160. A hurdle in my heart
The old house of the Gu family.
"Go up! Your mother is in the master bedroom. ”
Gu Pan glanced at his father, saw him turn around and walked towards the kitchen, his eyes darkened, and he still walked upstairs.
It's just that when I got to the master bedroom, I looked at the hidden door, but Gu Pan hesitated.
Only then did she realize that she didn't seem to be able to cross the hurdle in her heart so easily.
Gu Pan stared through the crack in the door in a daze, a room she hadn't stepped into in nearly twenty years.
It was the room where Shen Wanqing lived after she married Gu Qingcang, and it was also the forbidden place where her gloomy childhood began.
Later, she left suddenly, and Gu Qingcang moved out and lived downstairs.
Although her father seemed to be running away from his past with her mother, Gu Pan knew that her father had always been worried about her mother.
Otherwise, I wouldn't have asked my aunt to clean that room every day, and I wouldn't even let people touch the things inside, and everything would have remained the same.
In the dead of night, she could see her father alone in the master bedroom until late at night before returning to his room.
It wasn't until today that she learned that her mother had come back and lived in the master bedroom, that she realized that her father was not just looking at things and thinking about people, but also waiting for her mother to come back.
When she was very young, she resented her mother for abandoning her, but she never thought that her mother was such a woman.
abandoned her husband and daughter for the sake of irrelevant people, and ended up paralyzed in bed, not knowing whether it was worth it in her heart.
Gu Pan couldn't judge her anymore, and couldn't tell whether her mother was kind or stupid. Without others, Gu Pan couldn't question whether the persistence in her mother's heart was worth it.
However, she was still dissatisfied with Shen Wanqing.
Now that both of them had died, she should return to her and her father.
Shen Wanqing can sympathize with the woman who robbed her of her happiness, sympathize with other people's children, why can't she think about her daughter and her husband who loves her deeply.
The circles in her eyes gradually turned red, Gu Pan still didn't push the door in after all, she turned around and opened it directly to leave, but she almost bumped into Gu Qingcang who came up.
"Have you been in?" Gu Qingcang lowered his voice.
Shen Wanqing is not in good health, and she will feel uncomfortable if she moves a little.
Gu Qingcang was a little cautious even when he spoke.
Seeing his father like this, Gu Pan couldn't help but feel sorry for him: "Dad, you really don't hate her?"
"Panpan your mother is a kind woman and a good wife, and my father hopes that you can be considerate of her. Gu Qingcang's negligence in saying this was a little lacking in confidence.
He knew how much Gu Pan longed for mother's love since he was a child, but Shen Wanqing had always been absent, and she missed her daughter's countless firsts.
As a husband and Gu Pan's father, Gu Qingcang hoped that their mother and daughter would be well, but he didn't dare to push Gu Pan too hard.
"She has never been kind to me, and she is the same to you, isn't she?" Gu Pan paused: "The poor person must have something to hate, she is willing to come back now, but what I have lost, who can make up for what you have lost?"
Gu Pan knew that she shouldn't worry so much about a person who was paralyzed on the bed, but she was not a father, and she didn't have such deep feelings for the word mother, and she couldn't easily forgive Shen Wanqing for nearly twenty years of absence.
couldn't accept the need for someone to take care of it, so Shen Wanqing came back.
Gu Pan wanted to ask the other party what he had done as his daughter?
Is it a nanny who can support her in old age, or an ATM?
No matter what it was, Gu Pan didn't want to meet her like this now.
"Panpan, what are you thinking Dad can understand, Dad gives you time. Gu Qingcang paused, glanced at the room and said, "Mom, she doesn't have much time, don't let her wait too long." ”
After the words fell, Gu Qingcang pushed the door and walked in.
This time, he still didn't close the door, the door was still hidden, and Gu Pan, who was about to turn around and leave, stood motionless because of Gu Qingcang's words.
Her feet were filled with lead, and her heart was pressed against a boulder.
In the room, Gu Qingcang put the porridge on the bedside table, bent down and shouted in a low voice: "Wanqing get up and eat some porridge!"
The person on the bed turned around at this time, and her eyes were a little red.
"Panpan, is she still unwilling to forgive me?" Shen Wanqing injured her vocal cords because of the fire, and her voice was a little hoarse and slightly nasal.
Gu Qingcang understood why she was like this, it must have been what Gu Pan said at the door just now, Shen Wanqing heard it, and he had no choice but to make the mother and daughter like this.
Gu Pan said everything she needed to say there, the child is now older and she is also a mother, and there are many things Gu Qingcang wants her to make her own decisions.
As for the 'ex-wife' in front of him, he didn't know how to comfort him.
"Give the child a little time, hopefully she has also been sick because of some experiences over the years, she needs time. Gu Qingcang knew that Gu Pan was gone, so he didn't hide the illness of Shen Wanqing's daughter.
"What's wrong with Panpan?" Shen Wanqing heard that Gu Pan was sick, and immediately became anxious.
"Went through some things, a bit of a nervous breakdown was not a big problem. Gu Qingcang avoided the important and did not dare to say too seriously.
"How can this be?" Shen Wanqing sighed.
It's not that she doesn't care about her daughter, but how can she be embarrassed to come back and disturb the child's life when she is injured like that?
At that time, she thought that with a disfigured and paralyzed mother, Gu Pan's life would only get worse. So no matter how much his parents and brother persuaded him, he was unwilling to come back, and even sent a divorce agreement to Gu Qingcang.
Shen Wanqing always thought that she was divorced, and it wasn't until Gu Qingcang found her with a marriage certificate five days ago that she knew that this man had been waiting for her.
It was precisely because of Gu Qingcang's continuous lobbying in the past five days that Shen Wanqing was willing to return to China for Gu Pan.
But now in this situation, if she stays here, the child will only be more stressed, which is not what she wants.
After thinking about it again, Shen Wanqing rejected the porridge handed over by Gu Qingcang and whispered: "Qingcang, otherwise, you should send me back to the Shen family, don't put pressure on Panpan." ”
"Are you my wife who is marrying a home, and you have been hiding outside for so many years, and you still want me to stay in this house alone?" Gu Qing Canghu was obviously not very happy with a face.
"I ......" Shen Wanqing was speechless for a while, and then said after a long silence: "But I hope that she doesn't want to see me, and staying in this house will make it difficult for you!"
"You've always been like this, and you always like to make decisions for others at will!"
Gu Pan's voice came from outside the door, and she threw a bowl of cut durian on the table with a dark face and turned to leave.
With a bang, he closed the door directly as if he was angry.
"Panpan!" Shen Wanqing was in a hurry to explain, and almost fell off the bed.
Fortunately, Gu Qingcang reacted quickly and helped her: "Okay, you don't have to eat what she prepared obediently." ”
"This ...... I'd better go and explain it to her!" Shen Wanqing hesitated.
"You still don't understand when you see this durian?" Gu Qingcang hooked the corners of his lips: "Can Shen Wanqing's daughter be the kind of stingy person who holds grudges?" It's just that if you go out like this now, maybe that girl will be awkward, so it is better to eat something." ”
Shen Wanqing looked at her favorite fruit, her eyes were red and red: "Are you all true?