Originally, I thought that what I touched or didn't touch porcelain had nothing to do with me.

But......

Crooked neck?

Blind?

Or a scoundrel?

Together, these words form a nightmarish memory in my mind!

No way?

No way!

It can't be the man who took my innocence!

That rotten man!

That scoundrel!

That drooling leper dog!

That vile viper!

My husband!

My titular husband!

Cui Lao is crooked!

Yes, I haven't forgotten that, in fact, in name, he is still my husband.

I eloped with Ma Dashao and escaped!

Although I really wanted Ma Dashao to kill him directly that time, I later learned from my mother-in-law that he was not dead, but only blind in one eye.

I want to forget this person forever.

But sometimes, he still shows up in my nightmares.

Let me wake up crying in tears.

How I wish I would never hear from him again, let alone meet him, in my life.

But at this moment, I stiffly rolled my gaze and looked into the middle of the crowd!

......

A small red car stopped in the middle of the road.

The driver was a young girl, very beautiful, wearing a long dress.

And in front of the car, there was a man lying down, holding one of his legs, crying and screaming.

"Ahh

"Ahh

"Hit someone!"

"You can't drive, you're a road killer!"

"My leg is broken!"

"Everyone's giving a review!"

The female driver looked distracted: "Get up, can you get up first?" Let's go to the hospital, and we'll wait for someone to deal with it, okay?"

But the man screamed even harder.

"I can't get up! I'm going to die!"

"I don't go to the hospital, I don't have any money! I can only wait here to die! I'm so miserable!"

"Deal with it, you people in the city are all in the same group, you will definitely favor you, and it will be in vain if you bump into it!"

"I'm so wronged!"

"The lives of people in the countryside are cheap!

"I remember your car number, don't you run!"

......

It's him!

That's right, it's him!

It's still the same ugly voice as a weasel.

I looked at my husband on the ground from afar.

I hadn't seen him for almost a year, and he had gotten scruffier, more disgusting, and more obscene.

Sure enough, Cui Lao was already blind in one eye, which made his already ugly face even more weird.

Not only did he roll on the ground, but I also saw that he was always rolling under the female driver.

From what I know about this scoundrel, he's not just sprinkling, he's taking the opportunity to peek under the female driver's upskirt!

Dogs can't change eating, probably talking about people like their husbands, right?

......

"Girl, you think you're unlucky, this person is deliberately blackmailing you, the dead pig is not afraid of boiling water, just give him some money to send him away. ”

"Yes, otherwise, even if someone comes to deal with it in a while, you will be troublesome and time-consuming, and you can't afford this kind of scoundrel. ”

"Yes, otherwise he won't come out of the hospital alive or dead, disgusting like maggots, blackmailing you!"

Someone around started giving the female driver ideas.

After all, in today's society, touching porcelain is also a common occurrence.

The female driver was about to cry, so she had no choice but to take out a wad of money from her bag and give it to her husband on the ground.

The husband was not satisfied at first, but then he bargained, and even asked for the necklace around the necklace of the female driver, and then slowly got up from the ground and shook himself to leave.

The female driver had red eyes, hurriedly got into the car, and ran away.

Some people really can't get used to seeing their husband's ugly face.

Spat on the ground: "Phew!"

But the husband turned his head and said nonchalantly, "Who is squirting feces all over his mouth? Don't you know that there is strict control in this city, and open defecation is not allowed?"

The person who couldn't get used to it was an old man.

At first glance, he is a cultural person.

The old man looked at her husband: "You are a big man, you have hands and feet, why can't you eat? Why do you do this kind of thing to touch porcelain, lack of virtue is not lacking in virtue!"

The husband opened his mouth and smiled, revealing a mouth full of big yellow teeth.

"I'm a person, I lack money, I lack a wife, but I just don't lack virtue! You can't get used to me? Don't let me touch porcelain in the future? Okay, I'll go to your house with you, you provide me with food and drink, let your woman warm the quilt for me, I'll be a good person, hehehe......"

The husband laughed vilely and shamelessly.

The old man trembled with anger, but of course he knew that it was irrational to quarrel with a scoundrel, so he left angrily.

I'm gone too.

I walked very slowly.

It was like I had lead on my legs.

Every step is so heavy.

Actually, the weather is good today, but my world is already cloudy.

Why?

Why?

Why when I was just beginning to dream of love. At the beginning, I didn't dare to think about it, but I quietly thought about whether Wen Shaonian and I would have a future.

I met my husband.

It was like a resounding slap in the face that woke me up all at once.

Remind me, Joe, wake up!

Wake up!

You see!

If you want a beautiful love, are you qualified?

I want to be with Wen Shaonian, are you worthy!

If you want to let go of the past, do those people agree?

Husband!

Mother-in-law!

Father!

Mother!

Brother!

and Ma Dashao who is in prison, will they agree!

I don't know if one day, these people will come to the door.

Tell everyone how unbearable it is for me Joe to rejoice.

Will you choke me by the neck and say to me, Joe Huanxi, you owe us!

You haven't returned it yet!

I cried!

I haven't cried for a long time because I don't think tears are useful.

Just make the weak weaker weaker.

The helpless are even more helpless.

But I was still crying.

cried a handful of snot and tears, crying without an image at all.

My heart is also cold.

I know that the courage for love that I had just inspired because of a bloody battle was gone.

The future of Wen Shaonian, which I once fantasized about, is impossible.

Reality is not a fairy tale, and I am not a princess.

Regardless of whether Wen Shaonian likes me or not, I told myself again, stay away, leave, escape!

I'm a woman with a lot of trouble.

I'm an unclean woman.

It is precisely because I also like Wen Shaonian that I have to resolutely leave him.

Because...... He deserves better!

Because...... I didn't want him to see my wounds, my embarrassment, some of my wretchedness.

Because...... I want to be in front of him, to preserve the last dignity!

......

I found out I was lost.

Before I knew it, I didn't even know where I had gone.

I struggled to find my way.

But I found that my life had no direction for a long time.

I wanted to walk away.

But I glanced at the plastic bag in my hand again.

Towels inside, soap.

I thought about it for a long time, and finally gave myself a reason.

I turned, fumbled again, and headed for the hospital.

Ten minutes later, I arrived at the hospital.

I stood at the door of the ward and looked at Wen Shaonian inside.

He hadn't woken up yet.

I pushed the door open and walked in again.

I wanted to put things down, so I left.

Get out of here, leave the hospital, leave everything related to Wen Shaonian.

But I'm really reluctant to give up.

At last...... Finally, help Wen Shaonian do something.

I sat on the edge of Wen Shaonian's bed.

Wet the towel with hot water and start to gently wipe the dried blood on his face, forehead, and neck.

And then.

I saw my tears, drop by drop, drop by drop.

It dripped on Wen Shaonian's face.

I used a towel, dipped in my tears, and continued to wipe gently.

After wiping.

I stood up.

"Wen Shaonian, goodbye. ”

"This is the last tenderness I can give you!"

After saying that, I pushed open the door and resolutely walked out!

Inside the hallway.

I met that enthusiastic nurse again.

Nurse: "Girl, why are you crying? It's okay, your husband is not in danger now, he can wake up with a good night's sleep." ”

I wiped a handful of tears.

squeezed out a smile: "Yes, I know, he will be fine soon, please take care of him." ”

The nurse waved her hand: "Don't bother, this is what we should do." ”

I don't want to say any more.

But I still remembered one thing: "By the way, sister nurse, if Wen Shaonian wakes up, don't say it, I've come to see him, okay?"

The nurse looked a little surprised: "For...... Why? Aren't you his wife?"

I smiled wryly, deliberately looking indifferent: "It used to be, but I won't be anymore." ”

"Why? He is so nice to you, and so handsome?" the nurse was puzzled.

"Because...... Because he's so stupid, haha, I like smart men, haha, don't you think it's funny? He's so handsome, he's actually a fool, hahahaha......"

I laughed.

The laughter grew louder and louder.

The people around me looked at me with strange eyes, like a madman.

Laughing made me start coughing violently.

Laughing so much that I want to roll on the ground.

I want to hit the wall.

I finally left the hospital.

......

Back to the community.

It was already six o'clock in the afternoon.

I forgot to cook.

Zhu Dan was not angry.

In fact, on this day, many families in the community forgot to cook.

are all paying attention to the big news that happened at Professor He's house.

Zhu Dan probably inquired about this matter with someone outside, and when he returned home, he began to share with me the matter of Professor He's family with embarrassment.

"You know what? Professor He killed his nanny!"

"That bloody scene!"

"What's even more bloody is that Professor He was originally going to marry this nanny!"

Zhu Dan was amazed.

But after listening to her words, obviously Zhu Dan didn't know the specific details.

Because in the process of handling the case, the patrol will not tell the details to the outside world.

I didn't want to say that I was there at the time.

But Zhu Dan will know about this sooner or later.

So I told Zhu Dan that I was at Professor He's house at the time.

As for why I'm there?

I didn't say Wen Shaonian's name, only that I was in the community at that time, and I was held hostage by Xiaoqin's husband.

Because Xiaoqin wants to take revenge on me.

Revenge on me for exposing the price of yin and yang dishes.

Zhu Dan was really surprised, and pulled me to ask for more details, I thought that the scene was too chaotic, I was too scared, and I had no impression to prevaricate.

Actually, I was a little worried, because of this incident, Zhu Dan felt that I was a troublemaker and fired me.

But Zhu Dan did not mention the matter.

This reassures me a lot.

I don't have any expectations for love anymore.

If I lose my job, I don't really know how to deal with myself.

......

In the days that followed, Wen Shaonian called me, but I didn't answer.

Then I blocked him.

Texted me and I didn't read it.

I was afraid that I couldn't help but look at it, so I deleted it directly.

And the follow-up of Professor He is gradually becoming clear.

When I was taking notes in the patrol room, I learned the most accurate information.

Celery is dead.

Xiaoqin's husband was almost strangled to death by me.

is still in the hospital, and what awaits him will be severely punished by the law.

Professor Ho's daughter has returned from abroad and hired the best lawyer, and in the name of justifiable defense, Professor Ho will defend her.

Later, Professor Ho was found not guilty.

And he resigned from college.

may feel shameless to face acquaintances in China anymore, Professor He also went abroad in disgrace, and there is no news of him again.

None of that matters.

The important thing is that I finally met Wen Shaonian again.

That was 4 days later.

In the morning, I came out of the neighborhood to go grocery shopping.

As a result, as soon as I walked out, I met Wen Shaonian head-on.

He looked a little haggard.

The face is obviously a lot thinner than before.

Seeing that it was me, Wen Shaonian strode over, first looked at me carefully, and only then did he breathe a sigh of relief after making sure that I was fine.

"Qiao Huanxi, why don't you answer my call? Don't reply to my text messages? You don't know I'm worried about you? If you don't come out, I'll wait for you nearby, and finally I'll wait for you. ”

I pretended to smile lightly: "What is there to worry about? I ate well, slept well, and gained two pounds in the past two days." Actually, I wanted to bring some fruit to see you, but I delayed it as soon as there were too many things, so don't you mind. ”

Wen Shaonian looked at my eyes, and there was a heavy sourness in his tone: "Qiao Huanxi, what's wrong with you? Why do I think you are so strange to me today?"

I deliberately didn't look him in the eye and casually looked at the traffic coming and going around me.

"Strange? We didn't know each other very well. Do you know how old I am? Do you know where I'm from? Do you know what I like to eat? Do you know what size of shoes I wear? Do you know what size my aunt came from?"

Actually, I want to ask, do you know if I'm still a virgin?

It's just that the words were so hurtful that I didn't open my mouth.

But the previous questions were enough to choke people.

Wen Shaonian was speechless when I asked.

"You see, you don't know me at all, in fact, I don't know you either, I don't know how much money you have, I don't know what your family's identity is in the provincial capital, I don't know your past, I don't know your tastes, I don't know why you wait at the gate of the community to do such a meaningless thing. I continued.

But Wen Shaonian interrupted me: "You know! Because I like you! That time, I told you that I might like you, but I'm not sure if I really like you? How much do I like it? So I'm going to give myself a little time to sort out my feelings. But after so much stuff, I'm pretty sure that I just like you, I really like you, I really like it!"

This is Wen Shaonian, the second time he has confessed to me.

than the first resolute and resolute.

He continued: "And I know very well that I like you, not because I think you're new, I don't think you're throwing me a hug, and it's a bit cold, which makes me feel challenging. At that time, you said that I was too simple, that many women are very deep in routines, and that your indifference to me was all because you wanted to get away with it, and you pretended to do it, but I knew that it was not like that! I knew that you were really different! This is not something that can be pretentious! When you were in the patrol room, you risked losing your reputation, but you also wanted to prove my innocence! In Professor He's house, in order to protect me, you warned me regardless of the danger! Are these all fake? They are all acting? Are they all your routines?"

Wen Shaonian saw that I was still looking around, and he grabbed my shoulder at once.

Let my face face face to his.

My eyes were in his eyes.

"Wen Shaonian, you hurt me!" I whispered.

But Wen Shaonian did not let go, nor did he loosen his strength.

"Qiao Huanxi, you look at me, in fact, you also like me, right? You don't have feelings for me at all, as you said before! I admit that I Wen Shaonian is very stupid, I have never been in love, I have no experience, but I am not so stupid that I can't even tell whether others are sincere to me or whether they have feelings for me! You care about me, right?"

"Yes, I care about you! Because I owe you! I Qiao Huanxi is a person with clear grievances, and I don't like to owe favors to others the most! Because you once saved me, that's why I will treat you like that! But gratitude is not the same as affection, you know? I can repay you, and I can even thank you with my body, but I really don't like you! Do you understand!"

All of a sudden, my voice was raised.

"Why? Why, am I wrong?" Wen Shaonian let go of me, his eyes full of pain.

It made me feel soft for a moment.

It made me lose my mind for a moment.

I really want to say to Wen Shaonian, fool, I lied to you!

Actually, I like you!

Didn't I tell you that women lie, and the more beautiful a woman is, the more she can't believe it?

So don't care if I'm insincere.

But I immediately remembered my husband's disgusting face, his mean eyes, his toad-like body, and his weasel-like voice.

I felt the urge to throw up.

I was ruthless again.

I can't let Wen Shaonian like a woman like me who has such an unbearable past.

That's not fair to him!

Once he knows the truth, if he doesn't like me that much, then I'll be sad.

Once he knows the truth, if he really likes me, then he will be very sad.

Since you have to be sad sooner or later, you just have to make a break at once.

In fact, I've lied a lot during this time.

There are active, passive, proud, and frustrated.

But undoubtedly, the next lie is the biggest lie I tell, and it also hurts me the most.