"Even though I'm angry and think you're talking nonsense, you don't understand anything, but you're still educating me. But I know that you are for my good. At that time, I was thinking in my heart, Wen Shaonian, I beg you, don't care about me anymore, okay? You always care about me so much, it will make me misunderstand that you like me. What if I like you because of this misunderstanding?"

"But then I learned that I wasn't mistaken, you really liked me. At my temptation, you confessed to me. You also saw the bitterness in my heart, and you were the first person to see through my heart. Yes, I feel very bitter in my heart, but I can't tell you, because I don't want you to sympathize with me, pity me, this is my Qiao Huanxi's bottom line, this is my self-esteem, this is my Qiao Huanxi, I can stand up straight, and I have an equal dialogue with you Wen Shaonian, the last stubbornness. Even though I always say you're an idiot, I really care what you think of me. ”

"You were tempted by me to like me, but at that time, you didn't know how much you liked me. So I told you not to like me, and let us keep the best impression of each other. Don't try to hurt each other and hate each other. Actually, I still haven't said a word to you, and I'm not sure how much you like me. But I'm really getting more and more fond of you. ”

"Because I like you more and more, I start to become sensitive. For example, when you said that Professor He would not like a nanny, I lost a lot of temper with you. You say that I have low self-esteem, I don't admit it, but in fact, I am inferior. Because I'm also a babysitter. The past experience made me feel inferior, and made me know that I have a good impression of you, but I dare not show it at all. Because there is a gap between us that cannot be bridged, but I don't want you to despise me, and I don't want to destroy my image in your heart. ”

"I know that the best way to completely break off with you is to make you hate me and stay away from me, but I can't help it. On the one hand, I always say that you don't know me, that you don't know the whole me. But on the other hand, I'm a little happy, but luckily you don't know the whole me. Actually, I'm shameless, right? Actually, I'm duplicitous, right?"

"For your testimony, I don't care about my reputation at all. I know that with your family background, don't say that you haven't done it, even if you really insult Xiaoqin, it is estimated that there will be no problem. But I still don't want you to be splashed with dirty water. So I took it upon myself to commit perjury. Even if I have a bad reputation, I have no regrets and will not frown. In fact, I was moved by myself at that time, and it wasn't until your lawyer's lawyer told me that there were many flaws in the perjury I made, and it was easy to see through it when people took it seriously, and I realized that I was making a fool of myself. ”

"We went through the bloody battle together at Professor Ho's house, and I understand how much you love me. You let me run? How could I run? At that time, I thought, if something happens to you, I won't be alive. ”

"You're hurt, I'm in the hospital to take care of you in a coma, you know? I kissed you that day, kissed you. I'm not ashamed, am I?"

"But that day, I saw that my husband, the shameless husband, had also come to the provincial capital. He was like a resounding slap in the face, waking me up and letting me know that I can't be with you. So you came to me, I lied, I said that I already have someone I like in my heart! Actually, this sentence is not a lie, I just didn't say that that person is you. I know you're sad, but I'm even sadder when I say that. Later, I met you at the mall, but I didn't even dare to say hello to you. ”

"My husband keeps pestering me, I can't help it, I have to fight with him. Before I decided to play with my life, I really wanted to see you, and I went to see you. I went to your school and saw how popular you were with girls. I'm so happy to see you turn down a sexy girl's accosting. Then I saw you having a good conversation with another very bookish girl, and I was jealous. Of course, I later learned that it was your cousin Xia Lan, but I didn't know it at the time. My heart is sour, and I am particularly aggrieved. I really want to go over and ask you, what is the relationship between you and her? Didn't you say you like me? Have you forgotten me? Or do you like me at the same time, you also like other women! You scumbag! I also want to tell Xia Lan, please leave, Wen Shaonian is my man! Fortunately, I didn't do that, otherwise I would have made a big fool!"

"I'll tell you the good news, the husband who bullied me died, he made a living by touching porcelain, and he ended up being hit and killed by a drunk car. By the way, the person who drove the car is also a scumbag, which is another story. ”

"Although I was jealous, when I later saw that Xia Lan was being harassed, I still stepped in to help, and I didn't want you to know yet. Because she is the woman you like, I'm afraid you'll be sad, so I can't let her have an accident. I'm noble, right? I admire myself. ”

"Then I made a fool of myself, because I saw that Xia Lan was very close to other boys, and I misunderstood that she had betrayed you, and I had a big fight with her, and made a big joke. It was also at that time that Xia Lan told me that you were killed by me every day because of your insomnia because of your lovelornness. You say you're such a good man because I've become like this. I was really ashamed and blamed myself. I'm happy, how can I, as for how much you value me, so obsessed, am I worthy, I'm not worthy!"

"That day in the fitting room, you saw the wound on my face, you were very distressed, I didn't want you to feel sorry for me, so I wanted to force a smile. I was beaten by my brother, I was used to being beaten since I was a child, a slap is really nothing, when my brother hit me, I didn't cry at all, but when I heard you ask me if it hurts, I saw your eyes that cared about me, and saw that you cared so much about me, I suddenly felt so wronged and wanted to cry. I couldn't stop the tears. I swear, I really don't want to show weakness in front of you and win your sympathy, I just see you, I see my relatives, and I have something to rely on. ”

......

I'm rambling.

Tell me about all the things that Wen Shaonian and I have done from meeting, acquaintance to love.

Some of these things Wen Shaonian knows, and some Wen Shaonian doesn't.

and my journey.

My hesitation and struggle.

My pain and suffering.

My bravery and my struggle.

These are all things I wanted to say but didn't dare to say before.

At this point, I finally had the opportunity to speak out.

Although Wen Shaonian couldn't hear it.

"Actually, although I have been reminding myself to stay away from you, and even pretending to be where I belong in front of you, one person can deceive the world, but he can't deceive himself. In the end, I still couldn't help but see you, although at that time I was under the banner of helping Li Pingping find a lawyer to fight the lawsuit, but in my heart, I still want to see you. When I saw you, I finally confessed to you that I didn't have any childhood sweethearts' first love. ”

"And then there's the heavy rain, and you in the heavy rain. ”

"You must think now that I'm playing tricks on you, right? Why did you buy a condom in the rain and I didn't say goodbye? Why did I feel so ruthless to you a few days later?"

"Because, on that rainy day, I received a message from a bastard. His surname is Ma, until now, I don't know what his specific name is, everyone calls him Ma Dashao. He was a bully, and when I was trapped in my husband's village, he also took a fancy to me and wanted to bully me and insult me. I myself have no ability to protect myself. Even I wanted to beg my husband to protect me and not let that bully insult me. My husband is disgusting, but he's my husband after all, isn't he? I even thought that if my husband could protect me at that time, I could try to make myself accept him. But what disappointed me was that my husband chose to be cowardly in the face of that bully. He didn't dare to resist, so he let me be bullied by that beast. I can't help it, I can only endure it, I can only act with that beast, hoping to use his power to let me escape. Later, I really escaped, and on the way, I found an opportunity to report the patrol, and the young man was arrested. ”

"He has a lot of cases on him, and he has to go to jail for a long time. I thought he wouldn't hurt me anymore, but I didn't expect that he was still in prison and still had a grudge against me, and he wanted to take revenge on me! He wanted to take revenge not only on me, but also against all the men who had a relationship with me! So I can't be with you, I can't let you be hurt even the slightest, do you understand?

Speaking of which, it's dawn.

I'm still holding Wen Shaonian's hand.

"Actually, it doesn't matter if you don't understand, I just want you to be safe and don't be hurt. Even if you don't love me anymore, you will hate me forever!"

I'm done.

I don't know if Wen Shaonian heard me.

His brow furrowed.

Even his fingers were moving unconsciously.

There was a burst of joy in my heart.

Is this about to wake up?

Wen Shaonian, you're finally going to wake up.

And I'm leaving, too.

Those words, I only dared to tell Wen Shaonian when he was asleep.

But when he woke up.

Not only did I dare not tell him.

I didn't even dare to come face to face with him.

Otherwise, all the previous ruthlessness and disguise will be wasted and wasted.

So I got up and took my things.

I'm leaving.

I've closed the door.

But I opened the door again.

Although the doctor said that he was no longer in danger, I still didn't feel comfortable leaving him here alone.

Who will take care of him?

His family is in the provincial capital, far away.

So what did Wen Shao do here for a while?

Travelling, visiting family or friends?

This stop is already the final stop.

It seems that Wen Shaonian is also going to get off in this small town.

So it's very likely that he has people he knows who live in this small town.

I know it's useless to just guess.

All this information can be known as long as you open Wen Shaonian's mobile phone.

When he was taken to the hospital, his phone was in his pocket.

I took it out and took a look, and fortunately, the phone was not broken, and the battery was half as good.

But I couldn't open Wen Shaonian's phone.

Because I was asked to enter the boot password.

But I've never touched Wen Shaonian's phone before.

This is really an incompetent girlfriend.

Now that men and women are in love, how can there be a woman who doesn't look at her boyfriend's mobile phone?

This is, of course, because, strictly speaking, Wen Shaonian and I have really never been in love together.

But even if we are really in love together.

I don't bother to look at his phone.

......

Because I think when two people are together, whether they are in love or married, the most important thing is trust.

If the relationship needs to be maintained by checking the phone.

If you have to beware of the other half cheating and splitting your legs every day, you have to smell whether the other half has a woman's perfume and a woman's long hair every day.

Check the call list every day and check the information.

Then this kind of relationship is actually not interesting.

......

What is Wen Shaonian's boot password?

Is it his birthday?

Counting, I really don't know Wen Shaonian's birthday.

Fortunately, his wallet is also in his pocket.

There is an ID card inside.

Take out your ID.

According to the numbers above, I entered Wen Shaonian's birthday.

Wrong.

I entered the last few bits of Wen Shaonian's mobile phone number, but it was still wrong.

I thought about Wen Shaonian's license plate number and entered it, but it was still wrong.

Because I made too many mistakes, I couldn't enter my password for the time being.

You'll have to wait a few minutes.

I'm in a bit of a hurry.

But immediately I came to my senses.

Am I stupid?

In addition to using the boot password, the mobile phone can also be unlocked with a fingerprint.

Although I don't know the boot password, Wen Shaonian is lying on the side.

Isn't this a ready-made key?

So I took my phone to Wen Shaonian's side.

With his fingers, he unlocked the phone.

The screen is on.

The picture on the screen is actually me!

It was a picture he took of me when I was having dinner with Wen Shaonian.

At that time, I was drinking tofu brain very ungracefully, so of course this photo will not be very beautiful.

I read it and said it was ugly.

Let Wen Shaonian delete it.

He clearly promised me to delete it.

As a result, not only did it not be deleted, but it was also saved, and it was also used as a wallpaper for mobile phones.

Why don't you pick one that looks better?

Oh, I remembered.

Because I don't like to take pictures, I never take selfies.

I don't have a single picture of myself on my phone.

Wen Shaonian and I have never taken a photo together.

So after thinking about it, Wen Shaonian only has such a photo of me?

Thinking about this, I feel a little sad.

Originally, I was going to look at Wen Shaonian's phone records and information records to see who and Wen Shaonian agreed to contact here.

But all of a sudden, my mind moved.

I locked Wen Shaonian's phone again.

This time, I didn't use Wen Shaonian's finger to pick the lock.

I entered my own birthday on the boot screen.

The screen is on.

It turned out that Wen Shaonian's boot password was actually my birthday!

This is easier than using Wen Shaonian's fingers.

Actually, I should have thought of it a long time ago.

After seeing that the phone wallpaper was me, I was even more sure.

Until now, my eyes are moist again.

It's just that how could Wen Shaonian know my birthday?

I obviously never told him.

In fact, I haven't told anyone about my birthday.

Because I never had a birthday.

......

When I was a child, when I was at home, only my brother's birthday was a birthday.

And my birthday is just an ordinary day, insignificant.

No one remembers, let alone celebrates.

I'm supposed to work and work.

It's time to do things.

One year, on my brother's birthday, my mother bought my brother a beautiful birthday cake from the town.

Later, when I went to the city, I saw a lot more, and in retrospect, the cake was actually very ordinary and cheap.

But at the time, looking at that birthday cake, I was stunned.

I think it's beautiful, like something out of a fairy tale.

It is the most beautiful gift a child can receive.

It was the first time in my life that I had seen something like cream.

Smelling that sweet smell, I felt like my whole body was going to float.

In fact, the cake is very large, and it can be cut out of seven or eight pieces.

I was very young at the time, but I was already sensible.

I'm not that greedy, and I don't expect me to eat more.

Just give me a piece.

Even if it's just a small piece.

But I watched my brother eat the whole cake by himself.

Eat straight to the point of burping.

The father also poured water for his brother, afraid that he would choke.

No one asked me if I wanted to eat it.

Then, when they were well fed and drunk, I had to clean up the garbage.

When I threw the cake pan out, I looked at the only scraps left on the cake pan.

I finally couldn't hold back.

Picked up the cake pan from the garbage heap out of nowhere.

Lick with your mouth.

Lick the pitiful bit of cream on top.

Lick the little cake crumbs left on top.

While licking, tears flowed.

I feel so wronged.

I feel like I've been abandoned by the whole world.

Then, several nasty little boys from the same village saw this scene.

They began to heckle.

"Ah Xi is picking up garbage to eat!"

"Shame on you!"

"Shame!"

"Come and see! Ah Xi is picking up garbage to eat!"

The noise of these children attracted many onlookers.

Father and mother also came out.

My father came and slapped me in the face, scolding me for disgrace to the family.

My mother was explaining to the neighbors that my child was greedy.

Actually, I ate well, and I was not satisfied.

Is it because I'm greedy?

Am I not satisfied?

Yes!

......

So when I went into town.

When I started earning my own money.

I can afford a birthday cake.

So one day, when I passed by a cake shop, I saw the colorful birthday cake inside.

It wasn't my birthday.

I walked in anyway.

I said I was going to buy a cake.

The clerk asked me how many inches it was, and a few people ate it.

I pointed to one of the tallest samples.

There are three layers of cake and say, "I want this, I'll eat it alone."

The clerk was kind and said Miss, you can't eat alone.

I told her with a smile.

It's okay, I can.

So I spent a few hundred dollars and bought a big cake that I was holding to my eyes.

When I walked to the road, pedestrians had to give way to me.

On a bench in a street-side park, I started eating.

Actually, the cake is very sweet.

It's delicious.

It's much better than the cake I bought for my brother back then.

But I couldn't taste anything.

Then, as I ate, I burst into tears.

Tears fell on the cream.

Supposedly salty?

But I didn't taste it.

It is said that the cream is delicious, fragrant and sweet.

But if you eat too much, you will be nauseous and feel tired.

You will want to throw up.

By the time I finished the first layer, I couldn't eat anymore.

By the time I got to the second layer, I was already starting to get nauseous.

But I held on to eat the third layer.

It's getting late.

The visitors to the park are gone.

I must have been very scary eating.

So much so that even a few homeless people passing by didn't dare to approach me.

I finally finished the whole cake.

Then he fell on the trash can and threw up.

Spit out in the dark, the sun and the moon have no light.

Spit out a lot of tears and snot.

In the end, he knelt directly on the edge of the trash can.

Still a kind homeless guy who gave me a bottle of water.

It was the first time in my life that I had a real birthday cake.

It was also the last time I had a birthday cake in my life.

I've decided.

I'll never have a birthday again.

for I have broken off with my mother.