us, they always don't want to hurt others, but many times hurt is inevitable, you don't want to hurt others, so every time you don't hurt him, you don't say anything, you don't use words to hurt him, but is there really no hurt in his heart?
You obviously don't give anything to others, but his heart still misses you so much every time, and every time he can only look at you from afar, look at your life every day and be sad.
Do you think this is really good? I think that after a long time, people will still have a deep pain in their hearts, even if you also tell me and tell them.
I don't want to hurt you, I didn't hurt you, you haven't said anything to hurt others, but his heart will still hurt so much, the longer it will hurt, the more painful it will be, in the matter of feelings, if you can't give someone anything, let others give up as soon as possible, let him start a new life as soon as possible, so it's good.
When one day he really doesn't contact you anymore and has forgotten about you completely, he will be the beginning of his new life.
This time, I slowly thought about it. After many years there was no news of him, and I didn't bother him again, because I really wanted him to live a good life and be happy every time.
So I don't think it's better to be like this, don't like others, keep dragging it like this, it's not a way at all, it's better to let people give up as soon as possible!
Although I hurt others and said a lot of hurtful things to others, but such words are better for long pain than short pain, that is, I can make other people's pain for a shorter time and less painful, which can be regarded as a kind of happiness, and this is what can be given to others.
So I hurt him this time, and I didn't feel like I regretted it much.