I've been wondering when I'll be able to live with someone instead of being afraid of loneliness.

I have always believed that love and promise are eternal, no matter what has been experienced, no matter how long it has passed, they will always exist, they will not disappear, let alone pass with time, but they have always been buried in a corner of my heart.

It's like a gardenia.

I've always liked the excitement, but I've also been afraid of the excitement, I like everyone to get together, talk happily together, play happily together, but I'm afraid that the excitement will disappear for a while, and I'm afraid that everyone who gets together will slowly leave, they will leave in different directions, and in the end only themselves will be left.

I've seen too many separations, one person after another left with me and never came back, and even when they did, they still left.

Many times I envy others, they can always forget a lot of things, they can always be indifferent to these things, they will not waver, but I am different, I always remember those good things, those happiest times.

I used to think that if they forgot, I would tell them one by one, but the end result was that I forced myself to pretend to forget, not only for many of me, but also for many people, who clearly remembered it in their hearts, but told others that they had forgotten.

It's just that I don't want to embarrass others.

Perhaps no one would have thought that the best memories of the beginning would eventually become a burden and a scar in the bottom of their hearts.

But despite that, I still remember that they came, and although they are no longer there, the memories are still there, and everything can be forgotten, but the memories cannot be erased.

The best memories are those that have always been buried somewhere in the bottom of my heart.

I will no longer dwell on the past and will not be able to walk away, because I believe that as long as the faith is still there, I will not be alone, the road ahead will not be hindered, and the future will be very clear.

I never imagined that I would go out of Anding Village to find my parents and my friends who had left me.

When I was in Anding Village before, I thought that since I couldn't live long, I should cherish my current life, and I should accompany Ran Yong by my side, and those dreams are far away and I can never touch.

But in the end, I realized that I was wrong, how to know that my dream was not far away from me without trying, and all this was only because I was afraid to take the first step.

I've traveled a lot of places over the years, and I've seen a lot of different buildings, and gardenias that are different in each place, and the starry sky at night in each place is different, and even though I can't see meteors and stars, I still like them just as much, because I believe that there will always be one that I can see.

I have always envied the meteors and stars in the night sky, because they always appear in groups, they don't feel lonely, and they are always happy, but then I realized that it is because of longing that everything cannot be obtained.

Although life is very long, there are many accidents, just like me, I am riddled with diseases, but even so, I still want to do what I can and what I want to do in a limited time, even if I leave, I have no regrets.

Finally I saw my parents, they were doing well, they were happy to see me, I didn't stay with them for long, I thought I was happy to see them very well.

I continued to look for the friends who had left me, and they were all very good, and they all remembered the past, and no one forgot the past, and in each of them felt that the original time was beautiful and happy.

At the same time, I went to many places and spent a lot of festivals with them, and everyone was lively and happy together.

I don't know how long I've been wandering outside, some of them want to settle down the village, but also miss Mu Ze and grandma, and the gardenias in Anding Village, I miss them too.

So I decided to go back to Anding Village, and this time I saw all the stars dotting the night sky, and it was exactly as beautiful as I saw it at the time, and Mu Ze saw it, and we all saw it.

I'm sure it's not just us, others have seen it.

This time, I was no longer afraid of being lonely, but I continued to live with Kizawa.

I don't have to look for it anymore, and he doesn't have to wait any longer, we'll all live with each other, and we won't be afraid anymore no matter what lies ahead.

I would hold hands with him and watch the gardenias bloom, I would look up at the stars with him, and I would dance with him on the Reed Festival.

We live forever in Anding Village, and friends from afar often come to see us, although we know that we will leave, but we are no longer afraid, because we all believe that every separation is for the next reunion, and we will have a time to meet again, not to mention that the good memories will not be forgotten, never forgotten.

Because they are eternal.

In the quiet living room, I suddenly heard a "ding dong", and the mobile phone screen on the table suddenly lit up, and then several text messages popped up.

"Qian, Wu Junwen is holding a high school reunion, you can come too! I'll go with Linqing and Liu Yan!"

This is a text message from Zhou Yuqian's good sister Yueqi, and the second one is from her younger brother Liu Yan.

"Sister, Brother Jun held a high school reunion, you should come and attend it too! Everyone has known each other for two years, and the good and bad things have passed. ”

Brother Jun, it is still Liu Yan's style, like five years ago, following Wu Junwen's side with Brother Jun on the left and Brother Jun on the right, Zhou Yuqian remembered that she asked Liu Yan why he called him like this, Liu Yan: "Brother Jun is the person I respect the most!"

The past is unbearable, Zhou Yuqian sighed, maybe like Liu Yan, the good and bad things are in the past.

Now that five years have passed, Zhou Yuqian has also fulfilled her original dream of becoming a pianist, hoping to study music in the UK in college.

And now that her dream has come true, the four years of college are over, and she has found a good job right after graduating from college, everything is so smooth and simple, it makes people feel very satisfied.

But Zhou Yuqian couldn't be happy, she used to think that her dream was the whole of her life, and without it it was like having no breath, so she longed for victory and longed for success, because only in this way can the dream be realized, and she can feel happy and satisfied, but in the end she found that the dream was successful, but something was missing, and the lack of talking made her feel that it was actually more important than the dream, but she missed it, and she discarded it with her own hands.

Zhou Yuqian leaned on the sofa and she thought about whether to go, in fact, she had already received a call from Wu Junwen before this, on the phone, Wu Junwen told her in detail the location and time of the party and the people who attended the party.

Zhou Yuqian remembered Wu Junwen's words the most: "I'm sorry, we still haven't been able to contact Fang Lei through many methods, he has no contact with all his high school classmates, and he can't find a way to contact him at all." ”

Without contact, how could she Zhou Yuqian have contact with him?

After graduating from high school, Fang Lei went to the United States, and he went to the United Kingdom, and they have not seen each other since, let alone contacted.

In fact, Zhou Yuqian knows that he will not come back if he goes to the United States, but five years ago, she forced him away so ruthlessly, who is to blame now?

It's just that they were too young at the beginning.

It was not only Fang Lei who failed to participate, but also Li Zhenyi, Wei Li, Zhao Yi, Yang Shengli, Wu Mengyan and others did not participate, Zhou Yuqian couldn't help but feel that Zhao Yi and Yang Shengli were worthy of being Fang Lei's good buddies at the beginning, they used to copy homework and fight together, but now they are absent together.

Zhou Yuqian knew that Fang Lei had never contacted his high school classmates since he went there, and no one knew his news, and his two good buddies had heard some news.

She heard that Zhao Yi went to another place to receive devil training after transferring schools, and finally became thinner and handsome after training.

And she has heard a lot about Yang Shengli, but they are all bad, since he entered the third year of high school, he went to the bad class, his grades plummeted, and at the same time he made a lot of bad friends, and he was infected with a lot of bad problems, he was not admitted to college in the year he graduated from high school, and he could only mess with those friends when he left the society, and now he doesn't even have a decent job

Many of these were told to her by Yueqi, and she clearly remembered Yueqi's words: "I regret that I fell in love with Yang Shengli at the beginning!"

Zhou Yuqian asked her at the time: "Why?"

Yueqi: "What else can there be? Why does such a person who doesn't want to be motivated like him? Alas! It's no wonder that he was blind and would fall in love with him!"

In the past, Zhou Yuqian couldn't understand Yueqi's words, she didn't know what regret was, but after going through so much, she finally tried the taste of regret, like retribution, as if everything she did at the beginning would be punished, only she knew how cruel and painful that punishment was.

Zhou Yu Qiansheng is a proud and indulgent person, she will never change easily for anyone, but only Fang Lei has changed her mind three or four times, just because she likes him.

Zhou Yuqian thought like this, she had already left the house, took the bus, and watched the scenery outside the window gradually drift away, in fact, she didn't think much, just like Liu Yan, everyone knew each other after all, and they still had to go.

The bus stopped when it passed by Z University, and she saw a couple holding hands and walking out of the campus, which reminded her of her and Fang Lei five years ago, when they were holding hands and strolling on the beach, she thought they would always hold hands and walk down, because he believed that Fang Lei would always accompany her and never give up, but in the end, they broke up, reality is reality after all, and they were ruthless enough to separate the two people.

It wasn't until a nice and professional female voice sounded on the bus that she was pulled out of her past memories, "The third middle school has arrived, please take your belongings and get off the bus through the back door." ”

Before she knew it, she found out that she had arrived at the third middle school, which was the place where she had lived for two years; It was the place full of good memories of her and Fang Lei; It's the place she's always wanted to go back to......

Zhou Yuqian's heart fluctuated, she got out of the car after hesitation, and when she walked into the campus, she found that many things had not changed, as if she was just like when she first came, the garden on campus was still there, and the teaching building still had a few big words, "indomitable", even the security guards had not changed, everything was still so fresh in her memory, but it was still strange......

She knows that it has been five years, and these five years can change a person, let alone a building.

Zhou Yuqian stood under the playground and looked up at the teaching building, she suddenly wanted to go to the previous classroom to see, although she knew that it was no longer the previous classroom, and many things in it would change, but she just wanted to go and see.

She walked up to the fourth floor step by step, and the images of the past flashed in her mind, and all the good and bad memories flashed through her mind like a movie.

When she walked to the door of the third class of high school, she paused and then opened the door. She remembered that when she entered the classroom, the whole class cheered, and Fang Lei stood up highly, but now it was empty, only rows of tables and benches, and the awards they had worked together for those years had now been replaced.

Zhou Yuqian had to admit that everything had changed, she couldn't go back to the past, suddenly she couldn't help crying, two lines of tears flowed down, and a huge number of tears hit her clothes, she felt that her legs were a little weak, and she was physically and mentally exhausted.

Since she returned to China, she has not been happy, she is busy with work, and when she goes to sleep at night, she always dreams of the scene when Fang Lei left, and she is awakened again and again, and every time she wakes up, she always finds tears in the corners of her eyes, she knows, she regrets what she did at the beginning of the curtain.

She carried her heavy body to the seat where she and Fang Lei were sitting at the beginning, she clearly remembered that she and Fang Lei were here to make up the class, and at that time, in order to improve their learning, they always stayed to make up the class.

Zhou Yuqian lay on the table and wanted to be the same as before, but she still couldn't help crying, tears dripped down her face on the table, she felt how embarrassed she was at this time, Yueqi, Liu Yan and others who graduated with her at the beginning are now living so freely and contentedly, but she feels that her whole heart is empty.

Pack up your emotions Zhou Yuqian walked out of the classroom It was already three o'clock, and the time of the party was five o'clock, she didn't plan to go early, nor did she plan to go late, just be on time, her original plan was to go to Yueqi to talk about her heart, but she was delayed by No. 3 Middle School halfway.

As she walked out of the classroom to turn to leave, she saw a familiar figure, and she walked towards it in disbelief.

I saw a slender middle-aged woman carrying some sundries, and when she walked behind her, Zhou Yuqian called softly: "Teacher Zhao Yun?" Her voice was hoarse and slightly excited.

The bright sunlight shone on all corners of the third middle school, and everything seemed so vibrant, but it was still different.

When the middle-aged woman heard the voice, she lowered her hand...